Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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It was definitely informative. The human brain is such a strange and wonderful thing!Italian_Buju wrote: »
Thanks! I was more trying to inform than talk about me directly, but I guess it was a combo post lol
Glad you had a great visit with your family. I hope the floor replacement goes smoothly - what are you having put down?
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Well, it's quiet here tonight! The Brits are all in bed and the Americans are all off eating too much and watching fireworks.
Happy Weekend everyone!!
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Italian_Buju wrote: »girldownsouth wrote: »@Italian_Buju thank you for sharing that. I'm pretty sure I have some tendencies, I do the repeated checking of my bag, I always used to eat all of one thing on my plate, although I have mostly managed now to stop doing that. I actually have a lot of weird things with food, which watching tv discovered a lot were things people with anorexia do, so I'm not sure how come I'm the size I am! I think a lot of mine are checking and ordering things, that I don't really realise I do. My mum knows if I've been round while she's out because if there's a pile of coins on the side it'll have been stacked in height order.
I think most people have some tendencies that can be considered OCD like.....the main difference is the focus and obsession in doing the task. It is odd though that so many people can have tendencies like that.
That worries me about the anorexia tendencies, have you talked to someone about that??
No, I haven't, it's things like eating food in certain orders, and knowing the calories in everything. I can't remember the others, just remember when I watched it realised almost all of them were things I do. But I've never even made it to my goal weight (or even halfway!), so I don't really think it's something to worry about. Although I think that was probably when I started trying not to eat all my food in order.0 -
kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »I'm having a hard time getting back to sticking within my calories since I got back from vacation. I took the rest of last week off from logging and the only day I have not gone over is Monday. I had a snack at like 10 PM last night and was going to be fine but then I decided to eat a chocolate chip muffin, chips, pretzels, and candy. Totally self-sabotaged my workout and day of healthy-ish eating. I did not really try to stop myself or muster up some willpower. Sigh. Today's a new day. I think I'm gonna do my workouts and "start fresh" with the eating on Monday since I know I'm going to pig out on Saturday.
Non-MFP/eating confession:
My most embarrassing moment is so embarrassing that I've only told three people in the eight years since it happened. I'm mostly taking it to the grave. All I'll say is that it happened in high school.
Oh, now we are dying to know!
I know it's evil of me to mention it without telling, but I just can't! It's too embarrassing! I've had quite a few of those moments, but at least I never accidentally called a teacher "mom." I have that going for me.
Haha, I've called a teacher "mom" once...maybe twice. Pretty embarrassing!
LOL! One time I was fighting with my mom on the phone & then an interviewer called to let me know when my interview was & I accidentally said love you bye to them. I bet they thought what a weirdo!
Haha, that's the worst!I once had a text from my son saying "Love you too", followed up quickly by "Sorry, that was meant for someone else"
Did he tell you who it WAS meant for? Did he have a girlfriend?0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »
Thanks
I find OCD is very misunderstood by a lot of people, so I like to share when I am comfortable and can. A lot of people, like someone else said, think it is just about liking things clean or organized, when in fact, some people with OCD are quite the opposite because they have some many other things going on in their head they do not have time to organize anything!
Yeah, that was me that mentioned that...I just notice that people will always say how OCD they are because they hate germs or like to keep their houses clean...when there is so much more to it than that (which you've now taught all of us!!
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Italian_Buju wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: I've been trying SO HARD lately to smother this depression that's been at my throat for quite a while now, and it's been so impossible no matter what I do. Exercise, keeping busy, housework, reading, prayer... Nothing seems to help for more than an hour or so. I'm so frustrated about it right now, and I just want to cry and give up--dealing with depression is a horrible, horrible thing.
I had a great day today after getting up. I kept the house tidy, made dinner, had a nice outing and dinner with my husband, did my stairs and even got in a walk. Each time, it's a bit like my happiness meter would bounce up a little, then slowly just drain back down to nothing again. Trying to pull myself out of this funk and attempting to "fake it till I make it" is sucking me dry of energy, and I just... Don't know what to do anymore.
I only got out of bed a few hours ago, but I want to go and curl up into a ball under the covers and just stay there forever...
Sorry to be such a downer, but I just felt like I needed to get it out. I'm so sick and tired of feeling this way.
Hey I know previously you said you didn't want to take any medication for this but maybe it's time for anti depressants. I know several people who are on them or there kids are. Yes there are side effects and you need to look out for those especially the one where thoughts of suicide can happen but for those who got on them successfully they have been a life saver. Think about it.
XOXOXO
ETA messing this up again on phone!
Darn, switched to computer and realized I did the They're vs there mistake. But can't edit as its from my (now dead) phone that needs to charge. Oh, well.
I HATE when I catch mistakes WAY after the fact and cannot fix them! It drives me nuts!! I do that all the time....I even have found one today! UGH!
Me too! And I had to quote myself wayyy after the fact to fix it. I probably miss some..but try to fix the ones I can. Also, my keyboard has been sticking lately which results in me missing a lot of letters and I have to go back and fill them all in! 0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »Well wishes for our little kitten Skye are welcomed today. She doesn't seem to be feeling well. Yesterday, she only ate a few bites of her dinner and definitely is wayyy more calm than her usual crazy self. This morning, she ate a teeny bit of food and then just slowly walked away...uninterested. I offered her some wet food and she ate a decent amount of it (at two separate points) a little later. She's just laying around though...so out of character. I'll watch her the rest of the day and make sure she continues eating (even if just a little) but will definitely make a vet appointment if she doesn't improve. It's so weird seeing her like this.
I hope she is feeling better. I agree with other folks...if she is not take her to a vet. It takes a lot of a cat to exhibit illness symptoms, if she is showing them she probably needs medical attention.
Thank you and @Italian_Buju (for asking earlier)...she is continuing to eat small amounts of the wet food when offered....but not interested in her regular dry food. She is drinking normally..and her trips to the litter box are normal. She has done a few things that are more her regular behavior...but she is still "off" and quite relaxed/lazy. Our vet is closed today for the holiday...but a trip to the emergency vet would never be ruled out if need be. If all stays ok for the today, we will get through today and then set up a check up at the regular vet for tomorrow to have her looked at.
How is she feeling tonight? Any changes??
She is a little more like herself..but still not interested in her regular food (will take only a few nibbles). She will take the wet food every time it's offered...but only small amounts...still not the amount she should or would normally eat. Her behavior is still pretty mopey/lazy for the most part although we've seen her do a few things that make us think she's feeling better/more like herself. Our vet is open again this morning (was closed because of the 4th) so I will give them a call and try to set up a check up for her...especially if she is the same towards her breakfast (we feed the cats at 6:15...so I should know in an hour how she's feeling. Thank you for asking! I'll keep you all updated!0 -
Thank you @Glinda1971, @Tubbs216, @kellyjellybellyjelly, and @Italian_Buju! I just posted my results over in the Batcave. Final steps were 46,241 and mileage was 24.03. My hips are kind of sore from it so today I will take it easy.
Oh and I also got some extra sleep which I have been trying to do... almost 8 hours last night!!!! That's crazy for me!0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »Thank you @Glinda1971, @Tubbs216, @kellyjellybellyjelly, and @Italian_Buju! I just posted my results over in the Batcave. Final steps were 46,241 and mileage was 24.03. My hips are kind of sore from it so today I will take it easy.
Oh and I also got some extra sleep which I have been trying to do... almost 8 hours last night!!!! That's crazy for me!
That's an amazing step count--I don't think I'd get that many if I walked from sun-up to sundown! 0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »Thank you @Glinda1971, @Tubbs216, @kellyjellybellyjelly, and @Italian_Buju! I just posted my results over in the Batcave. Final steps were 46,241 and mileage was 24.03. My hips are kind of sore from it so today I will take it easy.
Oh and I also got some extra sleep which I have been trying to do... almost 8 hours last night!!!! That's crazy for me!
That is so awesome! You definitely earned your July 4th foods yesterday:D.0 -
Well, I managed to break the quote by accidentally deleting more than I meant to. But anyhow, these were yesterday's goals:
- 30+ minutes of exercise. (Done! 70 minutes.)
- Climb at least 6 flights of stairs. (3 up, 3 down) (Not done. Not a single stair was climbed.)
- Meet my calorie goal as closely as I can. (Done! With the help of a pizza base slathered in peanut butter...)
- Drink a minimum of 8 cups of water. (I cut it really close, having only 6 cups around midnight, but with some quick glugging... Done!)
- Finish up the laundry, which I didn't touch yesterday. (About half done. I washed and hung a bunch of socks, but didn't touch the ironing as usual.)
I skipped the stairs on purpose, for two reasons:
1) I'm a brat who wants a good weigh-in on Monday. My ankles were kind of sore and swollenish, so I wanted to give the water retention some time to go down by resting the stairs for a bit.
2) My health is iffy at the best of times, and pushing it too hard is a surefire FND trigger. I don't want to be bedridden for the next few days, and doing my exercise + long walk + stairs for two days in a row has left my body threatening to flare up. I could feel it coming on, so I took it easy (which I had better do today as well, to be on the safe side.)
So, today's goals!
- Exercise for 30+ minutes.
- Drink tons of water--I'm aiming for 2.5 liters/10 cups today.
- Eat as close to my calorie goal as possible--my weekly net resets tomorrow and I don't want to leave any behind.
- Don't do anything stupid that will make me sick. <--- I have a bad habit of doing this when I feel myself declining.
- Do some more laundry (Looking at you, ironing... *sigh*)
- Try to stay active by moving around the house and doing household tasks.
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It was definitely informative. The human brain is such a strange and wonderful thing!Italian_Buju wrote: »
Thanks! I was more trying to inform than talk about me directly, but I guess it was a combo post lol
Glad you had a great visit with your family. I hope the floor replacement goes smoothly - what are you having put down?
I found it fascinating how there are people in the world who can remember what they've done on certain dates & basically a lot of minute details that most people wouldn't recall.
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lilaclovebird wrote: »
For the 4th!
- I work a 12 hours shift 7pm-7am so hopefully I'll stay within 100 calories of my goal
- At least 10,000 steps again
- Drink at least 8, 8 oz. glasses of water
- Get 20 minutes of exercise in(cut it down to compensate for the 12 hour shift)
- Get at LEAST 6 hours of sleep and limit my coffee to two cups.
Wish me luck guys!
4th of July recap!
- Didn't manage to stay in calories at ALL... Potato chips were just screaming my name....
- I DID get 12,000 steps
- I DID drink enough water
- I did NOT exercise...not even a little
- I did NOT get 6 hours of sleep. I think I got barely 4... But I DID keep it to 2 cups of coffee
For the 5th!
- Stay within 100 calories of my daily goal
- Get at least 10,000 steps (Off to a good start so far)
- Get MORE than 6 hours of sleep
- Get 30 minutes of exercise
- Drink 8 glasses of water (Over halfway there already)0 -
Thanks @Susieq_1994!
Well, thank you! And I DEFINITELY treated myself!!kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »Thank you @Glinda1971, @Tubbs216, @kellyjellybellyjelly, and @Italian_Buju! I just posted my results over in the Batcave. Final steps were 46,241 and mileage was 24.03. My hips are kind of sore from it so today I will take it easy.
Oh and I also got some extra sleep which I have been trying to do... almost 8 hours last night!!!! That's crazy for me!
That is so awesome! You definitely earned your July 4th foods yesterday:D.
I also wanted to tell you that my Walmart FINALLY had Sam's Choice Coffee & Donuts ice cream that wasn't expired...and all I have to say is YUM!!
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@Susieq_1994 Thursday is my rest day because Friday is my weigh in. So I'm a brat too.
That's good that you took it easier yesterday if your condition was going to flare up. Exercise is for health not to make you unwell.0 -
I just got over 9.5 hours of sleep so I must have been tired. That's even with the nap yesterday.
@Italian_Buju I hope your nap didn't mess you up too much.0 -
Goals for today:
10k steps
Finish the laundry
Finish cutting the 3 acres of lawn we have. At least we have a riding mower, I wish we had a horse herd.
I've decided I'm not going into work. I have enough stuff to do around here. As long as the other person in my office doesn't call in again tomorrow I should be caught up by the end of the week.0 -
@kelly_c_77 excellent step count. And glad you got a good night's sleep.
I hope your kitten feels better.0 -
@lilaclovebird good job on your steps and your water.0
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@pofoster21 how did dinner go?0
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Since I'm tying to own this page I'll confess something.
I've started calorie counting numerous times and always gave it up after a couple months. Even trying to lose weight for my wedding last year wasn't enough motivation. So I was thinking about what has changed this time - I'm still going strong after 4 months. My motivations and reasons this time are:
1. Trying to look good as the MOH for my sister's wedding in September.
2. I'm actually happy for the first time in my life. Well, content maybe is more the word.
3. My husband loves me for me, but I want to be the best me I can be for him.
4. I care about me for a change.
And the 5th and final reason that makes this a confession:
Between the ages of 15 and 21, I had a very emotionally abusive boyfriend. I was "stupid, fat and ugly" and he liked to call me bozo the clown. He was physically abusive once and even that didn't make me leave. (Self-esteem issues much?) The final thing that broke us up for good was when he went hunting with my dad and my brother, said some pretty disgusting things about me apparently and got into a fist fight with my brother.
I ran into him about a month and a half into my journey and I could see him thinking I was fat. The next time I see him, I won't be. I'm a little ashamed that that is motivating me.
My low self esteem issues were indirectly caused by my big brother as well - nobody was allowed to date me. When everyone else is dating (I lived in a very small rural community) and nobody wants to date you, you think there must be something wrong with you. I didn't find out about my brother's edict until I was well into my 20's.
Sorry that was so long.0 -
Hope everyone had a great weekend!
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I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.
Heck yes you do!
Is this okay @Susieq_1994?
I'm trying to censor myself a bit more. 
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Glinda1971 wrote: »Since I'm tying to own this page I'll confess something.
I've started calorie counting numerous times and always gave it up after a couple months. Even trying to lose weight for my wedding last year wasn't enough motivation. So I was thinking about what has changed this time - I'm still going strong after 4 months. My motivations and reasons this time are:
1. Trying to look good as the MOH for my sister's wedding in September.
2. I'm actually happy for the first time in my life. Well, content maybe is more the word.
3. My husband loves me for me, but I want to be the best me I can be for him.
4. I care about me for a change.
And the 5th and final reason that makes this a confession:
Between the ages of 15 and 21, I had a very emotionally abusive boyfriend. I was "stupid, fat and ugly" and he liked to call me bozo the clown. He was physically abusive once and even that didn't make me leave. (Self-esteem issues much?) The final thing that broke us up for good was when he went hunting with my dad and my brother, said some pretty disgusting things about me apparently and got into a fist fight with my brother.
I ran into him about a month and a half into my journey and I could see him thinking I was fat. The next time I see him, I won't be. I'm a little ashamed that that is motivating me.
My low self esteem issues were indirectly caused by my big brother as well - nobody was allowed to date me. When everyone else is dating (I lived in a very small rural community) and nobody wants to date you, you think there must be something wrong with you. I didn't find out about my brother's edict until I was well into my 20's.
Sorry that was so long.
I'm glad that you found your reasons! I do understand the ex one--while I don't have an ex to want to lose weight before ever seeing again, one of my "reasons" for wanting so badly to get back on the wagon while struggling lately was that I'd be so embarrassed to face family and aquaintances back home if I gained the weight back. It would be so mortifying for me, like a public declaration of failure. :-/ Especially considering that it's very common for people to say "OH MY GOD, YOU GOT SO FAT!" in Arab culture and isn't considered to be something rude or unacceptable.
I am sorry that you put up with so much--I really feel for people who have been in abusive relationships, because although I was lucky enough to end up with a wonderful husband, my anxiety and extreme self-esteem issues make me know for sure that if I were in that kind of relationship, I'd never be able to get out.0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.
We love you and we want you to succeed! I agree, this community has been amazingly supportive, and this goal-setting keeps us accountable; not out of a perceived feeling of shame if we fail to meet the goals, but because we know everyone is cheering us on and we don't want to let anyone down. 0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »@Susieq_1994 Thursday is my rest day because Friday is my weigh in. So I'm a brat too.
That's good that you took it easier yesterday if your condition was going to flare up. Exercise is for health not to make you unwell.
Bratty us. My husband doesn't care one way or another if it's weigh-in day or not--he won't make any special "allowances" to make his weigh-in look good.
While I don't obsess about it, I confess that I always take measures to get prettier numbers--I eat earlier meals, drink more water, and choose a lower-sodium meal for dinner the day before the weigh-in.
In Ramadan it's a bit different because of the fasting and eating times, so I tend to weigh in about an hour before iftar instead of right after waking up. 0 -
lilaclovebird wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.
Heck yes you do!
Is this okay @Susieq_1994? I'm trying to censor myself a bit more.
"Heck" is a perfectly acceptable word, I use it myself. Your trying is appreciated! 0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.
We love you and we want you to succeed! I agree, this community has been amazingly supportive, and this goal-setting keeps us accountable; not out of a perceived feeling of shame if we fail to meet the goals, but because we know everyone is cheering us on and we don't want to let anyone down.
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I ate 2 pieces of thick crust pizza for breakfast yesterday....I wasn't actually even hungry
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