My Online BF Dumped Me Because I'm Fat :( :( :(

Hey guys.

So I had been in a relationship with a man I met online. We had been together for a year. We talked everyday, Skype 24/7. He's an American soldier who is in Afghanistan. I thought what we had was real. He was also overweight, 5'5" and about 250-260 lbs. I had always told him my weight has always been an issue for me. I am now a little over a hundred pounds over weight than my ideal weight since I broke my leg 6 years ago. He knew this and said it didn't matter because he loved me for my heart and mind and other things he never saw in other women. He's been married to a woman from my country and 2 months after the marriage, he found out he was cheating. He gave her a chance but after a few more months he found out she had 3 more affairs and at that point, she couldn't leave the guy. So he dumped her but was never divorced as there is no divorce in my country (they got married here).

So anyway, we had been planning to see each other for months. Everything was settled. I had packed my bags to be with him at the condo where he was supposed to stay, which is next to where I work.

So last Friday (April 19), I picked him up at the airport. He was warm and looked so happy. He said he wanted to take a shower at the hotel first, where he was staying for the first night. So I drove him to his hotel and I waited in the car. 10 mins and he came down then we head over to a restaurant to have dinner. Weeks before this, he was telling me to bring a bottle of vodka with me and then we'd have bottomless margaritas at the restaurant. So I did bring a bottle of vodka then ordered bottomless margaritas for both of us. We spent hours at the restaurant eating and drinking. Everything was going well. We kept hugging each other. We kissed when we were tipsy. I thought everything was good.

Then before midnight, he asked me to request a song for the singer at the restaurant to sing. So I did, then I went to the restroom. When I came back, I saw him crying. His tears were falling unstoppably. So I got worried. I hugged him and wiped his tears and asked what was wrong. I thought maybe he remembered his wedding day. Because the last time he came here was when he got married. I hugged him and he rested his head on my chest. I kept wiping his tears and kissing his head. I felt so bad. Then after a few minutes he said he wanted to go back to the hotel. He was walking so fast so I felt he had no plans of taking me with him. I ran after him and asked what was wrong and asked him if he could sit down first. He did and then he said he was gonna throw up. He did throw up all over me and himself. I cleaned him up first and made him drink water. Then he said he needed wet wipes. I told him to wait for me and I was just gonna get my bag cuz I had wet wipes in there. So I went back inside the restaurant and got my bag, when I went out I saw him running so fast. So I ran after him, worried that he didn't know what he was doing and the cab driver might take him somewhere and mug him. He went into a cab, I did too. Inside the cab he was telling me to get out. I was shocked. I asked, what's going on. He then started yelling, he said, "GET THE F**K OUT!" I just stayed there in shock. So he went out and called the cops which was parked outside my gym. Then he told them, "get that f**king ***** away from me. I don't know her. She's been following me." The cops asked if that was true. So I showed them our pictures together that night. The cops told me maybe he got so drunk and blacked out and didn't know what he was doing. They adviced me to just follow him til he gets to the hotel just to make sure he's safe. So I did. When he reached the hotel, he saw me in the other cab and started yelling again. I was also tipsy that night so I wasn't thinking right. He went inside the hotel and I followed him (I don't know why I did. I should have just left:( ) At the lobby, he made a scene. Yelling me, cursing at me, calling me names. Then he told security "get that f**king ***** away from me. She's a crazy b**ch!" They held my 2 hands like I committed a heinous crime. I felt so bad for myself so I said, "you know what, nevermind" Then I left.

I went home and felt sorry for myself. But I started thinking, maybe he didn't know what he was doing. So I decided to wait til the next day. Afternoon and I still hadn't heard from him so I called the hotel. They said he was in there but not answering. I called again after 2 hours because I was worried something might had happened to him. They told me the same. So I told them to please check on him as he was so drunk the previous night. The hotel manager told me they would go check him out. After an hour, he emailed me saying he was so drunk and never got drunk like that before. But he never apologized. I told him he left his iphone in my bag and whenever he feels better we could meet up so I could give him back his phone and to talk about why he did that to me. He told me, "I don't wanna meet up with you. I don't wanna see you again. Please just leave my phone at the front desk."

It broke my heart. I feel rejected. I made plans with this man and I thought what we had was something greater than this. We promised to take care of each other and not leave each other NO MATTER WHAT. I focused my life on him, he was my priority. It just kills me that this man I care so much about and love so much is rejecting me because I am overweight. When he himself is overweight. And his entire family is overweight too. It's in their genes. His sisters and mom and dad are all over 300 pounds.

He refused to give explanation as to why he wanted to end things. He still emails me and says he hopes I'm okay but I don't reply to him anymore. I was so excited for his vacation that I lost 30 lbs in 1 month. I would go to the gym everyday and only ate veggies and fruits. Now I feel so down, I haven't gone back to work or gym. It kills me as well knowing he is staying in a hotel 10 mins from where I live but he doesn't want to see me.

Please help because I am starting to lose my mind. He keeps saying I have a good heart and he hopes I find the happiness I deserve. But if he really thinks that, then why did he end things with me?