Smokin' Hot Green Pepper's 3/11 week 10

angiemcnett

Thank you Kelly.

I am at 232.4 pounds this week so a very little loss. I am disappointed as I thought I would be. I am going to HAVE to log my food and buy a heart monitor so I can keep track of my burn calories better. I have worked my butt off for the last several weeks with no real success. Today is a new day so I will try again. Zan is awake gotta go. Have a great day!

kelly_a

Angie...a loss is a loss. as much exercise as you are doing, I am sure you are losing inches and toning your body. that alone will make you look thinner and help you feel better physically and emotionally. remember, this isn't a race, it's a journey. sometimes changing one thing at a time is better than a whole bunch of things at once. Since I cannot currently exercise, I am working on eating better and getting the water in. I know getting thru this recovery with good results will benefit me when I do get back at it. It's very hard some days, but I just gotta be patient.

I just logged (from memory) yesterday's food. I was at 2300 cals and sodium was over double what I normally consume. I had chips again (way too many) and it put me over plus, an ice cream bar. my R foot feels like it's holding fluid this am. water was at 10+ yesterday and another bad nite sleeping. gonna see if there is a pattern with that.

Hope Ody's return is exciting and fun for you all!! oh happy times! Enjoy!!

Hi everyone else....hope all is well!:flowerforyou:

angiemcnett

Kelly- I haven't lost a single inch or part of one since I measured in the beginning of June. It has to be what I am eating which I know isn't all that good but I thought I was eating less. I have to start logging my food to see where I am going wrong. Oh well. Today is a new day and I am trying to log my food today. Before I had the baby I was still losing weight by exercising alone but I guess that is no longer true for me anymore. It is better that I start working on my food choices. Have a great day!

PlumCrazyGirl

hi all... talk later.

angiemcnett

:bigsmile: My Ody is home!!!!:bigsmile: I am so happy that my baby is back from Texas. We went to the National Aquarium today in Baltimore after he picked him up from the airport. We had a good time. The aquarium is pretty neat. Zan got to try out his new ride. I put a back pack carrier on Ody's wheelchair for Zan to ride in and Zan really likes it. Now mommy can leave the house with both boys!!!:happy: I have to get ready for bed. 4:30 AM comes quick. Now that Ody is back I will have to do most of my workout in the very early morning to be sure I get it in. I am going to try to take both boys to the gym 3 times a week so Zan doesn't forget about Kids Club. Have a great night Ladies. I will check in tomorrow hopefully in the morning.

kelly_a

went to the Walker Pickle Day's parade last nite then had supper at my folks. my brother and his family were there as were all of us. makes me, as well as my parents, feel good when our 19 & 21 yr old boys show up. am sure they would like to be elsewhere with friends, but they do make an effort. saw some amazing fireworks. WOW! really impressed by what our small town of 750 puts out. have never seen a better show, cept for the US Capitols' 4th....on t.v.!

watered my outside flowers today, did some laundry, and the guys helped with vacuuming and sweeping. in laws came for a short visit. Scott and Tyler will be going to Canada in 5 days.

eating has been bad 2x days now. too much salt, sugar & carbs. back to it tomorrow. water has been slightly under and sleep was better last nite.

thinkin of ya ladies. hope your weekend was good and we all have a healthy, positive, successful week! go team!

PlumCrazyGirl

Hi all... I like the baltimore aquariuam... it's nice.

Emotionally had a weekend of ups & downs. Trying to move past all the downs. Got very discouraged with self, lost self confidence, got very depressed, cried very easily. Going out with my cousin was nice ...

angiemcnett

Kelly- I hope Zan is as thoughtful as your boys.

Barb- Hang in there. Things will get better. :flowerforyou:

Took the boys with me to the gym this morning. The lady to sits with the children gave me a rough time about Ody. She said Ody couldn't stay because he is in a wheelchair, but one of the managers said it was ok. It got straighten out and Ody was able to stay. I forgot how long it takes me to get ready to leave with both boys. Tomorrow is mom's club walking group. I always am exhausted after working out with them. I have almost run to keep up with them. I wish I had a heart monitor to help me keep track of my calories burned while exercising. It is so hot I don't want to leave the house but I have to go get some groceries. Ugh!!!! Have a great day!

PlumCrazyGirl

The key to success is for you to make a habit throughout your life of doing the things you fear.

The above was posted by another MFP friend ... it speaks my weekend. I was very fearful of many things and I just wanted to sit in my misery and cry...cry... cry... cry... cry... felt no, unable to do things for myself... no, can't go places by myself... no, no, no.

My self confidence was shaken due to several things over the weekend. Now, it should have been just the opposite. Beginning on Friday I was carded at the local country western club paying my cover charge. The employee did not believe I was 41. Once insde the club I had a guy eyeball me all night long.

However several hours before I was at the club, Laz and I had a disagreement. It shook me up. Yet it didn't really affect me until Saturday night when he didn't have a sitter so we didn't go out. However he didn't want to talk either.

Saturday night I didn't want to stay home - but I couldn't be in the house. I felt the walls closing in. Part of me wanted to call my friends near Atlantic City - part of me didn't want to be an inconvience to them - a nuisance. So I stayed home and cried and cried and cried. When the husband learned of this - he gave me a what for... we're your friends - you should have come over. You are not being an inconvience.

I went to bed crying uncontrollably... went to church on Sunday and tears streamed down my face the entire time.

Sunday I called his wife to go furniture shopping. She agreed and once we were in a resturant she gave me a what for .... why didn't you call us when you have those moments. How I need to learn to be alone accept I don't need to have a man and learn to ask for help. If you want to do things to your house why aren't you asking. She says she'll help me paint and stuff. I kept telling her I have NEVER painted a room. I have fear of tools, I don't like doing things I am very uncomfortable with. Home improvements is stuff. She kept telling me I need to learn, believe in self, don't let a man do it all.

Once home I just curled up with my blanket and pillows to cry cry cry more.

I know the intent was to help build me up not crush me more hours later finally I determined I will attempt to put up a ironing board rack. No, instead I put numerous holes in the side of a shelfing unit. Now I need to fix that and how do I do that???? I learned from the husband, I was attempting to put screws in a hard wood instead of a wall ... if I chose a wall I would have had success. Like I know that?

Of course I didn't get the rack up and I cried cried cried more because it didn't go up and because now there's more work that needs to be done to fix the holes.

Part of me thinks the strong wall I had since March is gone. My sad emotions flow out and I losing self confidence. This couple kept telling me I got the garage neat the yard is cleaned up ... be proud of that. I keep thinking I can't get my car inside garage w/o hitting the garage. There's a shelf I want up I can't do... the yard has less trash/crap but it needs sprucing up & I don't like planting stuff... don't know how to get soil ready or up for doing digging. I So instead of saying yes, yard better I just cried and cried over what needs to be done.

Today I texted girlfriend instead of her showing me how to paint room I will hire someone -- then I don't get angry over trying to do something that I feel I will screw up bad. And screw ups only mean paint again... like I want to do that again.... If I hire, then no prep or clean up for me.... Just pick color & pay. She hasn't responded. Think mad at me.

So somehow I got to get ahold of what is running through me - self doubt and change it.

kelly_a

barb..:frown: sounds like you had a meltdown...sometimes it feels like it is one thing after another....and when it rains, it pours. hoping your day was brighter and you feel better soon. we're here if you need to spill or unload....lots of ears to listen and I'm sending you the biggest Kelly hug I got. take care lady. we need you to be happy. love ya tons.

hi to the the rest...will check back in the am. take care gang.:flowerforyou:

August 1st. new month, new week. let's get physical and down right serious. any takers??

PlumCrazyGirl

I ended up not going to kickboxing but going to Lowes. I was in near tears telling the paint employee I have never painted a room before, I'm not sure if I can but I have to... I have no clue what I need or what to do.

The employee gave me over 1 1/2 hours of his time explaining things... suggesting tools.. why this brand over that brand.... what steps to take... how to work the tools... He didn't make me feel incompetent.

My thought is practice with the interior garage wall. Then tackle my bedroom. Didn't realize how big of a project this is for me and I feel frustrated/overwhelmed.

I recalled two dreams I during last night's sleep. As I analzyed the dream symbols... omg... it describes what I'm feeling right now and some symbols represent there is success.

I'm still teary eyed as I read the dream symbols and write this. It will take time for me to recover and believe in myself once again.

kelly_a

Barb...give yourself a pat on the back. I admire you for *everything* you have done to tackle this paint job. you are going about it, getting all the details, in right direction. once you get over this hurdle....you will have much to celebrate. your room is going to be beautiful and you, YOU, are going to be just fine. I believe in you...yes I sure do. I think you should take before, during and after pics. All the sweat, tears, sadness, anger, determination is going to unfold in that room. It's gonna be all about YOU!! I'm proud of you now, and I will be proud of you when this is completed! really, it's going to be ok... ((hugs))

Tyler went back to his *home* last nite. he will be back on Friday for Scott and him are leaving for Canada. So it will be Tanner and I for about a week. It is during this week that Tanner will get his license back and be driving again. YAY! I am going tomorrow to get his auto insurance (sr-22) lined up, get his registration updated. it has been a very loooong 180 days! whew!

in the next week or so, I will have my bus parked outside near our property again. Yes, it is school time here!! I am so excited to see the kids, and I am hopeful I get the same route.

my cardiologist's office called and they CN my appt for tomorrow, so now it's for Sept. :ohwell: I go in a few weeks to get my 6 mo lipids checked.

hope everyone is doin ok...and staying cool. I know we're ready for some cooler temps...even just the mid-upper 80's would be good. take care and have a good one! btw, how's everyone doing with their water intake?? keep trying folks!:flowerforyou:

PlumCrazyGirl

Thanks Kelly. These days I am spending more time in Lowes than I would like to. And more money. In the past I said I am claiming back my house.... now I need to do what I want.... realize time and money. Not everything needs to be done TODAY.

So glad to hear Tanner is going to be self mobile again.

Talk soon.

PlumCrazyGirl

I wasn't going to go to a car club event since it was a show instead of a social event. However one of my kickboxing classmates contacted me regarding meeting me at the event. So my kickboxing classmate convinced me to go.

Yes, I did enter the show ..... yes, I was concerned the car wasn't show ready.... but did my club members say anything about the car not being highly polished or the rims not being shiny.... NO. Where the club members happy to see me and spendt time talking to me. YES. Did I feel better about myself ... yes.

So, slowly recovering....

kelly_a

got to visit with some cousins yesterday/eve haven't seen in a few years. always a good time.

well, got Tanner's insurance, but need proof (documentation) before we can get his registration up to date. this will be sent to me tomorrow....so now it looks like it will be next week before this is completed. I know Tuesday is the 1st day he can get his license back, so maybe I'll just do it then, pick him up from work and save another trip down, and he'll be able to DRIVE home!!

been feeling pretty good post surgery the last couple days. still having some cramping with potty time. am tired right now tho from some bad food choices. lots of things to pick up in the house and will do some baking tomorrow for the Canada trip.

Barb ~ I'm glad you went to the car show. sounds like it was just the comfort you needed and you got out of the house and your mind off stresses. proud of YOU.

have a good one

kelly_a

went to a Norwex party w/MIL. wow! just WOW! kinda expensive, but if I can do 3/4 of my cleaning with a cloth and water only, imagine the savings...and no more cleaning products to buy or inhale. will get my order hopefully in a week or so and let ya all know how they work.

takin' my older puggy Rosie to the vet tomorrow. dh is starting to pack for Canada...house is kinda a wreck...

gettin' the urge to walk...might try a 1/2 mile tomorrow. see you then

PlumCrazyGirl

Weight is up to 172.2..... then again, no exercise last week or this week due to the skin infection.
It's cleared up -- now my skin is pink where the rash was. I'm sure this discoloration will take time to heal.

I need to start being more serious about food choices, water intake and exercise -- especially if my next fitness test is soon. I must pass this one -- so I must get my waist down. The waist measurement was the only area I failed.

Went to my niece's summer drama camp production last night. Had an enjoyable evening.

kelly_a

noticed this am Rosie's front paws had sores between her outer toes. decided to keep appt so they could see this. we have been going to this new vet since March and they have not seen this. it is quite painful for her and we never know when it is going to appear. a few times she's had a temp with it. Lily has had it only a couple of times. Rosie did have a low temp and then one of them burst while she was on the exam table. icky. so no boosters today, but they did give her a shot of steroids and antibiotics..she goes back next week.

instead of doing the laundry and baking cookies, my niece was here for about 4 hours while I made her a necklace and 2 anklets. I sure enjoyed her company!

my supervisor called me and we have a meeting next week!! it's getting closer! I asked about driving a former bus...and he commented it had too many miles on it....then offered me HIS bus, which is the newest in our fleet. get this...it has a button to push for opening the door!! might be a good idea for my recovering shoulder. but, it has tinted windows, high seats and air brakes. the bus I last drove had tinted windows and I did not like it at all. too dark, dreary. the gal that drove my route while I was off after shoulder surgery even offered her bus...it is 2nd newest. I'm hopeful. just getting back in the bus is going to feel good, and I know my cheeks are gonna be sore from smilin'!

jacque509

Happy Friday all,
Well I been battleing a little depression with being suck at home. Some days it so hard to just get up and do the dressing changes. So I am off to the doctor this morning and going to ask if I just do the treadmill or eliptical and not move my arms if I can start back at the gym. Still not competly healed so I am sure he not going to release me to work yet. Will post more later. My weight is 250 but not because I am trying. It just to hot to eat.
Well gotta go so I will check back later and see whats been going on,

Lov ya all

angiemcnett

Yeah! Finally a loss. I am at 229.2 pounds this week. A 3.2 pound loss!! Weight was easier to lose before the baby then what it is now. I still don't know what I did different this week to actually lose weight versus the previous 2 weeks. I am going to be thankful for the loss and keep working on eating healthier. Zan just woke up. I forgot how busy I get between the 2 boys: diapering, feeding and playing with. Have a great day!

kelly_a

jacque...good to hear from you..have missed ya dear.....lots! I keep praying for you in hopes you are healing well and having happy days. I know how ya feel. still cramping here since hysterectomy and bending down, over, reaching up isn't normal yet. surgical sites about 1/2 way healed...starting to get itchy (uh oh Barb!) we just gotta focus on 1 day at a time. sending you a big hug from the midwest. try to stay cool.:glasses:

angie...doin a happy dance for ya! that's a great loss! we just gotta be patient. sooner or later the scale will move. I see you joined the Christmas Challenge...I looked at that for the longest time, then it was *closed*.

speaking of the scale....I dunno where mine is. I have a feeling dh took it. was gonna call him at work, but really not an important call, so I will just ask when he gets here. he and Tyler will be on their way to Canada in the next 2 hours.

have a good weekend folks. try to do your best and not ruin all your hard-weekday efforts!! love ya team!

jacque509

So the doc said I am healing good no idea how long it will take for closer. Will be out of work for 2-4 more weeks. He did say I can go to gym. So going to start on Monday. Hope the exercising will get me out of the funk. Well got a b day party on Sunday for great nephew and baby shower tomorrow so will have to try and be good. Talk later

PlumCrazyGirl

OK, who's in -- Washington DC in the summer in 2012 or not... who's in or who's not?

Need to know....

sindyb9

Morning Pepper's,
Well the last couple of months have been a big crazy mess. Work bringing me at an all time low. I have gotten a meter and checking sugar regularly ane reading a book that really explains things and my new eating habits look like they are dropping the weight. I have not exercised since my vacation but will be doing weights to staret to build more muscle.

Looks like everyone has been having ups and way downs. We can all come back out of this my goal for this week is to log in and check with you daily. I so miss talking to you daily the couple of texts I got in helped a lot.

To share some of what I have learned it is all how many calories you eat and how you balance those meals. Eating less meats and working on more veggies, fruits and carbs. I drink a shake every morning (ensure) It keeps my sugar from dropping and I make it to work without the shaking.

My loss this week was 4 pounds and the weight was 199. I am really trying to eat healthy and have a good bad snack once a week. Maybe this time I will keep going down.

well lots to do today, house and yard work, pick up some things at store and recover from my fall last weel, bruised my whole left side I fell in the supply closet at work.

Have a great day and glad to be back. Missed you guys

kelly_a

OK, who's in -- Washington DC in the summer in 2012 or not... who's in or who's not?

Need to know....

Kelly IS!!

Jacque...great news you're healing!! hang in there...it takes time to heal well! I'm sure going to the gym will help...just take it slow and don't over do it. I have been walking to get our mail, bout 7-8 min total. it's a start..and that's how we roll! enjoy the social events...and just up your water!!

CINDY!! so happy to see you!! good job on the loss! can I ask, what is the name of your book? glad it's working for you. I really struggle with veggies...hard to get the required amount in. I think most of the time it's the prep. I didn't know you were having shaking episodes. not any fun while you are under so much stress with work. I like the idea of your good/bad snack a week. I sometimes am too extreme and then I have binges. hope your soreness improves from falling..ouch! take care!

well, per Tanner, Scott needed the battery in my scale for some fish monitor, gps thingy. so sometime, SOON, I gotta get a new battery. it's been one day and I'm going nuts.

don't even remember when the last time was, but last nite I let my puggers sleep with me. was ok, but no more. Lily has a more smashed face then Rosie and she pretty much snored all nite long. then she woke around 3 or so, in my face, licking my cheek, then pawing me wanting to be petted. c'mon, it's dark, I'm tired...this is NOT normal...then again I put her in this situation. maybe she wanted to go back to HER bed?!

not sure what today will bring. there is laundry to do. might go shopping w/Tanner...we have the tax-free back-to-school shopping here. have a good day everyone!!

kelly_a

will do August chart next.

kelly_a

let me know if I need to change anything in the charts!

PlumCrazyGirl

Kelly - beat the men for taking the battery out of your scale. That's all I have to say.

angiemcnett

Sindy- Glad to see you back! Congrats on the weight loss! Hopefully your new eating habits continue to work for you.

Kelly- Enjoy your back to school shopping trip with Tanner. Maybe you can get a new batter for the scale while you are shopping. My weight for January 2011 was 235. Thank you for doing the chart. It looks great.

Barb- I am in for DC next summer. :bigsmile: I can't wait to meet you guys.

I am going to log my food in or I will not eat. I need to figure out exactly where I am going wrong besides not eating enough veggies. I have been consistent about exercising since July 5 and have lost only 3 pounds that means I am having issues with my food. Have a great day!

kelly_a