Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • kyta32
    kyta32 Posts: 670 Member
    Laurend224 wrote: »
    I can't do any type of jumping jacks or running without my belly smacking the top of my thighs. It's really embarrassing. Going to talk to a surgeon about a panniculectomy. Three kids and yo-yoing between 140 and 252 a few times wrecked my belly.

    I know the embarrassing feeling. v.v

    I wear a bathing suit that (used to be) too small for me under my workout clothes to keep my belly from hitting my thighs - my belly bra. I may need a new bathing suit now that I'm about a size 14....It only helps with the lower belly, though. Everything is held in place on top and below, but the "high" belly, just under where my ribcage ends in front, moves when I do high-impact moves.

    Other confessions - I may have become obsessed with Jillian Michaels. My daughter doesn't approve of her, but she's become one of my weight loss "magic feathers".

    I'm far too lazy to wash my bra every day, and certainly not after every workout. I may wash more often now that I have two bras that fit me (hooray, huzzzah) - one to wear while the other dries.

    I spend far too much time on the internet finding studies that will never be good enough for the trolls that demand them to defend views that are really just common sense. I should totally be spending quality time with Jillian instead.

    I am embarrasingly obsessed with the weight loss process. My family wishes I would just get over it. You know, I can lose weight if I want too, but they don't need to hear about it anymore. I'm putting far too much time and effort into it. I just can't help myself, I end up talking about it, googling about it, and wanting to do things like body composition testing, which I really don't need.

    I actually used a recipe that replaced the butter and sugar in cookies with a banana (oatmeal, banana, peanut butter, and chocolate chips, 2 min in the microwave). And I would do it again, except I would add more peanut butter or vanilla for flavour. I have no shame (my daughter says "Eat real food!").

    No matter how much weight I lose, I can't feel confident that I will succeed at this. I rely on "magic feathers" to keep going, and get a little scared any time I have to put one of them down.

    I put 140 in as my goal weight based on a google search, but I have absolutely no idea what I should be aiming for.

    My start weight was 296, three months before I joined MFP. I couldn't figure out how to make stones work when I joined MFP, so my weight loss in the first week was quite impressive ;) .....I have lost more weight than MFP says, just some more of it before joining. Pounds are easier for me, but I miss the stones a little.

    I decided at one point that, if there is no one right way to do things, than really, there is no real wrong way to do them. I choose to believe that every part of my weight journey has helped me to get here, either by keeping me alive this long, or by being learning experiences that will give me compassion for others, and help me to keep going in the future. No judgement :)
  • obscuremusicreference
    obscuremusicreference Posts: 1,320 Member
    Jolinia wrote: »
    toriilana wrote: »
    The stupidest thing I ever did was buy some of those pills you see advertised that are supposed to aid weigh loss. You get them for free but pay for packaging only the trial is free and they charge you £75 if you decide not to send them back. I didn't read the fine print (because I was 16 and dumb and hated my body so much I just wanted it gone!). When I found out they had taken the money and realised why I was too embarrassed to admit to my parents. I didn't have to tell them about it as I earned my own money and I wasted my own money on it too! Stupidest thing I have ever done and it makes me feel bad that I got so desperate to lose weight that I fell for some pills that didn't work anyway.

    Who hasn't tried at least one BS diet pill?

    They'll never be as good as late 90s Dexatrim. I did that combined with SlimFast for all three meals. I was as full of goodness and light as you can imagine with that combination.
  • samchez0
    samchez0 Posts: 364 Member

    shermcm wrote: »
    Sometimes I log just my coffee so I don't lose my days logged in streak or adjust my portions so it doesn't look so bad.

    I'm gluten free on top of making lifestyle changes and I am tired of explaining my choices or that my "diet" isn't all a choice.

    I made my journal private because if I didn't I would never log stuff out of embarrassment that people would see the crap I'm putting in my body. But if just I can see it, I'll log it and figure out how/where I need to change.
  • Triplestep
    Triplestep Posts: 239 Member
    You powdered cocoa fans might want to keep some powdered chocolate peanut butter in the house. I mix some up and put on bananas. Mmmmmm. (But a word of caution: it will glue your mouth shut if you eat it right from the jar!)
  • tbilly20
    tbilly20 Posts: 154 Member
    I give my dog a special puppy Oreo cookie every time she does does her business. They are pretty good too. When she comes in, I eat half the cookie and give her the other half. I never log those calories!
  • DeWoSa
    DeWoSa Posts: 496 Member
    confession, I judge people big time for spelling "lose" as "loose."

    I'm there with you.

    Sometimes I write a post specifically mocking someone's atrocious spelling.

    Then I get over myself and rewrite or delete the post. It does feel good, though, to be a total a-hole for a minute.
  • aubreyjordan
    aubreyjordan Posts: 276 Member
    arditarose wrote: »
    sigh...When I found that I couldn't eat peanut butter in moderation, and had to get it out of my apartment ASAP, I not only threw it away-I drowned the jar in water first so I wouldn't be tempted...

    I can't believe I shared that.
    Have you tried PB2? It's a powdered peanut butter you reconstitute with water. It is 45 calories and 1.5 grams of fat per 2 tablespoons. It is very similar to regular PB in my opinion.
  • Alluminati
    Alluminati Posts: 6,208 Member
    DeWoSa wrote: »
    confession, I judge people big time for spelling "lose" as "loose."

    I'm there with you.

    Sometimes I write a post specifically mocking someone's atrocious spelling.

    Then I get over myself and rewrite or delete the post. It does feel good, though, to be a total a-hole for a minute.
    Lol.
    Just lol.
  • randomtai
    randomtai Posts: 9,003 Member
    randomtai wrote: »
    randomtai wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    randomtai wrote: »
    soloelixir wrote: »
    I resent thin people. I've been fat my whole life, and have no idea what it's like to be thin. I know I shouldn't resent them, but damn, when I see a thin girl complaining about how those jeans make her *kitten* look big, I want to slap her in the face.
    nellysen wrote: »
    Me too!!!!!! In fact it pisses me off. I think it is because I just WISH that the hunt fr the perfect jeans on a perfect body was my biggest issue. Maybe it is jealousy? But either way.... I feel the same!

    This is just damn sad. SMH :noway:

    I don't see it... It does annoy me when I see girls that look fantastic complain that their clothes make them look fat. Although I guess now I just feel sad for them because they don't realize how great they look, and they'll look back one day and realize that they were wasting too much energy on something that wasn't even true and wish they could look that way again lol.

    I totally fail to see how that is body shaming, like some people mentioned above... Being jealous of someone's body is shaming them? How?

    For not washing clothes after working out, some people just don't sweat much. I'm always sweating like crazy at the gym but I see people running in SWEATERS next to me and they seem just fine. So *shrug*.

    Of course you don't. *nod* *shrug*

    You know, the thread title asked for no judgement, and that's pretty much all you've contributed.

    Confession: I judge people for not washing their clothes... that ish is nasty as hell. Better?

    Reality check: All of us wash them. Just not every day. You made assumptions. You also made a leap and assumed that we didn't wipe down gym equipment. What exactly did you plan to do when you came into a thread sharing confessions?

    Question: Do you wash your judgey pants every time you put them on?

    Lol. Just lol.
  • Zedeff
    Zedeff Posts: 651 Member
    Jolinia wrote: »
    toriilana wrote: »
    The stupidest thing I ever did was buy some of those pills you see advertised that are supposed to aid weigh loss. You get them for free but pay for packaging only the trial is free and they charge you £75 if you decide not to send them back. I didn't read the fine print (because I was 16 and dumb and hated my body so much I just wanted it gone!). When I found out they had taken the money and realised why I was too embarrassed to admit to my parents. I didn't have to tell them about it as I earned my own money and I wasted my own money on it too! Stupidest thing I have ever done and it makes me feel bad that I got so desperate to lose weight that I fell for some pills that didn't work anyway.

    Who hasn't tried at least one BS diet pill?

    They'll never be as good as late 90s Dexatrim. I did that combined with SlimFast for all three meals. I was as full of goodness and light as you can imagine with that combination.

    90s Hydroxycut with ephedrine, caffeine and aspirin. That stuff was like magic. Or speed. Magic or speed.

    Either way it was scary and effective. (And dangerous, so I'm not advocating its use or return).
  • Lounmoun
    Lounmoun Posts: 8,423 Member
    I've always felt Girl Scout cookies are overpriced and mediocre... but if someone gives me a box I will quietly eat the cookies.
  • Dnarules
    Dnarules Posts: 2,081 Member
    shermcm wrote: »
    Sometimes I log just my coffee so I don't lose my days logged in streak or adjust my portions so it doesn't look so bad.

    I'm gluten free on top of making lifestyle changes and I am tired of explaining my choices or that my "diet" isn't all a choice.

    You don't have to log food to maintain your streak. All you have to do is log into MFP. All I do is stay in the forums, but it still maintains my streak.
  • ovinas1
    ovinas1 Posts: 413 Member
    Zedeff wrote: »
    Jolinia wrote: »
    toriilana wrote: »
    The stupidest thing I ever did was buy some of those pills you see advertised that are supposed to aid weigh loss. You get them for free but pay for packaging only the trial is free and they charge you £75 if you decide not to send them back. I didn't read the fine print (because I was 16 and dumb and hated my body so much I just wanted it gone!). When I found out they had taken the money and realised why I was too embarrassed to admit to my parents. I didn't have to tell them about it as I earned my own money and I wasted my own money on it too! Stupidest thing I have ever done and it makes me feel bad that I got so desperate to lose weight that I fell for some pills that didn't work anyway.

    Who hasn't tried at least one BS diet pill?

    They'll never be as good as late 90s Dexatrim. I did that combined with SlimFast for all three meals. I was as full of goodness and light as you can imagine with that combination.

    90s Hydroxycut with ephedrine, caffeine and aspirin. That stuff was like magic. Or speed. Magic or speed.

    Either way it was scary and effective. (And dangerous, so I'm not advocating its use or return).

    Yes it was. But I will advocate its return. Had to turn to anything ending in butyrol for the same affect.
  • Lorri229
    Lorri229 Posts: 24 Member
    techgal128 wrote: »
    I gained 10 pounds over the holidays but never adjusted my current weight in MFP. I've lost 5 pounds of it already but technically I should have recorded it.

    Same here. I have gained the 4 I had lost and then 3 more. Now I have to be REALLY focused. I want to lose at least 2 pounds a week for the next 5-6 weeks, because I will be seeing my honey who is in the military, and I dont want to be bigger than when he saw me last. :wink:
  • Lorri229
    Lorri229 Posts: 24 Member
    mwm158 wrote: »
    mwm158 wrote: »
    I'm unhappy. I determined that if I'm busy, I don't notice. I started working 75+ hours a week so I'm always busy and don't have time to think about anything. I don't know where the last 6 years went. They are a blur, and I'm still unhappy.

    I'm so sorry things are difficult <3

    Thanks. Saying I'm unhappy is a confession because I don't feel like I have a reason to be? Things aren't that difficult, I just just feel like something's missing. I don't understand where people find joy. I decided to buy a house, and put an offer in today for a great one. I'm not excited at all about it, and I don't know why. Oh well, off to bed, gotta work another 12 hours tomorrow.

    It sounds to me like maybe you have a chemical imbalance, which can be easily controlled with food and or possibly medication, even though medication is not always the best. Go talk to your doctor, maybe something like biofeedback may help too. Take care of yourself. :smile:
  • Lorri229
    Lorri229 Posts: 24 Member
    ashleycde wrote: »
    I was craving something sweet the other night but had absolutely nothing in the house that would satisfy me except some hot chocolate. So I ate two spoonfuls of the powder. Two spoonfuls. Of the powder.

    When I was a kid I liked my chocolate milk lumpy because I liked the taste of the wet powder chunks. Next time mix a little milk (dairy or non-dairy, what ever) with the powder and it's like a powdery chocolate paste. It's good, trust.

    I used to do this, too! I managed to figure out the precisely optimum ratio of milk to powder such that it wasn't a gooey paste but chocolate milk with lots of lumps. If only I had put that much effort into other things!

    I thought I was the only person to do this. My sisters thought I was a weirdo, but I still love it to this day :wink:
  • Jolinia
    Jolinia Posts: 846 Member
    ovinas1 wrote: »
    Zedeff wrote: »
    Jolinia wrote: »
    toriilana wrote: »
    The stupidest thing I ever did was buy some of those pills you see advertised that are supposed to aid weigh loss. You get them for free but pay for packaging only the trial is free and they charge you £75 if you decide not to send them back. I didn't read the fine print (because I was 16 and dumb and hated my body so much I just wanted it gone!). When I found out they had taken the money and realised why I was too embarrassed to admit to my parents. I didn't have to tell them about it as I earned my own money and I wasted my own money on it too! Stupidest thing I have ever done and it makes me feel bad that I got so desperate to lose weight that I fell for some pills that didn't work anyway.

    Who hasn't tried at least one BS diet pill?

    They'll never be as good as late 90s Dexatrim. I did that combined with SlimFast for all three meals. I was as full of goodness and light as you can imagine with that combination.

    90s Hydroxycut with ephedrine, caffeine and aspirin. That stuff was like magic. Or speed. Magic or speed.

    Either way it was scary and effective. (And dangerous, so I'm not advocating its use or return).

    Yes it was. But I will advocate its return. Had to turn to anything ending in butyrol for the same affect.

    I also advocate for its return. Ephedra was my miracle drug. I didn't need anything else with it, though. Just good old natural ma huang from the health food store. Tolerance was an issue, so I took breaks from it, but overall it worked. You can still get limited quantities of ephedrine for colds and allergies anyway. So I never believed it was really banned because it was dangerous.

  • Zedeff
    Zedeff Posts: 651 Member
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  • LeanButNotMean44
    LeanButNotMean44 Posts: 852 Member
    Kontxesi wrote: »
    My confessions:

    1) When it comes to discipline, I am aces at getting my butt to the gym pretty much every day of the weak. But when it comes to food, I fall woefully short. I feel as though I fell off a cliff starting with the holidays. Pizza and brownie batter have become my Saturday evening staples. :'(:'(:'(

    When people ask me or my brother what our favorite dessert is and we say "brownie batter", they always look at us quizzically and say "...brownies, you mean?" No. Delicious, raw-eggy brownie batter.

    While I sympathize with the weekly trap you've found yourself in, I'm glad to have found another Batter Enthusiast.

    (Are you making it from scratch, or using box mix? I can't keep any sort of quick desert options in the house. If I want something sweet, I have to make it, so it happens less often. Not that brownie batter is hard to whip up....)

    We use a box mix and just add water. It HAS to be the kind that has chocolate chunks in it. The batter is split 3 ways but I always hate myself after eating it.
  • userpaul
    userpaul Posts: 8 Member
    I eat my granddaughters farleys rusks
  • Kontxesi
    Kontxesi Posts: 86 Member
    Kontxesi wrote: »
    My confessions:

    1) When it comes to discipline, I am aces at getting my butt to the gym pretty much every day of the weak. But when it comes to food, I fall woefully short. I feel as though I fell off a cliff starting with the holidays. Pizza and brownie batter have become my Saturday evening staples. :'(:'(:'(

    When people ask me or my brother what our favorite dessert is and we say "brownie batter", they always look at us quizzically and say "...brownies, you mean?" No. Delicious, raw-eggy brownie batter.

    While I sympathize with the weekly trap you've found yourself in, I'm glad to have found another Batter Enthusiast.

    (Are you making it from scratch, or using box mix? I can't keep any sort of quick desert options in the house. If I want something sweet, I have to make it, so it happens less often. Not that brownie batter is hard to whip up....)

    We use a box mix and just add water. It HAS to be the kind that has chocolate chunks in it. The batter is split 3 ways but I always hate myself after eating it.

    There definitely is a certain something that seems to be lacking in the homemade stuff.... It's a... tangy-ness in the box mix that I miss. But the different taste makes me not eat quite as much, so that's good.

    I always loved the Ghirardelli mixes. Once I had those, nothing else was worth it.
  • MyChocolateDiet
    MyChocolateDiet Posts: 22,281 Member
    My judgy pants are so dirty.

    Dirty, dirty, judgy pants!

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  • Springfield1970
    Springfield1970 Posts: 1,945 Member
    I love going out for meals and stuffing my face with burgers and getting drunk in front of my overweight friends who have accused me of starving myself!

    Little do they know that my day to day life is extremely controlled and disciplined. I just follow the 80/20 rule.

    I also love beating all my kids friends parents in the yearly local 10km. We all train all year for it, I live in a very competitive area of North london. It's hilarious.

    I'm a bit of a *kitten*. I'm good with that! There's a lot of jealous people around. It's a novelty for me, as I only really hit my stride in the last couple of years.
  • SSCK2005
    SSCK2005 Posts: 8 Member
    Jolinia wrote: »
    toriilana wrote: »
    The stupidest thing I ever did was buy some of those pills you see advertised that are supposed to aid weigh loss. You get them for free but pay for packaging only the trial is free and they charge you £75 if you decide not to send them back. I didn't read the fine print (because I was 16 and dumb and hated my body so much I just wanted it gone!). When I found out they had taken the money and realised why I was too embarrassed to admit to my parents. I didn't have to tell them about it as I earned my own money and I wasted my own money on it too! Stupidest thing I have ever done and it makes me feel bad that I got so desperate to lose weight that I fell for some pills that didn't work anyway.

    Who hasn't tried at least one BS diet pill?

    I lost 38 pounds taking phentermine. Almost 2 years later I've gained it all back. I was desperate then and even more desperate now. :(
  • Princesspetal7
    Princesspetal7 Posts: 42 Member
    Lorri229 wrote: »
    mwm158 wrote: »
    mwm158 wrote: »
    I'm unhappy. I determined that if I'm busy, I don't notice. I started working 75+ hours a week so I'm always busy and don't have time to think about anything. I don't know where the last 6 years went. They are a blur, and I'm still unhappy.

    I'm so sorry things are difficult <3

    Thanks. Saying I'm unhappy is a confession because I don't feel like I have a reason to be? Things aren't that difficult, I just just feel like something's missing. I don't understand where people find joy. I decided to buy a house, and put an offer in today for a great one. I'm not excited at all about it, and I don't know why. Oh well, off to bed, gotta work another 12 hours tomorrow.

    It sounds to me like maybe you have a chemical imbalance, which can be easily controlled with food and or possibly medication, even though medication is not always the best. Go talk to your doctor, maybe something like biofeedback may help too. Take care of yourself. :smile:

    I'm sorry that you feel this way. It is so important that you have someone that you can talk to and their support. Is there anyone? Xx
  • yankeedownsouth
    yankeedownsouth Posts: 717 Member
    I ate my son's pint of Ben & Jerry's ice cream Friday night after drinking three glasses of wine. I had to buy him a new pint to replace it on Saturday...
  • TracyeS4
    TracyeS4 Posts: 746 Member
    edited February 2015
    tbilly20 wrote: »
    I give my dog a special puppy Oreo cookie every time she does does her business. They are pretty good too. When she comes in, I eat half the cookie and give her the other half. I never log those calories!

    LOL. They have special doggie ice cream, too. Let me know if it is any good.
  • llUndecidedll
    llUndecidedll Posts: 724 Member
    Sometimes it just takes too long entering in food into my food diary, so I do some mental math and just quick add the calories.

    I hurt my elbow joints months ago trying to curl 25 lbs in each hand (beginner lifter here)... Partly for the wrong reasons... Vanity. In my mind, since I could shoulder press 50 lbs then I can curl 25 in each hand. My elbows feel a lot better but are still sore.

    I sometimes purposely stay on the treadmill longer once someone begins working out next to me. Nothing wrong with a little healthy competition right?

    Sometimes calories just... Disappear.... From my diary. Quite strange.



  • score45609
    score45609 Posts: 36 Member
    Does it actually work? Wrapping yourself?