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IslandGal3 wrote: »

One of the last things my dad cooked was a pot of chili. I remember picking up all the ingredients for him. How good it smelt cooking. After he passed, I took the container of leftovers out of his freezer, and brought it home with me. It’s cold, and raining today. I pulled the chili out of my freezer. I’ve teared up a few times when I look at it. Chili is what’s for dinner.

Hugs my friend

jbs116

cowsfan12 wrote: »

jbs116 wrote: »

I don’t really care that I’m fat. What does bother me immensely is that my eating is out of control. All this work… all these years… and sometimes I feel I’m back at the beginning having no control and no idea why I’m using food as a comfort despite the whole thing being uncomfortable.

Thank you for letting me journal here.

I’m struggling with this right now as well - and haven’t worked out in 2 weeks smh - I’ve considered getting my gym mbrship back even though I have a home gym now - it’s weird but I think i prefer going to the public gym - I’m also drinking too much lately which leads to not giving a chit what I eat - but today is a new opportunity to make better choices right -

Right there with you. I’m getting 1-2 workouts a week. Max. I’m not drinking much lately but still eat like I’m drunk 😂. Absolutely. No guilt or beating myself up about it. Just try to figure out today.

I miss all the equipments options of a real gym.

itchmyTwitch

cowsfan12 wrote: »

jbs116 wrote: »

I don’t really care that I’m fat. What does bother me immensely is that my eating is out of control. All this work… all these years… and sometimes I feel I’m back at the beginning having no control and no idea why I’m using food as a comfort despite the whole thing being uncomfortable.

Thank you for letting me journal here.

I’m struggling with this right now as well - and haven’t worked out in 2 weeks smh - I’ve considered getting my gym mbrship back even though I have a home gym now - it’s weird but I think i prefer going to the public gym - I’m also drinking too much lately which leads to not giving a chit what I eat - but today is a new opportunity to make better choices right -

For me, there’s something about being near people even if I don’t want to actually interact with them that gives me energy. Plus the act of paying for it and actually going to a place means I’m more likely to do a workout than I am if I use equipment at home.

Also, one of my two gyms is closing down. Luckily, it’s just my back up. But I need to keep it in mind so that external factors don’t have a negative impact on my health.

cmsienk

I'm always amazed at how much traffic there is in Manhattan - even on Sunday

cowsfan12

cmsienk wrote: »

I'm always amazed at how much traffic there is in Manhattan - even on Sunday

I assume you mean Manhattan KS - go wildcats !!

cmsienk

cowsfan12 wrote: »

cmsienk wrote: »

I'm always amazed at how much traffic there is in Manhattan - even on Sunday

I assume you mean Manhattan KS - go wildcats !!

Unfortunately, no. I'm in New York. But Go Wildcats anyway!

R3d_butt3rfly_

Regrets. In the past year I've realized I have many of them. I always saw them as learning blocks but not anymore. Some decisions I've made were out of selfishness, being lost and just plain self sabotage. It's a hard pill to swallow when you realize you carry lots of regret. I am now slowly trying to embrace those regrets and telling myself it's okay to have them. How else would I grow as a human being without self accountability?

cowsfan12

R3d_butt3rfly_ wrote: »

Regrets. In the past year I've realized I have many of them. I always saw them as learning blocks but not anymore. Some decisions I've made were out of selfishness, being lost and just plain self sabotage. It's a hard pill to swallow when you realize you carry lots of regret. I am now slowly trying to embrace those regrets and telling myself it's okay to have them. How else would I grow as a human being without self accountability?

I feel this -

Reflect - learn - grow - we all just out here livin and learnin yo -

Alinouveau2

The little Sparrow who flew into my siding door. He just flew away. Thank goodness I didn't feel like a sparrow funeral today

itchmyTwitch

Y’know what I remember? I remember cleaning the lint off the tip of a needle on the record player

KerryBSoCal

Regrets. This struck a chord. It took someone dying for me not to have them anymore, but now I better understand myself too.

ButterMeMuffinz

Just went into the washroom and my makeup looked horrible but it looks fine in my office so I am a little bit horrified at the prospect of which location is telling me the truth

honey_honey_12

redux1985

Hey you,

I hope you're well.

"and I mean that sincerely".

Alinouveau2

In two days we'll be in Nashville for our competition. Eek!!!!

LilithReigns

How incredibly hard and exhausting it is to just exist sometimes. I've been binge eating since Sunday. Yesterday I was so bloated and tired from constantly shoveling food down.

It's been awhile since this has happened. I know why it has. It's a feeling of being overwhelmed, it's panic- a self soothing method that does little to soothe and actually causes more harm than good.

Ah therapy, it's calling my name again lol 😆

jbs116

LilithReigns wrote: »

How incredibly hard and exhausting it is to just exist sometimes. I've been binge eating since Sunday. Yesterday I was so bloated and tired from constantly shoveling food down.

It's been awhile since this has happened. I know why it has. It's a feeling of being overwhelmed, it's panic- a self soothing method that does little to soothe and actually causes more harm than good.

Ah therapy, it's calling my name again lol 😆

Can relate. You aren’t alone.

itchmyTwitch

What does it mean when I no longer do the unhealthy or self-destructive things I used to do? Am I healed or am I just not triggered?

jbs116

itchmyTwitch wrote: »

What does it mean when I no longer do the unhealthy or self-destructive things I used to do? Am I healed or am I just not triggered?

Not triggered would seem to be an outworking of healing ❤️‍🩹? So yes to both? Evolved? Probably rhetorical so I’ll bid you adieu.

itchmyTwitch

jbs116 wrote: »

itchmyTwitch wrote: »

What does it mean when I no longer do the unhealthy or self-destructive things I used to do? Am I healed or am I just not triggered?

Not triggered would seem to be an outworking of healing ❤️‍🩹? So yes to both? Evolved? Probably rhetorical so I’ll bid you adieu.

I posted in a public forum. There is no such thing as rhetorical here. I appreciate your input.

itchmyTwitch

Omg please stop

cowsfan12

Can’t stop - won’t stop - unstoppable 😎

Alinouveau2

I took the bus today. It's been awhile since I did that. I learned too there's a bus stop practically at my doorstep

KerryBSoCal

@honey_honey_12
You mean because they’re naughty or because we’re old and shouldn’t try to talk like a Generation Whatever?!

itchmyTwitch

I look like I haven’t slept but actually I was just doing chores & reviewing my to do list in my dreams all night.

glassyo

honey_honey_12 wrote: »

KerryBSoCal wrote: »

@honey_honey_12
You mean because they’re naughty or because we’re old and shouldn’t try to talk like a Generation Whatever?!

I was thinking more along the lines of censorship. 🤐

Let's play a game. List them all and we'll see if we can guess. 😁

glassyo

honey_honey_12 wrote: »

glassyo wrote: »

honey_honey_12 wrote: »

KerryBSoCal wrote: »

@honey_honey_12
You mean because they’re naughty or because we’re old and shouldn’t try to talk like a Generation Whatever?!

I was thinking more along the lines of censorship. 🤐

Let's play a game. List them all and we'll see if we can guess. 😁

Let’s not………

Yes, ma'am.

I was thinking it would be cathartic but I misread it the first time.

PlentyofProtein00

One has nothing to do with the other.

itchmyTwitch

Why inexpensive/mid-priced restaurants around me are so terrible. It’s grilled cheese. Why is it soggy? And if you can’t properly fry an egg, don’t own a diner.

Alinouveau2

Man I am way too competitive