Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    nonoelmo wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    I confess I'm a home wrecker......

    Today as I was out walking I noticed a pretty blue gray bird by the side of the lake and as I passed, I watched it fly off it was beautiful.
    When I turned my face forward again I did so just in time to see the middle of a rather large spider web. It spanned over my head to mid chest.

    First of all I'm sorry spider for wrecking your very close knit large web. I'm sure it took along time to make. I hope you have enough web to build another one

    Secondly. Shriek, wild thrashing about with my arms trying to get it off of me, and dear God please don't let that spider be on me.

    I was pulling weeds in my front flower garden Saturday. (It was WAY past due, and the weeds were way out of control, but that's a different confession.) I have a certain garbage can that I put pulled weeds in. It's really old and has a hole worn in the bottom, so I can't put anything small or liquid in it. Anyway, I pull out this garbage can and there is a GINORMOUS black widow spider in its web behind the garbage can. I don't have a photo to show you, because I was too busy SQUISHING it!!!

    Black widow spiders freaked me out as a kid. Some how I got the impression that if they bit me I could become very ill and possibly die.

    We had a tack shed that they seemed to like for some reason. I remember going into it with my sister behind me.
    Well there was one over my head and running right at me. I think I ran clean over my sister to get out.

    My husband laughs about when he was young that they ( all boys in the family) had a black widow spider as a pet. They would feed it flies. They kept it in a mason jar with little holes in the top so it could breathe. All went well until till she had about 1000 babies that were small enough to crawl out the holes in the top. They all laugh about it.

    To this day I can catch and hold almost anything but spiders.

    I woke up with a black widow on my chest once (on top of the blanket) as a teenager. Totally freaked out about that!
    This is the one I killed from my shed last week. This is not a good picture but I wanted to make sure I killed her. She was the biggest I have seen.
    1rd2oh6zt456.jpg

    Yeah, the one I squished was about that size.
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
    raymax4 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    I confess I'm a home wrecker......

    Today as I was out walking I noticed a pretty blue gray bird by the side of the lake and as I passed, I watched it fly off it was beautiful.
    When I turned my face forward again I did so just in time to see the middle of a rather large spider web. It spanned over my head to mid chest.

    First of all I'm sorry spider for wrecking your very close knit large web. I'm sure it took along time to make. I hope you have enough web to build another one

    Secondly. Shriek, wild thrashing about with my arms trying to get it off of me, and dear God please don't let that spider be on me.

    I was pulling weeds in my front flower garden Saturday. (It was WAY past due, and the weeds were way out of control, but that's a different confession.) I have a certain garbage can that I put pulled weeds in. It's really old and has a hole worn in the bottom, so I can't put anything small or liquid in it. Anyway, I pull out this garbage can and there is a GINORMOUS black widow spider in its web behind the garbage can. I don't have a photo to show you, because I was too busy SQUISHING it!!!

    Black widow spiders freaked me out as a kid. Some how I got the impression that if they bit me I could become very ill and possibly die.

    We had a tack shed that they seemed to like for some reason. I remember going into it with my sister behind me.
    Well there was one over my head and running right at me. I think I ran clean over my sister to get out.

    My husband laughs about when he was young that they ( all boys in the family) had a black widow spider as a pet. They would feed it flies. They kept it in a mason jar with little holes in the top so it could breathe. All went well until till she had about 1000 babies that were small enough to crawl out the holes in the top. They all laugh about it.

    To this day I can catch and hold almost anything but spiders.

    I woke up with a black widow on my chest once (on top of the blanket) as a teenager. Totally freaked out about that!

    I used to keep a carafe of water next to my bed because I woke up thirsty a lot. One night, I was lazy and, instead of sitting up to drink, I just picked up the carafe in the dark and tilted it over my mouth. A COCKROACH fell off the lip. ONTO MY FACE. To this day, a cockroach is the only bug that will send me running and screaming. Before that, I wasn't at all afraid of them. A cockroach running across your face can do that to you, apparently.

    OMG, I would literally just die at that moment.
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    *post date update*

    first date #22

    this was saturday afternoon and was probably the most "non-date" first date ever.
    i'll fully admit, i didn't even attempt to try.

    had been talking to this dude for a lil while, and we kept trying to set something up, but schedules were always getting in the way. so on saturday he's like hey! i'm free for a bit this afternoon if you want to chill. my reply? it's a pajama jams saturday, i have zero intentions of doing anything other than having beverages and listening to my ipod. zero fracks shall be given. (yeah, not trying, at all).

    apparently this dude saw my ghetto attitude as fun and refreshing (lol), and was like sounds awesome!
    so dude came over and chilled on the porch for a while with beverages, chit chats, and a random cig here and there. he was also very fond of my batman pajamas (yeah i don't mess around). found out he's a lawyer (classy!), and really, really chill and relaxed, which apparently doesn't quite meld with his profession. so i'm thinking the idea to sit on a porch with a chick in pj's and beverages would be a fun change of pace.

    and he was really nice! hung out for a few hours, and i actually had a great time.
    maybe a #2? who knows, gonna have to wait and see, but overall a good day :)

    Can I just say that I think it's Super Great that the date you didn't want has been the best one lately? I hope there's a #2.
  • raymax4
    raymax4 Posts: 6,070 Member
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    I confess I'm a home wrecker......

    Today as I was out walking I noticed a pretty blue gray bird by the side of the lake and as I passed, I watched it fly off it was beautiful.
    When I turned my face forward again I did so just in time to see the middle of a rather large spider web. It spanned over my head to mid chest.

    First of all I'm sorry spider for wrecking your very close knit large web. I'm sure it took along time to make. I hope you have enough web to build another one

    Secondly. Shriek, wild thrashing about with my arms trying to get it off of me, and dear God please don't let that spider be on me.

    I was pulling weeds in my front flower garden Saturday. (It was WAY past due, and the weeds were way out of control, but that's a different confession.) I have a certain garbage can that I put pulled weeds in. It's really old and has a hole worn in the bottom, so I can't put anything small or liquid in it. Anyway, I pull out this garbage can and there is a GINORMOUS black widow spider in its web behind the garbage can. I don't have a photo to show you, because I was too busy SQUISHING it!!!

    Black widow spiders freaked me out as a kid. Some how I got the impression that if they bit me I could become very ill and possibly die.

    We had a tack shed that they seemed to like for some reason. I remember going into it with my sister behind me.
    Well there was one over my head and running right at me. I think I ran clean over my sister to get out.

    My husband laughs about when he was young that they ( all boys in the family) had a black widow spider as a pet. They would feed it flies. They kept it in a mason jar with little holes in the top so it could breathe. All went well until till she had about 1000 babies that were small enough to crawl out the holes in the top. They all laugh about it.

    To this day I can catch and hold almost anything but spiders.

    I woke up with a black widow on my chest once (on top of the blanket) as a teenager. Totally freaked out about that!

    I used to keep a carafe of water next to my bed because I woke up thirsty a lot. One night, I was lazy and, instead of sitting up to drink, I just picked up the carafe in the dark and tilted it over my mouth. A COCKROACH fell off the lip. ONTO MY FACE. To this day, a cockroach is the only bug that will send me running and screaming. Before that, I wasn't at all afraid of them. A cockroach running across your face can do that to you, apparently.

    Oh my gosh that is the most disgusting thing ever.

    Agreed! Yuck!

    Glad it didn't go in your mouth. But yes how horrable
  • raymax4
    raymax4 Posts: 6,070 Member
    nonoelmo wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    I confess I'm a home wrecker......

    Today as I was out walking I noticed a pretty blue gray bird by the side of the lake and as I passed, I watched it fly off it was beautiful.
    When I turned my face forward again I did so just in time to see the middle of a rather large spider web. It spanned over my head to mid chest.

    First of all I'm sorry spider for wrecking your very close knit large web. I'm sure it took along time to make. I hope you have enough web to build another one

    Secondly. Shriek, wild thrashing about with my arms trying to get it off of me, and dear God please don't let that spider be on me.

    I was pulling weeds in my front flower garden Saturday. (It was WAY past due, and the weeds were way out of control, but that's a different confession.) I have a certain garbage can that I put pulled weeds in. It's really old and has a hole worn in the bottom, so I can't put anything small or liquid in it. Anyway, I pull out this garbage can and there is a GINORMOUS black widow spider in its web behind the garbage can. I don't have a photo to show you, because I was too busy SQUISHING it!!!

    Black widow spiders freaked me out as a kid. Some how I got the impression that if they bit me I could become very ill and possibly die.

    We had a tack shed that they seemed to like for some reason. I remember going into it with my sister behind me.
    Well there was one over my head and running right at me. I think I ran clean over my sister to get out.

    My husband laughs about when he was young that they ( all boys in the family) had a black widow spider as a pet. They would feed it flies. They kept it in a mason jar with little holes in the top so it could breathe. All went well until till she had about 1000 babies that were small enough to crawl out the holes in the top. They all laugh about it.

    To this day I can catch and hold almost anything but spiders.

    I woke up with a black widow on my chest once (on top of the blanket) as a teenager. Totally freaked out about that!
    This is the one I killed from my shed last week. This is not a good picture but I wanted to make sure I killed her. She was the biggest I have seen.
    1rd2oh6zt456.jpg

    Pretty big and is that it's egg sac?
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    I confess I'm a home wrecker......

    Today as I was out walking I noticed a pretty blue gray bird by the side of the lake and as I passed, I watched it fly off it was beautiful.
    When I turned my face forward again I did so just in time to see the middle of a rather large spider web. It spanned over my head to mid chest.

    First of all I'm sorry spider for wrecking your very close knit large web. I'm sure it took along time to make. I hope you have enough web to build another one

    Secondly. Shriek, wild thrashing about with my arms trying to get it off of me, and dear God please don't let that spider be on me.

    I was pulling weeds in my front flower garden Saturday. (It was WAY past due, and the weeds were way out of control, but that's a different confession.) I have a certain garbage can that I put pulled weeds in. It's really old and has a hole worn in the bottom, so I can't put anything small or liquid in it. Anyway, I pull out this garbage can and there is a GINORMOUS black widow spider in its web behind the garbage can. I don't have a photo to show you, because I was too busy SQUISHING it!!!

    Black widow spiders freaked me out as a kid. Some how I got the impression that if they bit me I could become very ill and possibly die.

    We had a tack shed that they seemed to like for some reason. I remember going into it with my sister behind me.
    Well there was one over my head and running right at me. I think I ran clean over my sister to get out.

    My husband laughs about when he was young that they ( all boys in the family) had a black widow spider as a pet. They would feed it flies. They kept it in a mason jar with little holes in the top so it could breathe. All went well until till she had about 1000 babies that were small enough to crawl out the holes in the top. They all laugh about it.

    To this day I can catch and hold almost anything but spiders.

    I woke up with a black widow on my chest once (on top of the blanket) as a teenager. Totally freaked out about that!

    I used to keep a carafe of water next to my bed because I woke up thirsty a lot. One night, I was lazy and, instead of sitting up to drink, I just picked up the carafe in the dark and tilted it over my mouth. A COCKROACH fell off the lip. ONTO MY FACE. To this day, a cockroach is the only bug that will send me running and screaming. Before that, I wasn't at all afraid of them. A cockroach running across your face can do that to you, apparently.

    Oh my gosh that is the most disgusting thing ever.

    I don't know about that. I use a rescue inhaler for asthma and once took it out of my pocket and put it on a log while I was having lunch on a hike. When I needed it later, I sucked in a mouthful of small black ants. Literally a spit take. Rinsed my mouth out, spit again, rinsed again and spit again and then took the inhaler apart rinsed it all off and used it again. It's uncomfortable to sit with the inhaler in my front pocket, but I don't take it out while hiking anymore.
  • raelynnsmama52512
    raelynnsmama52512 Posts: 1,184 Member
    Just popping in for a second, I'm still here, just really busy!

    *If you have reservations about religion or God, you may want to skip this post, I really hope you don't, but if that's the case you may want to stop here!*

    These past few weeks I've been really struggling, especially after finding out that the doctors are completely confused about Raelynn and what we need to do from here. I literally drove home Friday in tears because I don't know what else we can do. She's got these problems, but she doesn't meet the criteria for this diagnosis and that one and so forth. I've been at the end of my rope. BIL and SIL invited us to come to their church last Sunday, and I decided to put my reservations about church and religion aside for that and go because they really wanted us to go. I absolutely do not regret that decision one bit! Something happened during that service, and I just threw my hands up and told God, "I don't know what's going to happen from here, I don't know what's down the road, but I know I can't keep living like this and I can't do this on my own. I need your help." Ever since, I've felt so much better, I feel like I've got so much peace in my life for once, and I'm so happy! :smiley:
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
    Now for what I came to confess: I skipped my weigh in yesterday because I don't want to know what the damage is from eating everything in sight Wednesday through Saturday last week and not going to the gum since last Tuesday.
    I have been sick for a week (thanks goldenrod and ragweed) and I just haven't been able to make myself eat well and move. I have eaten better the last two days and I am going to workout tonight. I'll weigh on the gym scale and record the damage.

    I am very disappointed in myself. This has been my biggest food screw up in two years.
  • crosbylee
    crosbylee Posts: 3,455 Member
    Now for what I came to confess: I skipped my weigh in yesterday because I don't want to know what the damage is from eating everything in sight Wednesday through Saturday last week and not going to the gum since last Tuesday.
    I have been sick for a week (thanks goldenrod and ragweed) and I just haven't been able to make myself eat well and move. I have eaten better the last two days and I am going to workout tonight. I'll weigh on the gym scale and record the damage.

    I am very disappointed in myself. This has been my biggest food screw up in two years.

    You will see it and own it. You know what to do to fix it. Just keep going. Good job for taking account for it.
  • rungirl1973
    rungirl1973 Posts: 2,559 Member
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    *post date update*

    first date #22

    this was saturday afternoon and was probably the most "non-date" first date ever.
    i'll fully admit, i didn't even attempt to try.

    had been talking to this dude for a lil while, and we kept trying to set something up, but schedules were always getting in the way. so on saturday he's like hey! i'm free for a bit this afternoon if you want to chill. my reply? it's a pajama jams saturday, i have zero intentions of doing anything other than having beverages and listening to my ipod. zero fracks shall be given. (yeah, not trying, at all).

    apparently this dude saw my ghetto attitude as fun and refreshing (lol), and was like sounds awesome!
    so dude came over and chilled on the porch for a while with beverages, chit chats, and a random cig here and there. he was also very fond of my batman pajamas (yeah i don't mess around). found out he's a lawyer (classy!), and really, really chill and relaxed, which apparently doesn't quite meld with his profession. so i'm thinking the idea to sit on a porch with a chick in pj's and beverages would be a fun change of pace.

    and he was really nice! hung out for a few hours, and i actually had a great time.
    maybe a #2? who knows, gonna have to wait and see, but overall a good day :)

    I might steal this date idea....

    Update on SSP:

    So we met at his place Sunday morning, no coffee, because he doesn't drink coffee, but he did make iced tea. He told me about the supervisor's class he took while in Houston and what it told him about relationships with subordinates and how it scared him. Something about being able to be 'friendly' but not being able to be friends or have relationships with them outside of the work environment. That's PART ONE of why he dumped me.
    Part two was that he was getting nervous about how attached I was and how attached he was GETTING! So on the BRIGHT side, I'm a really amazing girl and he likes me. But I'm not quite worth putting his career in jeopardy. Which I think is totally understandable, he's been doing this job for years and years and he's looking at retiring in a decade or so. He wants me to stay where I am and have the opportunity to use the tuition reimbursement and open hours of nightshift to get a degree.

    Anyway, I gave him his kindle back that he let me borrow, he mentioned something about it not being destroyed and I said I didn't even THINK about it despite how hurt and mad I was because I am a rational human for the most part.
    He said he thinks the circumstances suck and now he is one of those dumb ones. When I asked what he meant, he brought up that we had a conversation once about the men who were dumb enough to let me walk away from them. I told him not to worry about it and that I won't be waiting around for circumstances to change and that I don't expect him to either. He made some joke about him being eternally single and whatnot, we said our good byes and I left.
    I wanted to scream in his face and call him a hypocrite because him and the Lt hang out, ride motorcycles, and have dinner about once a month. If that isn't considered being 'friends' I don't know what is. If the Lt can be more than 'friendly' with his sergeants, why can't he(SSP) be more than 'friendly' with me?

    Oh well. He's made his choice and I'm already down a pound so, his loss.

    Anyway, I reconnected with a guy I met back when I was working at Lowe's in early mid 2014. His name is Jason and he always offered to buy me lunch when I was working as a cashier there, but I usually brought my lunch.

    We have plans for something on Thursday, but nothing concrete as of yet. I'm not feeling so much as a date as more of a 'hey let's just get out of the house for a bit' kinda thing. He knows the situation and is cool with maybe just some mini golf or a movie. "Having a new friend is good, if nothing else" he said.

    ETA: Edited because emotions make typing hard
    Edited again to add: I don't want to be with a guy who is going to be breaking things off because he's afraid of his own feelings anyway. That just shouldn't be a reason.

    Well the supervisor class is an excuse. If he is 10 years from retirement then he knows better than to have an affair with a subordinate.

    I think the 2nd part is most likely the reason. And 'eternally single' is a clue right there. Also at his age if he's never been married he is likely to be a commitment phobe. Enjoy your next date!

    This. You are right. You don't want to be involved with somebody who breaks things off because he's afraid of his feelings. You also don't want to be involved with somebody who breaks things off VIA TEXT. Still unacceptable, in my book.

    Enjoy your hangout time with Jason.

    NEXT :smiley:
  • crosbylee
    crosbylee Posts: 3,455 Member
    Just popping in for a second, I'm still here, just really busy!

    *If you have reservations about religion or God, you may want to skip this post, I really hope you don't, but if that's the case you may want to stop here!*

    These past few weeks I've been really struggling, especially after finding out that the doctors are completely confused about Raelynn and what we need to do from here. I literally drove home Friday in tears because I don't know what else we can do. She's got these problems, but she doesn't meet the criteria for this diagnosis and that one and so forth. I've been at the end of my rope. BIL and SIL invited us to come to their church last Sunday, and I decided to put my reservations about church and religion aside for that and go because they really wanted us to go. I absolutely do not regret that decision one bit! Something happened during that service, and I just threw my hands up and told God, "I don't know what's going to happen from here, I don't know what's down the road, but I know I can't keep living like this and I can't do this on my own. I need your help." Ever since, I've felt so much better, I feel like I've got so much peace in my life for once, and I'm so happy! :smiley:

    It sounds like you have found a way to get some of the stress off your shoulders. I pray, so sometimes it helps to just let go and give those troubles over. Sometimes just getting them out helps. I know you and Raelynn will be just fine.
  • rungirl1973
    rungirl1973 Posts: 2,559 Member
    raymax4 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    I confess I'm a home wrecker......

    Today as I was out walking I noticed a pretty blue gray bird by the side of the lake and as I passed, I watched it fly off it was beautiful.
    When I turned my face forward again I did so just in time to see the middle of a rather large spider web. It spanned over my head to mid chest.

    First of all I'm sorry spider for wrecking your very close knit large web. I'm sure it took along time to make. I hope you have enough web to build another one

    Secondly. Shriek, wild thrashing about with my arms trying to get it off of me, and dear God please don't let that spider be on me.

    I was pulling weeds in my front flower garden Saturday. (It was WAY past due, and the weeds were way out of control, but that's a different confession.) I have a certain garbage can that I put pulled weeds in. It's really old and has a hole worn in the bottom, so I can't put anything small or liquid in it. Anyway, I pull out this garbage can and there is a GINORMOUS black widow spider in its web behind the garbage can. I don't have a photo to show you, because I was too busy SQUISHING it!!!

    Black widow spiders freaked me out as a kid. Some how I got the impression that if they bit me I could become very ill and possibly die.

    We had a tack shed that they seemed to like for some reason. I remember going into it with my sister behind me.
    Well there was one over my head and running right at me. I think I ran clean over my sister to get out.

    My husband laughs about when he was young that they ( all boys in the family) had a black widow spider as a pet. They would feed it flies. They kept it in a mason jar with little holes in the top so it could breathe. All went well until till she had about 1000 babies that were small enough to crawl out the holes in the top. They all laugh about it.

    To this day I can catch and hold almost anything but spiders.

    I woke up with a black widow on my chest once (on top of the blanket) as a teenager. Totally freaked out about that!

    I used to keep a carafe of water next to my bed because I woke up thirsty a lot. One night, I was lazy and, instead of sitting up to drink, I just picked up the carafe in the dark and tilted it over my mouth. A COCKROACH fell off the lip. ONTO MY FACE. To this day, a cockroach is the only bug that will send me running and screaming. Before that, I wasn't at all afraid of them. A cockroach running across your face can do that to you, apparently.

    Oh my gosh that is the most disgusting thing ever.

    Agreed! Yuck!

    Glad it didn't go in your mouth. But yes how horrable

    @Susieq_1994 I can't even process that story. I would probably have been hauled off to jail or I would still be screaming...
  • rungirl1973
    rungirl1973 Posts: 2,559 Member
    Just popping in for a second, I'm still here, just really busy!

    *If you have reservations about religion or God, you may want to skip this post, I really hope you don't, but if that's the case you may want to stop here!*

    These past few weeks I've been really struggling, especially after finding out that the doctors are completely confused about Raelynn and what we need to do from here. I literally drove home Friday in tears because I don't know what else we can do. She's got these problems, but she doesn't meet the criteria for this diagnosis and that one and so forth. I've been at the end of my rope. BIL and SIL invited us to come to their church last Sunday, and I decided to put my reservations about church and religion aside for that and go because they really wanted us to go. I absolutely do not regret that decision one bit! Something happened during that service, and I just threw my hands up and told God, "I don't know what's going to happen from here, I don't know what's down the road, but I know I can't keep living like this and I can't do this on my own. I need your help." Ever since, I've felt so much better, I feel like I've got so much peace in my life for once, and I'm so happy! :smiley:

    I'm so glad you're feeling at peace with things...
  • KylerJaye
    KylerJaye Posts: 861 Member
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    *post date update*

    first date #22

    this was saturday afternoon and was probably the most "non-date" first date ever.
    i'll fully admit, i didn't even attempt to try.

    had been talking to this dude for a lil while, and we kept trying to set something up, but schedules were always getting in the way. so on saturday he's like hey! i'm free for a bit this afternoon if you want to chill. my reply? it's a pajama jams saturday, i have zero intentions of doing anything other than having beverages and listening to my ipod. zero fracks shall be given. (yeah, not trying, at all).

    apparently this dude saw my ghetto attitude as fun and refreshing (lol), and was like sounds awesome!
    so dude came over and chilled on the porch for a while with beverages, chit chats, and a random cig here and there. he was also very fond of my batman pajamas (yeah i don't mess around). found out he's a lawyer (classy!), and really, really chill and relaxed, which apparently doesn't quite meld with his profession. so i'm thinking the idea to sit on a porch with a chick in pj's and beverages would be a fun change of pace.

    and he was really nice! hung out for a few hours, and i actually had a great time.
    maybe a #2? who knows, gonna have to wait and see, but overall a good day :)

    I might steal this date idea....

    Update on SSP:

    So we met at his place Sunday morning, no coffee, because he doesn't drink coffee, but he did make iced tea. He told me about the supervisor's class he took while in Houston and what it told him about relationships with subordinates and how it scared him. Something about being able to be 'friendly' but not being able to be friends or have relationships with them outside of the work environment. That's PART ONE of why he dumped me.
    Part two was that he was getting nervous about how attached I was and how attached he was GETTING! So on the BRIGHT side, I'm a really amazing girl and he likes me. But I'm not quite worth putting his career in jeopardy. Which I think is totally understandable, he's been doing this job for years and years and he's looking at retiring in a decade or so. He wants me to stay where I am and have the opportunity to use the tuition reimbursement and open hours of nightshift to get a degree.

    Anyway, I gave him his kindle back that he let me borrow, he mentioned something about it not being destroyed and I said I didn't even THINK about it despite how hurt and mad I was because I am a rational human for the most part.
    He said he thinks the circumstances suck and now he is one of those dumb ones. When I asked what he meant, he brought up that we had a conversation once about the men who were dumb enough to let me walk away from them. I told him not to worry about it and that I won't be waiting around for circumstances to change and that I don't expect him to either. He made some joke about him being eternally single and whatnot, we said our good byes and I left.
    I wanted to scream in his face and call him a hypocrite because him and the Lt hang out, ride motorcycles, and have dinner about once a month. If that isn't considered being 'friends' I don't know what is. If the Lt can be more than 'friendly' with his sergeants, why can't he(SSP) be more than 'friendly' with me?

    Oh well. He's made his choice and I'm already down a pound so, his loss.

    Anyway, I reconnected with a guy I met back when I was working at Lowe's in early mid 2014. His name is Jason and he always offered to buy me lunch when I was working as a cashier there, but I usually brought my lunch.

    We have plans for something on Thursday, but nothing concrete as of yet. I'm not feeling so much as a date as more of a 'hey let's just get out of the house for a bit' kinda thing. He knows the situation and is cool with maybe just some mini golf or a movie. "Having a new friend is good, if nothing else" he said.

    ETA: Edited because emotions make typing hard
    Edited again to add: I don't want to be with a guy who is going to be breaking things off because he's afraid of his own feelings anyway. That just shouldn't be a reason.

    Well the supervisor class is an excuse. If he is 10 years from retirement then he knows better than to have an affair with a subordinate.

    I think the 2nd part is most likely the reason. And 'eternally single' is a clue right there. Also at his age if he's never been married he is likely to be a commitment phobe. Enjoy your next date!

    He's more like 18 years from retirement...

    And BOOM! That's exactly what I plan to do.

    wow, boys are friggin stupid. i really like you, but that scares me, so now i'm just gonna bail. wtf?!

    sorry it didn't work out but AWESOME on you for washing your hands of him and pushing right on!
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    Just popping in for a second, I'm still here, just really busy!

    *If you have reservations about religion or God, you may want to skip this post, I really hope you don't, but if that's the case you may want to stop here!*

    These past few weeks I've been really struggling, especially after finding out that the doctors are completely confused about Raelynn and what we need to do from here. I literally drove home Friday in tears because I don't know what else we can do. She's got these problems, but she doesn't meet the criteria for this diagnosis and that one and so forth. I've been at the end of my rope. BIL and SIL invited us to come to their church last Sunday, and I decided to put my reservations about church and religion aside for that and go because they really wanted us to go. I absolutely do not regret that decision one bit! Something happened during that service, and I just threw my hands up and told God, "I don't know what's going to happen from here, I don't know what's down the road, but I know I can't keep living like this and I can't do this on my own. I need your help." Ever since, I've felt so much better, I feel like I've got so much peace in my life for once, and I'm so happy! :smiley:

    That's wonderful!! Sometimes the best stress reliever is to just give it to God. :)
  • raymax4
    raymax4 Posts: 6,070 Member
    Now for what I came to confess: I skipped my weigh in yesterday because I don't want to know what the damage is from eating everything in sight Wednesday through Saturday last week and not going to the gum since last Tuesday.
    I have been sick for a week (thanks goldenrod and ragweed) and I just haven't been able to make myself eat well and move. I have eaten better the last two days and I am going to workout tonight. I'll weigh on the gym scale and record the damage.

    I am very disappointed in myself. This has been my biggest food screw up in two years.

    I know how distracting that must be but I'd bet that it's not as bad as you think
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    *post date update*

    first date #22

    this was saturday afternoon and was probably the most "non-date" first date ever.
    i'll fully admit, i didn't even attempt to try.

    had been talking to this dude for a lil while, and we kept trying to set something up, but schedules were always getting in the way. so on saturday he's like hey! i'm free for a bit this afternoon if you want to chill. my reply? it's a pajama jams saturday, i have zero intentions of doing anything other than having beverages and listening to my ipod. zero fracks shall be given. (yeah, not trying, at all).

    apparently this dude saw my ghetto attitude as fun and refreshing (lol), and was like sounds awesome!
    so dude came over and chilled on the porch for a while with beverages, chit chats, and a random cig here and there. he was also very fond of my batman pajamas (yeah i don't mess around). found out he's a lawyer (classy!), and really, really chill and relaxed, which apparently doesn't quite meld with his profession. so i'm thinking the idea to sit on a porch with a chick in pj's and beverages would be a fun change of pace.

    and he was really nice! hung out for a few hours, and i actually had a great time.
    maybe a #2? who knows, gonna have to wait and see, but overall a good day :)

    Oooooh this sounds promising!
  • ythannah
    ythannah Posts: 4,371 Member
    Just popping in for a second, I'm still here, just really busy!

    *If you have reservations about religion or God, you may want to skip this post, I really hope you don't, but if that's the case you may want to stop here!*

    These past few weeks I've been really struggling, especially after finding out that the doctors are completely confused about Raelynn and what we need to do from here. I literally drove home Friday in tears because I don't know what else we can do. She's got these problems, but she doesn't meet the criteria for this diagnosis and that one and so forth. I've been at the end of my rope. BIL and SIL invited us to come to their church last Sunday, and I decided to put my reservations about church and religion aside for that and go because they really wanted us to go. I absolutely do not regret that decision one bit! Something happened during that service, and I just threw my hands up and told God, "I don't know what's going to happen from here, I don't know what's down the road, but I know I can't keep living like this and I can't do this on my own. I need your help." Ever since, I've felt so much better, I feel like I've got so much peace in my life for once, and I'm so happy! :smiley:

    I'm happy that you've found a way to get peace and relief from the stress in your life!
  • katepig54
    katepig54 Posts: 12 Member
    Confession: I get really really excited when I poop before breakfast.

    i do too - reading this thread is hilarious and takes my mind off food! love it
  • CountessKitteh
    CountessKitteh Posts: 1,505 Member
    MissKalhan wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    ythannah wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Confession: I just ate a peanut butter and jelly doughnut. If possible, I have negative regrets. That was a sound taste bud investment.

    Mmm wow didn't know those existed!!

    It was just a jelly doughnut with (glorious) peanut butter frosting, but it was absolutely what I needed/wanted.

    My local doughnut shop makes a strawberry filled doughnut with peanut butter icing. I miss those. And this year they are making a pumpkin filled with cream cheese icing. I got Mr. Mel.one the other day. It smelled wonderful.

    Dear God,

    Please let Heaven be filled with these pumpkin donuts when I get there. Thank you.

    Love,

    Laura

    Yes, yes... 1000 times yes.

    The only good thing about fall: it's Pumpkin Season.

    I love it!!

    I've already bought some Pumpkin foods B).

    Pumpkin Fiber One bar (pretty good for 90 calories), Chobani Pumpkin Spice (awful for 130 calories), & Dannon Pumpkin yogurt (170 calories & really good).

    I had my first Pumpkin Chai latte of the season yesterday....MMmmmmm!

    @KylerJaye and @kecmw25 - BLASPHEMY!

    I tried the Pumpkin Spice Latte this weekend from Starbucks. They changed the ingredients and I'm not a fan of the new taste which makes me sad, I love pumpkin anything (I'm an October baby, my mom would make me pumpkin flavoured cakes etc).

    If you have a Target near you then they have a lot of different Pumpkin/Halloween foods this year. I bought Pumpkin Spice M&Ms, Peeps in Pumpkin Spice, Candy Corn, & Caramel Apple flavors, a Russell Stover's Pumpkin Spice Latte candy bar, & a Hammonds Candy Corn Bar (this was awful).

    I tried the Pumpkin Spice Peeps & they were awesome! I wish I would've bought a few more packages of them.

    I hope I can find the Peanut Butter & Co. Pumpkin Spice spread & the Hostess Pumpkin Spice Cupcakes.

    Wait, like the swirly topped kind? The orange ones were my reason to live at one point* and this I could get behind.

    *possible exaggeration
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    I love England and all our non threatening bugs.

    Hell. Yes. *Gives a small nod to the skies*
  • CountessKitteh
    CountessKitteh Posts: 1,505 Member
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    spamarie wrote: »
    We don't have pumpkin flavoured ANYTHING here. We don't even have tinned pumpkin. You can buy fresh ones around Halloween but that's about it (and I think we have pumpkin soup!). I don't really know what it tastes of. Another thing to try if I ever make it to the USA again.

    Oh yes we doooooo! Go to your local Tescos and find the 'Around the worlds' Section. It has a load of American foods, including pureed pumpkin. I found it last year and was so happy to see it back. It kinda disappeared over the summer. Beware though. That section also has yummy pop tarts, massive packs of Oreos and other yummy things.

    That happens in the States too. It can be very difficult to find pumpkin in like, May. But canned yams/sweet potato (I'm pretty sure they're ACTUALLY yams but this is an endless debate) is a good sub for baked stuff at least!

    What? Are you telling me you DON'T need pumpkin muffins in June sometimes?
  • CountessKitteh
    CountessKitteh Posts: 1,505 Member
    edited September 2015
    Confession: I purposely scheduled my blood draw for our annual wellness program for this Saturday to trick myself into getting back on track so I don't screw that up for myself. I also have to NOT EAT after 9pm Friday until whenever I'm done Saturday (scheduled for 9:15am). Stupid lipid panel.

    ETA: I usually have very good cholesterol/lipids/etc results because I don't live on "junk" anymore anyway, but I'm pretending like somehow I need to work at it. ;)
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
    Confession: I'm so far behind here and the batcave I've been avoiding the site since looking at all of it gives me anxiety :(
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Confession: two donuts. That is all.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Just popping in for a second, I'm still here, just really busy!

    *If you have reservations about religion or God, you may want to skip this post, I really hope you don't, but if that's the case you may want to stop here!*

    These past few weeks I've been really struggling, especially after finding out that the doctors are completely confused about Raelynn and what we need to do from here. I literally drove home Friday in tears because I don't know what else we can do. She's got these problems, but she doesn't meet the criteria for this diagnosis and that one and so forth. I've been at the end of my rope. BIL and SIL invited us to come to their church last Sunday, and I decided to put my reservations about church and religion aside for that and go because they really wanted us to go. I absolutely do not regret that decision one bit! Something happened during that service, and I just threw my hands up and told God, "I don't know what's going to happen from here, I don't know what's down the road, but I know I can't keep living like this and I can't do this on my own. I need your help." Ever since, I've felt so much better, I feel like I've got so much peace in my life for once, and I'm so happy! :smiley:

    I know that feeling, and how freeing it is! Good for you!
  • KylerJaye
    KylerJaye Posts: 861 Member
    *post date update*

    first date #23

    i'm not sure if i should even be allowed to call these "dates" anymore.
    more like casual meet and greets.

    case in point, last night:
    chatting with dude, and he's like hey i'm over at this local bar, you should stop by. i kindly tell him no way, 'cause
    1. i've had a few beverages and didn't want to go anywhere and
    2. it's garbage night and i've got a lot of junk to do around the house!
    hehehe

    so then he offers to stop by and help me do chores (lol)
    sure thing!
    which really just consisted of us moving from room to room chatting while i cleaned and he tried to befriend my dogs (this effort was in vain, my dogs hate everyone). still a fun time though!

    nice enough dude, but prolly not for me.
  • KylerJaye
    KylerJaye Posts: 861 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Confession: I'm so far behind here and the batcave I've been avoiding the site since looking at all of it gives me anxiety :(

    you know you can always just jump back in! no anxiety needed! <3
  • crosbylee
    crosbylee Posts: 3,455 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Confession: I'm so far behind here and the batcave I've been avoiding the site since looking at all of it gives me anxiety :(

    You know you don't have to keep up all the time. Sometimes you just have to jump back in. Don't even think of avoiding us...... <3
  • Just_Ceci
    Just_Ceci Posts: 5,926 Member
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Confession: I'm so far behind here and the batcave I've been avoiding the site since looking at all of it gives me anxiety :(

    you know you can always just jump back in! no anxiety needed! <3
    crosbylee wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Confession: I'm so far behind here and the batcave I've been avoiding the site since looking at all of it gives me anxiety :(

    You know you don't have to keep up all the time. Sometimes you just have to jump back in. Don't even think of avoiding us...... <3

    YES THIS!