Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

bnhbookworm03 wrote: »

As a person who has suffered from various forms of disordered eating I am terrified of trying to lose the weight again. I know I need to for health reasons but I am literally terrified I am going to take it to the extreme and get obsessed and end up in a very bad mental state.

Welcome and hugs. Is there a way to work with a counselor as you do it?

CosmoTI wrote: »

crosbylee wrote: »

CosmoTI wrote: »

Not sure how active people are in here during my daytime(UK) but after quick advice.
I'm having one of my periods of not sleeping- basically just because my body refuses to.(I've had about 8 hours over 3 days) I managed to do a (poor) weights workout yesterday but am wondering whether I'm just being a wimp by reconsidering working out today also or if I should just give my body a rest?
I'm currently feeling very on edge. I'm seriously about 1 snarky comment away from punching someone in work. I was already stressed as a member of senior management is currently undermining all my decisions for what I can only assume is his own personal amusement considering there is no actual business justification for it - but everything seems to be pushing me closer to breaking point today! Not sure if working out would help the stress or kill me..

And on a completely different note from a few pages back -books, not read Stephen King for years after Insomnia (as in the book not my condition!) put me off, any recommendations anyone?

I think I would claim a mental health day and not go to work!! Sounds like you need some down time. As for the books, keep reading King. They get better.

Thanks. I may go home soon considering I have just sent an email meant for my boss to my boyfriend by accident. On the plus side....at least it wasn't the other way round!!!

I once got a pretty risque email about some weekend plans at work from a coworker whose wife's first name and first two letters of last name were the same as mine, he did not even notice it populated my email address instead of hers. He was very embarrassed. I just replied with something like - Can I bring my husband?

CountessKitteh wrote: »

MelissaPhippsFeagins wrote: »

bkhamill wrote: »

Confession: Here is my ridiculous confession for today. I was craving something sweet, (pie) and went (via stairs) to 4 different vending machines in the building, until I found it! the glorious Mrs. Bairds Apple Pie! I inserted my dollar, punched the letter/number combo for the pie, and voila!! the machine gives me a roll of pep o mint life savers. (I hit the wrong letter) It was my last one dollar bill!!! It was like my subconscious was keeping me from having that 400 calorie pie. I am not even a fan of the pep o mint life savers!

When my head started hurting during court today, I would have paid you a dollar for one Pep-o-mint life saver. I don't know why, but peppermint stops my headaches almost immediately.

THIS! I keep super minty gum on me all the time for that very reason. It's an instant-stop until the aspirin can kick in.

Testing this out, I have a headache right now, and I am opening the unwanted pep-o-mints now.

LadyLots2Lose wrote: »

I eat food that is past the use by or best before date if it still looks/tastes ok. I'll chop mouldy parts of cheese, and vegetables and use the unspoiled parts. I've consumed milk that was nearly a month out of date because it still tasted ok and only bin food if it's well beyond edible.

i totally do this.
part of my food hoarding/super couponing issue.
unless i'm drinking it straight, there's no way i could use 12 bottles of bbq sauce by the best before date!

bkhamill wrote: »

CosmoTI wrote: »

crosbylee wrote: »

CosmoTI wrote: »

Not sure how active people are in here during my daytime(UK) but after quick advice.
I'm having one of my periods of not sleeping- basically just because my body refuses to.(I've had about 8 hours over 3 days) I managed to do a (poor) weights workout yesterday but am wondering whether I'm just being a wimp by reconsidering working out today also or if I should just give my body a rest?
I'm currently feeling very on edge. I'm seriously about 1 snarky comment away from punching someone in work. I was already stressed as a member of senior management is currently undermining all my decisions for what I can only assume is his own personal amusement considering there is no actual business justification for it - but everything seems to be pushing me closer to breaking point today! Not sure if working out would help the stress or kill me..

And on a completely different note from a few pages back -books, not read Stephen King for years after Insomnia (as in the book not my condition!) put me off, any recommendations anyone?

I think I would claim a mental health day and not go to work!! Sounds like you need some down time. As for the books, keep reading King. They get better.

Thanks. I may go home soon considering I have just sent an email meant for my boss to my boyfriend by accident. On the plus side....at least it wasn't the other way round!!!

I once got a pretty risque email about some weekend plans at work from a coworker whose wife's first name and first two letters of last name were the same as mine, he did not even notice it populated my email address instead of hers. He was very embarrassed. I just replied with something like - Can I bring my husband?

I love that response. And from prior allusions wonder what would have happened if he'd said ok...

kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »

pofoster21 wrote: »

kelly_c_77 wrote: »

hevans120786 wrote: »

arditarose wrote: »

sigh...When I found that I couldn't eat peanut butter in moderation, and had to get it out of my apartment ASAP, I not only threw it away-I drowned the jar in water first so I wouldn't be tempted...

I can't believe I shared that.

I did the same thing!! Except instead of water I put dish soap in it. I didn't think drowning it in water would be enough to keep from digging it out of the trash can...

@MoHousdon, have you gotten BINGO yet?

I still love when this one shows up. It's my absolute favorite.

I am surprised no one has quoted the cocoa powder confession for awhile.

True. I've seen quite a few about not washing sweaty workout clothes lately.

KylerJaye wrote: »

Italian_Buju wrote: »

spacequiztime wrote: »

I love both seasons of TD. Vince Vaughn was the weakest part of season 2 but I even liked how his character's arch ended.

I'm really just watching Narcos (...well, trying to stay still long enough to watch it on the desktop) and Fear the Walking Dead atm
I WAS watching Hannibal, but that ended prematurely last week. It did have a perfect ending.

Glad to hear the bat was negative @ShibaEars !

ejb060793 wrote: »

Someone sent me a pretty nasty message earlier. In return, I ate 5 pieces of bacon (was going to be a pound but it burnt me and fell on the floor, and as mopey as I was, I won't eat floor bacon), grape juice (I've been drinking water only for quite a while, with the exception of an occasional glass of OJ) a big bowl of cereal (I didn't measure, but I guestimate it was 3 cups), and chicken tenders pan fried with mozzarella cheese. My normal 1000 - 1200 calories is pretty well shot. I tried to exercise to make up for it, but I just didn't want to. I'd rather go play a video game and sleep.

Why do people do this? I hope today turns out better!

I wanted to like Hannibal SO BAD, I watched the entire first season and just was not loving it.....

I have Fear of the Walking Dead recorded but have not started it yet.....

i LOVED Hannibal! it totally crushed me when they announced it was cancelled. the finale was last week and i'm still bereft.

fear the walking dead is holding its own. it's only two episodes in, but i really like it thus far.

WOAH HOLD ON A SECOND!!! ALREADY?!?! Welp I know what I will be doing during the long weekend...

KylerJaye wrote: »

Italian_Buju wrote: »

spacequiztime wrote: »

I love both seasons of TD. Vince Vaughn was the weakest part of season 2 but I even liked how his character's arch ended.

I'm really just watching Narcos (...well, trying to stay still long enough to watch it on the desktop) and Fear the Walking Dead atm
I WAS watching Hannibal, but that ended prematurely last week. It did have a perfect ending.

Glad to hear the bat was negative @ShibaEars !

ejb060793 wrote: »

Someone sent me a pretty nasty message earlier. In return, I ate 5 pieces of bacon (was going to be a pound but it burnt me and fell on the floor, and as mopey as I was, I won't eat floor bacon), grape juice (I've been drinking water only for quite a while, with the exception of an occasional glass of OJ) a big bowl of cereal (I didn't measure, but I guestimate it was 3 cups), and chicken tenders pan fried with mozzarella cheese. My normal 1000 - 1200 calories is pretty well shot. I tried to exercise to make up for it, but I just didn't want to. I'd rather go play a video game and sleep.

Why do people do this? I hope today turns out better!

I wanted to like Hannibal SO BAD, I watched the entire first season and just was not loving it.....

I have Fear of the Walking Dead recorded but have not started it yet.....

i LOVED Hannibal! it totally crushed me when they announced it was cancelled. the finale was last week and i'm still bereft.

fear the walking dead is holding its own. it's only two episodes in, but i really like it thus far.

Is it? I love the Walking Dead & was really excited about the new show but I found the first episode incredibly boring & didn't think it needed to be 90 minutes. I didn't bother watching week 2, but maybe I should watch a couple more episodes before giving up on it completely.

CosmoTI wrote: »

ejb060793 wrote: »

pofoster21 wrote: »

ejb060793 wrote: »

Someone sent me a pretty nasty message earlier. In return, I ate 5 pieces of bacon (was going to be a pound but it burnt me and fell on the floor, and as mopey as I was, I won't eat floor bacon), grape juice (I've been drinking water only for quite a while, with the exception of an occasional glass of OJ) a big bowl of cereal (I didn't measure, but I guestimate it was 3 cups), and chicken tenders pan fried with mozzarella cheese. My normal 1000 - 1200 calories is pretty well shot. I tried to exercise to make up for it, but I just didn't want to. I'd rather go play a video game and sleep.

Was the message from someone in MFP?

Yeah, it was. I'm over it now, just took some time. The message was basically just saying that I am a "wanna be med student" and a bunch of other stupid crap. It was really rude and hurtful, but I realized that the user knows nothing about me as a person, and likewise I know nothing about them. For all I know, they could have just been having a horribly crappy day. And for anyone who is curious, after soaking in the tub, lady bits felt much better. I will be more cautious in regards to washing my hands after I touch any spicy foods.

I know it's not easy but my advice is to ignore those people. Stupid people used to get to me until I realised how empty their lives must be that they can spare the time to write you a message to insult you. Imagine how sad they are that they sit at their computer all day conjuring up insults for people. Personally I'd rather be out doing positive things than searching for misery. Almost makes you feel sorry for them- if they weren't such 'no marks' (not sure if that's a scouse term or generally known but I think you'll all get the point).

Despite that we are all allowed to feel sorry for ourselves and binge occasionally. As long as we realise why we are doing it it's progress in my opinion.

On the other issue, suffice it to say I have done similar and feel your pain....

All of this. The people that have nothing better to do than troll on websites are pathetic, in my opinion. They need to go find something useful to do with themselves and stop messing with people who are here legitimately trying to help others and better themselves.

ShibaEars wrote: »

KylerJaye wrote: »

Italian_Buju wrote: »

spacequiztime wrote: »

I love both seasons of TD. Vince Vaughn was the weakest part of season 2 but I even liked how his character's arch ended.

I'm really just watching Narcos (...well, trying to stay still long enough to watch it on the desktop) and Fear the Walking Dead atm
I WAS watching Hannibal, but that ended prematurely last week. It did have a perfect ending.

Glad to hear the bat was negative @ShibaEars !

ejb060793 wrote: »

Someone sent me a pretty nasty message earlier. In return, I ate 5 pieces of bacon (was going to be a pound but it burnt me and fell on the floor, and as mopey as I was, I won't eat floor bacon), grape juice (I've been drinking water only for quite a while, with the exception of an occasional glass of OJ) a big bowl of cereal (I didn't measure, but I guestimate it was 3 cups), and chicken tenders pan fried with mozzarella cheese. My normal 1000 - 1200 calories is pretty well shot. I tried to exercise to make up for it, but I just didn't want to. I'd rather go play a video game and sleep.

Why do people do this? I hope today turns out better!

I wanted to like Hannibal SO BAD, I watched the entire first season and just was not loving it.....

I have Fear of the Walking Dead recorded but have not started it yet.....

i LOVED Hannibal! it totally crushed me when they announced it was cancelled. the finale was last week and i'm still bereft.

fear the walking dead is holding its own. it's only two episodes in, but i really like it thus far.

Is it? I love the Walking Dead & was really excited about the new show but I found the first episode incredibly boring & didn't think it needed to be 90 minutes. I didn't bother watching week 2, but maybe I should watch a couple more episodes before giving up on it completely.

I can promise you it will pick up. Right now is character development. I keep waiting for more, but I guess I expect more since I am a huge fan of The Walking Dead and am way too excited for Season 6.

*post date update*

first date #15

dude was nice enough, and i'd say his photos online to in person reality ratio was a good 75%-80%. which at this point is amazing. lol

he talked. a lot. a real lot.
he picked the place, which apparently is his normal spot because he knew about 60% of the people that came in. which i'm not sure why, but i find that kinda awkward. i'm just idly sitting there while some dude is talking about the next clam bake or tractor pull or whatever. not that fun.

decided to play a round of pool. ok, i fully admit i'm terrible at it, but it's still fun to try. so we're playing the game and a dude stops over and puts a quarter on the table to "hold the next game." alright. so i'm losing epically, dude wins and i've still got most of my balls on the table. which to me has always meant, ok! now you can keep trying and get more practice, so maybe one day you won't suck at pool! awesome! well apparently the quarter dude was in a serious hurry to play, 'cause he comes over and starts pushing the remaining balls into various pockets.

this is super not cool to me. it's flat out rude, and rarely do i ever shy away from letting someone know if i think they're being rude to me. i think my exact line was, dude, what the f**k do you think you're doing? and he's all well yer done yer game is over, i put my quarter on the table. we exchange a few not so polite adjectives, and the dude i'm with? does nothing. just stands there, then quietly says well he's kinda right, and walks with me back to the bar.

dude, seriously? ok whatevs. but i fully admit i struggle to let things go. this issue intensifies after a few beverages. a lil time goes by, the lil jerk is still playing his round of pool, and i just say f it, get up walk over to the pool table, where he's about to go for the eight ball, grab it off of the table, drop it in the corner pocket and say oh? were you playing? 'cause yer done now douche canoe. a few more terse back and forths, i flip him off and go back to the bar. dude i'm there with? never left the bar.

now i get it, guy meets a chick for the first time, i don't expect him to be all knight in shining armor, but can you at least back me up a little? maybe a hey, don't talk to her that way, or dude, that's not cool. something? maybe make sure i'm not over there getting my face bashed in (which i know will happen eventually, my mouth is making sure of it)?

stayed out way too late (shocking, i know!), definitely paying for that aspect of it today. omg. overall? dude was nice, but i wasn't overly attracted to him and he didn't have my back (although he did pay for my beverages, which got him a few points). yeah, soooooo no.

jthurman3 wrote: »

crosbylee wrote: »

Italian_Buju wrote: »

AngryViking1970 wrote: »

crosbylee wrote: »

jthurman3 wrote: »

crosbylee wrote: »

Well, you all were busy over the weekend and just now I am getting a chance to really catch up. @ShibaEars so glad the bat was negative. Huge relief for you!! I don't really get migraines, but I have seen my sister go through them and can sympathize with those of you that do get them. I have been trying to figure out what I want to watch next, but I have been walking more and losing interest in TV and movies pretty much. Give me a good book.

Lee Ann! What are you reading now? I'm a book lover, ever in search of the next great story. :-)

Hope I don't let anyone down, but I love Stephen King. Some of his more recent books I have enjoyed alot. Dr. Sleep is a sequel to The Shining. It was a good one. Then he has tied story lines across a couple of new books with Mr Mercedes and Finders Keepers. I finally got to read 11/22/63. It was an interesting spin on time travel and how changing things can possibly affect the future. Also, a guilty pleasure of mine, I like young adult ficiton and have been reading the Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Clare. I am going to write down some of the books you guys are reading. Most of it for me is pure escape.

Love Stephen King. Love. He is a master at character development, even though a lot of his endings suck. LOL I adore his short stories for the most part, and he's got a new collection coming out in November! *squee*

That I may have to read, his short stuff is amazing!!

Anyone love Rose Madder? That was one of my favorites by him. It is not a short, but really good.

The Bachman Books were some of my favorites. The Long Walk is a favorite.

YES! Mine, too! I have never forgotten that story.

Man, I heard that one for the first time as an audiobook instead of reading it and it is burned in my brain because I listened to it while driving through rural Saskatchewan all night. Dark, silent, deserted roads. I scared the poo out of myself!

I think Stephen King's short stories are stronger than his novels, often, but his characters are second-to-none regardless. There's a bit in the preface to the expanded version of The Stand where he explains his theory on writing scary stuff that I think describes him perfectly, though: "If you can't terrify, horrify. If you can't horrify, go for the gross-out." Hahaha.

The Stand is by far my favourite of his, but Four Past Midnight, Different Seasons, and Full Dark, No Stars are all up there (short story collections). And I just read Doctor Sleep and Mr. Mercedes not long ago as well (campfire reading, both of them, which was the perfect place for it) which went a long way in redeeming him after the last one I read, Under the Dome (which...I won't give spoilers, but worst. ending. ever., another King hallmark.)

Susieq_1994 wrote: »

kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »

spamarie wrote: »

kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »

spamarie wrote: »

clh72569 wrote: »

I peeled the crayon wrappers off my color blind brothers crayons, so he could not read the colors. Then I would get all the crayons.

I'm a mean big sister too. My younger brother had a thing whereby he wouldn't eat broken biscuits (cookies). So if he had annoyed me somehow that day, I would get to the biscuit tin a minute before him and snap every single biscuit cleanly in half. Even if you found the two matching halves, he refused to eat them. No biscuits for him.

He deserved it, he used to eat the ends of my felt tip pens so they wouldn't draw. He'd have green or purple all over his face and deny he'd touched them. I regret nothing.

Hahahaha that's hilarious! Did he have OCD or just wanted a perfect cookie?

No OCD, just a funny 4 year old quirk. He grew out of it. He'll eat anything now (including wet cat food to whoever else owned up to that).

I know I was a naughty child & would get into a lot of stuff I shouldn't have. I am pretty sure I drank laundry detergent & my mom said either my sister or I ate a cigarette butt.

When I was a teenager I would dig into the ice cream & look for all the cookie dough pieces or only take certain parts of the Neapolitan ice cream.

Once, I got into my husband's Nestle Fitness Chocolate cereal, picked out all the chocolate covered pieces, and ate them--I left him all the plain pieces, though! And I don't even have "being a teenager" as defense.

Hah!

I'm the only person in my family that likes cookie dough so I never had to worry about anyone taking the pieces
The second episode of FTWD is better than the first.

bkhamill wrote: »

What happened to the random pictures thread in the batcave?

Its gone to more than one page, so you need to click all discussions.

KylerJaye wrote: »

*post date update*

first date #15

dude was nice enough, and i'd say his photos online to in person reality ratio was a good 75%-80%. which at this point is amazing. lol

he talked. a lot. a real lot.
he picked the place, which apparently is his normal spot because he knew about 60% of the people that came in. which i'm not sure why, but i find that kinda awkward. i'm just idly sitting there while some dude is talking about the next clam bake or tractor pull or whatever. not that fun.

decided to play a round of pool. ok, i fully admit i'm terrible at it, but it's still fun to try. so we're playing the game and a dude stops over and puts a quarter on the table to "hold the next game." alright. so i'm losing epically, dude wins and i've still got most of my balls on the table. which to me has always meant, ok! now you can keep trying and get more practice, so maybe one day you won't suck at pool! awesome! well apparently the quarter dude was in a serious hurry to play, 'cause he comes over and starts pushing the remaining balls into various pockets.

this is super not cool to me. it's flat out rude, and rarely do i ever shy away from letting someone know if i think they're being rude to me. i think my exact line was, dude, what the f**k do you think you're doing? and he's all well yer done yer game is over, i put my quarter on the table. we exchange a few not so polite adjectives, and the dude i'm with? does nothing. just stands there, then quietly says well he's kinda right, and walks with me back to the bar.

dude, seriously? ok whatevs. but i fully admit i struggle to let things go. this issue intensifies after a few beverages. a lil time goes by, the lil jerk is still playing his round of pool, and i just say f it, get up walk over to the pool table, where he's about to go for the eight ball, grab it off of the table, drop it in the corner pocket and say oh? were you playing? 'cause yer done now douche canoe. a few more terse back and forths, i flip him off and go back to the bar. dude i'm there with? never left the bar.

now i get it, guy meets a chick for the first time, i don't expect him to be all knight in shining armor, but can you at least back me up a little? maybe a hey, don't talk to her that way, or dude, that's not cool. something? maybe make sure i'm not over there getting my face bashed in (which i know will happen eventually, my mouth is making sure of it)?

stayed out way too late (shocking, i know!), definitely paying for that aspect of it today. omg. overall? dude was nice, but i wasn't overly attracted to him and he didn't have my back (although he did pay for my beverages, which got him a few points). yeah, soooooo no.

... next!

I suck at pool too but I've always loved playing. I'm okay with sucking because I'm very non-competitive and I'm just playing for fun.

What often has happened to me after losing and leaving a whole mess of balls on the table is that the winner will then take the opportunity to show off his superior skills by sinking MY balls too, in a really condescending "let me show you how it's done" way. Which always makes me want to stab him with a cue... but I've never actually followed through on that, fortunately.