Less Alcohol - APRIL 2021 - One Day At A Time

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  • Lilylady3k
    Lilylady3k Posts: 4,004 Member
    @lmlmrn - Congratulations on 25 years together!!! These milestones are to be celebrated and a dungeness crab sounds like a special occasion all in itself!
  • Womona
    Womona Posts: 1,770 Member
    Checking in. I'm not in a good place mentally, and posting about how much I've been drinking is going to feel a lot more like kicking myself when I'm down than motivation to do better.

    I've been using birth control as an antidepressant since I was 16. Classic anti-depressants weren't great. Went on BC for acne and suddenly felt a million times better, so I stopped the anti-depressants and have just used BC since then. I usually get a little down during the 4 days where I'm taking the non-hormone pills in the pack, but I bounce back when I start the next pack. That didn't happen this month. I want to cry all the time. I'm having a lot of suicidal thoughts that I feel disconnected from but that are very disturbing. I'm supposed to see my ob-gyn later this month so I'm trying to hang in there until that appointment, but I suspect he'll refer me to a psychiatrist, so this could drag on a while.

    I'm going to try to count calories, I'm going to try to not drink, I'm going to try to go for walks, but I'm going to accept that there will be more days than usual where I just curl up in a ball on the couch until this is sorted out.

    Oh honey, I’m so sorry to hear you are struggling. Depression is a terrible thing to go through- the crying all day, the lethargy, the feeling like you’re in a pit you cannot get out of. But there is help- sounds like your BC was working well until it didn’t. It may just be a simple hormonal Imbalance that can be rectified with another medicine either to replace the BC or be taken in conjunction.

    I’d recommend calling the office, telling them what’s going on, and either talking with the doctor or nurse practitioner right away. You don’t want to wait if you’re having suicidal thoughts!
  • dawnbgethealthy
    dawnbgethealthy Posts: 7,882 Member
    Hi : - )

    I joined this thread November 2018. I was a daily drinker at that point.
    I am drinking less chiefly to lose weight.
    My goals now are the same as they have been since January 2020, kind of my sweet spot.
    16-20 AF days per month
    NO drinking 2 days in a row
    Keep 2 AF days in between drinks days.
    3 is my max or I throw up.

    Here goes my diary style:

    Friday April 2nd - AF - tomorrow will be too so as to get my 2AF in a row.
    Saturday April 3rd - AF - just trying to stay consistent with my goals.
    Sunday April 4th - Drinks. April showers bring May flowers and all of that. The trails were just...wet. I worked out indoors, got a bunch of little stuff done around the house, then had a few drinks several hours ago followed by water.
    Monday April 5th - AF - easy one to do, busy early workday tomorrow.
    Tuesday April 6th - AF - I got hired for 2 jobs today that I had previously interviewed for. I turned down the one, and I start training on the one that I did pick tomorrow, so AF tonight for sure. It will be a fun job at an East Indian restaurant where I will become a server once the lockdown is lifted. I will learn the ropes and take phone calls for take-out and things like that until then. Less than half of the money of the other job prospects that I had a few weeks ago, but I think that it will be great and it will supplement my other jobs well financially. Good thing that it will be an active job because I love Indian food a little too much : - )
    Wednesday April 7th - AF - Really really wanted to have a few drinks, but I have a video interview in the morning, a busy day with one of my jobs, and then possibly another training shift at the restaurant in the evening. Planned drinks for tomorrow night.
    Thursday April 8th - 2 drinks, didn't even attempt 3. Nice warm feeling, it was a few hours ago. I will be AF for at least 2 now to follow.
    Friday April 9th - AF - I find that I always want drinks the day after having drinks. I don't want to do that though.
    Saturday April 10 - AF - I have another training shift tomorrow, plus I wanted my 2AF days in a row.
    Sunday April 11 - AF -
    Monday April 12 - AF - Not sure where my Sunday post went. I was on day 3 of 6 in a row training shifts tonight - I am not having drinks out of my desire to be sharp and absorb what I am learning. Planned drinks for Thursday night or Friday.
    Tuesday April 13 - AF - Very long day at a few different jobs. A couple of drinks would have been nice, but I am too busy right now to risk potentially not being at my best.
    Wednesday April 14 - AF - Ditto to yesterday, and tomorrow will be the same.



    Rolling total: 11 AF days out of 14 days
  • ahoy_m8
    ahoy_m8 Posts: 3,053 Member
    That sounds really fun, @lmlmrn! Safe travels to you guys.
  • dawnbgethealthy
    dawnbgethealthy Posts: 7,882 Member
    @lmlmrn
    Happy Anniversary!!
  • dawnbgethealthy
    dawnbgethealthy Posts: 7,882 Member
    @chocolate_owl
    Hoping to see you check in with us soon.
  • dawnbgethealthy
    dawnbgethealthy Posts: 7,882 Member
    Hi : - )

    I joined this thread November 2018. I was a daily drinker at that point.
    I am drinking less chiefly to lose weight.
    My goals now are the same as they have been since January 2020, kind of my sweet spot.
    16-20 AF days per month
    NO drinking 2 days in a row
    Keep 2 AF days in between drinks days.
    3 is my max or I throw up.

    Here goes my diary style:

    Friday April 2nd - AF - tomorrow will be too so as to get my 2AF in a row.
    Saturday April 3rd - AF - just trying to stay consistent with my goals.
    Sunday April 4th - Drinks. April showers bring May flowers and all of that. The trails were just...wet. I worked out indoors, got a bunch of little stuff done around the house, then had a few drinks several hours ago followed by water.
    Monday April 5th - AF - easy one to do, busy early workday tomorrow.
    Tuesday April 6th - AF - I got hired for 2 jobs today that I had previously interviewed for. I turned down the one, and I start training on the one that I did pick tomorrow, so AF tonight for sure. It will be a fun job at an East Indian restaurant where I will become a server once the lockdown is lifted. I will learn the ropes and take phone calls for take-out and things like that until then. Less than half of the money of the other job prospects that I had a few weeks ago, but I think that it will be great and it will supplement my other jobs well financially. Good thing that it will be an active job because I love Indian food a little too much : - )
    Wednesday April 7th - AF - Really really wanted to have a few drinks, but I have a video interview in the morning, a busy day with one of my jobs, and then possibly another training shift at the restaurant in the evening. Planned drinks for tomorrow night.
    Thursday April 8th - 2 drinks, didn't even attempt 3. Nice warm feeling, it was a few hours ago. I will be AF for at least 2 now to follow.
    Friday April 9th - AF - I find that I always want drinks the day after having drinks. I don't want to do that though.
    Saturday April 10 - AF - I have another training shift tomorrow, plus I wanted my 2AF days in a row.
    Sunday April 11 - AF -
    Monday April 12 - AF - Not sure where my Sunday post went. I was on day 3 of 6 in a row training shifts tonight - I am not having drinks out of my desire to be sharp and absorb what I am learning. Planned drinks for Thursday night or Friday.
    Tuesday April 13 - AF - Very long day at a few different jobs. A couple of drinks would have been nice, but I am too busy right now to risk potentially not being at my best.
    Wednesday April 14 - AF - Ditto to yesterday, and tomorrow will be the same work schedule.
    Thursday April 15th - 2 drinks, which I thoroughly enjoyed. Another very long day working for several different companies plus the restaurant. I only have one 4-5 hour job booked for tomorrow (Foster Grant) and then...a pedicure : - ) Saturday off, where I hope to get started on my potato garden which usually takes me about 3 full 8 hour days to get turned over shovel by shovel and then planted. I think that I might break my own rule for myself and have a couple of drinks tomorrow after my pedicure. I start working alone at the restaurant starting day shift Sunday - Thursday (I will have to do my other jobs before and after), so no drinks Saturday night until Thursday of next week. Wow, 6 AF days in a row, a new record for me.
    Friday April 16th - Drinks. I finished work at 12:30 today and have tomorrow off. Beautiful weather here, 21C (googling) 70F. I played in my yard for 3 1/2 hours then went for my wonderful pedicure. I had the bottom of a bottle of Strawberry Margarita in the fridge for about 4 years, I put a fancy glass in the freezer and when I came back from my pedicure poured it and went into the sun. About 1/2 of a drink, delicious. Scheduled cheat day, Ribs, which I only have once per month now, and a couple of more drinks in the offing. It has been a hectic week, and I felt so wonderful today going into my first full day off in 2 weeks tomorrow. I work Sunday morning at the restaurant. Good night to have drinks for me. No regrets. Feeling relaxed and happy.



    Rolling total: 11 AF days out of 16 days
  • lmlmrn
    lmlmrn Posts: 788 Member
    @dawnbgethealthy You enjoy tonight!! what a wonderful afternoon and evening you are having

    Still considering a drink or two tomorrow evening at the hotel.
  • MissMay
    MissMay Posts: 3,747 Member
    @Womona I feel for you with dealing with the change of life. It can be rocky and the unpredictable as to: am I finished, how long does this last? Because everyone is different. No rules, as my gyno told me. I even had my blood tested to see how far along I was in getting through the menopause stage. I am a need to know person. And no solid answered drove me nuts.
    Lots of hugs your way today.
  • MissMay
    MissMay Posts: 3,747 Member
    @ducky133 CONGRATS on your first two days of AF since the pandemic. Not only that but consecutive days to boot.
    Hope your dogs tummy troubles have subsided.