The Sober Squad- Alcohol Free Living

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  • salleewins
    salleewins Posts: 2,308 Member
    My heart has been going out to all of you as I've read your words, experiences, pains and triumphs! You are all to be commended as you continue on with this fight.

    I wanted to share a "moment" I had. On Saturday, my heart was breaking. I felt all kinds of emotions that I didn't want to feel. I imagine you all know what I'm talking about because that's why many of us are here. My heart was pounding and I felt like I couldn't breath. I decided to get in my car and drive around. Well, I knew exactly why I was doing that...but I was denying it. I ended up in the parking lot of my local liquor store. I had all kinds of addicted brain talk going on. I was thinking at least I can buy a bottle of Skyy and have it in my house and I can make my decision later. There was a war raging in my brain as I sat in my car trying to decide what to do. Eventually, tears started running down my face and I hung my head down on my steering wheel as sobs starting coming out. Well, at some point, I managed to honk my horn with my chin. It made me jump and when I looked up, I saw a startled lady who thought I was honking at her. I was so embarrassed that I started my car up and left. And just like that...the moment was gone.

    Today, I have been sober for 11 weeks and one day. I am feeling extremely grateful that I didn't let anyone or anything take that away from me, including myself. It was a brief moment, but it happened. In the last several days, I have been able to focus on an action plan. I've realized I can't do this by myself and I need a support system in place. I am pleased to say I'm working on that with a clear head and not an alcohol saturated one. I feel stronger for having won that battle.

    I am doing well and I survived the moment. I sure hope the lady in the parking lot did too! :)

    Many thanks to all of you for sharing. Your words inspire those who sometimes need to read in silence. <3

    GREAT GOING!!
  • salleewins
    salleewins Posts: 2,308 Member
    Ed_Zilla wrote: »
    I have a hard time keeping up with the posts if I don't check in often...but I see the drinking demon's are never far away nor are they ever at rest. They attack me at the strangest times, always when I least expect it. It is really random what the triggers are.

    I am also not one for quotes...But J.J. Watts (a phenomenal NFL defensive end) had a quote that I find applies to staying AF every day. I think of this quote often:

    "Success isn't owned, it's leased. And rent is due every day."

    When the demons hit, my immediate response is "Time to pay up!." I do this by long workouts, staying in the Word, working on the farm, talking through it with my wife, etc. No matter what...find a way to Pay up!

    Thanks for sharing this!
  • salleewins
    salleewins Posts: 2,308 Member
    Also, other than my pregnancy when I obviously could not drink, this 21 days is the longest I think I've gone since age 21.. which was well over a decade ago.. so I'm feeling pleased. Hope everyone has a great day!

    Great! Excited for your progress!
  • salleewins
    salleewins Posts: 2,308 Member
    @lagoscarrie You are so worth it, too!
  • salleewins
    salleewins Posts: 2,308 Member
    @dbhDeb welcome!
  • razorcut
    razorcut Posts: 25 Member
    dbhDeb wrote: »
    my husband had me a drink waiting when I got home. Failed. : (
    Day one again. I am traveling this weekend away from him so I will not be tempted.

    Is he not supportive of your attempt to stop?
  • dbhDeb
    dbhDeb Posts: 200 Member
    Beka3695 wrote: »
    dbhDeb wrote: »
    razorcut wrote: »
    dbhDeb wrote: »
    my husband had me a drink waiting when I got home. Failed. : (
    Day one again. I am traveling this weekend away from him so I will not be tempted.

    Is he not supportive of your attempt to stop?

    I didn't say no but I haven't brought it up yet. Don't want to have the talk tonight either. I will try to on Sunday.

    Sending strength your way. It is difficult when your spouse still drinks.

    It has been so much a part of our time together. I guess I am afraid to bring it up. We've been married 3 years.
  • salleewins
    salleewins Posts: 2,308 Member
    Ed_Zilla wrote: »
    NormInv wrote: »
    @NormInv
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    @Ed_Zilla
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    @ngk2000
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    @LC0924
    Yo! Reminder that ^^^you^^^ are entered into @NormInv's 3 month dry challenge
    It's never too late to enter...

    10 weeks AF today :smile:

    AMAZING!
  • salleewins
    salleewins Posts: 2,308 Member
    skmeow1122 wrote: »
    Great thread. I've been sober for just under a month. But the longest I've been sober for years. Had a prescription addiction and drank too much but focusing on sobriety for everything now. Hoping to see it be beneficial for my weight as well :)

    NICE TO HEAR! WELCOME!
  • SweatsOnSunday
    SweatsOnSunday Posts: 514 Member
    @Beka3695 Love that screenshot! What app is that?