Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Tomorrow I will be in training all day. This makes me sad for 3 reasons.
1. I have no idea what we'll be served for lunch so I can't log it accurately.
2. I won't be able to be on here at all.
3. Since I do my HIIT at my office, I'll be missing tomorrow's workout.
I am, however, looking forward to being out of the office for the day and getting paid for it, also...FREE LUNCH!!!
Curious, what kind of HIIT do you do at the office?0 -
-I'm 115# and the epitome of skinny fat due to unhealthy weight loss ~5 years ago with no exercise. (Currently working on changing that, and so far seems to be working.)
Welcome! And, if you haven't heard this already... weight lifting is the cure.
Seriously. I guess if you had to put a label on it, what I'm doing is a "recomp" since I'm not disciplined enough to do bulk/cut cycles, but the results are starting to really impress me.
Thank you! I've read about body recomp here on the forums and have researched it a little bit on my own and I would absolutely LOVE to get into lifting, but from what I understand it needs to be done at the gym or with the proper equipment at home? I avoid the gym because I tend to get very anxious in public places with a lot of people and I don't exactly have the finances or space for a home gym at the moment. I have looked into it though, and plan on it once I'm able. Can body weight exercises have similar results? I'm currently working my way through Body Revolution using 5-10# dumbbells, because that's what I have!
I've done all mine at home but I have a fair collection of equipment. None of it was very expensive and I understand you can probably get secondhand stuff cheap on craigslist (not true for me locally). My first barbell was a 10 lb bar and I think I paid $30 for it... didn't want to spend a lot of money when I was first starting out and didn't know if I was going to stick with it. I've since upgraded to an Olympic bar, and my SO bought me a power rack for Christmas, which is the most expensive piece. Fortunately I have a big almost-empty basement for all this.
You can accomplish a LOT with body weight though. I know there are a couple of programs that are recommended around here, like You Are Your Own Gym and Convict Conditioning.
Stick with it -- you'll love the results!
Thank you so much! I shall start there and work on getting my own gym when I'm able.0 -
qn4bx9pzg8aifd wrote: »kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »AngryViking1970 wrote: »I finally bought the Sam's Choice Coffee and Donuts ice cream yesterday and even though I had no calories left, I ate a serving. I regret nothing. Who was it that brought that up? Quiksylver? You're terrible. LOL
The glaze is the best part:D.
...just reading the words "donuts" and "the glaze" is sparking a flashback to this weekend, while with family, when I was offered the last 3 glazed donuts from a recently acquired dozen... the box containing such was presented to me 'out of nowhere' (it was like a 'stealth attack'
)... and under previously-normal circumstances, an impromptu presentation of glazed donut wondrousness would have been 'received' as some sort of 'gift from the gods'...
...however... and despite being hungry, and not having access to any healthy food at the time (we were all attending a child's sporting event)... and despite my practically 'taste-hallucinating' what those beloved freakin' donuts would treat my tastebuds to... I somehow found the strength to not partake of even one 'torn' piece of one of those dastardly donut delights... and after hearing the words, "no, thanks..." come out of my mouth, I summarily found myself pondering just what words in the English language could come close to 'putting a name to' the defies-description feeling that I found myself experiencing, as those 3 beloved 'glazed circular bits of heaven' were carried away from me...
(...that moment needed some sort of 'theme music', I swear... (whatever music would be used to accompany a scene in which two former lovers must painfully say, 'not this time', would seem to 'do'...
))
That's funny, I would have kicked myself for the rest of the day - slightly food obsessed, and I would have wished I'd had a donut. I'm weak
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pofoster21 wrote: »These last few days of being sad have been pretty revealing about my unhealthy relationship with food... I just want to eat until I don't feel anything but full. The lifelong habit of medicating with food is lurking around me. I didn't log the last couple of days, and I know I probably ate over maintenance, but I'm happy that I managed to avoid sitting on the couch and eating bags (plural...) of chips and cookies.
Back on track today. Even if everything else is haywire, I am going to be kind to myself and not eat until I feel sick.
This is something I am currently going through myself. My MIL is very ill and it looks like they may not be able to do anything for her. I am close to her as I lost my own mom when I was 26. So I am somewhat self medicating with food and trying to stop myself from doing that at the same time. I didn't log at all yesterday, but I am trying to do better today and deal with the emotions another.
I am struggling with this myself over my horse. While that may not seem as sad and traumatic as a human this guy is the love of my life. I am just grateful I can spend some quality time with him in the last few weeks of his life. I am grazing him right now. But when I leave I will want to eat and drink to fill the sad places. Some days I resist. And some I don't then have that guilt and disgust with myself to deal with too. But I think we have to forgive ourselves and just keep moving forward. I do believe in the phrase that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger.
Thanks @pofoster21, I understand how you feel about your big guy. I recently lost my youngest mastiff too. He was five years old. Our babies in their own way.
I consider losing a pet to be losing a member of the family, so you have my sympathy. Cannot imaging losing any of my fur family.0 -
Tomorrow I will be in training all day. This makes me sad for 3 reasons.
1. I have no idea what we'll be served for lunch so I can't log it accurately.
2. I won't be able to be on here at all.
3. Since I do my HIIT at my office, I'll be missing tomorrow's workout.
I am, however, looking forward to being out of the office for the day and getting paid for it, also...FREE LUNCH!!!
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Thanks! It is pretty much my personality. I DON'T SHARE CAKE!
Except with me, cuz we're zombie killin' partners...
I feel the need for a real confession today. - I used to shoplift in high school. A LOT. I had a shoplifting partner and we would go together and keep an eye out for the other. I lifted everything, bikinis, movies (VHS, that's how old I am), clothes, makeup, purses, whatever. We got chased out of the mall by security once. We ran through the back hallways where the public isn't supposed to go and exited out some little side door. I never got caught. My partner did, later, after she moved to another state and got put in jail and charged with a felony. - Irony...I've been a cop for over 18 years now. But I can spot a shoplifter in a heartbeat LOL0 -
lemurcat12 wrote: »WestCoastJo82 wrote: »@HollandOats - I do tartar sauce on my fries, and that's basically just mayo with pickles and extra salt. And I use a 1:1 ratio of tartar to fry. Restaurants always look at me crazy but it's super delicious.
I much prefer tartar sauce on my fries! YUM!
I hate mayo, but I love aioli on my fries (also hate ketchup), and that's basically mayo+garlic. Garlic just makes everything better. I'll use tartar sauce sometimes when I have fish and chips, though (speaking of something I almost never have anymore and do miss).
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Italian_Buju wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »
That's horrible! But I can totally relate.Italian_Buju wrote: »Yeah, that is a nasty illness. Way earlier in the thread we were talking about serial killers and I said I knew a girl that was attacked by the local one we had. It was a savage attack and she was in the hospital for weeks and weeks, and neither of her parents visited her even once, because they were both just drunk all the time.....to make matters worse, her mother was a nasty drunk and when she was finally able to go home, her mother would get drunk and yell nasty stuff at her about hoping she caught AIDS from the rape and stuff. It was pretty tragic.....
Had something similar happen (to a much lesser degree!) when I was 16 and had to have emergency surgery... as in, saw the doctor at 4 PM and surgery booked for 11 PM that night... my parents brought me to the hospital, provided the insurance info, and left. They told the nurse to call and let them know how my surgery turned out. Their excuse was "We have to get up for work in the morning" but it was really all about not missing any drinking that evening.
I was sexually assaulted by an older male coworker when I was 17 and didn't tell my parents, for fear of hearing negative and unsupportive comments.
I can relate to that because my mother did that to me! I was about 13 and was vomiting all day and in a lot of pain. A friend had slept over the night before, and by morning when she was leaving I headed over to the ER. My mother checked me in, and then left. I spent hours and hours in an ER room, puking my brains out and passing out over and over. The surgeon said I needed my appendix out, but they could not find my parents to sign the surgery consent. This was the mid 80's so before cell phones etc. My friend that had slept over stopped in with her mom that evening because they had been calling the house and could not get anyone so they came to the ER to see if I was still there. I vaguely remember seeing them between passing out. My friend's mother lost her mind when she realized I was there alone and that they hospital could not find my parents. She actually went out and hunted them down on her own. They were out at a restaurant having dinner. My father had come home from work, and my mother did not even tell him I was at the hospital or anything. I remember the DR reaming her out, and her excuse was that she was diabetic and needed dinner. REALLY? Grab a sandwich, wtf. Not only that, but she was gone for hours and hours before that.
Because they had to wait so long, my appendix burst while they were taking it out, I ended up in hospital for three weeks with a nasty infection and my scar is HUGE! My mother was a complete asshat. That is one of the lesser things she did to me......
It is a wonder they did not call CPS and have you removed from their custody, that would for sure happen now.
Believe it or not, my mother not only had foster children from time to time, but they allowed her to adopt three other children! My sister and I are always amazed at this fact.....that would NEVER happen today....back then we never told many people what was happening in the house. I have had childhood friends and even extended family members that were in absolute shock and disbeleif when I finally told people what my childhood was like......
My houses (blood) and foster were like that and people would just ignore it. Broken bones, bruises, obvious signs of neglect e.g. dirty clothing. People can be quick to blame the kid or just pretend isn't going on at all. You hear a lot of, "No parent would ever do that!" and, "someone would do something if it were serious." I donate time with foster kids and it still happens now. I don't think that most people who do that are malicious, I think that they don't want to believe that other people are like that now.
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FluffySandwich wrote: »Today I had some delicious Ben & Jerry's ice cream after stopping in a bookstore. I didn't find the book I was looking for (Ancillary Sword), so I ended up going home and placing an online order for three books. Can't wait to check em out!
ALSO, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! All of my grades have come in, except for one I was never worried about, and I am officially graduating University!! Now I can hopefully get my butt in gear and focus more on this! So relieved.
Don't know how I missed this earlier -- CONGRATS!!0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »Today I had some delicious Ben & Jerry's ice cream after stopping in a bookstore. I didn't find the book I was looking for (Ancillary Sword), so I ended up going home and placing an online order for three books. Can't wait to check em out!
ALSO, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! All of my grades have come in, except for one I was never worried about, and I am officially graduating University!! Now I can hopefully get my butt in gear and focus more on this! So relieved.
Congratulations! You definitely earned that ice cream.
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FluffySandwich wrote: »Today I had some delicious Ben & Jerry's ice cream after stopping in a bookstore. I didn't find the book I was looking for (Ancillary Sword), so I ended up going home and placing an online order for three books. Can't wait to check em out!
ALSO, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! All of my grades have come in, except for one I was never worried about, and I am officially graduating University!! Now I can hopefully get my butt in gear and focus more on this! So relieved.
Woo! Well done! I hope you got the grades you wanted. 0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love my coffee (tea, too, but to a lesser extent) to be piping hot. The second it cools down, gets lukewarm, it almost disgusts me. I can't bring myself to finish it sometimes. At least the kcups I use. The thing is, I like iced coffee a lot.Confession: I will use the same k-cup 2-3 times. lol
Worst confession I've read here, ewwwwwww. I loathe weak coffee...I'm the one who likes the cup from the bottom of the french press that's practically strong enough to stand up on its own.
But that leads to a confession that I do put a splash of cold water in my super-strong coffee to cool it down for maximum immediate gulbability, and that grosses most people out too.
I am such a wuss with hot foods/drinks so sometimes if I want to drink my tea sooner I will add in an ice cube or two. Otherwise I have to wait like 15 minutes to be able to sip it.
I love hot food. But now it's sounding a lot less appetizing in the summery heat we've been getting.
My drinks either have to be piping hot or ice cold. I cannot stand in between luke warm blergh.
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aislingbury wrote: »arditarose wrote: »sigh...When I found that I couldn't eat peanut butter in moderation, and had to get it out of my apartment ASAP, I not only threw it away-I drowned the jar in water first so I wouldn't be tempted...
I can't believe I shared that.
I have exactly the same problem! How do people just have a tablespoon? I won't be buying anymore that's for sure!
I have a 'relationship' with peanut butter (that sounds so ridiculous, saying it like that! ) that has changed, over time... but I do still have it in the home, and keep it available, for a limited form of 'use'... (I also keep it on the topmost shelf, in the back (in a 'corner', really), so that it is highly inconvenient to access, and requires a stepstool in order for me to be able to reach it)...
The primary reason I keep it available is for quasi-emergency -type purposes, as a source of calorie-dense fare, so that if/when my blood sugar happens to get depleted to the point of my needing something *now*, while/after having engaged in extensive yardwork, and having burned 'too' many calories after not having pre-fueled enough (i.e. to the extent needed), or otherwise in the 'right' way (I usually don't know ahead of time if, when, or for how long, I'll be engaging in yardwork on any given day, due to its being highly weather-dependent, etc.)... and subsequently, if/when my body experiences a 'state' for which I need a quick dose of a high-caloric mix of fast-plus-slow -burning 'fuel' -- and which involves relatively minimal 'volume', so that it doesn't result in my feeling 'filled up', will clear the stomach relatively quickly, and would allow me to resume the activity in question (and without my stomach 'interfering' with such)... and peanut butter on some form of whole grain bread is my 'go to' in such a circumstance (especially given that most peanut butter has added sugar, and thus my body is also able to glean some fast-burning carbs from the 'mix' (along with some slower-burning protein and fat), and is one of the only times I welcome the bang-for-the-buck, high-caloric aspect of such a product)...
(...and thus, in that type of circumstance, I could perhaps think of peanut butter as being a form of 'medicine'! lol ) 0 -
My thighs are HUGE.0
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Thighs are 28 inches each leg.0
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AgentOrangeJuice wrote: »New job requires a drug test and physical before I can be scheduled to begin. I've been on hold for 2 hours to schedule this. I guess this is how they weed out people to see if they have the determination to work for them lol.
I see what you did there.
LOL totally unintentional, I'm clever even when I'm not trying to be.0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »Today I had some delicious Ben & Jerry's ice cream after stopping in a bookstore. I didn't find the book I was looking for (Ancillary Sword), so I ended up going home and placing an online order for three books. Can't wait to check em out!
ALSO, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! All of my grades have come in, except for one I was never worried about, and I am officially graduating University!! Now I can hopefully get my butt in gear and focus more on this! So relieved.
Congrats!!!FluffySandwich wrote: »
I love my coffee (tea, too, but to a lesser extent) to be piping hot. The second it cools down, gets lukewarm, it almost disgusts me. I can't bring myself to finish it sometimes. At least the kcups I use. The thing is, I like iced coffee a lot.Confession: I will use the same k-cup 2-3 times. lol
Worst confession I've read here, ewwwwwww. I loathe weak coffee...I'm the one who likes the cup from the bottom of the french press that's practically strong enough to stand up on its own.
But that leads to a confession that I do put a splash of cold water in my super-strong coffee to cool it down for maximum immediate gulbability, and that grosses most people out too.
I am such a wuss with hot foods/drinks so sometimes if I want to drink my tea sooner I will add in an ice cube or two. Otherwise I have to wait like 15 minutes to be able to sip it.
I love hot food. But now it's sounding a lot less appetizing in the summery heat we've been getting.
I have a very sensitive mouth. Just last week I had strips of skin falling off because I burned it yet again with a piece of pizza... I often just end up dropping an ice cube in my coffee when I order some somewhere, lol.
Stressful morning today and I just gave up on making the kids school lunches. Got my husband to do it. So sick of never knowing what to make for my daughter and I know she won't eat it anyway. Gosh.
And I have absolutely no idea what *I* want for lunch, so I guess I'm a bit of an hypocrite.
Holy crap, I hope your mouth is okay now.
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man Holy Churro de Mayo, yesterday. I ate like 8 of the damned things, probably 10 but I only remember 8.0
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quiksylver296 wrote: »This is the ad on the side of my MFP right now, and it is making me a little uncomfortable...
Only men can eat cucumbers?!
It's actually what they shouldn't eat. Sometimes the guy is holding bananas, but the cucumber freaks me out more.0 -
quiksylver296 wrote: »Tomorrow I will be in training all day. This makes me sad for 3 reasons.
1. I have no idea what we'll be served for lunch so I can't log it accurately.
2. I won't be able to be on here at all.
3. Since I do my HIIT at my office, I'll be missing tomorrow's workout.
I am, however, looking forward to being out of the office for the day and getting paid for it, also...FREE LUNCH!!!
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Thanks! It is pretty much my personality. I DON'T SHARE CAKE!
Except with me, cuz we're zombie killin' partners...
I feel the need for a real confession today. - I used to shoplift in high school. A LOT. I had a shoplifting partner and we would go together and keep an eye out for the other. I lifted everything, bikinis, movies (VHS, that's how old I am), clothes, makeup, purses, whatever. We got chased out of the mall by security once. We ran through the back hallways where the public isn't supposed to go and exited out some little side door. I never got caught. My partner did, later, after she moved to another state and got put in jail and charged with a felony. - Irony...I've been a cop for over 18 years now. But I can spot a shoplifter in a heartbeat LOL
When I was 16, my first job was at a Claire's Boutique-type place that just sold accessories. I don't think I can even put a number on how much merchandise walked out of that place with me. I actually kept a notebook and would write down everything I took. It was pages and pages of jewelry and purses and sunglasses, etc. Oh, and so many hair accessories. SO many.0 -
HollandOats wrote: »I hereby dedicate this burger to @HollandOats, with all it's mayo and bacon awesomeness. I only regret I'm out of avocado.
This is perfect
Today is my birthday and I have already planned my bacon cheeseburger with mayo for tonight. And I'm having guacamole on my chicken sandwich at lunch.
In fact, I confess, I'm going to spend this whole day watching the clock for when I can eat each thing I have planned, lol... I even love my protein powder/cashew milk... it's soooo good!
I'm already pre-logged over 700 calories for the day, and am in basic denial of the barley pops I'll most likely consume with dinner. Lots of pre-planned fidgeting, too, to help offset the damages, haha!
Have a great day!!!
Happy Birthday!!!0
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