The brave and the human

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  • karmahunger
    karmahunger Posts: 373 Member
    I am going to post something a little bit different. It may gross some people out, or maybe it won´t. A few year ago, I started to get bumps on my thighs, and it was only mid-last year I learned they were infected hair follicles, and because they were not properly diagnosed or treated right away (the first doctor I saw thought it was HPV) I will have these scars probably forever (I am saving up to get laser hair removal and scar treatment). So, this picture horrifies me to post, but I wanted to post it anyway. All I can see are those nasty bumps and it makes me wonder, even when I do lose weight, if they are still there, I won´t be happy. I know I am not thin and shouldn´t be posting underwear pictures but it´s the only way to show them. I have stretch marks and some dents which I guess is cellulite. Nerve racking to post this.
    This board is awesome, thanks OP and you are all so beautiul :)

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    I am not ready to post the full body shot. And yes, I need to shave. Shutty.

    So... I feel your pain, but in a slightly different way.
    I don't have smoooooooth legs.. I get the bumps too from hair follicles that don't always come in as desired. I have mitigated some of that by trying to do a quick shave in the shower every morning (use conditioner - super fast, rarely nicks, and cheap like borscht).

    My bigger problem is my scars.

    I live in MOSQUITO LAND... my god these creatures carry you off in the summer. I react to their bites, and by mid summer my legs are a mess of bumps in various stages of healing. By fall, my legs are covered in scars. I've struggled with it all my life and nothing helps it. I tend to wear pants even when it's hot because I am ashamed of people asking me what is wrong with my legs.

    So, together, we have to find a way to stop caring and smile through it. :-D

    At least know you are not alone!

    This is why I posted. I thought maybe some others were going through the same, or similar, situations. It sucks but I know what we can get through it. We ain´t our skin, not even our lumps and bumps - it´s all in the inside. Yes we are here to lose weight, but maybe in more way than one for some of us :)
  • strawberriekt24
    strawberriekt24 Posts: 61 Member
    You all are so beautiful, brave and inspiring!

    Here's mine. I will never, ever ever wear tank tops because of my linebacker's shoulders. But I will wear them under things so I can try to hide the "muffin top" that my stomach always has, even though these jeans are quite loose. I also never go without makeup because my skin looks like a 14 year old's thanks to my PCOS.

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  • Ramberta
    Ramberta Posts: 1,312 Member
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    This picture is from a year and a half ago, the summer of 2011. I had just gotten engaged to my fiancee (who is now my ex, but we're very good friends) and we went to this awesome local creamery to have some hideously gigantic sundaes. I hate this picture, but it was a good night and a wonderful week for me.
  • MireyGal76
    MireyGal76 Posts: 7,334 Member
    You all are so beautiful, brave and inspiring!

    Here's mine. I will never, ever ever wear tank tops because of my linebacker's shoulders. But I will wear them under things so I can try to hide the "muffin top" that my stomach always has, even though these jeans are quite loose. I also never go without makeup because my skin looks like a 14 year old's thanks to my PCOS.

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    I am a tank top lover... I live in tank tops... and YOU TOTALLY ROCK THE ONE IN THIS PIC!

    There is NOTHING wrong with your shoulders! Nothing at all! :) In fact, I think the wide band tank looks very flattering on you!
  • yo_andi
    yo_andi Posts: 2,178 Member


    This is why I posted. I thought maybe some others were going through the same, or similar, situations. It sucks but I know what we can get through it. We ain´t our skin, not even our lumps and bumps - it´s all in the inside. Yes we are here to lose weight, but maybe in more way than one for some of us :)

    I have them too! Solidarity, sister!
  • Ramberta
    Ramberta Posts: 1,312 Member
    Hooray for this thread! Here's one that I've often considered deleting from FB. Like EVERY DAMN DAY! I hate it so much.

    And the thing is I had a blast at this party! Look how happy I am!

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    Also, sorry for the boobage.

    You are gorgeous!!! Don't delete that pic, it's fabulous :heart:
  • Ramberta
    Ramberta Posts: 1,312 Member
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    I hope this works.....

    I HATE this picture..... All I see is "I'm so fat I busted the seam in my costume..." Ugh. :cry: And of course, I would only wear a costume that covered almost ALL of me. This was Halloween 2010, at almost my largest. I was probably pushing 200 lbs at this point.
    And that seam busted really early in the night. Probably when I was driving to the party. I borrowed a safety pin to keep it from being too obvious.... I was so embarrassed. :frown:

    I have cottage cheese thighs and butt so I never wear shorts. Seriously. The last time I wore shorts in the summer was probably 2006.
    I have rolls and dimples galore. Ugh. Better now.... but back then, I wanted to hide all the time.

    ETA: In picture, I have the hand on the stomach to "hold it in". hahaha

    You look amazing :) I love the costume! But I know how it goes to 'bust out' of things. The dress I've worn to the Renaissance Fair 3 years running now almost split open on me the first year, cuz I barely fit into it! This year I'm hoping that it'll hang off me so much that I'll just have to get a new one :)
  • ktrn0312
    ktrn0312 Posts: 722 Member
    Bump
  • tommygirl15
    tommygirl15 Posts: 1,012 Member
    Love this thread. I see a bunch of brave people being REAL and that is SO beautiful to me :)
  • Crazy4Healthy
    Crazy4Healthy Posts: 626 Member
    This is an absolutely amazing thread and one of the most positive I've seen. Thank you OP for starting this. I can't post pics right now, but I will certainly do so later when I'm at home. :heart:
  • altinker
    altinker Posts: 173
    I am going to post something a little bit different. It may gross some people out, or maybe it won´t. A few year ago, I started to get bumps on my thighs, and it was only mid-last year I learned they were infected hair follicles, and because they were not properly diagnosed or treated right away (the first doctor I saw thought it was HPV) I will have these scars probably forever (I am saving up to get laser hair removal and scar treatment). So, this picture horrifies me to post, but I wanted to post it anyway. All I can see are those nasty bumps and it makes me wonder, even when I do lose weight, if they are still there, I won´t be happy. I know I am not thin and shouldn´t be posting underwear pictures but it´s the only way to show them. I have stretch marks and some dents which I guess is cellulite. Nerve racking to post this.
    This board is awesome, thanks OP and you are all so beautiul :)

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    I am not ready to post the full body shot. And yes, I need to shave. Shutty.

    Maybe try some tend skin for ingrown hairs. European Wax Center also sells products to exfoliate. A lot of people who wax get ingrown hairs, and there are lots of products on the market to prevent or reduce the number of them. I bet if you bought a product with alpha hydroxy acids, it also might help with exfoliation and to get rid of those scars over time. Don't worry, they aren't permanent.
  • newmein2013
    newmein2013 Posts: 674 Member
    I love this thread. It is by far the best one I have ever come across on here. Thank you Mirey & everyone who posted. You are all beautiful, inside and out. Mirey, you are amazing.

    PS: I have no idea how to post pics on here.
  • Crazy4Healthy
    Crazy4Healthy Posts: 626 Member
    Ok, I said I would come back and post. Tried last night but wouldn't let me.

    I really hate my smile, it's crooked, makes my nose look huge, and shows the bags under my eyes.
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    And this one just shows how big I allowed myself to get, never showed this one to anyone. Surprised I even kept it.
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  • MireyGal76
    MireyGal76 Posts: 7,334 Member
    Ok, I said I would come back and post. Tried last night but wouldn't let me.

    I really hate my smile, it's crooked, makes my nose look huge, and shows the bags under my eyes.
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    And this one just shows how big I allowed myself to get, never showed this one to anyone. Surprised I even kept it.
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    I think you have a beautiful smile. My neighbor's daughter (who is standing beside me) says you have beautiful hair and teeth (she is 6). Either picture, that beauty shines through... and don't hate me for saying this, but in some ways, I like the second pic more - I think it's because I can see more of your face - and you have such amazing features!

    I think you are stunning! (And crap your profile pic is phenomenal!)

    ETA: You are 43 years old!?!?! *jaw drops* I NEVER would have guessed that!!!
  • MireyGal76
    MireyGal76 Posts: 7,334 Member
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    This picture is from a year and a half ago, the summer of 2011. I had just gotten engaged to my fiancee (who is now my ex, but we're very good friends) and we went to this awesome local creamery to have some hideously gigantic sundaes. I hate this picture, but it was a good night and a wonderful week for me.

    I am sorry I missed this one! It certainly wasn't intentional!

    When I look at this picture... the first thing I see is how happy you are! The smile and laugh and eyes, you radiate joy! (Well of course you'd just gotten engaged! How sweet is that!). That color is also one that is amazing on you (and also my fav :smile: )

    WOW do I now want some ice cream! mmmm
  • MireyGal76
    MireyGal76 Posts: 7,334 Member
    Gonna bump once... then let it go :)

    Thank you to all who posted... and to those who came, read, maybe shed a happy tear, and left just a liiiiiiittle more confident than they were before...

    Cheers to you all!:drinker:
  • camiah
    camiah Posts: 146
    Here is my fat photo. Well, one of many. My brother and his family came to visit us about a year and a half ago. They posted photos on their FB. I quickly untagged myself in every photo of me so that as few people as possible saw how awful I looked. This photo is typical--the huge arms, massive thighs, the droopy breasts, the belly, the chipmunk cheeks. It is so hard for me to look past those features and see anything positive.

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    fat photo by Camiah, on Flickr

    I think I'm fatter now than I was in this photo. I don't see myself like this in real life. Photos always horrify me and make me want to cry.
  • MireyGal76
    MireyGal76 Posts: 7,334 Member
    Here is my fat photo. Well, one of many. My brother and his family came to visit us about a year and a half ago. They posted photos on their FB. I quickly untagged myself in every photo of me so that as few people as possible saw how awful I looked. This photo is typical--the huge arms, massive thighs, the droopy breasts, the belly, the chipmunk cheeks. It is so hard for me to look past those features and see anything positive.

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    fat photo by Camiah, on Flickr

    I think I'm fatter now than I was in this photo. I don't see myself like this in real life. Photos always horrify me and make me want to cry.

    Firstly, thank you so much for sharing!

    When I look at this picture, I do not see "huge arms, massive thighs, the droopy breasts, the belly, the chipmunk cheeks".

    I see a brilliant smile, a hapy woman, and honey... I don't think you look huge at all! NOT HUGE!!!
    You may not have been where you wanted to be in terms of shape or size, but you are still so very beautiful!

    Add that adorable little boy, and the cool furniture, and I totally love this pic!

    But my goodness, look at that gorgeous smile! I think your facial structure is PERFECT - YOU DO NOT HAVE CHIPMUNK CHEEKS!

    *Hugs* there is no need to feel like you want to cry, hun... no need at all.
  • karmahunger
    karmahunger Posts: 373 Member
    I bought glycolic acid lotion. I'll post comparison pics soon :)
  • MireyGal76
    MireyGal76 Posts: 7,334 Member
    I bought glycolic acid lotion. I'll post comparison pics soon :)

    *crossing fingers for ya hun!!*
  • skylark94
    skylark94 Posts: 2,036 Member
    Hope this link works.

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    Who is the hottie in the bikini? ;) That is some gorgeous ink you have there too!
    Oh and I am so envious of the fact that you can swing a triangle bikini top!

    Every time I try one of those on, I get all sad and moody and leave the changeroom depressed. I don't know WHY I want one so badly, probably because it doesn't suit me and I'm wired to try the impossible, but regardless...

    Hi, my name is Sandy, and I have triangle-bikini-top envy

    Thank you so much for the compliments! That is my first ever string bikini. I'm still a little terrified every time I put it on.

    I am seriously envious of your ability to do a backbend! Flexibility has never been my strong point, no matter how much yoga I do. I can barely touch my toes!
  • silvergurl518
    silvergurl518 Posts: 4,123 Member
    So... I feel your pain, but in a slightly different way.
    I don't have smoooooooth legs.. I get the bumps too from hair follicles that don't always come in as desired. I have mitigated some of that by trying to do a quick shave in the shower every morning (use conditioner - super fast, rarely nicks, and cheap like borscht).

    My bigger problem is my scars.

    I live in MOSQUITO LAND... my god these creatures carry you off in the summer. I react to their bites, and by mid summer my legs are a mess of bumps in various stages of healing. By fall, my legs are covered in scars. I've struggled with it all my life and nothing helps it. I tend to wear pants even when it's hot because I am ashamed of people asking me what is wrong with my legs.

    So, together, we have to find a way to stop caring and smile through it. :-D

    At least know you are not alone!

    i, too, have hair follicle scars! they're, strangely, on my belly button area, and i was SO self-conscious about them that i decided to get a cover up tattoo...which i love! but i still see my scars through them. also, i can't shave my bikini area without causing ingrown hairs....and i have a plucking problem. i pluck at hairs...and then sometimes cause infections. it's bad. i know. either way, i feel terribly uncomfortable showing my bikini line to ANYONE. good thing it's not bathing suit season yet, and i'm as single as single can be!!!

    sandy, i scar EVERYWHERE!
  • MireyGal76
    MireyGal76 Posts: 7,334 Member
    So... I feel your pain, but in a slightly different way.
    I don't have smoooooooth legs.. I get the bumps too from hair follicles that don't always come in as desired. I have mitigated some of that by trying to do a quick shave in the shower every morning (use conditioner - super fast, rarely nicks, and cheap like borscht).

    My bigger problem is my scars.

    I live in MOSQUITO LAND... my god these creatures carry you off in the summer. I react to their bites, and by mid summer my legs are a mess of bumps in various stages of healing. By fall, my legs are covered in scars. I've struggled with it all my life and nothing helps it. I tend to wear pants even when it's hot because I am ashamed of people asking me what is wrong with my legs.

    So, together, we have to find a way to stop caring and smile through it. :-D

    At least know you are not alone!

    i, too, have hair follicle scars! they're, strangely, on my belly button area, and i was SO self-conscious about them that i decided to get a cover up tattoo...which i love! but i still see my scars through them. also, i can't shave my bikini area without causing ingrown hairs....and i have a plucking problem. i pluck at hairs...and then sometimes cause infections. it's bad. i know. either way, i feel terribly uncomfortable showing my bikini line to ANYONE. good thing it's not bathing suit season yet, and i'm as single as single can be!!!

    sandy, i scar EVERYWHERE!

    OMG the bikini area is the worst! WHAT TO DO!?! shave - bikini rash... don't shave - horrible jungle... nuh uh!
  • calibriintx
    calibriintx Posts: 1,741 Member
    Ok, I said I would come back and post. Tried last night but wouldn't let me.

    I really hate my smile, it's crooked, makes my nose look huge, and shows the bags under my eyes.
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    And this one just shows how big I allowed myself to get, never showed this one to anyone. Surprised I even kept it.
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    Okay, you're gorgeous! I don't think it looks like you have bags - your smile just reaches your eyes and that's a good thing! Makes your whole face light up! You have a beautiful smile and I don't see anything wrong with your nose. :flowerforyou:
  • calibriintx
    calibriintx Posts: 1,741 Member
    So... I feel your pain, but in a slightly different way.
    I don't have smoooooooth legs.. I get the bumps too from hair follicles that don't always come in as desired. I have mitigated some of that by trying to do a quick shave in the shower every morning (use conditioner - super fast, rarely nicks, and cheap like borscht).

    My bigger problem is my scars.

    I live in MOSQUITO LAND... my god these creatures carry you off in the summer. I react to their bites, and by mid summer my legs are a mess of bumps in various stages of healing. By fall, my legs are covered in scars. I've struggled with it all my life and nothing helps it. I tend to wear pants even when it's hot because I am ashamed of people asking me what is wrong with my legs.

    So, together, we have to find a way to stop caring and smile through it. :-D

    At least know you are not alone!

    i, too, have hair follicle scars! they're, strangely, on my belly button area, and i was SO self-conscious about them that i decided to get a cover up tattoo...which i love! but i still see my scars through them. also, i can't shave my bikini area without causing ingrown hairs....and i have a plucking problem. i pluck at hairs...and then sometimes cause infections. it's bad. i know. either way, i feel terribly uncomfortable showing my bikini line to ANYONE. good thing it's not bathing suit season yet, and i'm as single as single can be!!!

    sandy, i scar EVERYWHERE!

    Agh, I have a plucking problem too! I did it with my eyebrows and they got infected. Luckily my face isn't scarred but my eyebrows don't grow anymore. I still have some but not much and I have to fill them in. I also plucked my bikini area and underarms and got horrible scars but they've faded with time. There are a couple you can still see but I've learned to just let it go. As much as I can anyway.
  • chocl8girl
    chocl8girl Posts: 1,968 Member
    This picture was taken after I got pulled from the audience to participate in the introduction in a production called "Lunar Labyrinth." (It's a previously unpublished story by Neil Gaiman, and a lot of my friends were in it, and it was awesome)

    I hate this picture. I have lost over 100 pounds and I STILL look like this. *sigh*

    (and yes I am clutching my wine and my phone for dear life LMFAO)

    ETA: I LOVE all of you brave, beautiful people. <3

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  • silvergurl518
    silvergurl518 Posts: 4,123 Member
    This picture was taken after I got pulled from the audience to participate in the introduction in a production called "Lunar Labyrinth." (It's a previously unpublished story by Nail Gaiman, and a lot of my friends were in it, and it was awesome)

    I hate this picture. I have lost over 100 pounds and I STILL look like this. *sigh*

    (and yes I am clutching my wine and my phone for dear life LMFAO)

    ETA: I LOVE all of you brave, beautiful people. <3

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    i've always thought you were beautiful and have wanted to be friends with you! can we be pals? :)
  • emilyc85
    emilyc85 Posts: 450 Member
    My dress was so tight by the time I got married that it was let out to the absolute MAX! And it was so tight that it was folding over on itself because I could not move :(

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    Double chin, fat and flabby arms, and that fat pushing over the edge of my dress :/

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    All I can see is this one is my back-fat pushing the edge of my dress causing it to roll :(

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    This one is at halloween at LEAST 15 pounds heavier than the wedding :/ No make-up or nothing

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    I had a wonderful wedding and am so happy with my husband, but I can't look at those pictures without thinking that I let myself gain so much that I almost didn't fit my dress. Also, that I was damn near at my heaviest :/ I try to accept what happened, because it was my fault after all :p I just look back and wished that I had kept the weight off when I had initially lost it all :p
    Sorry this is so long but I couldn't decide on just one :p

    EDIT: I am very happy with 99% of my wedding photos, and I was so happy that day. These are just the few that I don't like in one way, but as I look at them I can't help but see how FREAKING thrilled I was to be getting married to my husband and that makes me like them :) I am a work in progress and I will get there and I need to stop beating myself up :D Thanks for this post! I really needed to see the good in those photos!
  • MireyGal76
    MireyGal76 Posts: 7,334 Member
    My dress was so tight by the time I got married that it was let out to the absolute MAX! And it was so tight that it was folding over on itself because I could not move :(

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    Double chin, fat and flabby arms, and that fat pushing over the edge of my dress :/

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    All I can see is this one is my back-fat pushing the edge of my dress causing it to roll :(

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    This one is at halloween at LEAST 15 pounds heavier than the wedding :/ No make-up or nothing

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    I had a wonderful wedding and am so happy with my husband, but I can't look at those pictures without thinking that I let myself gain so much that I almost didn't fit my dress. Also, that I was damn near at my heaviest :/ I try to accept what happened, because it was my fault after all :p I just look back and wished that I had kept the weight off when I had initially lost it all :p
    Sorry this is so long but I couldn't decide on just one :p

    EDIT: I am very happy with 99% of my wedding photos, and I was so happy that day. These are just the few that I don't like in one way, but as I look at them I can't help but see how FREAKING thrilled I was to be getting married to my husband and that makes me like them :) I am a work in progress and I will get there and I need to stop beating myself up :D Thanks for this post! I really needed to see the good in those photos!

    you were a gorgeous bride!!! Absolutely stunning! That first pic? Your figure looks amazing in that dress! I am really speechless... I don't see anything wrong with it at ALL.

    as for the 'fat rolling over the top of your dress'... you should see me in my corset... ok maybe not, but I get the same thing... I have tried on some outfits where I put them back because I look like I have somethin WEIRD going on behind me.

    The only think I think I'd say about the second picture is that it is a bit washed out... if you took it and adjusted the brightness and contrast to make the colors richer, I'd totally love it.

    The last pic... I can't see 'size' because the top is dark, so that's not an issue, and your face is so radiant that I get lost in the smile.

    You're being very hard on yourself! Stunning lady all around!
  • emilyc85
    emilyc85 Posts: 450 Member
    My dress was so tight by the time I got married that it was let out to the absolute MAX! And it was so tight that it was folding over on itself because I could not move :(
    Double chin, fat and flabby arms, and that fat pushing over the edge of my dress :/

    All I can see is this one is my back-fat pushing the edge of my dress causing it to roll :(

    This one is at halloween at LEAST 15 pounds heavier than the wedding :/ No make-up or nothing

    I had a wonderful wedding and am so happy with my husband, but I can't look at those pictures without thinking that I let myself gain so much that I almost didn't fit my dress. Also, that I was damn near at my heaviest :/ I try to accept what happened, because it was my fault after all :p I just look back and wished that I had kept the weight off when I had initially lost it all :p
    Sorry this is so long but I couldn't decide on just one :p

    EDIT: I am very happy with 99% of my wedding photos, and I was so happy that day. These are just the few that I don't like in one way, but as I look at them I can't help but see how FREAKING thrilled I was to be getting married to my husband and that makes me like them :) I am a work in progress and I will get there and I need to stop beating myself up :D Thanks for this post! I really needed to see the good in those photos!

    you were a gorgeous bride!!! Absolutely stunning! That first pic? Your figure looks amazing in that dress! I am really speechless... I don't see anything wrong with it at ALL.

    as for the 'fat rolling over the top of your dress'... you should see me in my corset... ok maybe not, but I get the same thing... I have tried on some outfits where I put them back because I look like I have somethin WEIRD going on behind me.

    The only think I think I'd say about the second picture is that it is a bit washed out... if you took it and adjusted the brightness and contrast to make the colors richer, I'd totally love it.

    The last pic... I can't see 'size' because the top is dark, so that's not an issue, and your face is so radiant that I get lost in the smile.

    You're being very hard on yourself! Stunning lady all around!


    Thank you so much for your very kind words :D I really appreciate them! You are such a sweetheart!