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CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times1 -
ArmyVeteranM1A1C wrote: »Camping
Beautiful 5th wheeler..0 -
slimgirljo15 wrote: »ArmyVeteranM1A1C wrote: »Camping
Beautiful 5th wheeler..
Thanks, my safe place
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Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.0 -
Boomers, so glad that meme went mainstream.1
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CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too1 -
ArmyVeteranM1A1C wrote: »slimgirljo15 wrote: »ArmyVeteranM1A1C wrote: »Camping
Beautiful 5th wheeler..
Thanks, my safe place
I have a caravan that is mine 🙂1 -
Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".1 -
CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".
One of the most real epiphanies I had in the last twelve months wasrealizing I was addicted to sadness. I dunno if it’s cause I can “feel” it but there’s a draw to it. In small doses, it’s strange how it can make me feel good...but then if I sit there too long, it becomes overwhelming. Learning to live with that has been tough but illuminating2 -
Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".
One of the most real epiphanies I had in the last twelve months wasrealizing I was addicted to sadness. I dunno if it’s cause I can “feel” it but there’s a draw to it. In small doses, it’s strange how it can make me feel good...but then if I sit there too long, it becomes overwhelming. Learning to live with that has been tough but illuminating
I'm not addicted to it, but I just seem unable to escape it... if that makes sense at all.
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Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".
One of the most real epiphanies I had in the last twelve months wasrealizing I was addicted to sadness. I dunno if it’s cause I can “feel” it but there’s a draw to it. In small doses, it’s strange how it can make me feel good...but then if I sit there too long, it becomes overwhelming. Learning to live with that has been tough but illuminating
Do you find yourself listening to sad, depressing songs often?1 -
IslandGal3 wrote: »Lack of sleep. I'll be riding the struggle bus today.
My Dad wants to run errands. Somebody bring me a gallon of coffee.
Permission to come aboard your struggle bus? Running on 4 hours of sleep here
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Monday meh 😑0
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IslandGal3 wrote: »happimess01 wrote: »IslandGal3 wrote: »Lack of sleep. I'll be riding the struggle bus today.
My Dad wants to run errands. Somebody bring me a gallon of coffee.
Permission to come aboard your struggle bus? Running on 4 hours of sleep here
Bring coffee, and donuts.
done and done 😴
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CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Reckoner68 wrote: »CanesGalactica wrote: »Someone I can't forget even though they hurt me and have decided I am not worthwhile enough to be in their life. Our friendship/companionship/sexual liaison apparently meant more to me than it did them. I wish I could forget, but I find that I cannot. I dwell on the lost connection often.. as I do with so many others that have left, abandoned or hurt me (emotionally) in the past.
Why am I like this? Who knows.
P.S. The raccoon above me is quite charming. Super cute.
++ for raccoons. My childhood buddy had one as a pet, “Rambo.” He was cool.
I get the lost connections thing. I don’t connect with people easily so when I do and lose that, it takes me forever (if that’s even long enough) to let it go. It’s sucks. Sorry you’re wrestling with old memories
Yeah, it's been a few years since we last talked. I get why they avoid me, but it still hurts. It's like being slapped across the face and being told that you're pond scum or that you're a bad person somehow for being authentic for how you felt about someone.
I understand that from their perspective, I am avoided for their mental health as I could not provide what was needed, but still.. it kinda sucks. And that seems to be a pattern in my life regardless of what I try or how I may attempt to amend it. It all just.. falls apart.
A lot of my darkest days revolve around the realization of what knowing me “well” seems to do to people that get close to me. I try not to dwell on that aspect cause it’s a pretty deep and dark spiral that’s tough to get away from, but sometimes the thoughts go that route.
I tell myself that it isn’t true, even if it feels that way most times
What do you do when all your days are dark? There are never "light" days for me anymore. Haven't been since I was 18.
I don’t honestly know. I’m working with therapy and meds, even lookin into EMDR. Wish I had some good answers but it feels like I’m kinda finding my way through a dark maze with all of this. Been feeling pretty good lately which has been great, but this has been a good time for me every year for the past two or three and if traditions hold I’m gonna hate everything come January/February. I just keep trying, tho my own predilection toward sadness kinda works against me, too
Ah. Therapy never really worked for me. I have tried before.
Happy that it's working for you, though!
And yeah, it kinda seems like my "on" mode is permanently set to "sad".
One of the most real epiphanies I had in the last twelve months wasrealizing I was addicted to sadness. I dunno if it’s cause I can “feel” it but there’s a draw to it. In small doses, it’s strange how it can make me feel good...but then if I sit there too long, it becomes overwhelming. Learning to live with that has been tough but illuminating
Do you find yourself listening to sad, depressing songs often?
I do, a lot of my favorites are kinda sad3 -
Pizza. I'm going for pizza tonight and it has been all I can think about.5
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eatpolerepeat wrote: »
Just under two hours to go now.0 -
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eatpolerepeat wrote: »
Oh hey I didn't see you there 😂
I've bet you've never even fried egg on your burger 😏0 -
Mr_Healthy_Habits wrote: »Mr_Healthy_Habits wrote: »
I actually love pineapple on pizza but it's a proper Italian so probably wont be available 😥1 -
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eatpolerepeat wrote: »Mr_Healthy_Habits wrote: »eatpolerepeat wrote: »
Oh hey I didn't see you there 😂
I've bet you've never even fried egg on your burger 😏
Oh, eggs on burgers are 😋 and you knew I was here 😂
You know what, I actually made burgers this weekend... Although I'm not sure what compelled me to do so 🤔.
But I call it "The Slippers Thief" 😂
It just kinda came to me 🤷🏽♂️
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Mr_Healthy_Habits wrote: »Mr_Healthy_Habits wrote: »
I actually love pineapple on pizza but it's a proper Italian so probably wont be available 😥
Will you be mfp pizza buddy?
We pineapple pizza people got to stick together ya know!1 -
i bet it'd be pretty nice being a police officer in Gotham City.
like you don't really have to do anything other than not get shot and collect a paycheck. because anytime something big comes up you know they're just gonna let Batman handle it anyhow.
plus basically any call that you have to go check out, you can just write it off by saying "oh it was one of the Joker's henchmen nothing i can do against those guys better let the Bat handle it instead lolz"5 -
I got this in the mail from one of my friends today. I really miss her, she always makes me laugh. It actually makes a real goat sound when you press on it and it's very loud. I've been driving my kids crazy with it all afternoon. 😁
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Relocation... narrowed down to Sarasota, FL & surrounding area vs Scottsdale, AZ & surrounding area.
Beach (yea!) & humidity (boo!) vs mountains (boo, nosebleeds!) vs dry heat (yea!).
Lower COL by 30% & no state taxes (yea!) vs higher wages (yea!).
1,100-mi commute (yea!) vs (2,500-ish or more mi, avoiding snowy mountain roads)... (STFrontDoor!)
So...
Tomorrow, I may toss it all & move across the street from the hotel.2 -
The pizza was worth the wait 😋9 -
I was going to bake up some fish, but the pizza pictures are making me want to make pizza now. Thanks.1
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