Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • NJbabe
    NJbabe Posts: 113 Member
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    Confession... I spent over $500 in 2 days, purchasing additional cook tools from William Sonoma, supplements from Sephora, super foods (powders) from Whole Foods and so on...

    I am already eating below my set calories. Every single day. But all of these things I bought are meant to make my cooking experience a more pleasant one, aid me in getting tighter skin, nicer hair & nails, better metabolism, more focus and energy, etc.

    I'm quite happy. ;)
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,409 Member
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    ythannah wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    I had a complete breakdown/tantrum this morning. Got on the scales and I'm back up to 214lbs. It's like I'm on some sort of weight bungee cord. I can't get past 212.9lb and I bounce back up to 214lb. I spend all month getting down to 212.9lb and back up again! So complete breakdown, sat crying on my bed for about 15 minutes, got dressed and went down stairs to get breakfast and saw my swimming stuff on the line outside frozen from the frost in the morning. Completely flipped out. Gym bag went across to room, laundry went flying around the room and I just thought bollo*ks to this I'm going to work grabbed my handbag a left. Arrived at work an hour early, no breakfast, I didn't even brush my teeth. Currently trying to find a local therapist, I don't want to go on the happy pills, but I can't take this much more.

    Don't let that get you down! I have been bouncing around the same 3 lbs for the last month. I find I get "stuck" in a range for a while then suddenly drop. Just stick with your eating plan and keep moving and it will eventually come off.

    But of course if you think talking to someone will help do it! I just wouldn't freak about bouncing around a certain weight. Sometimes you just have to "wait" it out. Now go brush your teeth! You'll feel better.
    This has been happening since February, it's driving me crackers. I can't even get my hopes up that I will break the boundary anymore.

    Yea, I feel really gross. I'm going to have to go buy a toothbrush and paste from the local shop on my break...

    On the plus side, though, if that is your hand in one of the pictures I love your nail polish color!

    Great minds think alike ;) We have already established that it is Lois's hand and the nail polish is Barry M, a UK brand.

    Morning ladies, sorry I never got back to you last night I was wiped out. The nail varnish shade is 'almond' but it doesn't look very almondy to me. My first reaction was "ooh grey' when I saw it. Lol
  • PoundChaser2
    PoundChaser2 Posts: 241 Member
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    arditarose wrote: »
    sigh...When I found that I couldn't eat peanut butter in moderation, and had to get it out of my apartment ASAP, I not only threw it away-I drowned the jar in water first so I wouldn't be tempted...

    I can't believe I shared that.
    Have you tried PB2? It's a powdered peanut butter you reconstitute with water. It is 45 calories and 1.5 grams of fat per 2 tablespoons. It is very similar to regular PB in my opinion.

    They make a Choclate PB2 and I like it better than the regular PB2
  • nicsflyingcircus
    nicsflyingcircus Posts: 2,466 Member
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    Apparently I should not be allowed to have a knife. At work this morning I slit the back of my left index finger wide open. Hello incident report. Hello ER.
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,409 Member
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    Apparently I should not be allowed to have a knife. At work this morning I slit the back of my left index finger wide open. Hello incident report. Hello ER.

    Oops! Hope you're ok. :smile:
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,409 Member
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    I just want to say thank you to everyone for the supportive words yesterday. I get so frustrated about everything sometimes. Particularly when you try so damn hard and it just doesn't go the way you want it to. I may have had half a pack of Hobnobs with a cup of coffee, but I did do my 30min run as usual when I got home... Followed by a Budwiser. Lol
  • nicsflyingcircus
    nicsflyingcircus Posts: 2,466 Member
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    Apparently I should not be allowed
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Apparently I should not be allowed to have a knife. At work this morning I slit the back of my left index finger wide open. Hello incident report. Hello ER.

    Oops! Hope you're ok. :smile:

    Waiting on the doc. I see stitches in my future!
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,409 Member
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    Apparently I should not be allowed
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Apparently I should not be allowed to have a knife. At work this morning I slit the back of my left index finger wide open. Hello incident report. Hello ER.

    Oops! Hope you're ok. :smile:

    Waiting on the doc. I see stitches in my future!

    ooooh, at least it's not too bad. Could be worse :wink:
  • ohgeeque
    ohgeeque Posts: 224 Member
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    My husband lost 8 pound this week. I lost 3. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him!
  • ladybuggnorris
    ladybuggnorris Posts: 276 Member
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    JPW1990 wrote: »
    I've tried watching GA a few times and just can't get into it. I think I have defective ovaries.

    Me too! I have watched the pilot 3-4 times, but never make it past the first three episodes. It just doesn't grab my interest, I guess.
  • ladybuggnorris
    ladybuggnorris Posts: 276 Member
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    I am super excited that I found a song I never knew the name of.....after literally looking for YEARS!! WOOHOO!!

    My neighbors downstairs were blasting music yesterday, and a song came on that instantly gave me nostalgic vibes. I couldn't catch the lyrics, so I couldn't look it up... and now I've even forgotten the tune :( All I remember is that my mom used to play it in the car when I was little.

    I love it when you're able to FINALLY figure something out!!!

    This is why I have Songza on my phone. It drives me crazy when I can't think of the name to a song I want.
  • ladybuggnorris
    ladybuggnorris Posts: 276 Member
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    :( Double
  • ladybuggnorris
    ladybuggnorris Posts: 276 Member
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    BZAH10 wrote: »
    ShibaEars wrote: »
    I realized last night I have this issue with feeling guilty if I do well at something. I am doing an agility class with my dog and I was able to pick up the new stuff last night that the other people weren't getting. I felt like one lady in particular was giving me stink eye because she wasn't doing so well (but seriously, who wears flip flops to something they know involves running and direction changes?). The instructor complimented me at the end and it took everything I had to not downplay it.

    It kind of sounds like I'm humble bragging, maybe I am, maybe I should just turn it into actual bragging: Me and my dog are doing awesome in agility. Unfortunately I can't seem to allow myself to enjoy it and feel proud of her and I because... well I don't know why.

    It's not wrong to feel proud of being good at something, is it?

    I think a lot of people, especially women, struggle with this. I know in school, I got excellent grades. I was in the top 2% of my high school graduating class and went to college on a 100% academic scholarship. Most of my friends didn't realize it because I would always pretend like my scores were poor on a test where I may have gotten a 95%. I was embarrassed that some things came so easy to me.

    I still downplay my accomplishments to some extent. I've had managers/directors tell me to be more outspoken about what I'm accomplishing, so I'm working on it.

    I had this problem when I was younger. In 1st grade I was sent to the 2nd grade class for reading. At that age (for me anyway) that was traumatic! I had no friends, they were all older than me and it singled me out and different. Everyone called me smart and I didn't like that. I struggled. In 2nd grade I was moved to the 3rd grade class and couldn't do it another year, so I acted like I wasn't able to keep up. Looking back that was stupid. Maybe I could have skipped a grade if I'd just stuck with it. Oh well. Live and learn.

    I was skipped ahead, not once but twice. The result was that by the time I hit the second year of high school, I was an unpopular 12 year old in a class of 14 year olds, the only crowd that would tolerate me was the out-crowd, and my desperation to fit in made me get into EVERYTHING they were in, as hard as I could. Got into massive conflict with my parents, because I didn't have any friends but the ones 2 years older, but I was 'too young' to do what they did. Cue me becoming a massive delinquent, sneaking out, lying and eventually dropping out of school and moving out of home 2 weeks after my 15th birthday.

    I'm successful now, but that took until my 20's. My folks reckon letting me get skipped ahead on the basis of intellect alone was the worst mistake they ever made.

    My son is brilliant. He is so bored in school and the suggestion was that he skip a grade. As a December baby, he is already the youngest in his class. We decided against it, knowing that academics was only a small part of the picture. I swear he is the only kid in 7th grade that has not started puberty yet and I can't even imagine what that would be like if he was in an older grade.
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
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    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »

    Oh my God. That poor girl and the total you know what. I'd post her text messages on my Facebook page (or her friends wedding Facebook page since she probably has one) for everyone to see. If that story is true it's awful and I feel so bad for that girl. I never heard of a wedding where the bride buys the dress for the bridesmaids?

    I know. I feel terrible for the other 7 girls who the bride is excluding. I feel really bad for the OP, it's like seeing her go from excited to crushed in the course of a short thread.

    I never post anywhere else but had to weigh in on that one. No pun intended.

    I just did too

    Your story was great.

    I am starting to wonder though if that girl is making this up. What bride excludes the girl who had done most of the planning from the wedding itself? But maybe I am naive.

    Thank you....and just for the record, that was 100% true

    I wondered if maybe this was made up too....but some woman can be insane like that.....

    Oh I never thought your story was made up! It was inspiring. It's great to have wonderful friends and this is a great story on how to personally be a better friend. That was incredibly thoughtful and I am not sure I would have thought to do it. But will if I ever get married now!
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
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    eMka11 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    I applied internally for a job today. Totally up my alley but with all the layoffs and reorgs that have happened lately at my company I am second guessing myself. Plus I had to tell my new boss. But a lot of sad stuff has been happening to me recently and I think it's time for a change. With the most recent reorg I kind of feel I got lost in the organization and am now invisible. So figured what the hey. It's done now so no second guessing right??! May not even get an interview who knows.
    believe in yourself and keep us posted :) fingers crossed it goes your way!

    Thanks we'll see!
  • AgentOrangeJuice
    AgentOrangeJuice Posts: 1,069 Member
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    ohgeeque wrote: »
    My husband lost 8 pound this week. I lost 3. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him!

    Sounds bad. He would have to been at a 27000 calorie deficit. On 2000 calories a day for 7 days for a total of 14,000 suggested consumed. I would think more is going on here and might not be healthy.
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
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    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »

    Oh my God. That poor girl and the total you know what. I'd post her text messages on my Facebook page (or her friends wedding Facebook page since she probably has one) for everyone to see. If that story is true it's awful and I feel so bad for that girl. I never heard of a wedding where the bride buys the dress for the bridesmaids?

    I know. I feel terrible for the other 7 girls who the bride is excluding. I feel really bad for the OP, it's like seeing her go from excited to crushed in the course of a short thread.

    I never post anywhere else but had to weigh in on that one. No pun intended.

    I just did too

    Your story was great.

    I am starting to wonder though if that girl is making this up. What bride excludes the girl who had done most of the planning from the wedding itself? But maybe I am naive.

    Thank you....and just for the record, that was 100% true

    I wondered if maybe this was made up too....but some woman can be insane like that.....

    Oh I never thought your story was made up! It was inspiring. It's great to have wonderful friends and this is a great story on how to personally be a better friend. That was incredibly thoughtful and I am not sure I would have thought to do it. But will if I ever get married now!

    BTW might blow up now. Someone just defended the bride. The sharks are circling. Could get funny.
  • Francl27
    Francl27 Posts: 26,371 Member
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    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »

    Oh my God. That poor girl and the total you know what. I'd post her text messages on my Facebook page (or her friends wedding Facebook page since she probably has one) for everyone to see. If that story is true it's awful and I feel so bad for that girl. I never heard of a wedding where the bride buys the dress for the bridesmaids?

    I know. I feel terrible for the other 7 girls who the bride is excluding. I feel really bad for the OP, it's like seeing her go from excited to crushed in the course of a short thread.

    I never post anywhere else but had to weigh in on that one. No pun intended.

    I just did too

    Your story was great.

    I am starting to wonder though if that girl is making this up. What bride excludes the girl who had done most of the planning from the wedding itself? But maybe I am naive.

    Thank you....and just for the record, that was 100% true

    I wondered if maybe this was made up too....but some woman can be insane like that.....

    Oh I never thought your story was made up! It was inspiring. It's great to have wonderful friends and this is a great story on how to personally be a better friend. That was incredibly thoughtful and I am not sure I would have thought to do it. But will if I ever get married now!

    BTW might blow up now. Someone just defended the bride. The sharks are circling. Could get funny.

    I can't find anyone defending her?
  • JPW1990
    JPW1990 Posts: 2,424 Member
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    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »

    Oh my God. That poor girl and the total you know what. I'd post her text messages on my Facebook page (or her friends wedding Facebook page since she probably has one) for everyone to see. If that story is true it's awful and I feel so bad for that girl. I never heard of a wedding where the bride buys the dress for the bridesmaids?

    I know. I feel terrible for the other 7 girls who the bride is excluding. I feel really bad for the OP, it's like seeing her go from excited to crushed in the course of a short thread.

    I never post anywhere else but had to weigh in on that one. No pun intended.

    I just did too

    Your story was great.

    I am starting to wonder though if that girl is making this up. What bride excludes the girl who had done most of the planning from the wedding itself? But maybe I am naive.

    I knew someone that level of selfish before. A friend was engaged to her despite everyone telling him it was a bad idea. She was a tyrant about everything, passive aggressively dismissed half her bridesmaids (the ones that were from his side) a month before the wedding, pressured him into buying a house up front so they'd have somewhere "real" to live. She used everyone, not just regarding the wedding, it was her default mode. They got divorced 2 years later, and everyone was surprised it lasted that long.
  • scb515
    scb515 Posts: 133 Member
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    I binge ate on Wednesday night, Thursday and Friday. It turns out that I'm still an emotional eater. Have got back on the wagon now, am planning calories and have done some exercise, but I can't remember the last time I fell that hard. I really need a better coping mechanism for dealing with bad news...