support for Binge Eating Disorder

I'm so happy to have found a group of people here talking about this issue and supporting one another!!

I was diagnosed with non-purging bulimia (bingeing and then restrictive dieting/excessive exercise/laxative use to "make up for it") about six years ago. Although I have improved some, I still have a long way to go. Due to the NPB, I've been on a weight rollercoaster for almost ten years, and I am now determined to STOP the madness and take control. I have been on MFP for about 6 weeks now and today had my first true binge since joining. I was feeling really worthless and empty emotionally and I guess I was trying to stuff that emptiness full of ice cream. But it only made me feel all the more empty in the end.

I need some support and I hope I can help support all of you in your journeys to overcome this beast too.

I feel like it would be good for me to set some little "baby-step" goals for myself to shoot towards, so here's my first:

GOAL: NO MORE "punishing" by restricting! If I have a bad day and binge, I will come to this board or sit down with a notebook, get all of those ugly feelings out, FORGIVE myself and MOVE ON! Trying to make up for my binge by starving myself the next day or two is only pushing the rollercoaster uphill for the next crash.

I'd like to hear what everyone else's current goals are as well so maybe we can help one another acheive them!

Finally, I love, love, LOVE this! "It's what I do" is such a confident way to assure myself that I AM, indeed changing my behaviors for good, and that I WILL conquer this beast! Thanks so much for this!

Develop the mantra; "It's What I Do"
When you don't feel like exercising remind yourself: "It's What I Do"... then do it!
When you don't want to pass up dessert, remind yourself: "It's What I Do"... then pass it up!
When you feel too tired to write in your food and exercise journals, remind yourself: "It's What I Do"... then do it!

On that note, I agree. I am doing that same thing myself. After departing from the trainer/coach I have been having a difficult time holding myself accountable for every little thing. So I needed to take it WAY BACK! For the past 3-4 weeks I have been so frustrated with myself and over this past weekend I made the decision to just cut my focus back and make my goals more attainable for myself right now. For example, I'm having a hard time keeping to the same "formula" the nutrition coach advised. Like my sugars have been out of control and then I don't even want to log and then not logging allows me to lose sight of the big picture which is calories. So now my focus is just calories (for now) to bring me back in the game and to keep me from saying "screw it all" and I know that's not what I want anyhow. Same with exercise, I'm getting mad at myself for not continuing with the strength training on my own and I need to at least do something everyday even if it is just a quick walk. I need to get myself out of the all or nothing mentality with these things right now.

You will get their Diane. This is called trainer withdrawal. I had it when I had a trainer for 6 months. I hope you come out of your funk sooner than I did. Start with baby steps and do the best you can.

Molly, this was really helpful this morning to know that what I'm experiencing is something someone else experienced too, so thank you very much for sharing that.

Hey!

No binging today! What I'm doing is not counting fruits and vegs on my cals count untill I can get a better grip on my food. I find if I put to much ristrictions on my food I will binge so I eat as much of fruits and vegs for know then I will work on the other things. Like you guys were saying on step at a time. Tks again for all the surport.

Melissa

Great idea!

Hey!

So day 2 of no binging started pretty good. But I had a mini binge this afternoon but not beating myself up. And I was able to stop myself before it got out of hand. So I'm happy with myself for stopping when I did because I was rdy for way more food. One little problem not a big deal forgive and move on. Yay for me!

Melissa

The rest of the day will be great!

I'm so happy to have found a group of people here talking about this issue and supporting one another!!

I was diagnosed with non-purging bulimia (bingeing and then restrictive dieting/excessive exercise/laxative use to "make up for it") about six years ago. Although I have improved some, I still have a long way to go. Due to the NPB, I've been on a weight rollercoaster for almost ten years, and I am now determined to STOP the madness and take control. I have been on MFP for about 6 weeks now and today had my first true binge since joining. I was feeling really worthless and empty emotionally and I guess I was trying to stuff that emptiness full of ice cream. But it only made me feel all the more empty in the end.

I need some support and I hope I can help support all of you in your journeys to overcome this beast too.

I feel like it would be good for me to set some little "baby-step" goals for myself to shoot towards, so here's my first:

GOAL: NO MORE "punishing" by restricting! If I have a bad day and binge, I will come to this board or sit down with a notebook, get all of those ugly feelings out, FORGIVE myself and MOVE ON! Trying to make up for my binge by starving myself the next day or two is only pushing the rollercoaster uphill for the next crash.

I'd like to hear what everyone else's current goals are as well so maybe we can help one another acheive them!

Finally, I love, love, LOVE this! "It's what I do" is such a confident way to assure myself that I AM, indeed changing my behaviors for good, and that I WILL conquer this beast! Thanks so much for this!

Develop the mantra; "It's What I Do"
When you don't feel like exercising remind yourself: "It's What I Do"... then do it!
When you don't want to pass up dessert, remind yourself: "It's What I Do"... then pass it up!
When you feel too tired to write in your food and exercise journals, remind yourself: "It's What I Do"... then do it!

Welcome Malpal!! What a great idea!! and I love the It's What I do mantra too. So much better than Just do it.....:-) My current goal regarding eating is no fried foods or fast foods one in the same for me for the rest of the month. It was suppose to be the whole month but I failed the 1st 2 days but not giving up or in because of 2 mistakes. It is hump day and I passed on Popeyes' chicken special yesterday! So I am doing good so far, no fast (FAT) foods for me since Sunday. My nick name for fast foods is FAT foods. It helps me remember fast foods make us FAT. Ok maybe not 100 percent true for most but it is for me!

Thanks for sharing and posting! Again wonderful idea!

Happy to report I met my goal. 8 cups of water, 2 cups of G2 (Gatorade).

Nicely done yourself Melissa! :flowerforyou:

Congrats Mollie on no FAT. LOL. Yeah, I really like your word for it. Helps me think about it like that too.

Congratulations to everyone on your successes!

I had a great day yesterday, then a little slip up today. Nothing monumental, I was able to stop myself before the feeling of total disgust, but I ate mindlessly after work, about double of what the meal should have been. TOM is here and it always gets me!

Hey!

So I had a mini binge today. What I learned is when I want one thing I should just have a little instead of eating other foods to mask it. Lesson learned the rest of the day will be great. Also was albe to stop myself before it got out of control. Good luck to everyone else.

Melissa