Over 200 New Year New Me Part 26

Hi Ladies!

Well I am official back to the board and all caught up! I have missed all of you and it took me a loooong time to catch up on everything but I am glad that I did. I am sorry that I am not going to comment on everything because I can't remember the last 2 weeks worth of stuff. But believe me I did read it all!

Okay so since I have been gone I have not been too great. I still have not lost any weight and I am still up 1-1.5 lbs from my lowest weight. I am going to weigh myself in the morning and officially change my ticker because it has been a while since I have been at my lowest weight. :sad: :sad: Tomorrow I am starting over! I am, I am, I am! As Cris and others said earlier please push me to stay on track and not let me slack. I am going to be extremely busy from now on. I will be working my 10 hour days and having a total of 2 hours of commuting time (morning and evening), then come home eat dinner and study for 1.5 hours. I am not sure where I am going to find the time to exercise. I am definitely get on track with food tomorrow but I really want to get this weight off! I am tired of being at the plateau and not moving from it. Monday is a new day and I really want to do this.

Okay rant over. Talk to you all tomorrow!

Again, I took a crazy long nap. Luckily this time it didn't take me into the next day! I don't know what's up with these long (6 hrs. or more) naps. I used to do that long ago before I started losing weight, but they stopped when I started exercising. ???
I'm not gonna worry unless they keep going.

Jess - you're young, not committed to either guy, so I say go for it! And moving back home will not hinder your social life unless you let it! :flowerforyou: Carpe Diem!


check in:
cals: just under by about 100 cals
water: still working on 100
exercise : Old Bessie
proud: that after I am finished with MFP I am gonna ride Old Bessie. I wanted to do no exercise today (that kind of mood, ya know), but I am forcing myself to ride Bessie for at least 30 minutes.

I've had a really bad two weeks in terms of weight, motivation, time, DE-motivation. This is going to be a whine post so you might want to jump out right now.

The worst part is what my weight is. I discovered the scales I was using were faulty. Instead of having lost close to 15 pounds since March.....I've GAINED TWO. This really REALLY threw me. I am beyond depressed.

Life got in the way & kept me from exercising & then it was the 4th of July & I over-ate (& missed my workouts). Ready to get back into the groove and we had alot of flooding rains & I had to help my parents. That was sort of a workout BUT it got me even MORE off-track plus I was just too tired to keep my food diary which led to wrong eating.

I feel so defeated and like I'll never be able to get ahold of this. I realized today that even if I lose 50 pounds I'll still be in the obese category. My physical health is suffering, my mental health is suffering......I am just at the bottom of the barrel.

Have you read this far? If you have, do you have any words that will help? What's it going to take for me? Is it even possible for me to return to a healthy weight?

I'm so defeated......

Susan, we have all been in the same spot that you have. I have been in that spot for the last few weeks to with vacation and then celebrating my birthday all week. Yes ALL week! We are heading in the right direction by admitting it and taking ownership of it and getting back on here. The ladies on here are very motivating and all we have to do is ask and keep trucking along. I know that we can do this!! We know that eating right and exercising are what we need to do, now we just need to find some time to do them. How about me and you push each other to workout just 3 days this week and make better food decisions and see how well we do. How does that sound? We can get to healthy weight, I just know it!

UGGGG...monday

I am soo sleepy, hopefully i wake up soon.

Jess - I think it is fine with both guys, sorry the one conversation about moving home.

Well...i was supposed to take the dog to get fixed today at this low cost nuetering they are having today in my city, butttttt...i didn't realize till late last night, you HAVE to have a a dog carrier. I didn't have one, and i am not buying one for this, i could of borrowed one from my mom if i had known...oh well...i will just have to get it another day, of couse i will probably have to drive further to get it done.

Still a little peeved at my scale, still sitting at 267...(1 1/2 lb + from my lowest weight)...I want to get past this week..I kicked but at the gym all weekend, hopefully my muscles are just holding on to some water (or at least that is what i am tellingmyself). Hubby keeps telling me i need to mix it up, but i don't do the same thing everday day, yeah m-f i do either elliptical or the arc trainer, but then i also do water class, lift class, spin class and the dance class...I think that is plenty of variety.

Oh, and also, I've obviously been irritated with myself for not being as dedicated & my slower weight loss as a result of that. But last night I was talking to my gf and said without really thinking that my waist measurement now is the same as my thigh measurement when I started.

And then it hit me that the statement was 100% true. Holy moly. 31.5"

Sometimes I'm bummed that I still feel like and see myself as such a fatty. But wow. My thighs, for real, were the size of my waist.

Heather-190!? That's amazing! Your gonna see the 180's this week!

Raider-So glad to see you back! Your commute sounds like what mines going to be. I know you will find the time! You just have to want it, and want it bad! I know you do.

blue-You and your crazy long naps!

Susan-Everybody goes through what you are going through right now. Life gets in the way of everything so often and we can't find time to do what we need to do for ourselves. You need to re find your focus and determination. Try to plan ahead as much as you can. Plan your meals your exercises, everything. Don't feel defeated. Take it as a learning experience and start back fresh. Just keep telling yourself, this is a lifestyle change, not a diet. You have to find the balance that works best for you.

LilDebbie-Maybe you could try changing up what days you go to classes or throw in a different cardio machine on your cardio days. How long have you been in this routine? I know my body plateaus about every 4-6 weeks and I have to find a complete new kind of workout.

LittleSpy-That's gotta feel great to be getting rid of that stuff. I'm going to gut my apartment as I pack to move home. I really want to downsize on all my "junk" that I have been hanging on to! Thighs the size of your waist, wow that's all I can say! And I'm with you as still seeing the fatty and and feeling that way. I had one of those moments at the BBQ yesterday and got really upset with myself after I left. Just shows I'm not finished and I still have so much work to do!


I forgot to share the best part of my shopping experience this weekend! This may be too much information but I was so excited I could nearly wet my pants! Since I started my weight loss journey my bust size has gotten smaller band size but bigger cup size. Very depressing for me as I have always been a very busty girl. When I went and got re fitted at about a 10 or 30 pound loss they told me I had grown, yet again, to size G a freaking G are you kidding me!? Well, I went this weekend and back down to a DD. I almost hugged the lady. No more full cover ugly bras for me! For the first time in my life I get to buy the "t-shirt bras" or any other cute ones! 50 pounds in and my chest FINALLY shrinks! Sorry for the TMI and thanks for reading! Happy Monday!

Only I would get excited about smaller boobs. Thanks ladies! You both made me giggle with those comments! :laugh:

Cris-I think your plan of attack looks great! Hope flow leaves town soon and doesn't come back. Are the cramps better?

LilDebbie-Awwww...my niece just turned 7...Such a fun little age! :happy: Did you get all your invitations out for the party? I know you were having quite a rough day when you were trying to get it all done.

Friends!! Prepare yourself for a crazy long post. Also, this is totally ME-centered. I have read ALL your posts and am thinking about you and cheering you along. I just needed to take some me-time and re-focus myself.

It’s a been a fun and completely “bad for me” weekend. I felt like such a hypocrite on Friday when you all were talking about getting your butts in gear and taking names, knowing what my weekend was going to look like. I did log all the bad for me, but I’m sure there’s some calories missing. As you’ll see, I totally BOMBED the challenge last week of no alcohol.

Friday night – Celebration dinner at The Modern, a ridiculously wonderful restaurant that overlooks the Museum of Modern Art. My manager (who is awesome) treats our team to a fancy-pants dinner twice a year. This was our spring/summer version. We were at the restaurant for 4 hours. Everything was delicious – lovely wine (pinot noir = amazing) and a four-course meal. So yes, there went Friday. Calories guesstimate = at least 2,600 for the day. Water = 80 oz

Saturday – went to the New Jersey Beer Co. (a new, up and coming brewery) to help them bottle their stout. This was a super fun day, complete with fresh beer off the taps and grilled burgers and hot dogs. All in all, I had about 3 beers (not too awful considering I wasn’t driving and the beer was flowing!). The bad news/lack of self-control came in the form of the grill - two cheeseburgers. I haven’t really had a cheeseburger fresh off the grill yet this summer, so I was more than excited. The 3 beers had also made me a little loose in my decision making! Anyway, got home, should have exercised (had plenty of time), but sat on the couch instead. Calories = 1,190. Water = 40 oz

Sunday – Meatopia. Seriously. That was the event we went to yesterday. It was a food festival, all about meat. I actually did much better here than the other days. I split the plates with friends and only had a half a beer. I then kind of killed my awesome self-control with an ice cream cone. We had a delicious tomato mozzarella salad last night for dinner with fresh basil from the backyard. We have more tomatoes and mozz, so I’m guessing we’ll do a repeat of that tonight. Tasty!! Had plenty of time to exercise last night (would have been a great night for a run!), but again, sat on my expanding booty. Calories = 1,760. Water = 64 oz

So clearly, I’ve got to let this past weekend go. I think it’s good that I logged everything and am truly owning my (poor) decisions. I like the “let’s make a plan” thing that Cris and Jess have done, so I’m putting mine down as well. The other thing I’m realizing is that I need to get back into the morning work-out routine. Right now, I’m staying in bed when Jonathan gets up and getting out of bed 30 min later when he’s done in the bathroom. There is NO reason that I can’t get up 30 min earlier and either do the Shred or a run/walk/C25k for 30 minutes. It’s not going to change my morning routine except for making it more awesome.

Monday:
Exercise – Swimming laps for at least 30 min
Water goal – 100 oz

Tuesday:
Exercise – Shred in the am, Pilates in the pm
Water goal – 80 oz

Wednesday:
Exercise: C25K or run/walk in the am
Water goal – 100 oz

Thursday:
Exercise – Shred in the am, yoga in the pm
Water goal – 80 oz

Friday:
Exercise - C25K or run/walk in the am
Water goal – 80 oz

Good grief, that’s a lot of activity, but I need a butt-kicking and that’s what’s going to have to happen!

Heather-I love hearing that you and your boyfriend do active things together. Just LOVE IT!! As far as the boys I only plan to keep the 2. I don't think I could handle more then 2 because I am already crunched on time and trying to get more into working out again. This needs to be done. And I totally agree. Tons of guys who will think it's worth their time. Just really got to me last night. Who knows. He may come back around. But for now he's on the back bummer. Don't have time to stress about things like that anymore. Nor do I want to! My last "serious" boyfriend was 3 hours away and we did whatever we had to do to see each other. And we saw each other at least 2 days a week. Thanks for the lifting of my spirts! Much appreciated!

Elmox-Sounds like you had quite a weekend!! Amazing that you went back and logged your calories. I really need to get in that habit. I just say "eh well, I know I was bad" but never know HOW bad. That is one thing I want to improve on! Thank you for shareing it with us. Lovin your plan of attack this week. It is a lot but we're gonna do it together. I think this is exactly what we all need!

LilDebbie-Hope you are able to get some other kiddos at the party. Just remember it's a busy time of the year for everybody. Maybe remember your lil one not to take it personally that people have very busy schedules. But at least she will have some other kiddos there with her.

Cris-I forgot to tell you. I went to the Ranger game Sat night and we played the Orioles...I don't follow it much but they definitely put a spankin on the Rangers...Made me think of you and that pic of you lil man on fb! :laugh:

Cris-He is a little cutie!! And I bet with all his mommy attention he is going to be a little ladies man!

Elmox-I agree with Cris. Just look, 2 our of the 3 days you will still UNDER 2000 calories. That's amazing. Before you started you might of been well over that.



I feel like we're missing a lot of people from our normal routine here. Has anybody heard from KDubMommy? Miranda?

jess - yes we are tying to prepare her that sometimes parents have other things to do, even if they wanted to come to her party..so hopefully she will understand. Maybe 2 or 3 of them will end up coming. we will see still got all week..Got to go order her cake sometime this week too