Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • CountessKitteh
    CountessKitteh Posts: 1,505 Member
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    Confession: Between full-time work, full-time school, and all the in-law health stuff, I'm approaching rock bottom energy levels. I simply do not have anything left to pull from the tank.

    Which naturally only makes me feel totally guilty.

    Also, I have a huge (non-school) certification exam next Saturday and I am woefully underprepared because of everything else going on. Depending on how the next 8 days go, I will not be all that surprised if I fail it. So it goes.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,712 Member
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    TigerNY128 wrote: »
    I am also pale and never tan! I just had to chime in and encourage all of the other fair skinned people to get checked by a dermatologist! Especially if you've had bad sunburns! Four years ago, at 27 years old, I noticed a tiny black dot on my arm. I went to the dermatologist and it was melanoma. My doctor said it would have been fatal in 5 years. Luckily it was caught early, and although I'm left with an ugly scar, it could have been much worse. I'm 31 now and religiously put on sunscreen every day and see my dermatologist twice a year. I don't want to scare anyone, just want everyone to be safe and healthy!!

    Thank you and I agree with you. I confessed just prior to this to being a tanning addict. I DO go to a dermatologist once a year to get checked out. Sorry for your experience.
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
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    BZAH10 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Kalici wrote: »
    I'm very pale like a bunch of you have said you are. I used to try tanning, but it didn't take. I've never had a tan or a sunburn in my life. I finally stopped trying and embraced my day walker skin. I sometimes get embarrassed by it, but I figure if people don't like it screw them. Being able to blind people with the color of my skin is a super power! ;)

    My daughter shares your super power. In our house we call it rockin' the Casper. :)

    I'm also very pale & once had a co-worker comment on how white I was after coming back from Hawaii for the second time. The first time I went to Hawaii I had learned my lesson the hard way. Over there the heat is very dry & I thought well it's not as hot & humid like it is in Pennsylvania so I don't need to cake on the sunblock. Ugh! Huge mistake! I had huge welts all over my one arm from a horrendous sunburn. Luckily they didn't hurt, but it definitely taught me to be more vigilant while out in the sun.

    I'm pale but by choice- I can tan really easily but I'm super OCD about having sunblock on anytime I'm outside! I'm terrified of wrinkles and skin cancer :#

    You are very smart! (say the hypocrite tanning addict) I gave it up several years ago, but started again this past March. I love it! But I seriously need to stop.

    My best friend had melanoma when we were in our early twenties and I've been watching my mom deal with all the consequences of being a sun bathing beauty her whole life! So just trying to avoid all of that :)
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
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    BZAH10 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Kalici wrote: »
    I'm very pale like a bunch of you have said you are. I used to try tanning, but it didn't take. I've never had a tan or a sunburn in my life. I finally stopped trying and embraced my day walker skin. I sometimes get embarrassed by it, but I figure if people don't like it screw them. Being able to blind people with the color of my skin is a super power! ;)

    My daughter shares your super power. In our house we call it rockin' the Casper. :)

    I'm also very pale & once had a co-worker comment on how white I was after coming back from Hawaii for the second time. The first time I went to Hawaii I had learned my lesson the hard way. Over there the heat is very dry & I thought well it's not as hot & humid like it is in Pennsylvania so I don't need to cake on the sunblock. Ugh! Huge mistake! I had huge welts all over my one arm from a horrendous sunburn. Luckily they didn't hurt, but it definitely taught me to be more vigilant while out in the sun.

    I'm pale but by choice- I can tan really easily but I'm super OCD about having sunblock on anytime I'm outside! I'm terrified of wrinkles and skin cancer :#

    You are very smart! (say the hypocrite tanning addict) I gave it up several years ago, but started again this past March. I love it! But I seriously need to stop.

    My best friend had melanoma when we were in our early twenties and I've been watching my mom deal with all the consequences of being a sun bathing beauty her whole life! So just trying to avoid all of that :)
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
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    Okay so I know this is silly but I have no idea what NSV means
  • ikkin32dvs
    ikkin32dvs Posts: 16 Member
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    My husband was hospitalized and I ate Wendy's even though I really wasn't hungry because I am stressed out.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,442 Member
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    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Okay so I know this is silly but I have no idea what NSV means

    Non-scale victory
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,712 Member
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    nonoelmo wrote: »
    Six or so weeks ago I mentioned my daughter and a potential ED. The follow up (first follow up) and nutritionist meeting were yesterday. She's gained a few lbs and that is what the doctor wanted. The nutritionist gave her some good information and what I like is that the nutritionist told her not to count calories or even think about it but to eat in a way (I don't remember the diagram but about 50% non starchy veggies, 25% fat/protein and 25% unprocessed grains/starchy veggies and this 25% is by the portion of food on the plate.) My daughter tried it for a meal yesterday and said it seemed to work, she didn't over eat and was satisfied. We also both have food intolerances. It appears my daughter is getting some cross contamination of wheat/gluten at her dad's house. She needs to be very careful in reading labels and such. She also *may* have a legitimate allergy to another food and may need to carry an epi pen. The blood work is at the lab. Nutritionist is also wanting daughter to keep a journal of what foods are eaten and results (mood/bloat/energy/etc) without any judgement, just curiosity.

    While she was going through this process of relearning to listen to her body (still in process) and be ok with putting on a pound or two of weight I didn't log. I just tried listening to my body etc. I did have a few big food days (holiday) but I'm holding steady on the weight I've lost. As I am within 4 - 5 pounds of my goal and as I am at a healthy weight I am happy with even a very slow downward trend - a pound every month or two is fine. Daughter is traveling for a little while so I'm logging again and may be more careful to maintain a deficit.

    Edited to take out a few details.

    Thanks for the update and I'm glad to hear you both are making positive progress. Keep us informed!
  • LH85DC
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    ikkin32dvs wrote: »
    My husband was hospitalized and I ate Wendy's even though I really wasn't hungry because I am stressed out.

    Oh, I hope that your husband is ok! Sending prayers your way. Be kind to yourself, stressful situations like this are hard enough without beating yourself up about something little like a meal at Wendy's!
  • TigerNY128
    TigerNY128 Posts: 763 Member
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    kecmw25 wrote: »
    TigerNY128 wrote: »
    I am also pale and never tan! I just had to chime in and encourage all of the other fair skinned people to get checked by a dermatologist! Especially if you've had bad sunburns! Four years ago, at 27 years old, I noticed a tiny black dot on my arm. I went to the dermatologist and it was melanoma. My doctor said it would have been fatal in 5 years. Luckily it was caught early, and although I'm left with an ugly scar, it could have been much worse. I'm 31 now and religiously put on sunscreen every day and see my dermatologist twice a year. I don't want to scare anyone, just want everyone to be safe and healthy!!

    Fair skinned here. I actually just found a new mole and was thinking about calling the doctor to get it checked out. Your advice just made up my mind, I'm calling today.


    Great, that makes me happy!! Good for you!
  • tulips_and_tea
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    jorinya wrote: »
    I can't wait to go home for the holidays and rub it in peoples face that I am not thinner than them. All the horrible comments they made about my weight will be thrown back at them without me having to say a word. Those that thought themselves thinner than me are now over twice my weight? Oh how the tables have turned!!

    Nice! Enjoy the satisfaction - you deserve it!
  • tulips_and_tea
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    81Katz wrote: »
    Confession: I"m thinking of taking a break from logging and just being active and mindful of my eating. I'm just tired of always thinking about food and worrying about food. I'm just tired of agonizing over every little stupid calorie.

    I hope it works. I've actually starting to lose steam for MFP. I only come to this thread and the Ice Cream/Gelato group page. I was active on the other forums and reading the blog, now I just don't even want to bother.

    I've thought about doing that too. I lost 50lbs on my own before I ever found MFP. I know weighing and logging food is a helpful tool and it works (when you stick to it) but I find myself getting more and more obsessed with it again. Going over my calories leaves me feeling like a failure, which sometimes leads to binging because of the "I blew it" mentality. So then I feel bad that I ate, so I eat some more because I feel bad or like a failure, then again I eat some more and feel bad about that, repeat cycle. I want to lose weight and be happy and healthy, not see my life as being in the RED or the GREEN and hopefully get to a place where some number on a stupid scale doesn't matter. I feel like I need to fix the emotional me and hopefully the physical me will fall into place too.


    For me, this is what finally worked. Not easy, but definitely worth it. I also don't weigh my food or log it here because I'm pretty sure I'd get too caught up in the numbers. I eat intuitively and it works for me. You can do it!
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
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    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Okay so I know this is silly but I have no idea what NSV means

    Non-scale victory

    Ahhh thank you! Would never have guessed that one haha
  • tulips_and_tea
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    kelly_c_77 wrote: »
    Feeling like crap today. I had a bad night of emotional eating..estimated 2000 calories over my goal ( I tend to not measure/weigh foods when I binge). I've done way worse..some days up to 5000 over! Anyway, I woke up today with an extra 3 pounds of water weight. Still did my workout though..running 8 miles with that bloated feeling is NOT FUN, but I did it. I knew I had a binge coming on at some point because tomorrow marks the one year anniversary of my mom's death. Since that day last year, I have become a completely different person..I can't accept it, can't move on, can't find peace. I've become angry over little things and find comfort in eating. I gained 12 pounds because of it...would have been much worse if I didn't work out every day to counteract all the emotional eating/binges. I've been pretty good over the past two months..losing six of those extra pounds. I just need to get through today and tomorrow and really focus on finding a different way to deal with my emotions. I already feel like I'm going to give in again today though. :( Ugh! Sorry to be a downer.

    No need to apologize - that is what this thread is for! I'm very sorry for your loss. Grief is a long, difficult process. Any option of seeing a grief counselor or specialist? I'm sure it has been an incredibly long year, but in the big picture, a year is much TOO short of a time to expect to "get over it". You never get over it. You just learn to live with the pain.

    Feel free to vent more here instead of eating - we're all here to listen.
  • TigerNY128
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    ythannah wrote: »
    TigerNY128 wrote: »
    I am also pale and never tan! I just had to chime in and encourage all of the other fair skinned people to get checked by a dermatologist! Especially if you've had bad sunburns! Four years ago, at 27 years old, I noticed a tiny black dot on my arm. I went to the dermatologist and it was melanoma. My doctor said it would have been fatal in 5 years. Luckily it was caught early, and although I'm left with an ugly scar, it could have been much worse. I'm 31 now and religiously put on sunscreen every day and see my dermatologist twice a year. I don't want to scare anyone, just want everyone to be safe and healthy!!

    That's certainly excellent advice, particularly considering the benchmarks I've always read for "suspicious" skin growths say "larger than a pencil eraser" and yours doesn't sound like it was.

    I've been OCD about wearing sunscreen on my face 365 days a year for a few decades, and spf 50 or 60 on all exposed skin in the summer (okay, it's not like I have any exposed skin here in winter, lol) for about the past 10 years. I get really excited when I find the super high numbers like spf 80 or 100 in stores.

    I do hate the way sunscreen looks on my skin, though. It seems like the only options are shiny/greasy or dry/chalky. I'm wearing a black linen crop jacket today that has white sunscreen rub-off smears on it already. I used to love one of the Banana Boat formulas for kids that promised "sand won't stick", it was great for gardening... of course they discontinued it. :/
    ythannah wrote: »
    TigerNY128 wrote: »
    I am also pale and never tan! I just had to chime in and encourage all of the other fair skinned people to get checked by a dermatologist! Especially if you've had bad sunburns! Four years ago, at 27 years old, I noticed a tiny black dot on my arm. I went to the dermatologist and it was melanoma. My doctor said it would have been fatal in 5 years. Luckily it was caught early, and although I'm left with an ugly scar, it could have been much worse. I'm 31 now and religiously put on sunscreen every day and see my dermatologist twice a year. I don't want to scare anyone, just want everyone to be safe and healthy!!

    That's certainly excellent advice, particularly considering the benchmarks I've always read for "suspicious" skin growths say "larger than a pencil eraser" and yours doesn't sound like it was.

    I've been OCD about wearing sunscreen on my face 365 days a year for a few decades, and spf 50 or 60 on all exposed skin in the summer (okay, it's not like I have any exposed skin here in winter, lol) for about the past 10 years. I get really excited when I find the super high numbers like spf 80 or 100 in stores.

    I do hate the way sunscreen looks on my skin, though. It seems like the only options are shiny/greasy or dry/chalky. I'm wearing a black linen crop jacket today that has white sunscreen rub-off smears on it already. I used to love one of the Banana Boat formulas for kids that promised "sand won't stick", it was great for gardening... of course they discontinued it. :/


    Yep, my melanoma looked like a dot you make with a Sharpie marker. It wasn't raised and was very tiny. I'm honestly surprised I noticed it.

    My favorite sunscreen is Neutrogena Sheer. It doesn't feel greasy...the spray and the lotion are great.
  • kellienw335
    kellienw335 Posts: 1,745 Member
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    nonoelmo wrote: »
    Six or so weeks ago I mentioned my daughter and a potential ED. The follow up (first follow up) and nutritionist meeting were yesterday. She's gained a few lbs and that is what the doctor wanted. The nutritionist gave her some good information and what I like is that the nutritionist told her not to count calories or even think about it but to eat in a way (I don't remember the diagram but about 50% non starchy veggies, 25% fat/protein and 25% unprocessed grains/starchy veggies and this 25% is by the portion of food on the plate.) My daughter tried it for a meal yesterday and said it seemed to work, she didn't over eat and was satisfied. We also both have food intolerances. It appears my daughter is getting some cross contamination of wheat/gluten at her dad's house. She needs to be very careful in reading labels and such. She also *may* have a legitimate allergy to another food and may need to carry an epi pen. The blood work is at the lab. Nutritionist is also wanting daughter to keep a journal of what foods are eaten and results (mood/bloat/energy/etc) without any judgement, just curiosity.

    While she was going through this process of relearning to listen to her body (still in process) and be ok with putting on a pound or two of weight I didn't log. I just tried listening to my body etc. I did have a few big food days (holiday) but I'm holding steady on the weight I've lost. As I am within 4 - 5 pounds of my goal and as I am at a healthy weight I am happy with even a very slow downward trend - a pound every month or two is fine. Daughter is traveling for a little while so I'm logging again and may be more careful to maintain a deficit.

    Edited to take out a few details.

    Glad your daughter is doing well and that she is getting helpful information!
  • TigerNY128
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    BZAH10 wrote: »
    TigerNY128 wrote: »
    I am also pale and never tan! I just had to chime in and encourage all of the other fair skinned people to get checked by a dermatologist! Especially if you've had bad sunburns! Four years ago, at 27 years old, I noticed a tiny black dot on my arm. I went to the dermatologist and it was melanoma. My doctor said it would have been fatal in 5 years. Luckily it was caught early, and although I'm left with an ugly scar, it could have been much worse. I'm 31 now and religiously put on sunscreen every day and see my dermatologist twice a year. I don't want to scare anyone, just want everyone to be safe and healthy!!

    Thank you and I agree with you. I confessed just prior to this to being a tanning addict. I DO go to a dermatologist once a year to get checked out. Sorry for your experience.

    Good for you for getting checked out! Honestly, I love to sit in the sun, I just put on tons of sunscreen now. I also DON'T tan at all...never have been able to, I just burn and then go back to being white. People with fair skin are definitely more prone to get skin cancer. I confess I'm jealous of you and others who can sit outside and not get burned! My boyfriend is Italian and has never worn sunscreen a day in his life! Ugh.
  • tulips_and_tea
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    ythannah wrote: »
    Food-related confession: I'm completely fed up with long pasta like spaghetti and linguine. Manual dexterity isn't my strong suit and I get so bored with twirling it into a manageable forkful, which seems to take me an extraordinary length of time, and I end up losing most of the sauce in the process so all I taste is the noodle. And there is usually some trailing end that I can't manage to train onto the fork that thwaps me in the chin anyway. I gave up ordering these types of noodles in restaurants long ago since I can't manage to eat them gracefully.

    We had some leftover meat sauce and the SO made it with linguine last night (which obviously prompted this confession!). After the first couple of mouthfuls, I decided "screw it" and started hacking it up into smaller pieces with my knife. What the hell, I was in the privacy of my own home, who cares if I commit Pasta Sacrilege?

    Hahaha! The pasta struggles are real! Too funny. You sound like my husband. He hates spaghetti and linguini because he can't eat it at his usual pace. I'm half Italian and grew up eating spaghetti every Sunday with the whole Italian side of the family. Didn't matter how old you were, eating pasta "properly" by swirling it on a fork was the ONLY acceptable way. I'm pretty good at it simply because of that.
  • pwojo82
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    I'm really curious, what is the purpose of the trash bag?

    I sweat like a dog. (lol not literally) I wore them my first time around when I was losing weight.

    Water weight with a risk of heat stroke. I'm not trying to be judgmental, but this is a bad idea.

    My protein levels suck almost every day.

    Augh you're right though! I'm going to go take it off right now. Screw it it's not worth it!

  • tulips_and_tea
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    xMrBunglex wrote: »
    Wow, 100 new posts! You guys be crazy...

    Today's confession: It REALLY p*sses me off that you can't outwork a bad diet.

    The last month, I've been logging everything as usual, breakfast, lunches & snacks have been on point, but after analyzing the data, noticed my avg cals per day have been quite a bit higher. Exercise burn has been at its usual levels, avg about 550 cals a day. I usually net about 11-1200 cals per day after exercise, but this last month it's been more like 1700. And not good calories either, a lot of crap at home after work. Chips, cake, cookies. Bad habit creeping back in, getting complacent, I've figured this out for years, blah blah blah.

    End result? a 5 lb gain for May.

    The fire has been lit.

    Thanks for the compliment! :)

    I thought you could outwork a bad diet if you were male. All the males in my family do it. They workout simply so that they can continue to eat their fast food, drink pop/soda, and satisfy their steak and bacon obsession. Sorry it's not that way for you, but you will be better off in the long run!