Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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I love most kinds of music, but don't go out of my way to listen to country (I do love a lot of the '90's country & some of the newer songs are ok).
Growing up my favorite was definitely Mariah Carey & of course I always had to try to mimic her whistles, but really I sounded like nails on a chalkboard.
In my car I pretty much always have my XM on the '90's, but also listen to 60s-80s stations, Pop2k, the blend, pulse, Beatles station, & some of the classic rock ones. I'm the person that would be blasting Ice Ice Baby when it comes on the radio.0 -
JessicaMcB wrote: »Thanks for understanding my feelz Melissa
. I'm glad your dad is okay as he can be btw, aging parents are one of those things no one prepares you for imo. It sounds like you handle it beautifully!
Incredibly stupid vain confession ahoy. The award photos from Whistler 50 came out today and, while I knew I'd bulked my calves hard over the summer I thought my quads were relatively normal. Nah, my legs were huge in the pictures and its bumming me out hard because my legs *looked* perfect this time last year.
The trade off for performing well as an ultramarathon runner I guess, but I am sad and wondering if I should start buying the "All I've got going for me are thick thighs and sarcasm" shirts lol
Your legs look awesome! I honestly don't think they look any bigger in the second picture & if they're it's not noticeable. Just think how far you have come with your training & running the 50 mile marathon.
I wish I had longer legs.0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »@SoulOfRusalka and @Lois_1989 I am jumping into your music conversation to say that I love jazz, early rock (Elvis, Jerry Lee Lewis, etc.) and bluegrass, among other genres. I cried when Prince died, was upset by the death of Tom Petty and am devastated to hear that Fats Domino died today.
Hee hee I always took you for a jazz type.
I'm ashamed to say that I had to google Fats Domino. He was too far in the past for my generation I think.
I was really upset about Prince but I wasn't about Tom Petty. *Runs and hides*
It's scary how much Tom Petty's one daughter looks like him.
http://www.eonline.com/news/884630/tom-petty-s-daughter-annakim-violette-shares-her-favorite-moments-with-the-rocker0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I’m not actually sure what the mental help options are; I didn’t turn in any of the disclosure forms and I’m afraid to ask in case they realize what a train wreck I am and decide they have to send me home. It probably wouldn’t happen, but it might... I have a meeting tomorrow with our director where I can either come clean and admit I’m an imposter who shouldn’t be here in the first place, or lie through my teeth for 15 minutes and keep faking it once I get home until I manage to actually become the person I’m pretending to be.JessicaMcB wrote: »@SoulOfRusalka I'm sorry if I've missed this bit but do you have any access to mental health care in Russia through your program? Purging is obviously very detrimental to your health and as someone who has suffered from an ED you really should be seen about this resurgence and I think you know that. Furthermore (and I apologize Melissa, not taking shots at your advice here I swear), coping with this with alcohol is an equally terrible idea imho. Drinking won't kill you as fast but as someone who comes from an alcoholic situation it can undoubtedly be your undoing. Don't replace one really unhealthy behavior (binge-purging) with another (binge drinking)- you are only going to create more problems for yourself.
Seek real help sweet girl, even if its chewing the ear off of crises mental line workers. Love from a fellow OCD sufferer who is six years dry and is rooting for you
LOL.
re: the alcohol, I’m going with the good old program advice of “work on your stuff in the order it’s killing you”. If it becomes a problem later, I’ll deal with it later...SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
It’s the best! What kind of music do you like?SoulOfRusalka wrote: »This is my last day of purging, I swear to god. I’m saying it here to make it official. I feel like *kitten*. Shaky and scattered and weak and not-here, and I know I’ll feel like this all the time and get used to it quick. My health is already fading, and it was so strong for a few months (it turns out I have a good immune system when I’m not suppressing it, who knew?)
Bulimia is expensive and exhausting and overall just really *kitten* stupid and a waste of time. Every time I let it go for a second everything falls apart.
I have three midterms tomorrow and I can’t wait for it to be over. Then a meeting with our director where we talk about how we’re doing and what our goals were for this point in the semester.
I avoided turning in all physical and mental health paperwork, so she doesn’t know that my goal was simply “don’t literally die”.
I bought vodka so that and music are my socially acceptable coping mechanisms now.
Well, I appreciate that you're talking about it! We are rooting for you. It's good that your immune system is ok, hopefully you will be able to pick yourself up and get back on track once things calm down and all your midterms are handed in. Music has been my coping mechanism for years and years. Maybe 15 years?
(Sorry if that’s, like, a middle-schooler question. I promise I will want to be your friend no matter what music you listen to lolol)
Hmmmmm tricky question. It's easier to say I'm not the biggest fan of pop, rap, or 'mainstream' music. I'm more of a rock/metal/punk/alternative/grunge/ or anything out of the ordinary. I do make exceptions though. I like Jay-Z, I'll happily listen to the radio, and I can appreciate people like Beyoncé. But people like Justin Bieber and Taylor Swift need to live in a cave and stay there. In my opinion anyway
how about you?
On the whole I agree with you, although I secretly love Taylor's shake it off. Don't tell all my metal friends...
That's okay. I secretly love "Mine" and I generally think she should pound sand.
I feel ashamed for liking Style, but I have been turning her music off with how ridiculous she has become.
She has even taken her music (at least it was the last time I was on the app) off of Smule (a singing karaoke app).0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I’m not actually sure what the mental help options are; I didn’t turn in any of the disclosure forms and I’m afraid to ask in case they realize what a train wreck I am and decide they have to send me home. It probably wouldn’t happen, but it might... I have a meeting tomorrow with our director where I can either come clean and admit I’m an imposter who shouldn’t be here in the first place, or lie through my teeth for 15 minutes and keep faking it once I get home until I manage to actually become the person I’m pretending to be.JessicaMcB wrote: »@SoulOfRusalka I'm sorry if I've missed this bit but do you have any access to mental health care in Russia through your program? Purging is obviously very detrimental to your health and as someone who has suffered from an ED you really should be seen about this resurgence and I think you know that. Furthermore (and I apologize Melissa, not taking shots at your advice here I swear), coping with this with alcohol is an equally terrible idea imho. Drinking won't kill you as fast but as someone who comes from an alcoholic situation it can undoubtedly be your undoing. Don't replace one really unhealthy behavior (binge-purging) with another (binge drinking)- you are only going to create more problems for yourself.
Seek real help sweet girl, even if its chewing the ear off of crises mental line workers. Love from a fellow OCD sufferer who is six years dry and is rooting for you
LOL.
re: the alcohol, I’m going with the good old program advice of “work on your stuff in the order it’s killing you”. If it becomes a problem later, I’ll deal with it later...SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
It’s the best! What kind of music do you like?SoulOfRusalka wrote: »This is my last day of purging, I swear to god. I’m saying it here to make it official. I feel like *kitten*. Shaky and scattered and weak and not-here, and I know I’ll feel like this all the time and get used to it quick. My health is already fading, and it was so strong for a few months (it turns out I have a good immune system when I’m not suppressing it, who knew?)
Bulimia is expensive and exhausting and overall just really *kitten* stupid and a waste of time. Every time I let it go for a second everything falls apart.
I have three midterms tomorrow and I can’t wait for it to be over. Then a meeting with our director where we talk about how we’re doing and what our goals were for this point in the semester.
I avoided turning in all physical and mental health paperwork, so she doesn’t know that my goal was simply “don’t literally die”.
I bought vodka so that and music are my socially acceptable coping mechanisms now.
Well, I appreciate that you're talking about it! We are rooting for you. It's good that your immune system is ok, hopefully you will be able to pick yourself up and get back on track once things calm down and all your midterms are handed in. Music has been my coping mechanism for years and years. Maybe 15 years?
(Sorry if that’s, like, a middle-schooler question. I promise I will want to be your friend no matter what music you listen to lolol)
Hmmmmm tricky question. It's easier to say I'm not the biggest fan of pop, rap, or 'mainstream' music. I'm more of a rock/metal/punk/alternative/grunge/ or anything out of the ordinary. I do make exceptions though. I like Jay-Z, I'll happily listen to the radio, and I can appreciate people like Beyoncé. But people like Justin Bieber and Taylor Swift need to live in a cave and stay there. In my opinion anyway how about you?
On the whole I agree with you, although I secretly love Taylor's shake it off. Don't tell all my metal friends...
That's okay. I secretly love "Mine" and I generally think she should pound sand.
Meh, I had a thing for 'Umbrella', but that was mostly friend association. I could take or leave Rihanna. Sometimes I like her, and other times she does such stupid things I put my hands up in the air and walk off.
The only thing I like about Taylor was that lawsuit against the DJ who groped her and she only took $1. That proved she didn't do it for money and I'll give her kudos for that. Thinking about it, that is probably what got the ball rolling on the whole sexual harassment thing. So yeah, I'll give credit where credit is due. But she should stop making music...
No, she should go back to making country music. She's good at that.
Love you Mel
OMG that gif! HAHA.0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »I feel so guilty for buying food/drinks for myself when I’m not gonna keep them down anyway.
Starting now I think I just won’t eat lunch and I’ll go for a walk by myself and listen to music in between classes instead.
I probably should have just been honest yesterday and told V I’m losing it. If it gets any worse I’ll talk to her and see if I can get some kind of help or something. Because normies benefit from therapy too and I don’t have to be actually sick... but I’m pretty sure I can figure it out on my own.
Could you try eating something light like nuts, fruit or yogurt? You don't want to burn yourself out, or even worse pass out.
How much longer have you got on your course? Do you think you could hold it together until the end? If not maybe have a small conversation, not go into details, but enough that she knows you are struggling a little? You might get some leeway on deadlines. When I was at uni a girl in my class had a friend commit suicide near the end of her final year and she was given a 6 week extension just to ease the pressure.
I’m definitely not going to pass out if I haven’t already, so don’t worry about that. (Shame— I read too many novels as a child and always wanted to faint in dramatic situations but it never happened...)
I have just a bit less than two months left, so I should realistically be able to keep it together for that long.
The only time I've ever passed out in public was on the London underground following a night of food poisoning. It was hot and stuffy and I was dehydrated and luckily my husband caught me. But nobody helped! He had both our bags (we were on the way home from a short break) and was trying to to hold me up and get me off the train, and nobody even asked if we were ok. Londoners! (Sorry Lois, but it wouldn't happen in Yorkshire
I can't actually imagine Lois or POF not helping someone in obvious need, but I have a co-irker from NY who just doesn't see anything that doesn't directly concern her.
I would never not help someone if I could but any time I have seen something bad happen to people people usually run to help. At least a few. But I do know plenty of NY'ers who turn a blind eye. You see a lot of homeless, drug addicts, etc in the cities that you do tend to try and mentally block them out to survive emotionally, I think.0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I’m not actually sure what the mental help options are; I didn’t turn in any of the disclosure forms and I’m afraid to ask in case they realize what a train wreck I am and decide they have to send me home. It probably wouldn’t happen, but it might... I have a meeting tomorrow with our director where I can either come clean and admit I’m an imposter who shouldn’t be here in the first place, or lie through my teeth for 15 minutes and keep faking it once I get home until I manage to actually become the person I’m pretending to be.JessicaMcB wrote: »@SoulOfRusalka I'm sorry if I've missed this bit but do you have any access to mental health care in Russia through your program? Purging is obviously very detrimental to your health and as someone who has suffered from an ED you really should be seen about this resurgence and I think you know that. Furthermore (and I apologize Melissa, not taking shots at your advice here I swear), coping with this with alcohol is an equally terrible idea imho. Drinking won't kill you as fast but as someone who comes from an alcoholic situation it can undoubtedly be your undoing. Don't replace one really unhealthy behavior (binge-purging) with another (binge drinking)- you are only going to create more problems for yourself.
Seek real help sweet girl, even if its chewing the ear off of crises mental line workers. Love from a fellow OCD sufferer who is six years dry and is rooting for you
LOL.
re: the alcohol, I’m going with the good old program advice of “work on your stuff in the order it’s killing you”. If it becomes a problem later, I’ll deal with it later...SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
It’s the best! What kind of music do you like?SoulOfRusalka wrote: »This is my last day of purging, I swear to god. I’m saying it here to make it official. I feel like *kitten*. Shaky and scattered and weak and not-here, and I know I’ll feel like this all the time and get used to it quick. My health is already fading, and it was so strong for a few months (it turns out I have a good immune system when I’m not suppressing it, who knew?)
Bulimia is expensive and exhausting and overall just really *kitten* stupid and a waste of time. Every time I let it go for a second everything falls apart.
I have three midterms tomorrow and I can’t wait for it to be over. Then a meeting with our director where we talk about how we’re doing and what our goals were for this point in the semester.
I avoided turning in all physical and mental health paperwork, so she doesn’t know that my goal was simply “don’t literally die”.
I bought vodka so that and music are my socially acceptable coping mechanisms now.
Well, I appreciate that you're talking about it! We are rooting for you. It's good that your immune system is ok, hopefully you will be able to pick yourself up and get back on track once things calm down and all your midterms are handed in. Music has been my coping mechanism for years and years. Maybe 15 years?
(Sorry if that’s, like, a middle-schooler question. I promise I will want to be your friend no matter what music you listen to lolol)
Hmmmmm tricky question. It's easier to say I'm not the biggest fan of pop, rap, or 'mainstream' music. I'm more of a rock/metal/punk/alternative/grunge/ or anything out of the ordinary. I do make exceptions though. I like Jay-Z, I'll happily listen to the radio, and I can appreciate people like Beyoncé. But people like Justin Bieber and Taylor Swift need to live in a cave and stay there. In my opinion anyway how about you?
On the whole I agree with you, although I secretly love Taylor's shake it off. Don't tell all my metal friends...
That's okay. I secretly love "Mine" and I generally think she should pound sand.
Meh, I had a thing for 'Umbrella', but that was mostly friend association. I could take or leave Rihanna. Sometimes I like her, and other times she does such stupid things I put my hands up in the air and walk off.
The only thing I like about Taylor was that lawsuit against the DJ who groped her and she only took $1. That proved she didn't do it for money and I'll give her kudos for that. Thinking about it, that is probably what got the ball rolling on the whole sexual harassment thing. So yeah, I'll give credit where credit is due. But she should stop making music...
I think most of Rihanna's music is good.....as for Taylor, I love Shake It Off but cannot think of another one I like or even know the name of, lol.
The latest Taylor song is "Look What You Made Me Do" and even my 23 year old daughter hates it.
I've heard that one. Self indulgent whining if you ask me.0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I’m not actually sure what the mental help options are; I didn’t turn in any of the disclosure forms and I’m afraid to ask in case they realize what a train wreck I am and decide they have to send me home. It probably wouldn’t happen, but it might... I have a meeting tomorrow with our director where I can either come clean and admit I’m an imposter who shouldn’t be here in the first place, or lie through my teeth for 15 minutes and keep faking it once I get home until I manage to actually become the person I’m pretending to be.JessicaMcB wrote: »@SoulOfRusalka I'm sorry if I've missed this bit but do you have any access to mental health care in Russia through your program? Purging is obviously very detrimental to your health and as someone who has suffered from an ED you really should be seen about this resurgence and I think you know that. Furthermore (and I apologize Melissa, not taking shots at your advice here I swear), coping with this with alcohol is an equally terrible idea imho. Drinking won't kill you as fast but as someone who comes from an alcoholic situation it can undoubtedly be your undoing. Don't replace one really unhealthy behavior (binge-purging) with another (binge drinking)- you are only going to create more problems for yourself.
Seek real help sweet girl, even if its chewing the ear off of crises mental line workers. Love from a fellow OCD sufferer who is six years dry and is rooting for you
LOL.
re: the alcohol, I’m going with the good old program advice of “work on your stuff in the order it’s killing you”. If it becomes a problem later, I’ll deal with it later...SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
It’s the best! What kind of music do you like?SoulOfRusalka wrote: »This is my last day of purging, I swear to god. I’m saying it here to make it official. I feel like *kitten*. Shaky and scattered and weak and not-here, and I know I’ll feel like this all the time and get used to it quick. My health is already fading, and it was so strong for a few months (it turns out I have a good immune system when I’m not suppressing it, who knew?)
Bulimia is expensive and exhausting and overall just really *kitten* stupid and a waste of time. Every time I let it go for a second everything falls apart.
I have three midterms tomorrow and I can’t wait for it to be over. Then a meeting with our director where we talk about how we’re doing and what our goals were for this point in the semester.
I avoided turning in all physical and mental health paperwork, so she doesn’t know that my goal was simply “don’t literally die”.
I bought vodka so that and music are my socially acceptable coping mechanisms now.
Well, I appreciate that you're talking about it! We are rooting for you. It's good that your immune system is ok, hopefully you will be able to pick yourself up and get back on track once things calm down and all your midterms are handed in. Music has been my coping mechanism for years and years. Maybe 15 years?
(Sorry if that’s, like, a middle-schooler question. I promise I will want to be your friend no matter what music you listen to lolol)
Hmmmmm tricky question. It's easier to say I'm not the biggest fan of pop, rap, or 'mainstream' music. I'm more of a rock/metal/punk/alternative/grunge/ or anything out of the ordinary. I do make exceptions though. I like Jay-Z, I'll happily listen to the radio, and I can appreciate people like Beyoncé. But people like Justin Bieber and Taylor Swift need to live in a cave and stay there. In my opinion anyway how about you?
On the whole I agree with you, although I secretly love Taylor's shake it off. Don't tell all my metal friends...
That's okay. I secretly love "Mine" and I generally think she should pound sand.
Meh, I had a thing for 'Umbrella', but that was mostly friend association. I could take or leave Rihanna. Sometimes I like her, and other times she does such stupid things I put my hands up in the air and walk off.
The only thing I like about Taylor was that lawsuit against the DJ who groped her and she only took $1. That proved she didn't do it for money and I'll give her kudos for that. Thinking about it, that is probably what got the ball rolling on the whole sexual harassment thing. So yeah, I'll give credit where credit is due. But she should stop making music...
No, she should go back to making country music. She's good at that.
Love you Mel
Ok, I apologise for the GIF. I just have a deep rooted hatred for Pop music. I just don't like how fabricated it all is.
Forgive me?
For what? I wasn't offended. Taylor Swift is terrible at pop music and should go back to country, but she won't so Gif away.
She wasn't great at country either....she isn't much of a singer. She just had the 'look' and appealed to the teeny bopper set. She does write pretty well tho.2 -
quiksylver296 wrote: »
I wish I had nothing to do at work. Friday was another insane filled melodrama day. Sigh.0 -
SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Naps are my favorite institution.SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
All of that sounds exhausting, but hopefully worth it! Lol.SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Oh cool! I hope you have funSoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Awesome! ^^ I listen to mostly metal, but pretty much anything that sounds weird/uncommon and also sincere.SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
It’s the best! What kind of music do you like?SoulOfRusalka wrote: »This is my last day of purging, I swear to god. I’m saying it here to make it official. I feel like *kitten*. Shaky and scattered and weak and not-here, and I know I’ll feel like this all the time and get used to it quick. My health is already fading, and it was so strong for a few months (it turns out I have a good immune system when I’m not suppressing it, who knew?)
Bulimia is expensive and exhausting and overall just really *kitten* stupid and a waste of time. Every time I let it go for a second everything falls apart.
I have three midterms tomorrow and I can’t wait for it to be over. Then a meeting with our director where we talk about how we’re doing and what our goals were for this point in the semester.
I avoided turning in all physical and mental health paperwork, so she doesn’t know that my goal was simply “don’t literally die”.
I bought vodka so that and music are my socially acceptable coping mechanisms now.
Well, I appreciate that you're talking about it! We are rooting for you. It's good that your immune system is ok, hopefully you will be able to pick yourself up and get back on track once things calm down and all your midterms are handed in. Music has been my coping mechanism for years and years. Maybe 15 years?
(Sorry if that’s, like, a middle-schooler question. I promise I will want to be your friend no matter what music you listen to lolol)
Hmmmmm tricky question. It's easier to say I'm not the biggest fan of pop, rap, or 'mainstream' music. I'm more of a rock/metal/punk/alternative/grunge/ or anything out of the ordinary. I do make exceptions though. I like Jay-Z, I'll happily listen to the radio, and I can appreciate people like Beyoncé. But people like Justin Bieber and Taylor Swift need to live in a cave and stay there. In my opinion anyway how about you?
Woo hoo! I've found my taste in music has broadened the older I get. 15 years ago it was nothing but metal and now I'll give anything a try. I have to admit, Danny has been a huge influence in my musical taste, he has the biggest music collection on his iPod, but he has got that from his Dad, who has an even bigger music collection.
Speaking of which, we are going to a Public Service Broadcasting gig tonight. It is going to be a late night. I'm trying to set up an easy day of filing tomorrow. I very nearly went to a concert last night but I decided I couldn’t justify it... stupid midterms.
I’ve been trying to broaden my musical tastes from “just weird metal” so that I have something to show people if they ask what I listen to, but....little luck so far
The gig was really good! Didn't get home until 12.30 though. I. am. knackered. I really didn't want to get up this morning, and I have an early start for work on Saturday, and Sunday we have the NFL so that will be an early start (for a Sunday anyway) and then back to work on Monday! WOO! *dies a little inside*
The only silver lining is that the clocks go back on Sunday, so I gain an hour of sleep somewhere.
Most of the time we Shazam music in adverts and TV programs and check out the album on iTunes. That is when you find the unknown bands.
And this is what naps are for.
SO TRUE! I naps so much. I haven't had time to have one recently. I might have to squeeze one in on Saturday after work...
I can't nap anymore. I have scary dreams and wake up feeling drugged. As a teen I napped constantly.0 -
SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I'm in on this one. They say see also Patricia Foster after the definition in the dictionary.2 -
Sorry to hear about the ed @SoulOfRusalka . I have no experience or advice of that.
But I do know how difficult a transition it can be on your year abroad. It's hyped up into the most important thing and you feel like if you're not enjoying and living every minute to the max, you're not getting as much out of it as you should. But in reality I think nearly everyone struggles at some point. It's a different culture. You might not know anyone. Everything feels weird. You get lonely. I know new experiences are good, but I almost cried when someone sent me some marmite while living in Austria!
I agree with this. It took me several months to feel at home when I studied in France.0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »Confession: my head hurts and I feel nauseated, therefore, I don't want to work today. However, I would feel guilty if I went home because my boss is gone and her boss may need my help.
2nd Confession: I am totally judging the guy who came here for a meeting, took off his backpack, plugged in his laptop, then put the backpack back on. Do you know how dumb you look sitting in an office chair wearing a backpack?
Why would he do that?0 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »@SoulOfRusalka and @Lois_1989 I am jumping into your music conversation to say that I love jazz, early rock (Elvis, Jerry Lee Lewis, etc.) and bluegrass, among other genres. I cried when Prince died, was upset by the death of Tom Petty and am devastated to hear that Fats Domino died today.
Hee hee I always took you for a jazz type.
I'm ashamed to say that I had to google Fats Domino. He was too far in the past for my generation I think.
I was really upset about Prince but I wasn't about Tom Petty. *Runs and hides*
I wasn't upset about Prince but love Tom Petty. 0 -
SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Yeah, I’m in Russia for one semester and France for another.SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I am now curled up in bed struggling through Harry Potter in Russian instead of doing homework, or paperwork for next semester, or anything that I should be doing. Oops.quiksylver296 wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
This is about where my standards are, too.If I make it through the day without crying or alcohol I'll call it a win. I would add chocolate to that list... but that has already happened.
Unfortunately I have neither chocolate nor alcohol since I chickened out of buying a bottle of vodka today... tomorrow it is!
And chocolate is important and good for recovering from dementor attacks so I think you made the right decision.
I hope you make it through the rest of the day okay too!
SELF-CARE ✨✨✨
I used to read Harry Potter in French or German and pretend that was solid language practice. Are you on a year abroad for a language course? I spent mine in Paris and Austria. Fun memories!
Paris and Austria sound fun!!
I never heard of doing 2 different countries. I was supposed to do a year in France but half way through my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer and I came home.0 -
SoulOfRusalka wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »I feel so guilty for buying food/drinks for myself when I’m not gonna keep them down anyway.
Starting now I think I just won’t eat lunch and I’ll go for a walk by myself and listen to music in between classes instead.
I probably should have just been honest yesterday and told V I’m losing it. If it gets any worse I’ll talk to her and see if I can get some kind of help or something. Because normies benefit from therapy too and I don’t have to be actually sick... but I’m pretty sure I can figure it out on my own.
Could you try eating something light like nuts, fruit or yogurt? You don't want to burn yourself out, or even worse pass out.
How much longer have you got on your course? Do you think you could hold it together until the end? If not maybe have a small conversation, not go into details, but enough that she knows you are struggling a little? You might get some leeway on deadlines. When I was at uni a girl in my class had a friend commit suicide near the end of her final year and she was given a 6 week extension just to ease the pressure.
I’m definitely not going to pass out if I haven’t already, so don’t worry about that. (Shame— I read too many novels as a child and always wanted to faint in dramatic situations but it never happened...)
I have just a bit less than two months left, so I should realistically be able to keep it together for that long.
The only time I've ever passed out in public was on the London underground following a night of food poisoning. It was hot and stuffy and I was dehydrated and luckily my husband caught me. But nobody helped! He had both our bags (we were on the way home from a short break) and was trying to to hold me up and get me off the train, and nobody even asked if we were ok. Londoners! (Sorry Lois, but it wouldn't happen in Yorkshire
I would have helped! I would say the business people in London are rude and selfish (bankers, stock brokers etc). General Londoners not so much.1 -
MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »Confession: my head hurts and I feel nauseated, therefore, I don't want to work today. However, I would feel guilty if I went home because my boss is gone and her boss may need my help.
2nd Confession: I am totally judging the guy who came here for a meeting, took off his backpack, plugged in his laptop, then put the backpack back on. Do you know how dumb you look sitting in an office chair wearing a backpack?
Why would he do that?
I don't know. My husband said, "is he a Jehovah's witness? The backpack is part of their uniform isn't it?"3 -
Oh noSoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Yeah, I’m in Russia for one semester and France for another.SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I am now curled up in bed struggling through Harry Potter in Russian instead of doing homework, or paperwork for next semester, or anything that I should be doing. Oops.quiksylver296 wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
This is about where my standards are, too.If I make it through the day without crying or alcohol I'll call it a win. I would add chocolate to that list... but that has already happened.
Unfortunately I have neither chocolate nor alcohol since I chickened out of buying a bottle of vodka today... tomorrow it is!
And chocolate is important and good for recovering from dementor attacks so I think you made the right decision.
I hope you make it through the rest of the day okay too!
SELF-CARE ✨✨✨
I used to read Harry Potter in French or German and pretend that was solid language practice. Are you on a year abroad for a language course? I spent mine in Paris and Austria. Fun memories!
Paris and Austria sound fun!!
I never heard of doing 2 different countries. I was supposed to do a year in France but half way through my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer and I came home.
I’m sorry about your father
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Ate and purged twice today but third time’s the charm, right?! Vegetable salad + rum and I am NOT purging again.
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Is it? Learning new things every day...MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »Confession: my head hurts and I feel nauseated, therefore, I don't want to work today. However, I would feel guilty if I went home because my boss is gone and her boss may need my help.
2nd Confession: I am totally judging the guy who came here for a meeting, took off his backpack, plugged in his laptop, then put the backpack back on. Do you know how dumb you look sitting in an office chair wearing a backpack?
Why would he do that?
I don't know. My husband said, "is he a Jehovah's witness? The backpack is part of their uniform isn't it?"
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SoulOfRusalka wrote: »Ate and purged twice today but third time’s the charm, right?! Vegetable salad + rum and I am NOT purging again.
I am making a mom face at you.0 -
SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Is it? Learning new things every day...MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »Confession: my head hurts and I feel nauseated, therefore, I don't want to work today. However, I would feel guilty if I went home because my boss is gone and her boss may need my help.
2nd Confession: I am totally judging the guy who came here for a meeting, took off his backpack, plugged in his laptop, then put the backpack back on. Do you know how dumb you look sitting in an office chair wearing a backpack?
Why would he do that?
I don't know. My husband said, "is he a Jehovah's witness? The backpack is part of their uniform isn't it?"
He was being funny. Around here, Jehovah's Witnesses, go door to door trying to get people to join their church and usually they have a backpack with leaflets and who knows what else. They are usually dressed business casual.0 -
SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Oh noSoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Yeah, I’m in Russia for one semester and France for another.SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I am now curled up in bed struggling through Harry Potter in Russian instead of doing homework, or paperwork for next semester, or anything that I should be doing. Oops.quiksylver296 wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
This is about where my standards are, too.If I make it through the day without crying or alcohol I'll call it a win. I would add chocolate to that list... but that has already happened.
Unfortunately I have neither chocolate nor alcohol since I chickened out of buying a bottle of vodka today... tomorrow it is!
And chocolate is important and good for recovering from dementor attacks so I think you made the right decision.
I hope you make it through the rest of the day okay too!
SELF-CARE ✨✨✨
I used to read Harry Potter in French or German and pretend that was solid language practice. Are you on a year abroad for a language course? I spent mine in Paris and Austria. Fun memories!
Paris and Austria sound fun!!
I never heard of doing 2 different countries. I was supposed to do a year in France but half way through my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer and I came home. I’m sorry about your father
Thank you.0 -
SoulOfRusalka wrote: »Ate and purged twice today but third time’s the charm, right?! Vegetable salad + rum and I am NOT purging again.
How did the weekend go? Any better now you have finished your deadlines?0 -
Purged once yesterdaySoulOfRusalka wrote: »Ate and purged twice today but third time’s the charm, right?! Vegetable salad + rum and I am NOT purging again.
How did the weekend go? Any better now you have finished your deadlines?0 -
MFP is eating my replies again. Purging once today too but it’s better than 2-3x. Solid harm reduction work.1
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Whoooops 3x purging and now I’m drunk because I am super in control of my life.
On the plus side I accomplished 2 things from my to-do list and now I have internet on my phone again. I also wore makeup today, which seems like a small thing but means that I haven’t totally fallen apart yet.
Tomorrow will be more items scratched from my to-do list, walking and music during lunch, and possibly mentioning casually to my best friend here what a mess I am.
And now I will shut up about myself! Lolol. How is everyone else? Surviving Monday?0 -
SoulOfRusalka wrote: »Whoooops 3x purging and now I’m drunk because I am super in control of my life.
On the plus side I accomplished 2 things from my to-do list and now I have internet on my phone again. I also wore makeup today, which seems like a small thing but means that I haven’t totally fallen apart yet.
Tomorrow will be more items scratched from my to-do list, walking and music during lunch, and possibly mentioning casually to my best friend here what a mess I am.
And now I will shut up about myself! Lolol. How is everyone else? Surviving Monday?
Surviving seems to be the word today, but my boss will be back on Wednesday and her boss made my biggest decision for me so there's that.
You be careful, your behavior is frightening. You need to reach out to someone for help.4 -
I gave Andrew another ridiculous haircut! I'm no hairdresser, but I know how you're supposed to cut a fringe. Unfortunately Andrew doesn't sit still long enough to allow for that, so I end up cutting straight across, once again achieving the dumb and dumber look. It's a bit shorter than I meant! But I won't be able to do it for a few weeks, and hopefully he will look his usual charming self by Christmas.1
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SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
Yeah, I’m in Russia for one semester and France for another.SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
I am now curled up in bed struggling through Harry Potter in Russian instead of doing homework, or paperwork for next semester, or anything that I should be doing. Oops.quiksylver296 wrote: »SoulOfRusalka wrote: »
This is about where my standards are, too.If I make it through the day without crying or alcohol I'll call it a win. I would add chocolate to that list... but that has already happened.
Unfortunately I have neither chocolate nor alcohol since I chickened out of buying a bottle of vodka today... tomorrow it is!
And chocolate is important and good for recovering from dementor attacks so I think you made the right decision.
I hope you make it through the rest of the day okay too!
SELF-CARE ✨✨✨
I used to read Harry Potter in French or German and pretend that was solid language practice. Are you on a year abroad for a language course? I spent mine in Paris and Austria. Fun memories!
Paris and Austria sound fun!!
I never heard of doing 2 different countries. I was supposed to do a year in France but half way through my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer and I came home.
If you major in two languages, it's standard practice to do two placements within the year. I actually majored in two and minored in a third (Dutch!) but there wasn't time for a third placement. My final year of university was hard work!
Sorry about your dad, it must be extra hard for the Americans being so far away. I could easily fly home for a couple of days if I needed to.1
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