Lastchancetochange wrote: »
Hi, I'm on day 3. I actually lost almost all the weight 4 years ago and one key was being one year and a half sober. It's tough, I lost many friends, not really lost them but I was not cool anymore. And in any dinner they were all trying to get me drunk. So I had to pass on many social plans. It was very tough from that perspective. I didn't miss it, my body surely didn't but socially it was a disaster. Anyway here we are again.
After a christmas of a couple of bad binges, really feeling destroyed for a couple of days after I feel not worth it for the time being. Day by day.
Cheers to everyone.
MrSunshinez wrote: »
First of all, thank each of you for the comments and wishes. It really means so much to me to have this group and be a part of it. I'm still sober. Day #10. Am I still on the edge? Yes. My only saving grace as it has always been is that I don't like to drink alone and I don't drink at home. So my cure has been to just sleep away the feelings. But that's not good either. It's not solving the problems.
And to vent a little bit. I hate my job. It's soul killing. Every day I have to tell people that their insurance doesn't cover their medications. Just about every call I get yelled at, begged and questioned if I know my job. It's obvious these people need their medication and are desperate. I get it and I will be in the same boat too one day. It's the job not the people. All I can do is say I'm sorry over and over again. I do have my graphic design business but it doesn't pay the bills or insurance. Hopefully one day it will. Right now, it's living paycheck to paycheck and looking for something else is almost impossible with limited time off. Also, being in my 50's doesn't help. I have no family left so I'm alone now. I have some health issues that can pop up at anytime and can be life threatening so that is stressful to think about and manage. I'm not going to do anything dumb but I'm at a point where I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up.
@RubyRed427 I think I'll take your advice and look into AA and go a few times a week and see if that helps. I had gone years ago but I just couldn't relate. Perhaps now will be different. Thanks for the Don Miguel Ruiz suggestion. Will look at them tonight.
Again, thank you everybody! Have a great AF evening! We all here trying to get through the best way we know how!
Drummer913 wrote: »
@JenT304....De-Caffeinated tea labeling is deceiving similar to the labeling on Non-Alcoholic beer is. There is still a minute amount of alcohol in Non-Alcoholic beer (.05% in most as stated on the labels). So unless it says its 100% Alcohol Free on the label ....It probably isn't.
MrSunshinez wrote: »
@MJaRT25 and @Fitness327wk for 9 days of AF! Woohoo! And a big congrats to everyone who is on any time frame of AF. I'm on Day #11. It's so worth it! You guys, I took the day off from work for a mental health day. I can't believe how something so simple that was taken for granted in the past is so liberating now. With all of your comments and suggestions this week along with my sick day today showed me I'm not chained to this job or this unhappiness. I have to work hard at finding another job and I have to be patient, yes. But I am not stuck. Oh that sneaky demon of helplessness reared it's ugly head once again and caught me off guard. Have a great AF night everyone. Thanks for all that you do!
JenT304 wrote: »
I took the money I would have spent the past 10 days on wine.....I figured about $100.00, and bought grocery and gas gift certificates for my sister, who is a single mother and currently furloughed until our government gets its act together. This makes me feel way better than the wine would have. I WAS going to reward myself with a facial for my 10th day but this is a better use of the funds. I'll wait a bit longer for that.
RubyRed427 wrote: »
I’m doing well. But lately feel depressed. I blame everything on hormones . And of course the cloudy grey weather doesn’t help here in Ohio. @JenT304 What a sweet idea of donating your savings to your sister. I haven’t had a lot of time to comment on everyone’s posts but I am reading them. Hugs to all! Xo
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