Over 200 New Year New Me Part 31

awestfall

Hey gals thanks to those who checked up on me!! I have been having a rough couple of weeks and all I was able to get on was facebook every now and then.My father had been in the hospital and had to have two stints put in and he goes back in 6 weeks hoping all is working properly now.I have just been bombarded with alot these past few weeks to even try to log on here.SORRY!! I hope you gals will take me back.I just needed a break from worrying about my weight and all.On a good note I am losing again but I believe its just because we are lacking food in our home and its because I want to make sure the kids eat first before me.We have had very little pay this last month and its been really rough.We have had to survive off of 400 dollars for the past month now because they screwed my husbands payroll up and it should be back on track this week so they say.All my bills are behind and I have just been so overly stressed with not being able to buy groceries or pay the bills but the good thing is I didn't have to worry about me eating my stress or worry away because any food we do have I have been saving for the kids.I know this is bad and I should be eating 3 meals a day at least but when you don't have it and you have children you want to make sure they are fed properly before you.You moms know what I am talking about.I have tried to eat something little every so many hours.Just pray for my family that I can get all this mess straightened out and I can get back on track losing weight properly.I already know I may gain a bit from not eating right this past month but I am dedicated and willing to stick to it until I get to my goals.Sorry I was gone so long!!Thanks Cris for the new thread and thanks POS,Meook,Jess and Dawn for checking on me.

bluenote

I'm glad you're here, Ann. I am sorry you are having money troubles. I have them as well but I am not trying to feed a family, so I can't imagine how hard it must be. I am praying for you!

Cris - sorry to hear that you had an emotional overeating time this weekend. I do the same - have been for weeks now, since school started. I've been trying to "fake it 'til I make it." Don't seem to ever be "making it".....:ohwell: It's one of the reasons I am fading out here lately. Too embarrassed to keep coming on and saying I overate and didn't exercise yet again.

But we have to believe that even the smallest of successes is a huge success right now. Like in Lauren's case - damn straight she should be proud she didn't eat that entire pizza! I am going to try to make note of my small successes like I used to. Like today: I bent over and changed the litter boxes without screaming in pain. :noway: Baby steps?

Positively_Me

THanks for the new tread Ann! I am not caught up on posts, will be by tomorrow..

check in: yesterday
calories, way over...I was mad at something and well I over ate because of emotional reasons...I SUCK:sad:
water, not enough
exercise, none
proud, that I confessed something I keep hidden within my self...my addiction to food...sad but true

have a great day!
be back tomorrow...

Danielle_81

Blue-You're right sometimes you need to cling to those baby steps to make sure you come back full force when you feel better. Please don't get frustrated. You've lost a tremendous amount of weight, you'll get your mojo back, just hang in there and keep coming back to us :bigsmile: you never know, you're struggles may help someone else stay on track and keep coming back to!

Ann-I haven't got to know you well yet but I totally feel you with the money problems. I've been there. Am still there is some ways. In fact the smallest worry I have right now is the fact that I breastfeed my baby and we get his regular foods from WIC. So at least I know he'll eat. For the rest of us, we exist on Ramen and PB&J if necessary. Hang in there, hard times comes in groups and it will pass too.

Meanwhile you'll both be in my prayers {{{HUGS}}}


So I feel much better today, no more migraine!! :bigsmile: Today is my half way point of my 8 day stretch! So I'm happy about that too. And my sister moved out yesterday, now it's only my husband and our kids at home finally :flowerforyou: Today is a good day, so far!

awestfall

Thanks Girls I know things will get better its just a matter of time and this shall pass too!!!

meokk

well the plan to do week 2 day 3 isn't happening today. I am exhausted after burning 1056 calories doing some serious gardening today and it has just started raining which is all the excuse I need to stay inside. :frown:

Ann - Thanks for the thread and good to hear from you - keep your head up girl :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

Blue - good going, something is better than nothing, overeating a bit is better than overeating a lot, you'll be back on track in no time. :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

Cris - I feel your pain - I do the same thing from time to time. Way less than I used to but I had a rough week this week and from M-F I consumed about 10 servings of ice cream - 5 of those were on one day ( this is why I shouldn't keep it in the house :embarassed: ). You recognize that you are eating to suppress difficult feelings and that's the first (& huge) step to change the behavior.
One day I hope to be able to acknowledge the feelings I'm having and the subsequent desire to eat and replace the eating with a different outlet. I'm not there yet but I'm on my way and so are you.
<<<<HUGS>>>> :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

purpleprose

I just have time for a quick check-in...I'll do individual responses later tonight or tomorrow.

Had a good moment today - was helping a friend paint her apartment (she's in post-breakup "I need to renovate my life" mode) and she went out to get more paint and lunch - she was so sweet and also got a large salad so I could continue to eat well! I had one full slice and split another with a friend, so 1.5 slices and some salad. In the old days I could have eaten 3 or 4 slices, but I can't do that now, even if I wanted to.

My arms hurt from all the painting, but I'm so happy I was able to have just a little bit of the pizza - I'd missed it, because I hadn't had pizza in MONTHS.

Catch up with y'all later!

RedneckWmn

Haven't caught up on the posts. Bumping for later....had a fantastical weekend with my cousin and best friend. Send me to Tulsa and I chop my hair off. Yep.I cut a good 4 to 5 inches off. AHH!! I'll post pics later. Be back later to catch up.

LittleSpy

Ann -- Glad to see you!
Hugs for Cris, Laila, and Nancy.
Congrats to Lauren for ONLY eating 4 slices of pizza.
Danielle -- good to hear you're having a better go of it.
Jess -- saw your new hair on facebook -LOVE it!!
meokk -- YAY gardening! Not to enable you, but it's probably better just to rest after all that work, anyway.

Yesterday dh and I hiked up a mountain & back down. I had a lot of fun but dh wasn't feeling very well so we didn't trek as far as I had hoped -- only about 5 miles. Really great workout, though. And after that I'm pretty sure I ate all of the calories I burned (likely around 1500) and then some in the form of a chili cheeseburger, onion rings, and fries. And then ice cream... in bed (but only one serving so that was alright).
So pretty!



So... I thought TOM was showing up last Sunday because I felt crampy and bloated. Then I was sure it was showing up Friday because, again, I was crampy and bloated. And yeah... it still hasn't shown up. :huh:

I've had the munchies all day today. I'm okay on calories as of right now but oh, the night is so young. And I want pie so much.

Stephanie08

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bluenote

Julie - I am jealous that you have calories left over! I ate all of mine by 1:30pm! :grumble: Darn chinese.

Oh, and girls - FYI: don't ever eat chinese and then go work out. Ooofta. Unless you want to re-taste it all again with vigor. :sick:


check in:
calories: OK - over in sodium
water: 100
exercise: I did 30 minutes of walking at the rec center
proud: I made it TO the rec center, then I made 30 minutes! My back sort of twinged at 25 minutes, so I slowed down the last 5. I walked a mile. :bigsmile: I felt really good! :bigsmile:

ColoradoGirl

bump for later.. dealing with a migraine and HUGE new stress load that was just dumped on me.

did not get my calories eaten today got about 500
still working on water
exercise.. moving moving moving

I will update you guys later this week with the new events going on. (like I needed more going on right now)

Have a great night!

LittleSpy

Morning ladies! :flowerforyou:

RedneckWmn

Okay..I started my morning off on the wrong side of the bed in a foul mood. I'm determined to make nothing but positive changes today. I need to perk up and make this week great! Heres to a great week everybody! :flowerforyou:

RedneckWmn

Laila-Good job hanging in there. I know this is tuf for you.

Mstahl-We've missed seeing you around. Good luck getting Megan in school. Sending good vibes to George!

Danielle-I've done that myself. Falling asleep and woke up to my head slamming on the desk. OUCH!

Julie-How do you get that much protein? I guess I could just go check out your food diary. I've been struggling hardcore with my protein.

meokk-What a great thoughtful gift for your hunnie to get you! Enjoy your HRM!

Cris-I hope this week start off great for you after your rough weekend.

Ann-Of course you are welcome back here! We have missed you! I really hope things start to turn around for your family

Blue-YAY for being out of your funk!!

LittleSpy

Jess, I haven't been doing awesome with protein lately. When I'm doing well, the first thing that helps is not eating frozen dinners for lunch. If I bring 6oz chicken breast along with something else I make at home for lunch, I can normally automatically get in about 20g extra for the day. I just sneak it in whenever I can -- breads with higher protein counts, greek yogurt & cottage cheese as snacks, protein smoothies after I workout, etc.

LittleSpy

Okay I can't take it anymore.
TOM never showed up for me this month. Not only should it have already showed up, it should have already hung around and be gone by now. If it doesn't show up today I'll be taking a pregnancy test in the morning because my nerves can't take all the waiting around for TOM to show.

What's your favorite preggo test & why? :laugh: I have no idea about this stuff. I've only bought one once before and that was several years ago. Hopefully I won't need it, and I fully expect it to be negative. I just need the peace of mind because all the wondering is causing me to lose it (I could be okay with being pregnant even though the timing isn't ideal. I just need to KNOW).

RedneckWmn

Julie-I know when my friend was trying to get pregnant she took a First Response and it said negative and then took an EPT the same day and it said positive. Good luck! Hope you get the answer you are looking for!

HeatherMN

Jess: I love the new haircut! So cute!

Julie: It looks like your hike was beautiful. We wanted to go hiking, but bf's son wasn't having any of it, so we're going to try to get out on Sunday. Good luck with the pregnancy test. Maybe things are just a bit weird this month, because TOM should have visited me last week and isn't here yet...no symptoms yet, either, other than being a bit more emotional than normal (which doesn't take much...I'm a crier!).

Nancy: Great job getting back to the gym! Stick with us. We love you even if you do overeat a bit (though we may just give you a bit of tough love if you do it too often!).

The weekend was a good one because I didn't overeat! I know sodium was still high, but it will be nothing to get it all flushed out again quickly. I'm pretty proud of that. My post-weekend weight is 189.2, so only 1.2 lbs higher than my lowest so far, which was yesterday morning. Woo hoo!

Checking in for yesterday:
Calories: Under by 55 (this was with pizza)
Sodium: Over by 1677
Water: 32 oz.
Exercise: Evening walk with bf and his son.
Proud: No dessert!

cris20056

I lived off the dollar store (thought ud like this Julie) pregnancy tests. When I was pregnant with my son the first positive result I got was on a dollar store test so I know they work!

Make sure its been 5+ days past your expected period date...thats the only criteria I think...Good luck!

LittleSpy

Thanks.
I used to be a 21 day cycle kind of girl. But the last 5 or so times it's been closer to 25 days (23-26 I believe since January). As of tomorrow morning it will have been 32 days. :indifferent: Of course the rational part of me wants to be not pregnant because the whole financial situation and the timing and the location just aren't right. But I think all the other parts of me would be pretty excited. :laugh:

I don't really think I am. But the tiny little iota of doubt is just enough to drive me nuts.

tlrue

:flowerforyou: Morning ladies!

I missed so much this weekend!

Melinda - You live in Northeast Ohio? I'm from Wadsworth originally (I saw your post about Akron).

Jess - your hair is adorable! I've been going back and forth on whether or not to chop my hair. I can't decide!

Julie - I agree with Cris... the dollar store tests are just as good as the rest.

Cris - I hope you're feeling better.

I know there are so many people I've forgotten.

Vacation starts Wednesday night at 5:00! Can't wait for it We're taking the girls down to his parents' house in Kentucky (almost Tennessee). I think I should be able to keep the eating under control since we won't be restaurant-ing every night.

LittleSpy

I know it's the middle of the day and it's early after my missed TOM but 1st test shows NOT pregnant. That's enough to keep me from being totally insane right now (I think). :indifferent: At least until Wednesday or Thursday morning. I ended up with EPT digital because they were on sale and I had a coupon. Got 3 for the price of 2 generics so that satisfied my insatiable need to feel like I'm getting a "good deal." :laugh:

Momma24

Good Morning ladies, just a quick hello and how are ya?

Cris, I hope this week is better.

Ann, I am back and I am so glad you are too. I am really sorry about the hard time that you are having. I am praying and I know things will improve soon. It is so easy to say that when I am not dealing with it , but I know that it will improve. Keep your head up.

Nancy, {{{{{hugs}}}}} sister. You can do this. Remember that you can buckle your seat belt and that you can actually work out, walk and bend over. You are so much better off than you were. Hold on and keep going. You can do it!!!! Think of the little mice in Cinderella that sing "You can do it, You can do it" lol

Julie, keep us posted.

Jess, love the hair!!!

Okay, I am doing pretty good. I have lost 6 pounds since being back on mfp. Yay I can do this again!!!!

HeatherMN

Julie: Glad to hear the results of your 1st test are as you'd like them to be.

Momma: I'm happy to see you! Congrats on the 6 lbs. Hopefully we'll see you more often!

It's almost lunch time here and I can't wait. The best part of the weekends are being able to eat when I'm actually hungry instead of two hours after I've started to get hungry. I need to win the lottery so everything can run on my schedule!!

RedneckWmn

Julie-Congrats on the first round of test results! I'm sure your body is just out of whack! Good luck girl.

Heather-I have the opposite problem at work. We are so slow and the kitchen is a step away all I want to do around here is eat because I'm bored. It hasn't been a good day eating wise.

Momma-congrats on the 6 pounds! How is Ryan doing in kindergarden?

I'm struggling with not stuffing things in my mouth today. :noway: I feel tom is lurking...this could very well be the reason. Just woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. Want to go back to bed and start all over. My morning workout sucked. I feel like I didn't even give it 50%. Somehow managed to burn 258 calories. It's so easy to gain weight and so difficult to lose sometimes. I'm feeling defeated.

raiderape

Hey My Oh so missed sisters!!!

I have missed all of you soooo much! I can't even express it in words. I just haven't had the time to log on to the computer. I have been trying to watch what I eat and stay at it even if I don't put all of my food in. This weekend I was not so great. I was eating my problems. I know I have been keeping you all in the loop and don't know if you want to hear all of this but here it goes.

**TMI**
I am still studying for my CPA while working 2 jobs. That is the main reason why I haven't been able to keep in touch as much as I wish I could. So here we go on the bad stuff. Well, if the mortgage insurance wasn't enough I went to the fertility specialist on Thrusday and found out that it is going to be difficult for me to get pregnant. First, I need to have surgery on my ovaries so that they can close them because I have an infection in my tubes that is leaking into my uterus. Until this is fixed there is no way that we can even try to get pregnant. But after that is done the doctor said that we can do IVF but that will be our only option for us for me to carry the baby. The problem that the surgery causes is that I had my entire large instestine removed when I was 21 and had some really bad complications with it. That leads into them doing this other surgery because they have to go through your belly button to do the surgery and there is no telling where all of my organs are so there is a high chance that they can puncture something and cause more problems. So my husband doesn't want me to even chance the surgery but I am asking the doctor if I have to have it done no matter what because of the infection, which I am waiting on a response on that. My husband and I stressing over the money issue that IVF would cause so we are looking into other options. My Step MIL knows someone that runs an adoption agency so we are going to go and talk to them to see how much that costs and what all is involved. With all of this going on you would think I would be a nervous wreck but surprisingly I am not. I really don't think I have grasped the concept of it all yet. I hope that made sense to everyone. I know I was rambling but wanted to keep you all updated.

**TMI Over**

I am sorry that I haven't been able to read everything. I am soo far behind but just know that I am still rooting for all of you and I know you are all doing great! I will try to check in more often but until then.

LittleSpy

Vent/rant:
So I just got into a near shouting match with the same stupid coworker I always have issues with. My supervisor asked me to develop something so we can ensure accuracy of insurance payroll deductions throughout the entire process from the time we get the change paperwork from the employee through the time that the deductions come out of the paycheck. This way we'll be able to be accountable and ensure that it's all done correctly because there's a history of our department (one person in our department) making a lot of mistakes (until I go over the reports every month and correct them all).

So, the coworker who's making 90% of the mistakes is rebelling against the tracking log I developed. He came to me yelling about how it's creating so much extra work and expense (??? he wasn't able to explain that one to me -- I guess he thinks the 1/3 sheet of paper & ink costs more than having incorrect insurance premiums coming out of several employee's checks several years until the balance they owe is over $5,000. True story. And since our employee's can't afford to pay $5000 out of their pockets, our agency has eaten that cost to appease the insurance company. ANYWAY--). Not only is it not more expensive, it's NOT creating ANY extra work. It's just that he's been doing his job incorrectly for the last 5 effing years. And I don't think he so much appreciated me explaining that lil' tidbit to him.

I feel like I need to address the situation with my supervisor. I don't appreciate being talked to like I'm stupid when I'm the one correcting all of HIS mistakes on a monthly basis. He's such an antiquated idiot it hurts my brain. Sorry. I just feel like I can't b**** to anyone else because I know dh is really tired of listening to me gripe about this particular situation.

Momma24

Raiderape, that sounds like a lot to deal with right now! Wow, I would do what the doctor says. Your health is what is most important right now. I think it is wonderful that you are looking into the option of adoption. But I also think it is wonderful that you are keeping all of your options open and I hope IVF works out for you.

Julie, it is time to bring this to the supervisors attention. You are right. What this guy is doing is WRONG!!

Jess, thanks for asking about Ryan. First the good news, I feel like everyone is on board to help Ry be sucessful in kindergarten. The teacher is wonderful and Ryan had a pretty good week last week!! (For the most part) Here is my however, today was an exceptionally bad day and I am still trying to figure out what I am suppose to be doing for him. I am so frustrated and I don't know what I can do. I have never had to deal with anything like this. My girls have always done what they are suppose to do at school and have even thrived and gone above and beyond what is expected of them. My poor little guy, I love that little boy so deeply and I just want to help him.

awestfall

Thanks Momma I have missed you too and I am hoping things get better for me too.Congrats on the 6 pounds!!

Danielle_81

Ok so I've had an odd last few days. Recurrent migraines, decreased appetite and then today I wake up with my back killing me. I am hoping I'm not getting a kidney infection, these are the symptoms that usually show up with that. But I normally get the back pain first.

The appetite thing is getting me, I'm having to force myself to eat. Last night when I got home from work I ate 2 pieces of pizza, store bought. So not great but it at least got my calories up a little bit. Today is the same kind of thing. My head is just vaguely hurting and I have a heating pad on my back and I'm stuck at work :sick: But I kind of want to eat a bunch of crap. I am craving a candy bar right now.

I had intended on responding to posts but I can't remember them now! lol I can't concentrate. This is bad.

So my check in for yesterday is:
calories: over by 60 (i think)
water: 11 cups, so ok
sugar: right at 50!
excercise: bed pilates and couch pilates :blushing:
proud: that I came back to work considering my back hurts to even sit up :ohwell: