Serial Starters

Good morning all. I totally missed getting here yesterday. Jeez. Busy.

More tree arrangements to make today, plus clear up the yard. Tree is scheduled to come down next Tuesday and Wednesday, the 10th and 11th!

Food-wise, I need to figure out how to get out of cycle of two good days and then over-eating on the third day. Over and over again. It seems my gut knows and does not like having a calorie deficit, so on the third day it gets "needy" and hungrier than usual. Then it tells my brain to tell me to eat more. Curses. Yes, I will be trying to figure this out, change up foods, etc. Living alone doesn't help - no one to help me stay strong when I make Bready Choices.

Everyone have a good day!

Lana

243.8 today
250.0 highest
185.0 goal

Sara - Have a good day off. I hope that pedicure is comfortable. What polish color choice today?

Good morning.

Yesterday sure was...A Day. Had delayed onset stress sickness even though emotionally I felt better...otherwise, mentally, I was gone. I ate way more than I planned to...because I kept losing track of what day it was. I kept thinking "I haven't eaten much today. I should go grab something." - even after I'd already eaten a ton...because I kept thinking that everything I'd eaten earlier, I actually ate the day before. It was kind of a shock when I actually stopped to look at my log.

But I made up for it by losing track of time at the gym just as badly. Decided to go take one of the classes I can get for free with my membership and the next thing I knew I'd spent nearly 3 hours there, with nearly no breaks in the action.

Today I have a math test and I am exhausted so I'm a bit nervous about it. Wish me luck.

Waves!

Sorry I've been kinda absent... been a bit down on myself... doing this new business is really making me even more insecure...I'm so close to my goal for a successful party, I'm just not pushy enough...I'm understanding when people have no money this week/ month... that's me, every single month... I'm not going to let it stress me... it's no different than what I expected...planning to visit Sis, soon... even though she's ordered, she wants to try new scent, maybe some friends of hers would like to try something fun...

On a good note...I was surprised when I opened paycheck and saw I had got a raise! Woo hoo! I wasn't expecting it till next month... so, that was a nice surprise... it will help a bit... still don't get 40hrs... but, we are only open till noon on Saturdays... so, no one gets 40... but, I will take the raise and be happy with it...I must be doing something right...

I better get back to work...
Sara - hope pedi goes / went well...
Lana - I have a terrible time with food choices... good luck with tree...
Mango - good luck with test... way to go with workout...
Waves to everyone else that stops by...
Have a great day...

Sara- thank you so much! It definitely made for a better day!

Annie - good to see you!

Good morning all~~

Sara - Sorry you had to banish some shoes.

I don't know how to fix my occasional "Bready-Neediness". It's a carb/sugar craving. I have pared down the house to not have very much junk in it, but I still have some pretty decent bread around--Trader Joe's multi-grain or Bread Alone's multi-grain, kept in the freezer, so not out on the counter. But if I get into one of those moods, I'll make toast and put butter and jam on it with a big glass of milk. Or make a PB & J using liberal portions.

1/3 of the time I can wrangle my brain for going for an apple and some cheddar cheese instead. But sometimes, what I'm really fighting is a desire for sugar cookies or cake or real baked goods. Thank goodness I don't have a car here. I can't do impulse shopping, which is good.

Waving to Dawn - congrats on raise.

Annie - so glad you stopped by. I do hope something good comes of doctors appointment. Sara had a very good idea about orthotics for your shoes. Feet are our foundation, and we don't think of how they can affect our hips and back!

......continued.....

*waves to all*

have been a bit preoccupied with family stuff.

emotional/stress eating has taken over. scale up 6.5 pounds. every day calories in the red, no matter how hard i try. i am more or less falling off the wagon until everything here settles down. then i will start again, as always.

memorial service for grandmother & poppy was nice & quiet. there were a slot machine, poker cards, and lottery scratch-offs displayed with their ashes at the graveside. my grandparents loved going to the casino and playing nickel slots. (my father refers to the casinos as "senior daycare") grandmother taught all the grandkids & great grandkids their numbers by playing poker. many wonderful stories about them were shared. my aunts said grandmother's last words were "love you more than tongue can tell." they were such wonderful loving people. they will be dearly missed.

hospice did another evaluation of my brother. said another week, maybe. my middle sister and her family went to visit. she said he didn't recognize any of them and those two have always been especially close. my eldest sister flies in tomorrow. she is somewhat of a drama queen and i am dreading taking her to see him, even more so than i dread having to put her up in our house for a couple of weeks.

i know it is better for him not to suffer. we all thought we would have more time to adjust to the thought of him being gone. now it seems like time is just flying by. we have all arrangements made so when he passes, everything will already be taken care of. memorial services & funeral on the saturday following his passing. there is something peaceful knowing that is all done. he was so worried about that when he decided to quit treatment.

my work has been very good in letting me take time off here and there as needed. my workload seems to be getting heavier however.

i have handed the baby shower responsibility over to my friend's step-mother and sisters. hopefully they will come through for her and not drop the ball. lets just say they are not known for their reliability.

Lana - try sprouted grain bread, its better on carbs, and pureed berries or peaches to spread on the toast. i also used to eat a bread called 35 calorie bread. cant recall the brand, but that was the name on the package. might help keep calories under control while still satiating cravings.
has the tree been dealt with yet?

Dawn - congrats on the raise! see - you are doing great! and you were so worried before you started!
have fun visit with your sis.

Sara - what color did you get for pedi? new color for hair or just touch up this time? how are the new shoes working out?

Mango - hope you came through the test ok and are able to channel that stress and energy into something productive. i can truly understand about stress eating though.

Annie - hope they are able to get you some relief for your back/hip

I definitely need to be on this page as I am starting over again. I need help with motivation, especially now with fall being here (although you can't tell in San Francisco with it being 75 degrees). Glad to know I am not the only one!

Kathryn - Wow it's huge for you now. Hang in there and try a bit to not let go of everything food-wise during this really hard time. Also try to not kill your drama queen sister!
*sending Cabana Boys with 2 canisters of Patience Spray and as many good vibes as they can carry*
Hugs!

Lana