Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »kellienw335 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »I confess that I always feel a tinge of wistful regret when I'm doing really well with my exercise and calorie goals, because I don't have anything to confess! :-O
I confess after a few folks complained about the lack of interesting confessions yesterday I tried to wrack my brain to find some but I think I may have confessed everything (well....everything I am ever going to confess in a public ... even anonymous ... forum). I didn't want some key folks to abandon us!
I like what this thread has morphed into! It's an even balance of confessing, supporting, venting, and laughing and I look forward to it!
I totally agree! It's like a huge, nonjudgemental group of friends have come together to party and celebrate good times, commiserate in bad times, and joke about embarrassing moments and confessions without any judgement. It's my favorite thread!
I love that about this thread. Its my favourite thread of any forum I'm a member of. I check in pretty much daily and i love hearing people's stories, daily life, rants and successes, even if they are not weight loss related. It reminds me that we're all human, we are fallible, and success is measured by our ability to pick ourselves up and dust ourselves down.
This thread has been great for motivating me in so many ways, and giving me a place to vent/confess when i am less than perfect. I hope it keeps going.
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pofoster21 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »girldownsouth wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »I'm having a bad day. We are going climbing in Brecon at the weekend, as preparation for the Ben Nevis challenge. I need a new coat. My boyfriend has been pulling out of various cupboards a collection of goretex coats. I have very subtly been telling him not to bother, i'll find my own, that i like, that fits properly etc. Last night he made me try on all of these coats. Not one of them fitted around my hips. It was a long exercise in humiliation. His comment was, 'oh you need one the same size as me then'. It didn't help. I went to bed and cried. Yes, i know I'm fat. I don't need to parade that in front of the people I love. I'm beginning to think this whole Ben Nevis idea was ridiculous. A woman my size has no business trying to climb mountains. Apologies for the self pitying rant. Feel very low today
I totally know how you feel. I hate getting handed lab coats on site visits and knowing there's no way it'll do up and having to get get one that drowns me most places to do up over my hips. My favourite situation is when they apologise that they only have xxl or something and they're too big for everyone.
You can definitely climb that mountain though. Go out and get a coat you feel comfortable in and you can do it!
Yeah my hips are frigging massive
Although 3 inches down on size from last month). The problem is, the high street outdoor shops don't cater to coats in my size (that have to accomodate my gargantuan hips, a wicking top, a mid-layer fleece and a top fleece). Anyway, out of hurt and anger this morning, I've ordered a £200 coat from Berghaus to try, in cherry pink!orangesmartie wrote: »I'm having a bad day. We are going climbing in Brecon at the weekend, as preparation for the Ben Nevis challenge. I need a new coat. My boyfriend has been pulling out of various cupboards a collection of goretex coats. I have very subtly been telling him not to bother, i'll find my own, that i like, that fits properly etc. Last night he made me try on all of these coats. Not one of them fitted around my hips. It was a long exercise in humiliation. His comment was, 'oh you need one the same size as me then'. It didn't help. I went to bed and cried. Yes, i know I'm fat. I don't need to parade that in front of the people I love. I'm beginning to think this whole Ben Nevis idea was ridiculous. A woman my size has no business trying to climb mountains. Apologies for the self pitying rant. Feel very low today
Oh my gosh you so have to climb it! I would love to climb it, but my SO isn't into that kind of thing so you have to climb it for me! And what are you on about "woman my size", you can be the first woman your size to climb it then
Don't let a coat put you off the idea, once you do the challenge you will realise a coat is a coat and it is totally worth getting it in a slightly bigger size. About 8 years ago (and 3 stone lighter) I travelled around Borneo for a month and I climbed Mt. Kinabalu which is 4,095.2m or 13,435.7ft above sea level and I was 13st which is... about 170lbs. It was a struggle but it was damn worth it once you get to the top!
I am really excited about the climb (it was people here that persuaded me i could do it) and I'm so looking forward to it. My boyfriend has now decided he is going to do it with me (its an overnight climb, in the dark, on behalf of the alzheimer's society). I don't have a problem with having to get a bigger sized coat, i have a problem finding a bigger sized coat, and i have a bigger problem trying on a succession of coats that don't fit and having to say to my partners, nope, too small and generally feeling like crap about myself (my problem, not theirs). Outdoor shops do not cater to 15 stone women who want to climb mountains.
I will climb it for you Lois
I'll be posting pics and videos on my justgiving page (which you can get through my profile) so you can experience it yourself
I wouldn't have said either of my partners would do this either, although my boyfriend used to be in the army, those days are long gone. But after i signed up to climb Ben Nevis, my boyfriend decided he would too, which I think is great for him, because its encouraged him to go to the gym and get fitter. My girlfriend won't do it, says she couldn't, but is coming climbing in Brecon at the weekend, so we've found an activity that we all like to do together, that isn't sitting in front of a screen.
You should feel great about yourself on multiple levels for this...your selflessness to raise funds for alzheimers, that you are willing to do this and that you can do it, your sense of adventure, and the cherry pink coat sounds awesome! Finishing it will bring you a lifetime of pride. In marathons and triathlons, people along the road always hold up signs like... pain is temporary, pride is forever...the accomplishment is not in finishing, its that you had the courage to start, etc. Don't worry about your coat, get one that you like and fits, and then have a great time! Glad you have someone to do it with!
Thank you!
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Do itpofoster21 wrote: »Okay, I have one (posting during work so you know my mind is NOT on work today) I am SO excited my company is buying another very large, very well known company (just announce today but I am weird about putting the name of the company I work for in this forum even though everyone can probably figure this out). I want in on this merger activity. I am going to throw my hat in the ring with my VP. I need a new challenge, I love complex projects that involve lots of teams and new situations, and my dissertation was on the organizational dynamics of mergers.
Win/Win right? Then I get scared to think about pursuing it. What if they aren't interested in me? What if I fail? What if I try to get in and get told 'no you are needed in your current job' but it back fires on me. What if I suck at it?
My friend says I am the most arrogantly insecure person she knows. Both are coming out today. But I feel like someone just dropped a gift in my lap with this... I need a distraction (between what is going on with my horse), company probably going to end up selling my area of the business, I am not in the spotlight right now. This could be just what I needed. I think its fate (even though not sure I believe in that) and I am going to pursue it with everything I have.
I think....
Do it. Throw your hat into the ring. The worst they can say is, 'not at the moment'. and thats ok too. the universe has a plan for you and everything is for a reason, if you are bold enough to take the first step. Its all good learning. And you'll probably be awesome at it. Senior managers will be wondering who they can second to do it and would jump at the chance of a keen, self motivated volunteer.
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orangesmartie wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »girldownsouth wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »I'm having a bad day. We are going climbing in Brecon at the weekend, as preparation for the Ben Nevis challenge. I need a new coat. My boyfriend has been pulling out of various cupboards a collection of goretex coats. I have very subtly been telling him not to bother, i'll find my own, that i like, that fits properly etc. Last night he made me try on all of these coats. Not one of them fitted around my hips. It was a long exercise in humiliation. His comment was, 'oh you need one the same size as me then'. It didn't help. I went to bed and cried. Yes, i know I'm fat. I don't need to parade that in front of the people I love. I'm beginning to think this whole Ben Nevis idea was ridiculous. A woman my size has no business trying to climb mountains. Apologies for the self pitying rant. Feel very low today
I totally know how you feel. I hate getting handed lab coats on site visits and knowing there's no way it'll do up and having to get get one that drowns me most places to do up over my hips. My favourite situation is when they apologise that they only have xxl or something and they're too big for everyone.
You can definitely climb that mountain though. Go out and get a coat you feel comfortable in and you can do it!
Yeah my hips are frigging massive Although 3 inches down on size from last month). The problem is, the high street outdoor shops don't cater to coats in my size (that have to accomodate my gargantuan hips, a wicking top, a mid-layer fleece and a top fleece). Anyway, out of hurt and anger this morning, I've ordered a £200 coat from Berghaus to try, in cherry pink!orangesmartie wrote: »I'm having a bad day. We are going climbing in Brecon at the weekend, as preparation for the Ben Nevis challenge. I need a new coat. My boyfriend has been pulling out of various cupboards a collection of goretex coats. I have very subtly been telling him not to bother, i'll find my own, that i like, that fits properly etc. Last night he made me try on all of these coats. Not one of them fitted around my hips. It was a long exercise in humiliation. His comment was, 'oh you need one the same size as me then'. It didn't help. I went to bed and cried. Yes, i know I'm fat. I don't need to parade that in front of the people I love. I'm beginning to think this whole Ben Nevis idea was ridiculous. A woman my size has no business trying to climb mountains. Apologies for the self pitying rant. Feel very low today
Oh my gosh you so have to climb it! I would love to climb it, but my SO isn't into that kind of thing so you have to climb it for me! And what are you on about "woman my size", you can be the first woman your size to climb it then Don't let a coat put you off the idea, once you do the challenge you will realise a coat is a coat and it is totally worth getting it in a slightly bigger size. About 8 years ago (and 3 stone lighter) I travelled around Borneo for a month and I climbed Mt. Kinabalu which is 4,095.2m or 13,435.7ft above sea level and I was 13st which is... about 170lbs. It was a struggle but it was damn worth it once you get to the top!
I am really excited about the climb (it was people here that persuaded me i could do it) and I'm so looking forward to it. My boyfriend has now decided he is going to do it with me (its an overnight climb, in the dark, on behalf of the alzheimer's society). I don't have a problem with having to get a bigger sized coat, i have a problem finding a bigger sized coat, and i have a bigger problem trying on a succession of coats that don't fit and having to say to my partners, nope, too small and generally feeling like crap about myself (my problem, not theirs). Outdoor shops do not cater to 15 stone women who want to climb mountains.
I will climb it for you Lois I'll be posting pics and videos on my justgiving page (which you can get through my profile) so you can experience it yourself
I wouldn't have said either of my partners would do this either, although my boyfriend used to be in the army, those days are long gone. But after i signed up to climb Ben Nevis, my boyfriend decided he would too, which I think is great for him, because its encouraged him to go to the gym and get fitter. My girlfriend won't do it, says she couldn't, but is coming climbing in Brecon at the weekend, so we've found an activity that we all like to do together, that isn't sitting in front of a screen.
Yea I completely get that. I despise clothes shopping and I despise changing rooms even more. If I have a good day I'll pick up all the clothes I'm brave enough to try on and then face the corner of the cubical changing until I'm dressed. I cannot bear to look at myself when I get dressed. Even at home I face away from the mirror until I'm done. So many times I've gone clothes shopping and ended in a puddle of tears because nothing fits.
I'm sure your girlfriend will change her mind after the climb this weekend. It would be good if you did it as a threesome, and it's great you have found something to do. Is it climbing as in wall climbing or climbing as in hiking? If its wall climbing you will have amazing arms!
Thank you for climbing it for me! I might have to Photoshop myself into a picture of the top! lol
Its hill climbing/hiking. We're going to Brecon in Wales this weekend, to do the 'fan dance', which is the UK Special Forces selection training ground. I'm intending to take it as a nice amble - and an excuse for a nice pub meal after!
LOL photoshop away!
Hell yes! The most of Wales I've seen is Cardiff. I kinda got stuck in Kent. I'm getting better, drove to Torquay for a holiday last summer, and my SO's dad lives in Liverpool so I drive there twice a year. Need to find somewhere for this summer yet.
Gonna have to look up 'Fan Dance' sounds fun, right up to the words UK Special Forces...then it didn't sound so fun. lol
Of! I live in Torquay on weekends! (London in the week).
I'll let you know how the fan dance is, I think it sounds fun!
Oh my god just for the weekend? I had a nightmare drive down, it took 6 hours! We got caught up in three places. I was going to stop off at Stone Henge but the traffic was so bad I just wanted to get there. lol
LOLOL it is a bit of a nightmare coming round from Kent. I live at the top of the M4 so its less hassle - but going down the A303 is never a good journey, particular during school holidays. I can do the journey door to door in about 2hrs 40 mins with no stops, but i leave late at night on Thursday and come back late on sunday.
EDIT: Apologies for the posting splurt! I'm catching up
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Confession: This was the first thread I opened when I joined MFP, it was at 9.5K and I've been lurking for weeks!
Got up to page 397 before giving up and skipping to the end. It's been most entertaining, though I feel like a bit of a stalker knowing all this stuff about people without contributing heh0 -
raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »
Whoops hit reply too soon lol, I was saying I'm beyond impressed, even after having to update the software on both phones. Never going back to android again lol!raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Oh my god, why the hell didn't we get iPhones sooner?!?! I'm beyond impressed, even after having to update the spft
THAT is totally how I felt. I loved my Blackberry because it still had actual buttons but once I got an iPhone, game over for Blackberry. I can tell you I have had my iPhone for 129 days because that is how long my steak on MFP is. There is no excuse for not logging in with an iPhone.0 -
Confession: I had a garage sale last weekend and 2 ladies came in that were obviously sisters and both had noticeable tummies. I asked them if they were sisters and they said yes. I said "How fun, you get to have babies around the same time" Ummm, one had her baby 3 weeks ago. I felt so bad. I immediately apologized. Twice. In my defense, they were slim and 3 weeks postpartem is completely normal to still be carrying a belly. Never the less, I did not comment on anyone else's baby bump the rest of the weekend. Still feel bad about it
See bolded above.
Even as a single woman who has never actually birthed a living child, I wish the whole world knew this.
This is an issue and society needs to get its collective *kitten* together. Women do not pop out babies and magically get their figures back. That only happens to genetic anomalies like Heidi Klum who has ACTIVELY TOLD EVERY ONE that she is NOT the norm and she is GENETICALLY BLESSED to be that way.
Confession: This topic is a sore spot for me even though I have never given birth. I'm not quite sure why....0 -
I started doing Botox this year and it has changed my life - I still sweat, but I don't end up with massive wet patches down my arms when I'm anxious (so always) or when I'm hot. It's amazing.dearmrsowl wrote: »I suffer from hyperhidrosis (extreme sweating) which makes working out at the gym impossible. I have the sweating under control during every day activities thanks to a special solution from the pharmacy. During my teenage years I only wore black or white t-shirts so people wouldn't see the stains under my arm pits. I'm so glad that at least that is over but working out (no matter if cardio or strength) leaves me and the floor around me as wet as if I just stepped out of the shower and I really wouldn't want to bother anyone with that at a gym.
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Yay my new (pink!) coat came, and it fits, even with a fleece underneath!0
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orangesmartie wrote: »Yay my new (pink!) coat came, and it fits, even with a fleece underneath!
Yay! It was meant to be!0 -
Confession: This was the first thread I opened when I joined MFP, it was at 9.5K and I've been lurking for weeks!
Got up to page 397 before giving up and skipping to the end. It's been most entertaining, though I feel like a bit of a stalker knowing all this stuff about people without contributing heh
Time to join in! Throw out some confessions!0 -
I love how mfp is laid out on this phone now instead of my droid. So much faster and user friendly! Worth the $200 I think lol.raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »
Whoops hit reply too soon lol, I was saying I'm beyond impressed, even after having to update the software on both phones. Never going back to android again lol!raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Oh my god, why the hell didn't we get iPhones sooner?!?! I'm beyond impressed, even after having to update the spft
THAT is totally how I felt. I loved my Blackberry because it still had actual buttons but once I got an iPhone, game over for Blackberry. I can tell you I have had my iPhone for 129 days because that is how long my steak on MFP is. There is no excuse for not logging in with an iPhone.
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dearmrsowl wrote: »I suffer from hyperhidrosis (extreme sweating) which makes working out at the gym impossible. I have the sweating under control during every day activities thanks to a special solution from the pharmacy. During my teenage years I only wore black or white t-shirts so people wouldn't see the stains under my arm pits. I'm so glad that at least that is over but working out (no matter if cardio or strength) leaves me and the floor around me as wet as if I just stepped out of the shower and I really wouldn't want to bother anyone with that at a gym.
Personally, I wouldn't worry about it. Every time I see someone at the gym sweating profusely, always think "wow, they must be working out way harder than me"!0 -
I bought two bags of Haribo Tangfastic today, they were always my favourite sweets and I've been craving them recently. Instead of eating them all in one go like I used to I've portioned the two bags into 8 mini bags, so I can have a little taste every day without going over my calories.0
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My allergies are so bad. My head is pounding. I usually cook a healthy, gluten-free (20 years) dinner from scratch. Tonight all I can think of is buttery onion mashed potatoes and gravy and bacon. I have the food cooking now. Potatoes and broth and onions are going in the pressure cooker. Bacon in the oven. Is that even a meal? My mom card may be revoked!
Edit to add: My daughter has already eaten but my son thinks it is a good meal. sigh.
Edit #2
I pressure cooked the potatoes in their skins with a whole (peeled) sweet onion using just a bit of water and some miso for broth. I peeled the potatoes and used some of the cooking broth to add while I blended them. They would have been better with leek than onion, but I had onion. They were very creamy and tasty and no added fat. I skipped the gravy.... and I baked the bacon then blotted it well. I guess it was really no worse than a baked potato and two strips of bacon. it hit the spot and I don't feel quite as guilty,
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pofoster21 wrote: »
That's funny. The people at the barn call me Pof because I put my initials on everything. POOF would be a new one.
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About Iphones - I hate Apple. After having to buy a bunch of songs I got on Itunes again when I got my android, I swore I'd never use an Apple product again.
Woke up with a sore throat and I've already wasted 70 calories on random vitamins and cold medicines and I'm extremely sad about this.0 -
Confession: This was the first thread I opened when I joined MFP, it was at 9.5K and I've been lurking for weeks!
Got up to page 397 before giving up and skipping to the end. It's been most entertaining, though I feel like a bit of a stalker knowing all this stuff about people without contributing heh
First post on MFP! Welcome!0 -
Sooo very tired this morning. I didn't want to cycle in to work but it's supposed to be mid-70's today and I knew if I didn't, I would regret it, so I did and I am glad but it's def going to be an early bedtime for me tonight.
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I always feel really deflated when I come out of the gym. I really can't shake the feeling that the gym staff are talking about me and its starting to make me really uncomfortable. It is one guy in particular and he was the one I had to do my induction with. I don't know if it is a coincidence but whenever I get going he will walk over to another member of staff, start talking and they will start looking over at me. I was so close to bursting into tears and walking out today. I just can't zone it out. I'm sure it's me being paranoid, but I've never been paranoid about it before. I'm not paranoid when I swim in the same leisure centre or going running in the park. It is really putting me off going.0
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berlynnwall wrote: »I didn't eat all day because I was busy running around and it just didn't happen. I made up for it just now by eating pretty much all of my daily calories in enchiladas.
Yum. I cannot control myself when my mom makes enchiladas. I always go back for seconds, no matter what.
Ooh, I need some of my mom's chicken enchiladas. It's been a long time. Need a big deficit for that, though. LOL0 -
cnoonannurse wrote: »CONFESSION: I skipped dinner this evening so I could have a slice of red velvet cheesecake and a cup of coffee this evening. Only miss d my calorie goal by 1...no regrets:)
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Confession: This was the first thread I opened when I joined MFP, it was at 9.5K and I've been lurking for weeks!
Got up to page 397 before giving up and skipping to the end. It's been most entertaining, though I feel like a bit of a stalker knowing all this stuff about people without contributing heh
Welcome to the fun!
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orangesmartie wrote: »Yay my new (pink!) coat came, and it fits, even with a fleece underneath!
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I always feel really deflated when I come out of the gym. I really can't shake the feeling that the gym staff are talking about me and its starting to make me really uncomfortable. It is one guy in particular and he was the one I had to do my induction with. I don't know if it is a coincidence but whenever I get going he will walk over to another member of staff, start talking and they will start looking over at me. I was so close to bursting into tears and walking out today. I just can't zone it out. I'm sure it's me being paranoid, but I've never been paranoid about it before. I'm not paranoid when I swim in the same leisure centre or going running in the park. It is really putting me off going.
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I always feel really deflated when I come out of the gym. I really can't shake the feeling that the gym staff are talking about me and its starting to make me really uncomfortable. It is one guy in particular and he was the one I had to do my induction with. I don't know if it is a coincidence but whenever I get going he will walk over to another member of staff, start talking and they will start looking over at me. I was so close to bursting into tears and walking out today. I just can't zone it out. I'm sure it's me being paranoid, but I've never been paranoid about it before. I'm not paranoid when I swim in the same leisure centre or going running in the park. It is really putting me off going.
Screw them! Show them what you can do!0 -
cnoonannurse wrote: »CONFESSION: I skipped dinner this evening so I could have a slice of red velvet cheesecake and a cup of coffee this evening. Only miss d my calorie goal by 1...no regrets:)
*high five*
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Ok, I'm caught up. Here's my confession of the day: I gave blood yesterday. I had the juice, a cookie, and raisins after. An hour later I went to a meeting with people I had never met before...and passed out. So embarrassing! I then decided I needed to "get my blood sugar up." So I ate chocolate, ice cream, and more chocolate. I logged it all and ended up 1007 calories over for the day. I am going to have to work hard through the week to mitigate that!0
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"Resentful" is my word of the day. I'm feeling resentful because: 1) the soup I made to eat this week for lunch is way too salty but I have to eat it because I can't afford to waste the money on something else; 2) said soup is causing water weight gain and messing with the number on the scale (up 2 pounds when I'm only eating about 1230 calories per day and it's pissing me off even though I know it's not a *true* gain); 3) I've been volunteered to do a project that I don't want to do and will take me hours and hours but saying "no" isn't a choice (it's for my mom); and 4) my go-to for when I feel like this is still to want to eat all the food, and I'm sick of having that thought pop into my head even though I'm getting better at ignoring it. Blergh.0
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kellienw335 wrote: »I always feel really deflated when I come out of the gym. I really can't shake the feeling that the gym staff are talking about me and its starting to make me really uncomfortable. It is one guy in particular and he was the one I had to do my induction with. I don't know if it is a coincidence but whenever I get going he will walk over to another member of staff, start talking and they will start looking over at me. I was so close to bursting into tears and walking out today. I just can't zone it out. I'm sure it's me being paranoid, but I've never been paranoid about it before. I'm not paranoid when I swim in the same leisure centre or going running in the park. It is really putting me off going.
It's just a coincidence! Focus on something else!quiksylver296 wrote: »I always feel really deflated when I come out of the gym. I really can't shake the feeling that the gym staff are talking about me and its starting to make me really uncomfortable. It is one guy in particular and he was the one I had to do my induction with. I don't know if it is a coincidence but whenever I get going he will walk over to another member of staff, start talking and they will start looking over at me. I was so close to bursting into tears and walking out today. I just can't zone it out. I'm sure it's me being paranoid, but I've never been paranoid about it before. I'm not paranoid when I swim in the same leisure centre or going running in the park. It is really putting me off going.
Screw them! Show them what you can do!
Argh I really can't. It's been going on for about 6 weeks now. I'm not locked into a contract so I could move gyms...
Any gym routine's you can suggest? I started NROLFW but I couldn't get on with the schedule on week 2 and it kind of collapsed after that. Now I just do bodyweight resistance training and interval training on the static bike.0
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