Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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I am not in the best of moods today, and I'm afraid anything I post here will be really negative. Sooooo I'm just going to lurk in the background
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I actually started my weight loss journey due to a nasty break up with my ex-fiancée. I had the mindset that "I'll show him!!!!"
It wasn't until I had lost 40 pounds that I really didn't care anymore what he thought about me. Come to think of it, he still hasn't seen me even once since I started this and I'm 70 pounds down hahahahaha 
That is awesome! And you know what? If you do see him, it won't feel as great as you thought it would - in a good way. You'll realize how much better off you are and that his feelings are irrelevant.0 -
I sooooo
love this blog! This is by far my favorite blog! I do some of the same things esp adding calories for the next day. Sometimes when I think what I ate may put my calories in the negative or above my own personal caloric intake, I log it in the food notes. 
#2: Pilsbury cookies are my weakness!
...sometimes I will get up out of bed when everyone is sleep just to eat one by myself !...and they make me soooooooo happy!!!!!...lol
Weight loss is truly a struggle and its good to know that you are not struggling alone. It really is a journey and I am determined to reach my goal this time!
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I drank some iced tea, added sugar. Not suppose to do, but I did anyway. Now feeling so sad 0
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xMrBunglex wrote: »Growing up, I always gave my dad *kitten* because he only bought cash cars, kept them alive as long as possible, and then when it died, he'd buy another clunker. I always said I'd never be like that.
Aaaand now my 15 yr old car is in the shop again, and I'm crossing my fingers that my mechanic will say "time to junk it" (instead of fixing it again) and FORCE me to get a new one (and it will be NEW.)
However, if he says "I can fix it for $400", the Cheapness DNA in me will fix it & drive it for another year. Thanks, Pops!
Our second car is a 1999 car. Probably going to keep it going for a while too... it has great mileage, lol. It was at the shop 2 weeks ago actually but thankfully it wasn't a big issue.
We did replace our PoS minivan when repairs would have cost $1000 and the car value was $2500, but to be fair, I hated it anyway and never wanted to buy it in the first place (for $5000 from my brother in law) and could not wait to get rid of it... We bought a 3yo used car at the time, and now 3 years later and we're finally getting to the end of the car payment (well, we have 8 months left). With our luck the other car will die then and we'll have to start another one... I wish we could buy new cars but it just really doesn't make much sense most of the time. Although my first car was practically new, with maybe 1000 miles in it, my grandmother gave it to me when she had a stroke... but then I moved to the US and gave it to my mom for our vacation home (which I've been to once).0 -
MissLaaber wrote: »My workout this morning wiped me out, I'm ready to crawl under my desk and nap for a very very long time.
Sorry you're tired. Love your new avatar!0 -
I am now 170lbs I spent 2 years going from 191 to 123. I had the help of a fabulous online trainer. I ate 2 cinnabons yesterday with at least 64 grams of carbs each. My exercise has been off. I;ve been feeling sad that my ex died. My current boyfriend calls me names. We broke up when I was 135lbs. I started going out with him again at 151. He calls me fatty or fat *kitten*, thunder thighs. I know I am responsible for my weight. My exercising was so strong when I lost weight the first time. Many days I get hungry and eat over the limit. My preparation isn't the best. Plus I am drinking 2-3 glasses of water. I know I can turn this around. My fitnesspal helped me once but its so easy to gain weight back. The biggest thing I've said is I'll start tomorrow. That's BS. I will not say that again to let me be unhealthy today. I got this...0
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We have our big annual internal inspection Tuesday/Wednesday this week (sometimes into Thursday morning for wrap up). It's shark week so I have ZERO interest in dealing with anyone, let alone strangers asking me dumb questions. I'm also supposed to be off on Thursday, since I'm flying out that evening, and have to drive down to Baltimore (~2 hours) Thursday afternoon. My manager is desperately trying to get me to commit to coming in for a couple hours if they're wrapping up that morning, as if I have nothing else to do before skipping down for nearly a week.
I really, really hate this place lately.0 -
I am now 170lbs I spent 2 years going from 191 to 123. I had the help of a fabulous online trainer. I ate 2 cinnabons yesterday with at least 64 grams of carbs each. My exercise has been off. I;ve been feeling sad that my ex died. My current boyfriend calls me names. We broke up when I was 135lbs. I started going out with him again at 151. He calls me fatty or fat *kitten*, thunder thighs. I know I am responsible for my weight. My exercising was so strong when I lost weight the first time. Many days I get hungry and eat over the limit. My preparation isn't the best. Plus I am drinking 2-3 glasses of water. I know I can turn this around. My fitnesspal helped me once but its so easy to gain weight back. The biggest thing I've said is I'll start tomorrow. That's BS. I will not say that again to let me be unhealthy today. I got this...
Well you can drop 160 pounds easily by dropping your jerk of a boyfriend, IMO.
And I'm sorry your ex died
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Confession: I have always wanted to buy ONE car brand new. I know it doesn't make economic sense, but I still wanted to. The confession is that we did that last September, a 2014 Mitsubishi Mirage. 100 miles on it. I'm ticked off because we bought the car as a commuter car for my new job - it gets almost 50 miles to the gallon. But it has zero cool factor. It is a stick shift and has no luxury features. That is NOT what I planned on wasting my one new car buy on.0
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I am now 170lbs I spent 2 years going from 191 to 123. I had the help of a fabulous online trainer. I ate 2 cinnabons yesterday with at least 64 grams of carbs each. My exercise has been off. I;ve been feeling sad that my ex died. My current boyfriend calls me names. We broke up when I was 135lbs. I started going out with him again at 151. He calls me fatty or fat *kitten*, thunder thighs. I know I am responsible for my weight. My exercising was so strong when I lost weight the first time. Many days I get hungry and eat over the limit. My preparation isn't the best. Plus I am drinking 2-3 glasses of water. I know I can turn this around. My fitnesspal helped me once but its so easy to gain weight back. The biggest thing I've said is I'll start tomorrow. That's BS. I will not say that again to let me be unhealthy today. I got this...
Well you can drop 160 pounds easily by dropping your jerk of a boyfriend, IMO.
And I'm sorry your ex died
Yea, you should probably dump him.0 -
marissafit06 wrote: »I am now 170lbs I spent 2 years going from 191 to 123. I had the help of a fabulous online trainer. I ate 2 cinnabons yesterday with at least 64 grams of carbs each. My exercise has been off. I;ve been feeling sad that my ex died. My current boyfriend calls me names. We broke up when I was 135lbs. I started going out with him again at 151. He calls me fatty or fat *kitten*, thunder thighs. I know I am responsible for my weight. My exercising was so strong when I lost weight the first time. Many days I get hungry and eat over the limit. My preparation isn't the best. Plus I am drinking 2-3 glasses of water. I know I can turn this around. My fitnesspal helped me once but its so easy to gain weight back. The biggest thing I've said is I'll start tomorrow. That's BS. I will not say that again to let me be unhealthy today. I got this...
Well you can drop 160 pounds easily by dropping your jerk of a boyfriend, IMO.
And I'm sorry your ex died
Yea, you should probably dump him.
No judgement, but I agree. Don't stay with someone who treats you like that. You totally deserve better! 0 -
I am now 170lbs I spent 2 years going from 191 to 123. I had the help of a fabulous online trainer. I ate 2 cinnabons yesterday with at least 64 grams of carbs each. My exercise has been off. I;ve been feeling sad that my ex died. My current boyfriend calls me names. We broke up when I was 135lbs. I started going out with him again at 151. He calls me fatty or fat *kitten*, thunder thighs. I know I am responsible for my weight. My exercising was so strong when I lost weight the first time. Many days I get hungry and eat over the limit. My preparation isn't the best. Plus I am drinking 2-3 glasses of water. I know I can turn this around. My fitnesspal helped me once but its so easy to gain weight back. The biggest thing I've said is I'll start tomorrow. That's BS. I will not say that again to let me be unhealthy today. I got this...
Well you can drop 160 pounds easily by dropping your jerk of a boyfriend, IMO.
And I'm sorry your ex died
Exactly what I thought. You deserve so much better!0 -
Yesterday I ate an entire Jersey Mikes Giant Italian sub within about 1 hour. 1,300+ calories. 50 grams of fat. 80 protein. I forget the carbs but I didn't care cuz I was still under for the day thanks to the exercise. I also think it had like 4k grams of sodium. No wonder I weighed 3 lbs heavier this AM. Will take a few days to settle from that shake up!0
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I know I just said I was going to lurk, but I almost had a breakdown when I thought I forgot my peanut butter. You can't expect me to eat plan rice cakes plain?!
Thankfully I found it. Peanut butter makes everything better.0 -
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I made one confession already and here's another. I am still trying to not be judgy... But when I am at my desk, which is like Grand Central Station for people coming/going from the department, I have to see them come and go with breakfast, snacks, lunch... They have to pass by my desk to go up to the cafeteria to get food (unless they bring it). All day long I have to watch them parade by me with garbage that I would NEVER put into my body. Like I said, trying not to be judgy here but UGH!0
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I am now 170lbs I spent 2 years going from 191 to 123. I had the help of a fabulous online trainer. I ate 2 cinnabons yesterday with at least 64 grams of carbs each. My exercise has been off. I;ve been feeling sad that my ex died. My current boyfriend calls me names. We broke up when I was 135lbs. I started going out with him again at 151. He calls me fatty or fat *kitten*, thunder thighs. I know I am responsible for my weight. My exercising was so strong when I lost weight the first time. Many days I get hungry and eat over the limit. My preparation isn't the best. Plus I am drinking 2-3 glasses of water. I know I can turn this around. My fitnesspal helped me once but its so easy to gain weight back. The biggest thing I've said is I'll start tomorrow. That's BS. I will not say that again to let me be unhealthy today. I got this...
Want to lose weight quickly? Dump the POS boyfriend.0 -
I'm a little nervous. We got a new director for our department at work almost a year ago. She just called an all department staff meeting for 3 today (she has never have one of these) I think some big changes are coming and I am not a big fan of changes in my work routine.
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I'm a little nervous. We got a new director for our department at work almost a year ago. She just called an all department staff meeting for 3 today (she has never have one of these) I think some big changes are coming and I am not a big fan of changes in my work routine.
Think positive. At my old job I had to help do a project that was presented in meeting like that, and wasn't allowed to tell anyone what was going on. I felt bad because people were getting really nervous and edgy about it, but it was actually a roll out to a new bonus system that would add to everyone's check.0 -
overlook237 wrote: »overlook237 wrote: »JeanWolfSpirit wrote: »Does anyone binge on "walking dead" ? I think me and my daughter have a million times lol mostly my daughter , she controls the remote.
Totally! It's one of my favorite shows. I watch every episode as it airs, and then when they go on hiatus, I binge-watch all the seasons at some point so I can get my fix
I'm doing that right now. When the most recent season ended, my husband and I started watching from the beginning. We're currently on season 4. Love that show so much. I now want a samurai sword so I can be a badass zombie slayer like Michonne.
I have a sword on my Amazon wish list specifically for this purpose However, I'm fairly certain that in the event of an actual zombie apocalypse, I will either a) step out of my house strapped to the hilt with weapons and a kicka$$ attitude only to be bitten 10 seconds later; or b) I will be Otis - too slow to run away and left behind as walker bait.
That made me laugh.
Otis was only walker bait because Shane was a piece of human garbage and sacrificed him to save his own sorry butt. I'm glad Rick took him out. Too bad he was a zombie when it happened.
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1) I spent most of Friday evening and Sunday reading this thread. I'm now up to page 250.
2) I have issues with mindless eating. I wouldn't say I binge, but I sometimes eat rather aggressively, just shovelling stuff in to finish all of what I have on my plate/the box I'm holding. And then I feel a bit sick and uncomfortable afterwards. I don't know why I do it. I think it has something to do with being bullied for being fat and being uncomfortable eating around people (my father would tease me about how much I ate when I was younger, not maliciously but thinking he was being affectionate, and it's made me a little awkward about eating when he's around). The stupid thing is that I've lived on my own for 15 years, so there's no one around when I eat, but I still cram stuff in like I was trying to finish it before someone sees me.
I was about to ask if you have siblings because that behavior is normally from a large family and it is fights for seconds. I used to tell my boyfriend he eats like a prisoner because he ate so fast. Then he would get indigestion and hiccups because he ate so fast he was swallowing air at the same time. Now I make him sit at a table and put his knife and fork down between mouthfuls. I would say you are getting pains because you are also swallowing air.
I actually only have a younger sister, and I can't really recall there being any fighting over the food when we were younger. Unless you count my dad, who would (and still does) just grab seconds without even checking, let alone asking, if anyone else wanted some.
Mostly, I think it's a shame thing. I don't want anyone to see me eat because I feel ashamed of my size, which was why I would sneak food when I still lived at home. Might be a remnant from those times. The silly thing? I wasn't huge then, just a couple of kilos overweight. I'm still only about 10-15 kg overweight, but the amount of self-loathing and self-esteem issues I have could make you think I was much bigger.
The air thing sounds plausible, though. I probably am.
Well, I think everyone hides naughty food. I have biscuits in my drawer at work.
But I only have one if I really want one. I won't tell myself I cant have them EVER again but if it is Gym day and I fancy something sweet I will allow myself one... or two. but no more and savor them.
It sounds more like you are secretive eating so people can't judge you.
Do you do it with just naughty food or all food? I would go with what JPW1990 suggests
It's all food, really. And yeah, it's probably to keep people from judging me. I really don't like eating in public, I always worry that some stranger is going to comment on it. Even light-hearted comments from friends like "Where do you fit all of that, that burger was huge!" or "Wow, you really were hungry, weren't you?" can make me feel terribly ashamed even though I know it's a joke and absolutely not malicious.0 -
xMrBunglex wrote: »Growing up, I always gave my dad *kitten* because he only bought cash cars, kept them alive as long as possible, and then when it died, he'd buy another clunker. I always said I'd never be like that.
Aaaand now my 15 yr old car is in the shop again, and I'm crossing my fingers that my mechanic will say "time to junk it" (instead of fixing it again) and FORCE me to get a new one (and it will be NEW.)
However, if he says "I can fix it for $400", the Cheapness DNA in me will fix it & drive it for another year. Thanks, Pops!
Overall, that's not necessarily a bad thing to have! But, it can hinder you at times, particularly if you are repeating a pattern from a parent that you don't necessarily like. If you buy something brand new, what will you get? (I can relate because my dad and I are both the same when it comes to money.)0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »I have been feeling guilty about something that happened 16 years ago....lately it has been really driving me mad and even kept me awake last night.....
Is there any way of making peace with the situation?
Sadly no
That stinks. I hate unresolved issues like that. Especially when they come back to haunt you after you think it's gotten better. Dealing with something like that myself right now and I have absolutely no way of fixing it.0 -
quiksylver296 wrote: »Confession: I have always wanted to buy ONE car brand new. I know it doesn't make economic sense, but I still wanted to. The confession is that we did that last September, a 2014 Mitsubishi Mirage. 100 miles on it. I'm ticked off because we bought the car as a commuter car for my new job - it gets almost 50 miles to the gallon. But it has zero cool factor. It is a stick shift and has no luxury features. That is NOT what I planned on wasting my one new car buy on.
I am VERY spoiled in the car dept. Since we married almost 33 years ago I have had a new car pretty much every 3-4 years. I did drive the one previous to the one I have now for 7 years however (I LOVED that car, and it was still like new when I replaced it) only replaced it because my daughter was in desperate need of a vehicle to drive and rather than buy her something new we got a new car and passed my Mustang down to her. (that and I needed something with 4 doors since I keep my grandson so much) So we got a Cadillac CTS- and did a lease for the first time ever - so my lease is almost up on it. I do love my Cadillac, but have decided that I need something with more seating capacity since we have another grand baby on the way and another son who is trying to start their family. My husband wants to buy another NEW vehicle but I have been seriously considering buying used this time. It just makes so much more sense financially.0 -
overlook237 wrote: »overlook237 wrote: »JeanWolfSpirit wrote: »Does anyone binge on "walking dead" ? I think me and my daughter have a million times lol mostly my daughter , she controls the remote.
Totally! It's one of my favorite shows. I watch every episode as it airs, and then when they go on hiatus, I binge-watch all the seasons at some point so I can get my fix
I'm doing that right now. When the most recent season ended, my husband and I started watching from the beginning. We're currently on season 4. Love that show so much. I now want a samurai sword so I can be a badass zombie slayer like Michonne.
I have a sword on my Amazon wish list specifically for this purpose However, I'm fairly certain that in the event of an actual zombie apocalypse, I will either a) step out of my house strapped to the hilt with weapons and a kicka$$ attitude only to be bitten 10 seconds later; or b) I will be Otis - too slow to run away and left behind as walker bait.
That made me laugh. Otis was only walker bait because Shane was a piece of human garbage and sacrificed him to save his own sorry butt. I'm glad Rick took him out. Too bad he was a zombie when it happened.
Very true. Interesting that Rick has kind of been turning into Shane lately, no? I hope that the reappearance of Morgan and his zen attitude will bring Rick back from the edge a little.0 -
If I need extra calories for the day, I will google calorie counts for the most mundane of activities (Laundry, grocery shopping) just to add them back in... I know I'm only cheating myself, but that's how I justify it to myself
and to Will_Run_For_Food... when we were kids, my sister and I used to roll white bread up into a ball, spread it with butter and then roll it in the hot chocolate powder to make our own "munchkins" LOL 0 -
I give the box of Ferro Rochers that my BF`s mom buys me every holiday (Easter, Christmas etc..) to my younger sister (she is naturally slim). If I keep it I know I will eat it. Also, I physically need to move food or hide it under things, if it`s not in my eyesight I won`t feel temptation to eat it! One last one: I have become addicted to suger-free gum especially yummy dessert flavored ones!0
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