Need to Lose 100 LBS -Robins Thread !

Thurs truth for me: I've been avoiding going to the gym this entire week cuz it's b-o-r-i-n-g! I walk my dog 3 miles every day instead - the weather has been lovely and it's prey where I walk. But I also know I ought to be doing weights and all that crap, and I need too just suck it up and go. But I don't wanna...

@Niki, I'm not diabetic but I know what you mean about forgetting stuff. I used to pride myself on having a terrific memory. Now, if I don't write it down it won't happen. I have sticky notes everywhere, and I use the now pad on my phone to help me remember... pretty much everything.

@Rebecky, I too have a bad foot and as a result I gained a ton is weight. The heavier I got the more the foot hurt. But I also have a dear friend who has a whole host of physical ailments, and hurts throughout her entire body, every single moment of every day. And she's out walking, eating well and losing weight, getting healthier. She inspired me, and I thought "all I've got is a hurting foot." So, since my friend basically ignores all her "ouchies," as she calls it, I decided to simply ignore my screaming foot as well. After several months the foot stopped hurting so much and now I barely notice it. Not knowing what happened to your foot, I hope for you that you have a similar experience (But be careful not to injure it further!)

@FlabtoFab, on a bad day I'd have eaten the ENTIRE pie. Seems that you didn't do that, so congrats. And lesson learned: next time, go to bed. Lol

@MermaidPrincess, worthless??? Absolutely NOT! I'm new to this thread and don't know you yet, but am looking fwd to getting to know you. You are worth the effort!

Best wishes to all of you, Birgit

@pneschich --You've clearly made a decision to eat healthier and have no intention of going back to your former habits, but getting the surgery will force you not to, or at least make it a lot more difficult. It probably feels like once you get the surgery you will lose some measure of control, but making the decision is within your control, so maybe look at it that way? I get what you mean about the "forever" part though. When I quit smoking, the only way I resisted lighting up was by telling myself I could smoke any time I wanted, I just don't want to "right now." That helped me kick the habit and get past the nicotine withdrawal, and 3 years later, it still works. I occasionally have a cigarette when out with friends who smoke, but I haven't gone back to the everyday habit or the addiction. If someone invented a surgery that would ensure I could never smoke again, I honestly don't know if I would want to take that permanent of a step even though I know how terrible it is for me and sometimes fear going back to smoking all the time. It would be hard for me to give up the freedom to choose.

@birgit-- At least you have a happy dog! What kind of weight work do you do? I love lifting, but hate the amount of time it takes. It's so much faster to just run a few miles or do some other cardio to burn a bunch of calories. However, I know the strength training will keep my metabolism burning beyond the time I spend at the gym, so it's worth it.

@kathleen-- yes, whenever I tell people we are moving to the Caribbean they say, "Won't you miss all of your family and friends?" My response is always, "Will you come visit me?" The answer is always, "Yes!" so I don't fear missing people. I imagine we will have house guests most weekends.

@rach-- You have been such a great addition to our little family here in the thread. It makes me sad that you think you don't matter b/c you absolutely matter to me.

Welcome to the newlings, and hello to anyone I missed on this round of personals.

Thursday Truth:
I've been eating closer to maintenance the past week--still in a deficit, but not always -500. The result is that today I weighed in at 194.4. This is the first time I've seen a reading below 195 since Spring. It's looking like eating closer to maintenance is my path to success, even if it is in the slow lane.

I made a little more progress on my grading goals, and tomorrow is an institute day, so it's almost like having a 3-day weekend.

Grading Goals:
1. 8/40 AP essays
3. 40/82 F451 tests

Fitness Goals for the month of September:
Run 1 mile at my fastest pace 1x/week: Week 1 = 11:34; Week 2 = 11:10; Week 3 = 11:30; Week 3 = 11:00
Run 2 miles in 23 minutes 1x/week: Week 1 = 24:12; Week 2 = 24:08; Week 3 = 24:00; Week 3 = 23:00
Run a 5 k in <36 minutes by month's end:

You vs Year Challenge:
275 k done/ 725 k to go

Exercise Goals:
Sun-- walk gunner DONE + gym DONE
Mon-- rest day
Tues-- walk gunner DONE (meeting)
Wed-- walk gunner NOT DONE + gym DONE or run outside
Thurs-- walk gunner DONE
Fri-- walk gunner + gym or run outside or maybe mow lawn
Sat-- walk gunner + gym or run outside or maybe mow lawn

Hello, my name is Isabel Lara. I'm from sunny southern California.✌
I saw this thread and just wanted to join. I've lost and gained weight constantly since I was young and I want to do this. I need to lose about 70 lbs right now and even ten seems like a huge goal that I find myself defeated on right away.

Let me just explain. When I was younger I was molested by a family member and still haven't told anyone. Ever since then, I have used food as my way to fill a void in me, a void that seems endlessly empty. It's gotten to a point where I eat without intention and often forget that I ate that much.
Right now, I feel completely lost on my journey to healthiness. I eat out every day, don't drink enough water, eat junk every day, never exercise, and then cry because I gained weight. I see this happening and don't stop. I need to stop now, before I gain more and more weight and it gets harder. That is why I'm really glad I saw this thread.
I've tried the Fit Girl's Guide and a bunch of different diets and I just want something healthy and sustainable that I can do for the rest of my life.
Either way, thank you guys for starting this thread. Reading through it, I thought this might be a good thing for me.
❤✌

@pneschich ... so, it sounds like you have made a decision. Now that you have, don't second-guess yourself. Good luck and good health.

Just want you to know ... everything you said about yourself and your family could have been me talking about myself and mine. I too made a decision, and I'm glad I'm seeing positive results for myself, slowly and gradually. I'm like the tortoise, slow and steady.

Welcome @chavelitalara

I really hurt "down there" so last night I had 2 brownies and 2 cups of skim for dinner then went straight to bed. I am rewarded this morning with a lower than normal weight. In fact, this week's average is 2.6lbs less than last week's average.
And, as happy as I am about weighing less, it only reinforces the notion that I have to be miserable to be skinny. Is it worth it?
People who have lost a lot say it is deffinately worth it. I should be miserable and hurt physically and emotionally so that I can fit "regular" size clothing and be active? My period will come back. My hair will fall out. I will have bags of skin from stretching it out so much for so long. Is it worth it? I will have to be careful what and how much I eat for fear of regaining and undoing all the hard work I did. I will be obcessed with numbers: on the scale, reps at the gym, running times, cholesterole, etc. And I will live a long life ... long enough to lose everyone I love. Is it worth it?

On the flip side, I eat a lot. I dont like how I look. I have high cholesterole which puts me at risk for heart disease/heart attack. I avoid doctors because they all just tell me the same thing, "you're morbidly obese". Why should I pay someone to tell me what I already know? I have depression which I think is somewhat affected by my excess weight. I am an emotional eater ( but who isnt?) I eat mostly when I am happy or bored/lonely. I fear my bad eating habits have negatively influnenced my DH and may ultimately kill him (He is already on bp meds). I get this fear from watching his morbidly obese mother start a romantic relationship with a younger man, fatten him up by feeding him too much all the time (food is love) and he had a heart attack within two years of dating her.
However, the chances of this are slim as I/we have been married 13yrs, he is 5yrs older than me, and we are still both living. We are both fatter and still in love. Plus, my DMIL's boyfriend was a heavy drinker and smoker before they started dating. Who knows how much this contributed to his death. Neither DH nor I smoke or drink. We just eat too much.
Is it worth it to change my eating and lifestyle to lose weight? It could ruin my marriage. It will cost me my happiness. And it will prolong my time on this messed up planet. Is it worth it?
But the fact that I am still asking the question ... And I am using mfp ... Must mean there is so much more to the equation than I have time to type (on my phone, no less) right now.
Gotta go 2 work peeps.
Stay strong.
Rach

Thank you all for your support. I made the decision in April when I started that I would enter the program. The program offers medically supervised weight loss, medication if necessary, it wasn't, and surgery if you want or not don't. The program assumes that at 6 months you will have lost the required weight, 10%, and passed the screening. Medical and psychological. I have. It is time to decide. Prayer and family now. I am leaning towards surgery out of fear of failure and what that will mean. I buried my mother at 19 and father at 25. I have a 17 year old. I know what my parents missed and how much I needed them. I need to do everything possible to be there for my boys, for my wife.

Friday - Fitness (what are you doing to get fit? How are you preparing for weekend eating?
What I'm doing is trying to eat 'clean' ... in my definition of what that is ...
1 ... home prepared foods vs. restaurant fast food, dining restaurant food, or prepared foods at the grocer.
2 ... keeping the food stores stocked with the basics of what I need to prepare those foods and also have a variety of snack, eat-out-of-hand items that are full of nutrition and fiber vs. sugar and flour.
3 ... only eat when I am hungry, and only eat until I am just comfortably full where I feel like I could have a bit more, but won't.
4 ... Wait, if possible, a full 12 hours before my last food yesterday and my first food today. I feel the best when I can wait up to 16 hours between those 2 feeds.
5 ... Yes ... I have changed my definition and purpose for eating. It is no longer to give me comfort or pleasure but to fuel my body with the best nutrition I can provide it. And yes, that does include eating something sweet or sour or bitter, or savory or not, or fatty or lean ... but not all at one time or at every meal or even at every day.
6 ... Move more ... in any way I can manage, but especially in the way that gets me hot and sweaty and reaching for a tall glass of cold water afterward.
7 ... practice patience and meditation ... just to help me keep myself sane and on an even keel cause it's wen I'm not serene within is the perfect time throwing in the towel through the pizziness of constant attention this still requires.

What am I doing to prepare for the weekend eating?
Well ... I picked up 10 pounds of fresh local Cortland apples and will be making applesauce with some, and I will be using my dehydrater to dry some more for winter snacking (along with my store of nuts and seeds and other dried fruits)
I also have a center cut pork loin in the fridge that's going to be cut into skinny chops and some of them will be pounded thin and used as rollups for a savory stuffing that will be browned in a skillet and then finished in a casserole. Some more of that meat will make some of my favorite Chinese-style Hot and Sour Soup. And the rest will be packed and put in the freezer for more meals in October or November.

But today, well today I let myself eat pizza and chicken wings instead of an apple on way to the orchard to get the apples. Its the first time in about 6 months that I've had those food items. I think it will be at least 6 months more before I'll be tempted again.
See you all on check-ibn Monday
Niki

Okay - #6 and #7 are not food but lifestyle related. And my little itty bitty keyboard makes my well developed finger tips misspell all the time!

@pneschich ... I am just shy of 4 weeks from the gastric sleeve surgery. It was a hard decision and there certainly isn't the right answer. For me I had thought about weight loss surgery for years but the turning point was watching my Mom struggle with her health issues that can all be traced back to being overweight most of her life. It's certainly not an easy fix, but a tool. Right now I don't feel like eating anything and I have to remind myself to meet my goals. It is up to me to change my habits during this first year when I kind of get a "free pass". Have you gone online and found any support groups? I ask because I am on a Facebook support group for gastric sleeve and there are lots of good helpful ideas, recipes, questions answered, etc. Maybe something you read will help you decide one way or another.

@MermaidPrincessRach .. have you ever seen this woman, Coach Tulin on YouTube or FaceBook?

Completed the 10K. Our time was right at the 20 min mile mark. Not a personal best, but nothing to be ashamed of. The 'depot hill' was a killer this time. It is at about mile 4 of the race and quite long and steep. I really lost time on that. Glad it's done, but looking forward to next year. The weather was perfect.
@campfirequeen No running for me. Good for you.
Onward and downward. Kaye