Confessions

Guess we all have to say something in this thread, but... how exactly is that helping to our cause?
Not being sarcastic, just curious.

Does it matter?

Each person gets their own thing out of reading and/or contributing. You cannot codify emotions.

Greggs has a lot to answer for in the UK.

Amen

Guess we all have to say something in this thread, but... how exactly is that helping to our cause?
Not being sarcastic, just curious.

When you confess things like this, it opens your eyes when you re-read it to how things either use to be for you or how they are for you, sometimes that is when changes really happen. You know when you actually can admit to having a problem. Kinda like AA meetings, and rehab. They sit around and discuss their addictions to help them over come them.

The difference with food, drugs and alcohol is we need food to survive so you can't give it up, drugs and alcohol we do not need. To over come a food addiction is in my opinion a very hard one to over come and grasp. Like I said we all need food to survive.

Another confession from me: When there are sweets in the house this is something I battle with still, and I'm allowing myself to go over in my calories, I'll plan for 1 and try talking myself into having the entire thing like say there is a bag of candy (chocolate is and always has been my weakness) if I let myself have 1, it's usually a struggle to not eat the whole bag. I will go as far as telling myself "If you eat it all now, tomorrow it's gone and you can just start a new day." that's not right at all. Most days I can over come that and walk away, but not every day.

I will go as far as telling myself "If you eat it all now, tomorrow it's gone and you can just start a new day." that's not right at all. Most days I can over come that and walk away, but not every day.

I do this. I buy a 4 pack of yogurts or whatever, with the intention os spacing them out, a treat every day. But if i'm on a munch i'll eat them all in one go and tell myself well then at least there'll be none left for me to eat, so a clean slate tomorrow. I just stopped buying stuff now.

1 x 72oz steak!! (in under an hour, to win a bet)

I confess I am scared I will go back to my old ways

I think this is one we can all relate to. I'm terrified of going back to my old self. I was having a day not to long ago where I had a panic attack thinking about going back to old self, I was trying to find some comfort on this. I was having a day of sabotaging myself, so I starting questioning why I was doing this, but I'm also scared of maintaining and I think that is where self sabotaging comes in for me. I'm 14lbs shy from my goal weight. I was talking to a group of people and a few of them told me that the fear I have will keep me from going back to myself. That fear is normal and healthy. I'm so terrified of going back to my old self that I have nightmares where I wake up grabbing my chin, because I had a dream that my double/triple chin was back.

I've eaten a whole medium pizza before.
I try not to order pizza anymore.

Also, when it comes to ordering Chinese food, I know that what I ordered is really meant to serve more than one person, but I would still eat it all.
So now I just try not to order out. Period.

Me too! I tried to force myself to eat a whole large once but just regretted it after as I couldn't stand, sit or lay down without feeling like my stomach was filled with cement!

And I have no control over Chinese food! 6 mini spring rolls, as many noodles as i can fit on the plate, plus a few mouthfulls whilst i'm dishing up, and whatever main i chose. and then there's going back to the kitchen for seconds!

And I hate to say it but I got fed up from work and for a few weeks was drinking enough to make me dizzy almost every single night of the week

:blushing:

To be honest I'm finding this thread a HUGE help.

I think admitting these things "out loud" is good for drawing a line under them and saying "never again"

To be honest I'm finding this thread a HUGE help.

I think admitting these things "out loud" is good for drawing a line under them and saying "never again"

AMEN WELL SAID

i commend you for writing this... This probably will help someone else. You have to start loving yourself and feeling better about urself. You made a big step starting on MFP. You going to the gym and trying to change ur eating habits. Remember to log everything, even if your having a bad day. This way you can make sense of what triggers your eating patterns. What foods help u and what doesn't work. Rest and water is very key in weight loss so make sure you get plenty of that. A lot of the "experts" are saying you have to work out an hour to maintain the weight you currently have. So anything over an hour should be a loss. Good luck and can't wait to see who I'm talking to.

I also love the feeling of being completely stuffed, as opposed to just sated.

I struggle with this. I can no longer be hungry, but I still feel the need to eat cause I am not stuffed!

I can eat a pound of cheese and at least half a box of crackers without much effort. Cheese is my crack. Those are two items that have been banned from my house because I just can not eat a normal portion. I also did a lot of sneak eating, or eating in private, then eating a normal meal after I'd already eaten enough for 2 people. I'm a work in progress for sure!

Im an emotional eater to begin with (im trying really hard to break it but everyday is a struggle), but when i used to go to sonic i ordered a double cheeseburger, the foot long hotdog with chili and cheese and a popcorn chicken. and i finished every last bit too. i really try not to eat fast food anymore!

I used to binge drink and think nothing of going out on a Friday night and drinking 12 pints of lager :drinker:

Then the same night I used to leave my friends or boyfriend early giving the excuse that I was tired and went home alone and stuffed myself silly with whatever food I could get my hands on. I in particularly liked fried chicken and ordered the family bucket and sides and eat it all myself all whilst saying it didn't matter - it was because I was drunk and needed to sober up etc or I convinced myself it didn't matter when drunk - if that makes sense!!

Looking back I was definately a binge eater and drinker and also a secret eater. Hiding food from others was then easier to hide it from myself and pretend it wasn't happening.

For many years, I was strict with what I ate, but then I just didn't care. I couldn't eat a lot at a time, but I'd order high calorie junk and I would spread it out over the whole day. I did a calculation once, just messing around a couple months after I joined MFP. I was consuming 2000-3000 calories a day of pure crap. Carbs and fats like you wouldn't believe! On my last GRI trip for Real Estate before I had started trying to lose weight, I was consuming 2-3 sugary, but nonfat Frappuccinos a day. I would eat the Jack Daniels Ribs and Chicken from TGI Fridays and all the fries. There was usually always a stop involved at Jersey Mike's for a Meatball Sub, as well. And a guaranteed stop for a GIgi's Cupcake before I went home. Almost every single day at my office, my husband was bringing me fast food for lunch. Arby's, Whataburger, Fat Daddy's (to die for Onion Rings!)... It was a horrible cycle.

I still have some anxiety over restaurants to this day, after now dropping 53 lbs (I dropped 11 before MFP). I have probably memorized the calories of the dishes of most major restaurants. I am slowly learning to let go of that anxiety as I realize this is a total lifestyle change and I am not going to gain everything back because I went to one nice meal with my husband. If I did it every single day, that would be different...

I still have some fears of gaining it back. Essentially, I'm in maintenance now, but I wouldn't mind losing another 3-5 lbs. I am happy at this size. I don't want to lose that again. I am smaller built now than I was 2 years ago when I started gaining all the weight back because now I exercise frequently. I want to stay this way. I've come to depend on the support of this site. I don't think I do it alone. Thanks for the vent/confessional! I feel like the biggest glutton ever, but I know I've come a long ways and can still have the things I love, but in healthier versions now.