Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    My confession is I have stretch marks literally ALL over my body. I have them on my boobs, stomach, thighs, and all over my back. Never pregnant, just formerly morbidly obese. I know stretch marks are normal but when they cover the majority of your body, it's a little overwhelming to accept that. I never took care of myself/my body as a teenager and unfortunately I can't do anything about the damage that has been done. What a great wish it would be to be able to go back in time and have a second chance with your body. I wish I knew then what I know now...but what can ya do? I am only 22 and I feel as if my body is just ruined. I don't feel comfortable in my own skin, it's honestly a very sad situation. You only get one body, and I messed mine up, there's no turning back really. As you can tell I have a lot of regrets. I also deal with loose skin but that's a whole other story on it's own. Hopefully at some point in my life I will feel better about my body and learn to accept it as who I am, but that hasn't happened yet.

    Unfortunately, this is me as well. I do have some hope that the stretch marks will fade away and the skin will tighten up, because I'm only twenty. Twenty two isn't much older, so why give up hope? :)

    SusieQ, I had no idea you were only 20!!! (Sorry if the 'only' sounds condescending, not intended. I am literally twice your age ;) ) Have you been married very long?
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    When I worked as a youth counselor at a wilderness boarding school we sometimes had rice with sugar and butter for breakfast and the girls called it "Poor boy cereal"..I was not a fan personally.

    You people putting sugar on your rice are monsters.

    Confession: There were times when I was super broke where rice with barbecue sauce was dinner. Still would.

    As a broke newlywed, I made Hamburger Helper without any hamburger or milk. Blech. Gosh, that was 1996. I haven't bought Hamburger Helper in at least 14(?) years. The thought of eating it now....disgusting. :s

    As a broke kid, we ate tuna and rice for at least one year non-stop, because my mom couldn't afford to feed us anything else. I still pretty much hate tuna and rice.

    Then, when we had a slight step up, it progressed to macaroni covered in Chicken Tonight sauce, with not a chicken bit in sight. Every. Single. Day. Just thinking about that horrible combination still makes me sick. That stuff was not made to be put on macaroni! :s
  • Glinda1971
    Glinda1971 Posts: 2,328 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    Glinda1971 wrote: »
    I'm really excited today that my face is feeling better!! I'm going to eat all my crunchy veggies I packed for lunch-I've missed them.

    The first thing I do in the morning is check this thread - it keeps me logging in.

    Then I go see how much spam I can kill - three threads this morning.

    Then I go read other things always watching for new posts in here.
    Glad your face is better - do you have to see the dentist again?

    I actually saw the doctor as all the dentist was going to do was prescribe antibiotics and wait for the infection to go away. The doctor is free, the dentist not so much. Plus I have to find a new dentist, mine retired.
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    xMrBunglex wrote: »
    ndj1979 wrote: »
    Confession: I ate nearly 4000 calories yesterday. Mostly in bread and cookies. Ugh.

    Anyhow, it's prayer time and the fast has started--I'm off to pray and then maybe get some sleep (I hope).

    @ndj1979 True and true, but that's okay. We don't mind being wrong when it feels so right. :smiley: Although there are quite a lot of confessions in these 959 pages, if you care to browse for them.

    eh - my confession - not sure how this would be helpful to newbies as it appears to be a collection of gifs, notes on tv series, and other things, while I am sure are fun to discuss, I fail to see their utility to someone new to weight loss.

    I think it's here in the General section because a lot of people feel free to ask questions in here that often get blasted into dumpster fire threads under normal circumstances. A bit like the restaurant-related questions you mentioned in that post of yours... The forums are a scary place for newbies. The "No judgment" in the topic line seems to attract a lot of them, actually.

    What you see right now isn't what the thread is like all the time--it's actually evolving constantly since it's so active. Since a lot of us have been here from the beginning, we do often just chit chat all together, but confessions and questions still pour in a lot.

    422 new? Wow, looks like we strayed into the Neutral Zone there for awhile...

    The above retty much sums it up! Well done, Susieq.

    This is the only thread I post in (besides a 100% challenge that I run) for basically the exact reasons stated above. (Love the bolded part.)

    Thank you. :)
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    When it finally comes time for a cheat meal... It some how magically turns into a cheat day... Then cheat week... And it only gets worse from there :/ Then after those awful cheat days, I decide I'll start again Monday. EVERY. DANG. TIME. Lol

    I don't know if this is helpful or not (I'm still relatively new to this whole thing), but I don't do "cheat meals". If I am craving something, I just make sure it fits into my daily calorie allowance or I work out extra to make it fit. I don't view food as "good" or "bad" I just view as "good" or "gross". I hope you can get back on track. Good luck.
    Yes, this is my approach these days too. I used to be either 'on' or 'off' my diet, usually off. I'd start on a Monday morning, all gung-ho, I WILL LOSE ALL THE WEIGHT!! and by Tuesday at 11am I'd be eating donuts dipped in sour cream with a side of chocolate drizzled bacon or something. Try to stop the binge as soon as you can. If you have a big lunch, try to have a leaner dinner, and don't let the binge run into the next day. I know it can be easier said than done, but if you can change your mindset from either 'on' or 'off' your 'diet' to just 'food as fuel' it will really help in the long run.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Can I just say how awesome this thread has become?

    Yes, it started out about trash bags, peanut butter, and hot chocolate powder, but it has evolved into a community within the MFP community where people actually CARE and SUPPORT one another through stupid decisions, horrible situations, and hilarious escapades.

    You all rock. And if I wasn't super lazy, I would finally get around to friend requesting the rest of the regular posters.





    Super great.

    I think it's become the thread motto, and I love it. <3

    You guys will appreciate this. I went to immediate care last night to get a crazy insect bite on my knee checked out. The doc came into the room and asked me how I was, and without even thinking, I said, "super great". And then I just chuckled to myself for the rest of the appointment. LOL

    <3
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    Can I just say how awesome this thread has become?

    Yes, it started out about trash bags, peanut butter, and hot chocolate powder, but it has evolved into a community within the MFP community where people actually CARE and SUPPORT one another through stupid decisions, horrible situations, and hilarious escapades.

    You all rock. And if I wasn't super lazy, I would finally get around to friend requesting the rest of the regular posters.





    Super great.

    I think it's become the thread motto, and I love it. <3

    Someone should change the picture in the group to the Super Great shark. It's currently... Sunflowers? Is that thing actually changeable or is it always like that?
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    xMrBunglex wrote: »
    I confess that I'm pretty irritated that I took a new profile pic 3 days ago & it still isn't showing up as my avatar....anyone know if I'm missing a setting or something? I already made it my "main" pic.

    I had that happen once, too. I reloaded from a desktop and then it worked.
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    Hello all,

    I've been lurking since page 1... wasn't planning to post was just enjoying the confessions. Then the thread went on, and on, and on, and I never felt it was the right opportunity to post anything. Just wanted to say that there are probably lots of us who enjoy this thread, who empathise, who find it interesting, who laugh and cry along with everyone else, and might not post a lot but thoroughly enjoyed it, and hopefully will continue to do so.

    My confession (I feel the need to contribute at least once) is that I skipped breakfast today so I could go for a waffle and ice-cream for lunch and I also have a take-away curry for dinner tonight. I use CICO when it suits me!

    I am in maintenance at the moment as I have started NROLFW and am enjoying eating all the foods now, but this is the first time I've had ice-cream for lunch and I have no regrets!

    Welcome! I love it when long-time lurkers appear! Sounds like you have CICO figured out. Am jealous of your curry.
    Also, I spent many happy summer days at Hayling Island as a child - what a lovely place to live!
  • kellyjellybellyjelly
    kellyjellybellyjelly Posts: 9,480 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    Ok, major confession here. I found this bedding set and bought it - ex-display $80 instead of $240. I love it (YES IT'S JESSICA SIMPSON I DON'T CARE), but it's in the spare room closet hidden from my husband. I bought it for the camper that we don't own yet, that he doesn't want yet (really only because the timing's not right and he's too busy to care) but that I'm desperate for. Is that bad? I'm such a brat.
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    I have a Jessica Simpson coat. It's really cute, olive green pea coat. But something about it being from the Jessica Simpson line does make me feel a little embarrassed for some reason. :D

    I felt a little embarrassed wearing her jeans/jeggings, but they were cute.

    My mom has bought a few of her handbags at TJMAXX.
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Can I just say how awesome this thread has become?

    Yes, it started out about trash bags, peanut butter, and hot chocolate powder, but it has evolved into a community within the MFP community where people actually CARE and SUPPORT one another through stupid decisions, horrible situations, and hilarious escapades.

    You all rock. And if I wasn't super lazy, I would finally get around to friend requesting the rest of the regular posters.





    Super great.

    I think it's become the thread motto, and I love it. <3

    You guys will appreciate this. I went to immediate care last night to get a crazy insect bite on my knee checked out. The doc came into the room and asked me how I was, and without even thinking, I said, "super great". And then I just chuckled to myself for the rest of the appointment. LOL

    He was probably like, "Well, I guess that's good." This made me smile. :smiley: <---See?!
    Me too!
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    ciaraos27 wrote: »
    If I'm quite stressed out I can get an upset stomach and that leads me to binging on all sorts of unhealthy things as I feel sorry for myself and comfort eat. I've been in this cycle this week so didn't log anything. Finally took action to log todays binge, at least :o Yikes...

    I guess that has stopped me...for now!

    Glad you found something that stopped you. Hopefully, you can catch it earlier next time! You can do this!
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    xMrBunglex wrote: »
    I confess that I'm pretty irritated that I took a new profile pic 3 days ago & it still isn't showing up as my avatar....anyone know if I'm missing a setting or something? I already made it my "main" pic.

    Try removing it and setting it again. Sometimes the profile pics act iffy.
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
    My confession is I have stretch marks literally ALL over my body. I have them on my boobs, stomach, thighs, and all over my back. Never pregnant, just formerly morbidly obese. I know stretch marks are normal but when they cover the majority of your body, it's a little overwhelming to accept that. I never took care of myself/my body as a teenager and unfortunately I can't do anything about the damage that has been done. What a great wish it would be to be able to go back in time and have a second chance with your body. I wish I knew then what I know now...but what can ya do? I am only 22 and I feel as if my body is just ruined. I don't feel comfortable in my own skin, it's honestly a very sad situation. You only get one body, and I messed mine up, there's no turning back really. As you can tell I have a lot of regrets. I also deal with loose skin but that's a whole other story on it's own. Hopefully at some point in my life I will feel better about my body and learn to accept it as who I am, but that hasn't happened yet.

    Unfortunately, this is me as well. I do have some hope that the stretch marks will fade away and the skin will tighten up, because I'm only twenty. Twenty two isn't much older, so why give up hope? :)

    SusieQ, I had no idea you were only 20!!! (Sorry if the 'only' sounds condescending, not intended. I am literally twice your age ;) ) Have you been married very long?

    I guess she was from the 1994 in her handle...are you turning the big 2-1 this year?!
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    xMrBunglex wrote: »
    ndj1979 wrote: »
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    ndj1979 wrote: »
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    ndj1979 wrote: »
    ndj1979 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    ndj1979 wrote: »
    Confession: I ate nearly 4000 calories yesterday. Mostly in bread and cookies. Ugh.

    Anyhow, it's prayer time and the fast has started--I'm off to pray and then maybe get some sleep (I hope).

    @ndj1979 True and true, but that's okay. We don't mind being wrong when it feels so right. :smiley: Although there are quite a lot of confessions in these 959 pages, if you care to browse for them.

    eh - my confession - not sure how this would be helpful to newbies as it appears to be a collection of gifs, notes on tv series, and other things, while I am sure are fun to discuss, I fail to see their utility to someone new to weight loss.

    I think it's here in the General section because a lot of people feel free to ask questions in here that often get blasted into dumpster fire threads under normal circumstances. A bit like the restaurant-related questions you mentioned in that post of yours... The forums are a scary place for newbies. The "No judgment" in the topic line seems to attract a lot of them, actually.

    What you see right now isn't what the thread is like all the time--it's actually evolving constantly since it's so active. Since a lot of us have been here from the beginning, we do often just chit chat all together, but confessions and questions still pour in a lot.
    Agreed. And since this is a really supportive, safe zone, I honestly think a lot of people have been helped back from the verge of falling off the wagon by discussing their struggles here. Or had a helping hand back on when they have fallen. To be honest, I don't really care where this thread is, as long as it doesn't get nuked.

    Same here, which is why I do kind of wonder why everyone jumps on the posters who dare to ask why it's in this particular section. Wouldn't it make more sense to explain all that before telling them to go away? :D

    I don't understand why others are so offended by this thread? Apparently many more people than we knew or thought lurk and read every so often.

    any other thread that was as off topic as this one would of been locked down by page 15….

    just saying..

    so the special status is interesting.

    Good point... Maybe we're all special snowflakes. ;)

    Actually, I think the mods like the positivity and support that this thread continually generates, and since confessions still do pile in daily (and we don't judge them! Most of the time.), we're somewhat on topic. It would be pretty dumb to pull this thread when it's going so well--not that they don't lock down threads for dumb reasons pretty often.

    there is plenty of support in the main forums, it just is not sugar coated.

    I'd agree there is support in the main forums but the reality is not everyone is as thick skinned as you or I. This thread keeps the people (who would throw the towel in the bucket because they didn't like the deliverance on the main forums) coming back and maybe learning more about weight loss. May be a bit slower but better late than never.
    Right, although they may also have to learn how to properly size a bra, make flapjacks or change the transmission on a Jeep Wranger on the way.

    great, but last time I checked it was not a site designed for any of those things. And people are always being chastised to "stay on topic"….
    FWIW, I do understand what you're saying, but the fact is we're on topic enough of the time.

    sorry, but based on a browse of the last ten pages or so that does not appear to be the case.

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  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    misskarne wrote: »
    I confess that when I start reading posts/stories about people struggling to pay for college, or when I see a post/story about some huge medical bill or substandard medical care because insurance, I get my judgey pants on. People should be able to go to university, regardless of background. People should be able to get access to medical care without having to have a certain type of insurance. People should be able to go to school, work, the freaking ice rink, without having to worry about being shot. Why is this so hard?

    /rant also because getting judgey about a whole other country is a bit silly.

    Hey preach I'm with you and I live in that country! It's hard as there are things I love and then things I really really dislike :/ but all in all can't say I'm not proud to be an American :D

    Ok, I totally read that wrong and was totally disappointed at first. Glad it didn't say what I originally read.

    Yep reading it quickly I'm sure I know what you thought it said...no worries I DO have pride!
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    Hello all,

    I've been lurking since page 1... wasn't planning to post was just enjoying the confessions. Then the thread went on, and on, and on, and I never felt it was the right opportunity to post anything. Just wanted to say that there are probably lots of us who enjoy this thread, who empathise, who find it interesting, who laugh and cry along with everyone else, and might not post a lot but thoroughly enjoyed it, and hopefully will continue to do so.

    My confession (I feel the need to contribute at least once) is that I skipped breakfast today so I could go for a waffle and ice-cream for lunch and I also have a take-away curry for dinner tonight. I use CICO when it suits me!

    I am in maintenance at the moment as I have started NROLFW and am enjoying eating all the foods now, but this is the first time I've had ice-cream for lunch and I have no regrets!


    Thanks for your input! And about the ice cream... That's awesome! I hope I can get to that point someday. I also hope you'll stick around. :)
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    ciaraos27 wrote: »
    If I'm quite stressed out I can get an upset stomach and that leads me to binging on all sorts of unhealthy things as I feel sorry for myself and comfort eat. I've been in this cycle this week so didn't log anything. Finally took action to log todays binge, at least :o Yikes...

    I guess that has stopped me...for now!
    Good for you for logging it. That can be quite scary seeing it in black and white.
    Good luck!
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    ... Guys? It looks like the cool kids found us. Think we should run?
    Quick, to the BatCave.
    http://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/group/106593-confession-is-good-for-the-soul

    Awesome!!!
    False alarm.
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    ... Guys? It looks like the cool kids found us. Think we should run?
    Quick, to the BatCave.
    http://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/group/106593-confession-is-good-for-the-soul

    Awesome!!!

    I actually just clicked on this and realized that Super Great shark IS the thread's picture. But the sunflowers are still there. Oops. Guess that answers my question...
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    My confession is I have stretch marks literally ALL over my body. I have them on my boobs, stomach, thighs, and all over my back. Never pregnant, just formerly morbidly obese. I know stretch marks are normal but when they cover the majority of your body, it's a little overwhelming to accept that. I never took care of myself/my body as a teenager and unfortunately I can't do anything about the damage that has been done. What a great wish it would be to be able to go back in time and have a second chance with your body. I wish I knew then what I know now...but what can ya do? I am only 22 and I feel as if my body is just ruined. I don't feel comfortable in my own skin, it's honestly a very sad situation. You only get one body, and I messed mine up, there's no turning back really. As you can tell I have a lot of regrets. I also deal with loose skin but that's a whole other story on it's own. Hopefully at some point in my life I will feel better about my body and learn to accept it as who I am, but that hasn't happened yet.

    Unfortunately, this is me as well. I do have some hope that the stretch marks will fade away and the skin will tighten up, because I'm only twenty. Twenty two isn't much older, so why give up hope? :)

    SusieQ, I had no idea you were only 20!!! (Sorry if the 'only' sounds condescending, not intended. I am literally twice your age ;) ) Have you been married very long?

    I guess she was from the 1994 in her handle...are you turning the big 2-1 this year?!

    Duh. Hmmmm, it's interesting that I'm paid to detect stuff and I missed that big clue. I'm a dork.
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  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    Can I just say how awesome this thread has become?

    Yes, it started out about trash bags, peanut butter, and hot chocolate powder, but it has evolved into a community within the MFP community where people actually CARE and SUPPORT one another through stupid decisions, horrible situations, and hilarious escapades.

    You all rock. And if I wasn't super lazy, I would finally get around to friend requesting the rest of the regular posters.





    Super great.

    I think it's become the thread motto, and I love it. <3

    Someone should change the picture in the group to the Super Great shark. It's currently... Sunflowers? Is that thing actually changeable or is it always like that?
    I put the shark there first but you couldn't see him, because it's a banner and the sizing didn't work. So I changed it to something pretty and hopeful - I love sunflowers! Other suggestions welcome!
  • kellyjellybellyjelly
    kellyjellybellyjelly Posts: 9,480 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    When I worked as a youth counselor at a wilderness boarding school we sometimes had rice with sugar and butter for breakfast and the girls called it "Poor boy cereal"..I was not a fan personally.

    You people putting sugar on your rice are monsters.

    Confession: There were times when I was super broke where rice with barbecue sauce was dinner. Still would.

    As a broke newlywed, I made Hamburger Helper without any hamburger or milk. Blech. Gosh, that was 1996. I haven't bought Hamburger Helper in at least 14(?) years. The thought of eating it now....disgusting. :s

    As a broke kid, we ate tuna and rice for at least one year non-stop, because my mom couldn't afford to feed us anything else. I still pretty much hate tuna and rice.

    Then, when we had a slight step up, it progressed to macaroni covered in Chicken Tonight sauce, with not a chicken bit in sight. Every. Single. Day. Just thinking about that horrible combination still makes me sick. That stuff was not made to be put on macaroni! :s

    Yum tuna & rice:D. I just had salmon & rice for lunch the other day. For dinner the past few nights I've been eating pasta noodles & parmesan since I can't stand most pasta sauces now. I could go for some good homemade macraroni & cheese with topping on it.

    I remember growing up my mom making a lot of cheap pasta dishes like spaghetti, lasagna, chili, chicken corn soup, & hamburger helpers. She made one meal that to this day grosses me out even though I love broccoli & cauliflower now.

    She would make a disgusting casserole & not cut up the veggies very well so you would be chomping away on the stalks or hard piece of the flower.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    In the interest of staying on track on this thread...

    Confession: I have gained 16 pounds since I started this job in November. Granted it's a desk job, and I came from a fairly active job where I was on my feet a lot. This morning I was down two pounds from my current highest weight. However, my MFP weight is still lower than where I am currently, so I can't log the loss. And that makes me a little sad. :'(

    I have also been working SL 5X5s since November. I'm starting to feel strong! Last night I did 190 lbs on my squat, tried for 75 pounds on my OHP (but couldn't finish all my reps on the last set), and 215 on my deadlift. Lost my grip on the last deadlift. I think I need some deadlifting gloves to help my grip. I am going to be trying 120 pounds on my bench press tomorrow night, and 105 on my rows. I <3 lifting!
  • kellyjellybellyjelly
    kellyjellybellyjelly Posts: 9,480 Member
    edited June 2015
    Can I just say how awesome this thread has become?

    Yes, it started out about trash bags, peanut butter, and hot chocolate powder, but it has evolved into a community within the MFP community where people actually CARE and SUPPORT one another through stupid decisions, horrible situations, and hilarious escapades.

    You all rock. And if I wasn't super lazy, I would finally get around to friend requesting the rest of the regular posters.





    Super great.

    I think it's become the thread motto, and I love it. <3

    Someone should change the picture in the group to the Super Great shark. It's currently... Sunflowers? Is that thing actually changeable or is it always like that?

    Plus faces are great in protein so it deals with nutrition :p!
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    edited June 2015
    Today is my second day in a row that I haven't binged. I hope to stop binging & maybe I'll set a reward system like I did with weight loss. Before I started binging I was around 153 now I'm up to about 160 which was what my original goal weight was going to be anyway, but I would like to eventually lose a little more. For right now I am going to set my calories around 1973 & try to eat around that amount everyday but if I go over some days I am NOT going to BEAT myself up & try to make up for it in another day.

    Last night I confessed I was hungry at 11:33 & wasn't going to eat anything but decided to eat a Quest bar, because I hate going to bed hungry.

    I also ordered New Rules Of Lifting For Women on Amazon & hope to get it soon.

    You can do this! I think I'm getting better at sticking to my own calorie goal by taking all the restricted foods I was hiding from and throwing that label out of the window. I honestly feel MUCH less like baking all the foods, eating all the foods, and drowning my sorrows in more of the food when I have it all sitting right there in my fridge, just being food.

    As I told my husband yesterday: I messed up big time because I was tired, and whether I had those foods in my fridge or not, the outcome would have been exactly the same--just because I was able to make cookies (and proceed to eat too many of them) doesn't change the fact that I would have pigged out on anything else that was available if I didn't have cookie ingredients available, for example.

    And you know what's really awesome? Normally I would have made the cookies, eaten ALL the cookies, and then gobbled down the remaining chocolate chips. This time, yes, I ate too many of them (7), but I then put the rest away into the freezer, and I didn't even feel the urge to touch the chocolate chips because "those are for baking". Since I can bake whenever I want, I don't need to get them out of the house by eating them just so I don't mess up tomorrow.

    Does that make sense? My husband had a really hard time understanding my feeling of making progress when I had blown my calorie goal so badly, but I told him that you guys (and anyone else with disordered food issues or weight issues) would understand it. :)
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Today is my second day in a row that I haven't binged. I hope to stop binging & maybe I'll set a reward system like I did with weight loss. Before I started binging I was around 153 now I'm up to about 160 which was what my original goal weight was going to be anyway, but I would like to eventually lose a little more. For right now I am going to set my calories around 1973 & try to eat around that amount everyday but if I go over some days I am NOT going to BEAT myself up & try to make up for it in another day.

    Last night I confessed I was hungry at 11:33 & wasn't going to eat anything but decided to eat a Quest bar, because I hate going to bed hungry.

    I also ordered New Rules Of Lifting For Women on Amazon & hope to get it soon.

    You can do this! I think I'm getting better at sticking to my own calorie goal by taking all the restricted foods I was hiding from and throwing that label out of the window. I honestly feel MUCH less like baking all the foods, eating all the foods, and drowning my sorrows in more of the food when I have it all sitting right there in my fridge, just being food.

    As I told my husband yesterday: I messed up big time because I was tired, and whether I had those foods in my fridge or not, the outcome would have been exactly the same--just because I was able to make cookies (and proceed to eat too many of them) doesn't change the fact that I would have pigged out on anything else that was available if I didn't have cookie ingredients available, for example.

    And you know what's really awesome? Normally I would have made the cookies, eaten ALL the cookies, and then gobbled down the remaining chocolate chips. This time, yes, I ate too many of them (7), but I then put the rest away into the freezer, and I didn't even feel the urge to touch the chocolate chips because "those are for baking". Since I can bake whenever I want, I don't need to get them out of the house by eating them just so I don't mess up tomorrow.

    Does that make sense? My husband had a really hard time understanding my feeling of making progress when I had blown my calorie goal so badly, but I told him that you guys (and anyone else with disordered food issues or weight issues) would understand it. :)

    Baby steps! That is what this 'journey' is all about. (Sorry to those of you who cringe at the word 'journey'. It was too apropos ;) )
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    I lied, I have another confession.

    I keep starting the day strong with logging. Then by dinner I just give up and say to myself, "oh, I will just start over tomorrow". Then tomorrow comes and it is a repeat of the day before. I really want to get rid of the last 18 but just don't have the motivation anymore. Even when I go back to my progress graph to see where I was at this point last year, I amaze myself at how far I have come. I just can't seem to get the mojo to finish the job. *Sigh*

    That's pretty much me, too.

    *raises hand* and me. :(
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    Ok, major confession here. I found this bedding set and bought it - ex-display $80 instead of $240. I love it (YES IT'S JESSICA SIMPSON I DON'T CARE), but it's in the spare room closet hidden from my husband. I bought it for the camper that we don't own yet, that he doesn't want yet (really only because the timing's not right and he's too busy to care) but that I'm desperate for. Is that bad? I'm such a brat.
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    I have a Jessica Simpson coat. It's really cute, olive green pea coat. But something about it being from the Jessica Simpson line does make me feel a little embarrassed for some reason. :D

    I felt a little embarrassed wearing her jeans/jeggings, but they were cute.

    My mom has bought a few of her handbags at TJMAXX.
    Yeah I do wonder if she's as ditzy as she's made out to be (I never saw her reality show), because she seems to be a pretty savvy businesswoman to me. She certainly has her fingers in a lot of pies.

    Also I really hate how the media went after her for gaining some weight during her pregnancies.