Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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ceeceeculver wrote: »I ate 2 pieces of thick crust pizza for breakfast yesterday....I wasn't actually even hungry
It happens, I've done stuff like that tons of times! Welcome to the thread!
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+1!Glinda1971 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.
We love you and we want you to succeed!
I agree, this community has been amazingly supportive, and this goal-setting keeps us accountable; not out of a perceived feeling of shame if we fail to meet the goals, but because we know everyone is cheering us on and we don't want to let anyone down.
Exactly!!
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Glinda1971 wrote: »Since I'm tying to own this page I'll confess something.
I've started calorie counting numerous times and always gave it up after a couple months. Even trying to lose weight for my wedding last year wasn't enough motivation. So I was thinking about what has changed this time - I'm still going strong after 4 months. My motivations and reasons this time are:
1. Trying to look good as the MOH for my sister's wedding in September.
2. I'm actually happy for the first time in my life. Well, content maybe is more the word.
3. My husband loves me for me, but I want to be the best me I can be for him.
4. I care about me for a change.
And the 5th and final reason that makes this a confession:
Between the ages of 15 and 21, I had a very emotionally abusive boyfriend. I was "stupid, fat and ugly" and he liked to call me bozo the clown. He was physically abusive once and even that didn't make me leave. (Self-esteem issues much?) The final thing that broke us up for good was when he went hunting with my dad and my brother, said some pretty disgusting things about me apparently and got into a fist fight with my brother.
I ran into him about a month and a half into my journey and I could see him thinking I was fat. The next time I see him, I won't be. I'm a little ashamed that that is motivating me.
My low self esteem issues were indirectly caused by my big brother as well - nobody was allowed to date me. When everyone else is dating (I lived in a very small rural community) and nobody wants to date you, you think there must be something wrong with you. I didn't find out about my brother's edict until I was well into my 20's.
Sorry that was so long.
Sorry! Hugs to you!
Also, do not be ashamed of whatever it is that motivates you.0 -
Thanks Susieq_1994 0
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ceeceeculver wrote: »Thanks Susieq_1994
You're very welcome. I hope you stick around, this thread is super great! 0 -
GUYS. Speaking of super greatness, I found this picture a while ago that totally reminded me of the super great shark:
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »GUYS. Speaking of super greatness, I found this picture a while ago that totally reminded me of the super great shark:
Ha! I love it!
Welcome to the thread, @ceeceeculver !
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »GUYS. Speaking of super greatness, I found this picture a while ago that totally reminded me of the super great shark:
That is awesomely super great.
I confess I told someone I was 'super busy' yesterday and then I laughed...I would never have said that before!0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »ceeceeculver wrote: »I ate 2 pieces of thick crust pizza for breakfast yesterday....I wasn't actually even hungry
It happens, I've done stuff like that tons of times! Welcome to the thread!
Ditto what Susie said. Welcome.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.
Heck yes you do!
Is this okay @Susieq_1994?
I'm trying to censor myself a bit more. 
"Heck" is a perfectly acceptable word, I use it myself. Your trying is appreciated!
I told my sister yesterday I thought something her boyfriend did was crummy. I keep saying Susie is cleaning up my language.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »@Susieq_1994 Thursday is my rest day because Friday is my weigh in. So I'm a brat too.
That's good that you took it easier yesterday if your condition was going to flare up. Exercise is for health not to make you unwell.
Bratty us. My husband doesn't care one way or another if it's weigh-in day or not--he won't make any special "allowances" to make his weigh-in look good.
While I don't obsess about it, I confess that I always take measures to get prettier numbers--I eat earlier meals, drink more water, and choose a lower-sodium meal for dinner the day before the weigh-in.
In Ramadan it's a bit different because of the fasting and eating times, so I tend to weigh in about an hour before iftar instead of right after waking up.
I weigh every day but if I was in a competition I would totally do this. And probably wrap myself in plastic the day before. 0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »Since I'm tying to own this page I'll confess something.
I've started calorie counting numerous times and always gave it up after a couple months. Even trying to lose weight for my wedding last year wasn't enough motivation. So I was thinking about what has changed this time - I'm still going strong after 4 months. My motivations and reasons this time are:
1. Trying to look good as the MOH for my sister's wedding in September.
2. I'm actually happy for the first time in my life. Well, content maybe is more the word.
3. My husband loves me for me, but I want to be the best me I can be for him.
4. I care about me for a change.
And the 5th and final reason that makes this a confession:
Between the ages of 15 and 21, I had a very emotionally abusive boyfriend. I was "stupid, fat and ugly" and he liked to call me bozo the clown. He was physically abusive once and even that didn't make me leave. (Self-esteem issues much?) The final thing that broke us up for good was when he went hunting with my dad and my brother, said some pretty disgusting things about me apparently and got into a fist fight with my brother.
I ran into him about a month and a half into my journey and I could see him thinking I was fat. The next time I see him, I won't be. I'm a little ashamed that that is motivating me.
My low self esteem issues were indirectly caused by my big brother as well - nobody was allowed to date me. When everyone else is dating (I lived in a very small rural community) and nobody wants to date you, you think there must be something wrong with you. I didn't find out about my brother's edict until I was well into my 20's.
Sorry that was so long.
I'm glad that you found your reasons! I do understand the ex one--while I don't have an ex to want to lose weight before ever seeing again, one of my "reasons" for wanting so badly to get back on the wagon while struggling lately was that I'd be so embarrassed to face family and aquaintances back home if I gained the weight back. It would be so mortifying for me, like a public declaration of failure. :-/ Especially considering that it's very common for people to say "OH MY GOD, YOU GOT SO FAT!" in Arab culture and isn't considered to be something rude or unacceptable.
I am sorry that you put up with so much--I really feel for people who have been in abusive relationships, because although I was lucky enough to end up with a wonderful husband, my anxiety and extreme self-esteem issues make me know for sure that if I were in that kind of relationship, I'd never be able to get out.
People are so destructive to each other I just don't get it. Whatever your starting motivation is in the end it will be about you and for you. So enjoy the weight loss, I am glad you are happy finally and I am sure your brother thought he was doing the right thing. Hugs!0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »Since I'm tying to own this page I'll confess something.
I've started calorie counting numerous times and always gave it up after a couple months. Even trying to lose weight for my wedding last year wasn't enough motivation. So I was thinking about what has changed this time - I'm still going strong after 4 months. My motivations and reasons this time are:
1. Trying to look good as the MOH for my sister's wedding in September.
2. I'm actually happy for the first time in my life. Well, content maybe is more the word.
3. My husband loves me for me, but I want to be the best me I can be for him.
4. I care about me for a change.
And the 5th and final reason that makes this a confession:
Between the ages of 15 and 21, I had a very emotionally abusive boyfriend. I was "stupid, fat and ugly" and he liked to call me bozo the clown. He was physically abusive once and even that didn't make me leave. (Self-esteem issues much?) The final thing that broke us up for good was when he went hunting with my dad and my brother, said some pretty disgusting things about me apparently and got into a fist fight with my brother.
I ran into him about a month and a half into my journey and I could see him thinking I was fat. The next time I see him, I won't be. I'm a little ashamed that that is motivating me.
My low self esteem issues were indirectly caused by my big brother as well - nobody was allowed to date me. When everyone else is dating (I lived in a very small rural community) and nobody wants to date you, you think there must be something wrong with you. I didn't find out about my brother's edict until I was well into my 20's.
Sorry that was so long.
I'm glad that you found your reasons! I do understand the ex one--while I don't have an ex to want to lose weight before ever seeing again, one of my "reasons" for wanting so badly to get back on the wagon while struggling lately was that I'd be so embarrassed to face family and aquaintances back home if I gained the weight back. It would be so mortifying for me, like a public declaration of failure. :-/ Especially considering that it's very common for people to say "OH MY GOD, YOU GOT SO FAT!" in Arab culture and isn't considered to be something rude or unacceptable.
I am sorry that you put up with so much--I really feel for people who have been in abusive relationships, because although I was lucky enough to end up with a wonderful husband, my anxiety and extreme self-esteem issues make me know for sure that if I were in that kind of relationship, I'd never be able to get out.
People are so destructive to each other I just don't get it. Whatever your starting motivation is in the end it will be about you and for you. So enjoy the weight loss, I am glad you are happy finally and I am sure your brother thought he was doing the right thing. Hugs!
Funny I thought I was replying to Glinda but this applies to both statements! Replying while grazing a horse and being on my phone is hard!0 -
mayfairmenthols wrote: »
I'm doubly ashamed of myself for enjoying the meal and not working out
I did this Thursday, ate a huge meal, thinking I was going to the gym and then didn't make it. I am not ashamed, however. In my almost two years here and 20+ battling bulimia and then just bingeing, I have finally learned that life happens and sometimes you just have to enjoy it when you get the chance. (At 21, I weighed 138, my boy fat was 7.5% and my BMR was 800. At 44, I weighed 200 lbs and told the "health coaches" at my job that I would rather be fat than purging. Praise G-d, I've found the middle ground.)
Confession: I just ate a brownie for breakfast.
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Glinda1971 wrote: »I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.
Yes you do!0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »I forgot one other reason this attempt is being more successful:
I have this super great community of supportive friends cheering me on.
Heck yes you do!
Is this okay @Susieq_1994? I'm trying to censor myself a bit more.
"Heck" is a perfectly acceptable word, I use it myself. Your trying is appreciated!
I told my sister yesterday I thought something her boyfriend did was crummy. I keep saying Susie is cleaning up my language.
Which is awesome.pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »@Susieq_1994 Thursday is my rest day because Friday is my weigh in. So I'm a brat too.
That's good that you took it easier yesterday if your condition was going to flare up. Exercise is for health not to make you unwell.
Bratty us. My husband doesn't care one way or another if it's weigh-in day or not--he won't make any special "allowances" to make his weigh-in look good.
While I don't obsess about it, I confess that I always take measures to get prettier numbers--I eat earlier meals, drink more water, and choose a lower-sodium meal for dinner the day before the weigh-in. In Ramadan it's a bit different because of the fasting and eating times, so I tend to weigh in about an hour before iftar instead of right after waking up.
I weigh every day but if I was in a competition I would totally do this. And probably wrap myself in plastic the day before.
lol! Someone's competitive! I'm way too lazy to do all that wrapping, though... 0 -
I learned something today! How to post a picture.
That is me in my wedding dress - and yes, I do have shiny butterfly wallpaper in my living room. Sorry if it is a little big.0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »@pofoster21 how did dinner go?
Thank for asking! It went well...the pasta was great and the cesear salad wasn't quite as good as in the past (not enough garlic on croutons) but they had never had it before so didn't know.
I did stay up too late and had more wine than planned but we had a good time and I may not see them again for a few years so oh well. But getting up at 3 am drive 3 hours to ride at 7 was hard!0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »
I learned something today! How to post a picture.
That is me in my wedding dress - and yes, I do have shiny butterfly wallpaper in my living room. Sorry if it is a little big.
It's a lovely dress! Simple and not overly intricate--my kind of style. I see that I'm not the only one who feels the need to cover my face, though.
Speaking of that, I forgot to address @pofoster21's comment about not being able to see me now. I don't actually have anything against any of the ladies in this thread seeing me--I just don't want to post my pictures openly in a public forum that anyone can access. I don't like having my pictures online for all to see. 0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »
I learned something today! How to post a picture.
That is me in my wedding dress - and yes, I do have shiny butterfly wallpaper in my living room. Sorry if it is a little big.
It's a lovely dress! Simple and not overly intricate--my kind of style. I see that I'm not the only one who feels the need to cover my face, though.
Speaking of that, I forgot to address @pofoster21's comment about not being able to see me now. I don't actually have anything against any of the ladies in this thread seeing me--I just don't want to post my pictures openly in a public forum that anyone can access. I don't like having my pictures online for all to see.
That's how I feel too.0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »@pofoster21 how did dinner go?
Thank for asking! It went well...the pasta was great and the cesear salad wasn't quite as good as in the past (not enough garlic on croutons) but they had never had it before so didn't know.
I did stay up too late and had more wine than planned but we had a good time and I may not see them again for a few years so oh well. But getting up at 3 am drive 3 hours to ride at 7 was hard!
Glad it went well. Also glad you made it home safely!0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »Thank you @Glinda1971, @Tubbs216, @kellyjellybellyjelly, and @Italian_Buju! I just posted my results over in the Batcave. Final steps were 46,241 and mileage was 24.03. My hips are kind of sore from it so today I will take it easy.
Oh and I also got some extra sleep which I have been trying to do... almost 8 hours last night!!!! That's crazy for me!
Wow, good for you on the steps! You are my fitbit Hero!!
@pofoster21 sorry about your knee. Haven't seen a pic yet if you posted one, but I'm only on 1173.
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Glinda1971 wrote: »I ran into him about a month and a half into my journey and I could see him thinking I was fat. The next time I see him, I won't be. I'm a little ashamed that that is motivating me.
I really don't think it matters what one's motivation is as long as you keep going... your body doesn't know why you're doing it, only the result counts!
I've spent way too many years of my adult life in emotionally abusive relationships... I'm sorry that happened to you.0 -
I confess that since I've lost the last ten pounds or so my chair makes horrible fart noises if I'm not careful. I am not talking little squeakers either. We're talking loud fog horn, butt cheeks clapping in the wind that never ends fart noises. It is so embarrassing and I don't really know what is causing it.0
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Hi all, I am very sorry to report that I did not achieve my mountain climb. I was turned back by the event team at 800 metres/3 miles up on medical/safety grounds.
Essentially, I did not have the mental/emotional reserves I needed to make it through the toughest part of the terrain, and physical exertion meant that I randomly kept falling over. Even while standing still.
The climb/terrain in itself was horrendous. Huge big uneven boulders to be climbed over the entire way meant that no stride or rhythm could be set or achieved. However. I made it through the first check Point ahead of schedule, but faltered on the way to the second.
I could make some more excuses. Such as the strain of being in the dark and having to keep head down so I could light my next step, or the difficulty in doing some bits alone, or that I did not enjoy a single step I took on that mountain, but I won't. It was a challenge that is beyond my current capabilities.
In my heart of hearts, I can honestly say that I did everything I could in training and preparing for this challenge, until this last week, where personal events took over.
The thought of all of you here, and letting you down kept me going for a long way and I apologise for letting you down.
If you made a donation, you can apply for a refund via the justgiving website.0 -
I've had a really hard time at setting and keeping goals, but for today:
-Drink more water (at least 8 cups but more is good)
-make better choices when going out (Raelynn and I go with my uncles and mom every Sunday to visit my Mema at the nursing home. We always go out to eat afterwards.)
-get some exercise today (I'm thinking about a family walk this evening before dinner.)
I've gotta make up for the copious amounts of Pepsi, pulled pork sandwiches, and beer I had yesterday lol! 0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »Hi all, I am very sorry to report that I did not achieve my mountain climb. I was turned back by the event team at 800 metres/3 miles up on medical/safety grounds.
Essentially, I did not have the mental/emotional reserves I needed to make it through the toughest part of the terrain, and physical exertion meant that I randomly kept falling over. Even while standing still.
The climb/terrain in itself was horrendous. Huge big uneven boulders to be climbed over the entire way meant that no stride or rhythm could be set or achieved. However. I made it through the first check Point ahead of schedule, but faltered on the way to the second.
I could make some more excuses. Such as the strain of being in the dark and having to keep head down so I could light my next step, or the difficulty in doing some bits alone, or that I did not enjoy a single step I took on that mountain, but I won't. It was a challenge that is beyond my current capabilities.
In my heart of hearts, I can honestly say that I did everything I could in training and preparing for this challenge, until this last week, where personal events took over.
The thought of all of you here, and letting you down kept me going for a long way and I apologise for letting you down.
If you made a donation, you can apply for a refund via the justgiving website.
You didn't let anyone down. No one can do every thing right this second, we have to work for it. You did work for it and you did wonderful being able to do the amount that you did. Next time you'll get a little further. I think you should be celebrating the distance you went on a rough, nasty terrain instead of down on yourself for not being able to complete the entirety right this second. I'm proud of you in any case.0 -
I confess that when I see people saying they're mentally adding up things that the fat people they know are eating I kind of want to strangle them, just a little bit. It is almost always stated as a, "And they eat 2000 calories of McDonald's and sugar soda for lunch every day and then wonder why they can't lose weight!" I know it probably isn't everyone, but I've had many occasions where people told me to my face that I would get even fatter if I kept drinking my calorie laden soda. I even had a college professor point me out to the full classroom (I really did want the floor to swallow me that day) and say that my soda is why Americans are fat. Every time this happened I had to look at the can of soda I had and make sure it hadn't swapped from Coke Zero (which I love) into Cpt. Thunder Thighs delightfully decadent Fat Bomb instant weight gain guaranteed TM or your money back!
E.T.A. And I've just read a post where the person asks why overweight people only drink diet soda in public. Can't win no matter what you do.0 -
It was definitely informative. The human brain is such a strange and wonderful thing!Italian_Buju wrote: »
Thanks! I was more trying to inform than talk about me directly, but I guess it was a combo post lol
Glad you had a great visit with your family. I hope the floor replacement goes smoothly - what are you having put down?
Just plain kitchen tiles.....I won't be here, but both my kids and my daughter's boyfriend will be....I am working a long shift tomorrow, which is a good thing cuz I would be stressed if I was here.....0 -
Yes, please do!!kelly_c_77 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »Well wishes for our little kitten Skye are welcomed today. She doesn't seem to be feeling well. Yesterday, she only ate a few bites of her dinner and definitely is wayyy more calm than her usual crazy self. This morning, she ate a teeny bit of food and then just slowly walked away...uninterested. I offered her some wet food and she ate a decent amount of it (at two separate points) a little later. She's just laying around though...so out of character. I'll watch her the rest of the day and make sure she continues eating (even if just a little) but will definitely make a vet appointment if she doesn't improve. It's so weird seeing her like this.
I hope she is feeling better. I agree with other folks...if she is not take her to a vet. It takes a lot of a cat to exhibit illness symptoms, if she is showing them she probably needs medical attention.
Thank you and @Italian_Buju (for asking earlier)...she is continuing to eat small amounts of the wet food when offered....but not interested in her regular dry food. She is drinking normally..and her trips to the litter box are normal. She has done a few things that are more her regular behavior...but she is still "off" and quite relaxed/lazy. Our vet is closed today for the holiday...but a trip to the emergency vet would never be ruled out if need be. If all stays ok for the today, we will get through today and then set up a check up at the regular vet for tomorrow to have her looked at.
How is she feeling tonight? Any changes??
She is a little more like herself..but still not interested in her regular food (will take only a few nibbles). She will take the wet food every time it's offered...but only small amounts...still not the amount she should or would normally eat. Her behavior is still pretty mopey/lazy for the most part although we've seen her do a few things that make us think she's feeling better/more like herself. Our vet is open again this morning (was closed because of the 4th) so I will give them a call and try to set up a check up for her...especially if she is the same towards her breakfast (we feed the cats at 6:15...so I should know in an hour how she's feeling. Thank you for asking! I'll keep you all updated!
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