JUST FOR TODAY ....... One day at a time ..... Daily Commitment Thread for 2018
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BUT - Anxious tonight as my sister has to go to hospital for biopsy results after a mammogram showed some potential problems. Our mum has had breast cancer twice and our younger sister has had a preventative mastectomy so we are very conscious of the risks. Both my sister and I were also considering the surgery but now she has this scare. I’m just praying it’s only a scare and then we can focus on options to minimise our risk. I’m going with her tomorrow while my parents look after our children.
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Saying a prayer that your sister's biopsy goes well. I also have a lot of cancer in my family ... lost 2 brothers to cancer, and mother, aunts, and grandmother to breast cancer. I remember when one of my mammograms was abnormal, and they had to do a biopsy ... it was the hardest time waiting for the biopsy. Mine turned out to be nothing ... prayer that for your sister it is also that way. My doctor also has suggested that I get surgery since I have so much cancer in my family. Hugs to you and prayers.3 -
@jeschepp "Week 8: 176.6-always my plateau weight, can never get to 175!"
Ok so you've been doing fantastically and should be very proud of yourself! Now here's where I be Mom... quit with the 'never'. I get it because my own body has a couple of set points that are really frustrating to get through. But we will get through them sooner or later so let's keep plugging away at this.
Keep up the good work!5 -
JFT, Mon
1. concentrate on april challenge -- water water water
2. mindful eating
3. skipped the gym this morning, so if not raining, go for a walk tonite Pouring down rain all day!
4. log all food ... stay under 1400 cal
JFT, Tues
1. no gym since we have people working on our driveway, but try and go in evening ... or a long walk
2. log all food
3. concentrate on water. 2 glasses with each meal, water each time I use the restroom
4. keep calories under 1400
5. august challenge . close kitchen
August Challenge: Plan just ONE evening snack, then close the kitchen
1: Evening snack was a hard boiled egg, kitchen closed at 9pm
2: Planned on a HB egg, but had 1/4c. raisin bran and some milk. It is now 9:15 pm - so a little later, but only because I wanted to color my hair first!
3: Was out late, and had a glass of wine at 10:00 -- hubby wanted popcorn, so I had a very small amount, but still ,that was at 10:30!!! But ....... I still did not eat too much, just that the klondike bar was way more calories than I thought. Lesson ... look up calories FIRST!
4 .. no evening snack, and did great all day
5... Worrying about my daughter; emotional eating:)
6 ... emotional eating
7. ... emotional eating
8. Just got home tonite ... so kitchen is closed
9. got into chocolate covered almonds
10. Fiber one bar, and kitchen closed at 9 pm
11. Had a fiber one bar, and REALLY want another one ... or popcorn ... or something! but, drinking my water, and no going into the kitchen
12. I ate FOUR brownies ! .
13.. One fiber one brownie... kitchen closed
14. One fiber one brownie .... kitchen closed
15. ?? I was sure I posted this ... and can't find it. Senior moment .... I cant remember!
16. ??I was sure I posted this ... and can't find it. Senior moment .... I cant remember!
17. ? I was sure I posted this ... and can't find it. Senior moment .... I cant remember!
18. ??
19. popcorn, 9:30
20. NO snack2 -
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slittlemeister wrote: »
I think stories like those are what makes me want to stop weekday drinking. I think my drinking is in control at the moment. But I know lots of people think that and then it gets out of control, and I don't want that to happen to me!
My biggest hobby is reading, but that's actually quite difficult to do on my commute home when I'm already a bit wound up, as it's hard to focus attention on something when your mind is going all over the place.
I'm starting to think that hobbies or activities which occupy your hands/ body are probably best, in that they give you something to do/focus on while your mind is active, without requiring you to concentrate THAT hard.
I'm really not a crafty person, but I do like drawing. And also like:
- Listening to music
- Playing music
- Writing
- Cooking, when I have enough energy...
Wondering if I can incorporate some of these into my commute/early evening in some way... Will give this some thought!
Wine is my hubbys biggest downfall. We both eat so healthy all day... and then he probably has 3-4 glasses of wine every nite. He listens to music every nite, and somehow, a glass of wine goes perfect with sitting and listening to music. He knows he should not have this much, but he is having a hard time with finding a substuite. I tend to eat ... that is my drink of choice!
Do you like to knit or do something that you can do even when you are tired? I sew on my machine, but I really want to learn to knit.. you know .. something to do when I am too tired to set at a machine.
I would love to know how to write .... something like this would keep your mind and your hands busy!3 -
Snowflake1968 wrote: »I think it was someone in this group that recommended the book Choosing Gratitude, your journey to Joy. I ordered it and it arrived last week. I didn't open it until the weekend.
I was so pleasantly surprised to see Joni Earekson Tada wrote the forward in the book.
When I was 13 they showed the movie of her life story at our church. There was an afternoon viewing and then an evening viewing. I begged my parents to take me back to the evening viewing after watching it in the afternoon. I was so enthralled with her ability to overcome. I also had her book and I read it over and over. I had never forgotten about her but did not think of her often as the years went by. I looked on FB and she is on there, so I started following her yesterday, what an inspiration she is!
Thanks for recommending the book, I'm so sorry I can't remember exactly who did though
I was thinking you were the one that recommended that book LOL!! But thanks for the reminder ... I keep meaning to order it, but just forgot the title.1 -
Today went well. Somehow aiming to do less has me completing more! I just need to keep focusing on reasonable expectations for myself and not overdo it. I promised myself that if I kept within my calorie range with exercise I could have a cookie (from the tub I gorged on over the weekend) and enjoy it without feeling guilty. Somehow that one was enough, but the several I ate all together a few days ago didn't feel worth it. All in the perspective, right!
@Faebert we're thinking of you and your family. Keep us posted.
@PackerFanInGB I love your tiny habits! And your assertive tone-you'll get those goals done!
@bcTRAI Thanks for mom-ing me I did need a mental kick in the rear to stop that negative thinking!
@Snowflake1968 Thanks for your kind words as always. You always know exactly what to say
For today:
15 minutes exercise ✅ ✅
Track food and exercise ✅
5 good groups ✅
Water challenge-80 oz. ✅
Post here for accountability ✅
For tomorrow:
15 minutes exercise
Track food and exercise
5 good groups
Water challenge-80 oz.
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Thanks for the good wishes all. I’m up super early as I’m jittery but not feeling like working out yet - even though I know it will help me! She had the biopsy on 6th so today is just the results and next steps. Need to make sure I keep a clear head and take everything in and ask the right questions for her in case she’s overwhelmed.
So I will finish this coffee and get on with it! I’ll check back in later today. You are all so lovely for caring x4 -
Thanks for the good wishes all. I’m up super early as I’m jittery but not feeling like working out yet - even though I know it will help me! She had the biopsy on 6th so today is just the results and next steps. Need to make sure I keep a clear head and take everything in and ask the right questions for her in case she’s overwhelmed.
So I will finish this coffee and get on with it! I’ll check back in later today. You are all so lovely for caring x
You're getting up as I'm going to bed! Oh, the intricacies of timezones.
Keeping warm thoughts for your sister and you.3 -
1. Be kind. (I'm stealing this one.) I think I did okay on this today at work.
2. Pre-log my day and stick with my plan. Fail. Pre-logged and packed my lunch, but left it out on the counter instead of taking it to work with me, so now I have to correct my journal.
3. Drink 8 glasses of water before leaving for work at 3 pm.
4. Buy a soda on my way to work as a treat to myself.
5. Eat at least 5 kinds of fruits and vegetables (I've been slacking on this one lately.) lettuce, apple, tomato sauce, cauliflower, carrots
6. Menu plan through Thursday and pre-log. Haven't done this yet and I need sleep. I'll do this tomorrow.4 -
Thanks for the good wishes all. I’m up super early as I’m jittery but not feeling like working out yet - even though I know it will help me! She had the biopsy on 6th so today is just the results and next steps. Need to make sure I keep a clear head and take everything in and ask the right questions for her in case she’s overwhelmed.
So I will finish this coffee and get on with it! I’ll check back in later today. You are all so lovely for caring x
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My MFP LOG IN hasn't worked since Friday, so I haven't been able to log food or exercise. I can only come here, which is really weird. Anyway... I'm gonna have to figure something out, because I don't want to lose the momentum I was gaining.1
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Yesterday's commitments:
- Log everything I eat
- Stick to food plan Even refused a piece of cheese!!
- Be in the green
- 4 bottles water
- Duolingo & French book
- Career planning Slightly diverted into other life planning. But it was productive nonetheless
- Go to Gym
- Weekly food plan/ shop
- Do washing
- Lights out by 10.45 11.00, which isn't too bad apart from took me ages to sleep and woke up a few times in the night. Not feeling especially rested today. Hopefully will have a better night tonight - may need to evaluate my bedtime routine to see if it properly relaxes me. I thought it would as we stopped all chores etc to watch Black Mirror but turns out that is really tense!!!
Today's commitments:
- Log everything I eat including whatever I choose for dinner (log it on train home)
- Stick to food plan
- Make a sensible choice at dinner - one course only, within calorie limits
- Eat slowly and mindfully
- 4 bottles water
- Run to work
- 45 minute lunch break
- Meditate
- Duolingo
- Leave work by 6.30pm
- Train home by 10.15 LATEST4 -
mytime6630 wrote: »slittlemeister wrote: »
I think stories like those are what makes me want to stop weekday drinking. I think my drinking is in control at the moment. But I know lots of people think that and then it gets out of control, and I don't want that to happen to me!
My biggest hobby is reading, but that's actually quite difficult to do on my commute home when I'm already a bit wound up, as it's hard to focus attention on something when your mind is going all over the place.
I'm starting to think that hobbies or activities which occupy your hands/ body are probably best, in that they give you something to do/focus on while your mind is active, without requiring you to concentrate THAT hard.
I'm really not a crafty person, but I do like drawing. And also like:
- Listening to music
- Playing music
- Writing
- Cooking, when I have enough energy...
Wondering if I can incorporate some of these into my commute/early evening in some way... Will give this some thought!
Wine is my hubbys biggest downfall. We both eat so healthy all day... and then he probably has 3-4 glasses of wine every nite. He listens to music every nite, and somehow, a glass of wine goes perfect with sitting and listening to music. He knows he should not have this much, but he is having a hard time with finding a substuite. I tend to eat ... that is my drink of choice!
Do you like to knit or do something that you can do even when you are tired? I sew on my machine, but I really want to learn to knit.. you know .. something to do when I am too tired to set at a machine.
I would love to know how to write .... something like this would keep your mind and your hands busy!
I have never particularly liked knitting I attempted to make a scarf for my teddy when I was a child but whilst I quite enjoyed doing lots of rows, I was too lazy to learn how to finish it... Poor Teddy had to continue with a cold neck!
I haven't actually written for a very long time. I used to want to write a book and kept on coming up with ideas and starting them, but somehow never managed to finish them... Sometimes I wonder if I actually like writing or if I just like the idea of having written something! Might be worth experimenting with this though.
I think music is probably a good shout for me. It used to be such a big part of my life (I was in orchestras for several years) and now I hardly do it at all. I think I am going to:
- Actually get round to putting my favourite music on my phone to listen to on my commute
- Potentially buy an electronic piano. I have been thinking about doing this for a while, but put it off because I thought it was a faff given we might move and they are not easy to move. But maybe I should just do it - I think it would bring me a lot of joy3 -
@Faebert Good luck today for you and your sister! It must be so scary but I'm hoping and praying for good news!
@PackerFanInGB I did see your comment regarding the quilt. LOL how has it got so big!! I can't wait for it haha!
@maryrobinson40 How is your brother, I know you said he went to a hospice. And more importantly, how are you x
@mytime6630 Well done on the No snack last night! How are you
And for those who are struggling with smoke/fires, how is all that now? Is it still causing lots of problems?2 -
Monday
- 8 glasses of water❎
- Be in the green❎
- Exercise❎
- Tidy the mess as soon as I've made it✔️
- Go to library❎
Challenges
Apr: Water❎
May: 15min Outside❎
Jun: Mindful Eating❎
Jul: Pre-logging❎
Aug: Close Kitchen 9pm.❎
Let's just say I had a Gollum moment LOL @slittlemeister4 -
@Bex953172 . Hi Sister.. Well he's holding on. Me... Well, honestly... Seeing my brother in the condition he was in kinda took some wind out of my sails for a day or two. I ended up having panic attacks this weekend that put me to bed Saturday and Sunday. I'm fighting to get past it and move on because it's what he would want me to do. He'd say to me..."Don't worry about me, I'm alright". So I plan to do my best work out today, get in some nutrition and get back on track.
Thank you for asking.. You're going to make me cry... Then I'll be all puffy, and snotty...LMBO...that'll teach ya...hahaha5 -
Tuesday
- 8 glasses of water
- Be in the green
- Exercise
- Tidy the mess as soon as I've made it
- Go to library
- Look through memory box
Challenges
Apr: Water
May: 15min Outside
Jun: Mindful Eating
Jul: Pre-logging
Aug: Close Kitchen 9pm.
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maryrobinson40 wrote: »@Bex953172 . Hi Sister.. Well he's holding on. Me... Well, honestly... Seeing my brother in the condition he was in kinda took some wind out of my sails for a day or two. I ended up having panic attacks this weekend that put me to bed Saturday and Sunday. I'm fighting to get past it and move on because it's what he would want me to do. He'd say to me..."Don't worry about me, I'm alright". So I plan to do my best work out today, get in some nutrition and get back on track.
Thank you for asking.. You're going to make me cry... Then I'll be all puffy, and snotty...LMBO...that'll teach ya...hahaha
Oh no I'm so sorry, panic attacks are the worst but I'm not surprised given the circumstances.
Do your best but also be kind to yourself x love and hugs x2 -
Soooo Samson should be 3 today. Honestly, this is the first year I've not been so messed up from it. I had been living so bitterly since it happened, i hated everything, I hated that something took him, I'll be honest before it all I had never really thought of my religion. But whilst pregnant with him I attended my nieces christening (to which I am now Godparent) and the priest there wished to bless me and my baby. And I let him, allowed myself to be open and accept God. And then a couple of weeks later I'm being told my baby's not gonna survive. Well I had hatred for everything since then. Its been a very weird process, I often wonder if I made the right decision to terminate, if it was because he was a boy and I struggled to conceive boys, if it was my fault for accepting a blessing when I didn't fully believe in god, I then started hating God, I had to blame someone, and he got it all. Then in the second year, at my bitterest I just felt despair. And it was then I made the decision to speak to God. (bearing in mind this is something Ive never really done) and I realised he only took him because he had to. Its weird from that point I KNEW Samson was being looked after (wherever that may be) and I started to heal. And today, on what would be his birthday, I don't feel sad.
Happy Birthday Samson! ❤️6 -
Soooo Samson should be 3 today. Honestly, this is the first year I've not been so messed up from it. I had been living so bitterly since it happened, i hated everything, I hated that something took him, I'll be honest before it all I had never really thought of my religion. But whilst pregnant with him I attended my nieces christening (to which I am now Godparent) and the priest there wished to bless me and my baby. And I let him, allowed myself to be open and accept God. And then a couple of weeks later I'm being told my baby's not gonna survive. Well I had hatred for everything since then. Its been a very weird process, I often wonder if I made the right decision to terminate, if it was because he was a boy and I struggled to conceive boys, if it was my fault for accepting a blessing when I didn't fully believe in god, I then started hating God, I had to blame someone, and he got it all. Then in the second year, at my bitterest I just felt despair. And it was then I made the decision to speak to God. (bearing in mind this is something Ive never really done) and I realised he only took him because he had to. Its weird from that point I KNEW Samson was being looked after (wherever that may be) and I started to heal. And today, on what would be his birthday, I don't feel sad.
Happy Birthday Samson! ❤️
Such a beautiful post in every way Bex. Love and hugs to you x1 -
Checking in from Monday
1. AM easy/tempo run: 12 laps; even laps 2-10 timed. Feed cats. Shower. Morning meds. Tea! Log 1 item. Take tortillas and blueberries for ELA lunch. Take celery!
2. MCDONALD'S BREAKFAST! YAY! Submit week 4 plan. Review semester plan. Cross-reference assessments and standards; which standards are over- or under-assessed? What is my purpose for each unit? Print Week 4 plans. Print 5PE articles. Make coffee. When should I work in modeling how I curate articles?
3. Work on seminar proposal. Write blog post.
4. Update class websites. Write worksheets for summer projects. Have K use key to mark grammar work.
5. Strength 4:30, Zumba 5:30.
6. Prep Tue lunch - burrito? soup? Chop celery. Meds. In bed by 8:45; devices off by 9:00; alarm set for 4:50.
JFT Tuesday
1. AM basic run: 16 laps; aim for <35 minutes. Feed cats. Shower. Morning meds. Tea! Log 1 item.
2. Eval SJ SHP and return. Input 3rd block back work and print progress reports. Review semester plan. Cross-reference assessments and standards; which standards are over- or under-assessed? What is my purpose for each unit? Print 5PE articles. Make coffee. Today: Begin with reading, review prepositional phrases, model how I curate articles.
3. Work on seminar proposal. Write blog post. Put extra photocopies in folders and back in filing cabinet.
4. Update class websites. Have K use key to mark grammar work. Input SHP grades. Get chili from office kitchen.
5. Help with softball after school (4:30). Take a comfy chair. Discussion post 1 and quiz. Check bank hours.
6. Prep Wed lunch - burrito? Chop celery. Meds. In bed by 8:45; devices off by 9:00; alarm set for 4:50.
Scale goals
End of 2017: 174.6
February 2018: 173.6
March 2018: 179.6
July 2018: 189.6
Today: 189.6
Upcoming to-do:
1. Check blogroll and follow bloggers on Twitter.
2. Write next blog post. Comment on 3 posts each week -Tu Th Sun?
3. Keep track of medical stuffs. Dentist? Appt w D 10/22 9:20; McC 10/22 10:15. Also Feb 7 9:30 w Ac Int. Sub already set up.
4. Grade summer essays. Organize and grade narratives. Update parent group lists with NAMES. Note reply emails.
5. Check on conference; create seminar proposal.
6. Return mascara to Walmart with receipt. Go to used bookstore; take bags-of-bags and look for Beauty (McKinley), Design for How People Learn (Julie Dirksen), and The Prince (tr. Tim Parks).
7. Put jewelry away. Yikes! Reinforce patches on old pants.
8. Go to Mac store and see if they can retrieve the files off the iMac.
9. Go to bank to set up loan to pay for masters classes.3 -
@maryrobinson40 WE ARE WOMAN! HEAR US ROAR! You are so right that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. Sometimes it's good to be reminded of that!
@Bex953172 Happy Birthday Samson!!!! You are an awesome mother and did nothing wrong. I'm so glad that you have let go of the bitterness and have started to heal. Bitterness is an evil nasty thing! Keep that chin up and keep going. And keep talking to the Lord.
@Faebert Sending up lots of prayers for you sister! I hope all is going well and that the results come back negative!
@bcTRAI I needed that motherly advice too. I have a terrible habit of negative talk. I know that self talk works but most of the time mine is more negative than positive. Thank you for reminding me that it is nothing but an evil thing and that I need to reset my thinking!
@mytime6630 I'm loving all your smiley faces! Awesome job on not snacking last night! That is so great to see!
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Wow! 45 posts since I checked in 18 hours ago! I spent most of yesterday looking up recipes and things that I want to try out. I actually made a skillet chicken dinner last night. I haven't done that in a few weeks. I think because I hate cutting up chicken. I've decided that tonight when I get home I am going to cut up a couple of chicken breasts and put it in the freezer so that I can just grab and go. I've also asked my Mom if I can take over her kitchen on Saturday morning. She will be working. And I think my Dad will be as well. That way I'll have their house to myself so I can pump up some music, do laundry and use their oven/multi-burner stove. I'm going to do a whole bunch of freezer meals and things. The DH has also requested that I start making smoothies for him. So I think that that is going to be what I do for today if we are as dead as we were yesterday. Look up recipes that is. Yesterday was pretty terrible at work. Not as bad as when she who will not be named was there but just so interminably boring! I spent probably a total of 2 or 3 hours on my phone! It was nuts!
Umm...what else...I was sick for a few hours yesterday. I'm going to wait until Saturday to take another test. Keep praying/hoping/crossing fingers guys(well women! Lol)
So I took my managers advice and set my alarm for 6 and as soon as I turned the alarm off I went right into the shower. I didnt sit down after my shower for like 20 minutes and when I did all the lights in the house were on and Matt was awake so I didnt get the chance to go back to bed. It is now 7:17. I've had two cups of coffee, prepped the meat for lunches, tidied up a bit, did the few dishes that were left in the sink, caught up on MFP and am now posting! I just need to get dressed, put on makeup, make lunches and head to work. It is going to be a GOOD DAY! I feel great!
Okay! So goals for today 8/21/18
1. Attempt to log all food
2. Up at 6 WooHoo!
3. Shower See # 2
4. Prep lunches
5. Work 8:15-5:15
6. DROP OFF LIBRARY BOOKS!!!!
7. Make sensible choices at D's tonight!
8. Look up smoothie recipes
9. Cut up chicken/put in freezer
10. Bed by 12
Have a great day everyone!3 -
Good Morning!!!! Have A Good Day Ladies!🙌🙏🌹3
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1. Be kind
2. Lots of water
3. Log all food
4. Cook dinner at home
Trying again on the water today!
1. Lots of water
2. Be kind
3. Log all food
4. Cook dinner at home
5. Meds AM and PM
6. Go to farm for cream at lunch
7. Leave work by 4
8. 45 mins at apartment to clean - BRING SCALE TO HOUSE*
9. Make a puzzle for pupper, play a round of hide and seek treats with her too.4 -
Recap M 8/20
1) Walked dog before work / 3.66 mi 1:03:20 / stretched = happy dog & happy me
2) Move hourly / stairs breaks at work = Fitbit 16,134 steps, 250+ steps 14/14 (boom!) & 62 floors
3) Meals & snacks prelogged / stick w/ plan / net calories green / no snack after supper / > 12c water = Stuck w/ plan but added one piece of bread at dinner ~ net calories -117, sodium -1,186 (yikes), sugar -25 (fruits, veggies, bread, choc zucchini cake), fiber & protein good 14c water
4) Evening: bank on way home & get cash / prep wedding & anniversary cards / leave note for hubby ~ our 14th wedding anniversary when he comes home after midnight / DDS bill / review donate pile / put away clean clothes / other to-do's? refilled hummingbird feeder (boiled syrup on lunch hour), boiled eggs, washed dishes
5) Unplug 9:00 / floss / retainers / bed & TV off 10:15 (maybe rest day T ~ rain forecast)
JFT T 8/21 ~ planned rest day (rainy night/morning) = sad dog
1) Meals & snacks prelogged except veggies for supper / look up eggplant recipes / net calories < 100 red
2) Move hourly / stairs breaks at work
3) After work: gas in car / Post Office
4) Unplug 9:00 / floss / retainers / bed & TV off 10:15 (walk dog before work W)
Evening Snack Challenge ~ my goal to not snack past 9 p.m.
1. Peanut M&Ms (wanted something sweet) when got home at 9pm
2. 1 chocolate power muffin before 8:30
3. 1/4c chicken salad after 9:00 (emotional eating)
4. Peanut M&Ms 9pm
5. Nothing after supper
6. Nothing after Feast w/ the Beasts ended at 8pm
7. Late supper after spa/massage appt. & nothing after 8pm
8. Nothing after supper
9. Brookside pomegranate dark chocolate at 8:30 (down in dumps)
10. Animal crackers after 9pm
11. Late supper after balloon ascension/glow followed by ice cream w/ hubby when we got home 9:30
12. Supper over at 8pm & had few peanut M&Ms later (not sure of time)
13. 9 plain M&Ms after supper (counted three each red, white, blue) BEFORE 9
14. Unplanned frozen strawberry bar (80 cal) at 8pm, after supper & roses/garden work
15. 3 animal crackers after 9pm & busy w/ household chores
16. 10 peanut M&Ms after 9pm
17. Brookside pomegranate dark chocolate after all chores done / past 9pm
18. Napped in evening after family left, then had plain M&Ms after 9pm
19. Nothing after supper finally!
20. Nothing after supper1 -
To all my JFTers: Hugs and keeping everyone in my prayers as we go through daily struggles.
@Bex953172 Happy birthday, Samson!3 -
Soooo Samson should be 3 today. Honestly, this is the first year I've not been so messed up from it. I had been living so bitterly since it happened, i hated everything, I hated that something took him, I'll be honest before it all I had never really thought of my religion. But whilst pregnant with him I attended my nieces christening (to which I am now Godparent) and the priest there wished to bless me and my baby. And I let him, allowed myself to be open and accept God. And then a couple of weeks later I'm being told my baby's not gonna survive. Well I had hatred for everything since then. Its been a very weird process, I often wonder if I made the right decision to terminate, if it was because he was a boy and I struggled to conceive boys, if it was my fault for accepting a blessing when I didn't fully believe in god, I then started hating God, I had to blame someone, and he got it all. Then in the second year, at my bitterest I just felt despair. And it was then I made the decision to speak to God. (bearing in mind this is something Ive never really done) and I realised he only took him because he had to. Its weird from that point I KNEW Samson was being looked after (wherever that may be) and I started to heal. And today, on what would be his birthday, I don't feel sad.
Happy Birthday Samson! ❤️
Such a beautiful post in every way Bex. Love and hugs to you x
Such a thoughtful and open post. I'm so glad you found a way to heal.
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maryrobinson40 wrote: »My MFP LOG IN hasn't worked since Friday, so I haven't been able to log food or exercise. I can only come here, which is really weird. Anyway... I'm gonna have to figure something out, because I don't want to lose the momentum I was gaining.
YOu had mentioned that you were using the log in through facebook option. Does it work if you log in directly to the app? Do you use it on a phone, tablet or computer?0
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