JUST FOR TODAY ....... One day at a time ..... Daily Commitment Thread for 2018

So I had a pretty bad day yesterday. It was a bit chaotic and I just got overwhelmed and frustrated and frustration is such a trigger for me.

My younger sister (not the one who’s been sick) arranged to come down to visit for my birthday and see my kids. Because my girls each have parties on different days this weekend I had suggested that she and my parents pop over to me on the Saturday to see one daughter and I would bring the other for lunch to their place today (Sunday). I had imagined, given that I had lots on yesterday, that it would be them coming over for a coffee or something. But my parents announced they were coming for lunch and bringing food etc and i only had to sort out side dishes. When I got back from taking on child to a party they were here. Had let themselves in and started cooking!

I just got so annoyed because it didn’t feel like I had any choice or control over my own house and my own family birthday celebration! I know that it all comes from a good place and they show their love with big family meals but it makes me feel like a child in my own home. And I didn’t want to have a weekend with two days of heavy eating and it’s hard to avoid now. Will do my best today at their house.

I realise I sound really ungrateful and I’m sure if I were in a slightly more comfortable place with weight maintenance this wouldn’t bother me as much. So I’m trying to let go of it all this morning and make sure I’m not grumpy at their place today....

Saturday goals recap
- morning workout ✅
- girls hair wash, write birthday cards, pack for sleepover ✅
- laundry ✅
- groceries (sides for lunch)and homework ✅
- take daughter to party ✅
- lunch with rest of the fam at home ✅
- to school for winter fair choir performance by 4. Take Santa hats etc ✅
- renew parking permit ❎
- early night ❎

Sunday goals
- morning workout? Woken with nasty heartburn so will see...
- L to be picked up at 9:30
- Collect P from sleepover
- Head to parents place. Make good choices at lunch
- Homework for p?
- Renew parking permit
- Stocking filler shopping?
- Early night!!

Beautiful art works all of you!

JFT Sunday
I completely failed on all my goals yesterday so need to try to get back on track today. I did get up early to work out so that is a start.
1. Log all food
2. Drink 150 oz water
3. Finish getting Christmas decorations up
4. Eat healthy dinner
5. Eat one healthy evening snack
6. Don’t let stress control me
7. Meditate if feeling overwhelmed
8. Work on Christmas cards

JFT - Saturday December 8
2L of water -🙂🙂😕 2.25
Calories in Green - 😕
Only 1 Evening Snack - 🙂 yes but it was about 2 serving sizes lol
5 something at bathroom break - I ran to the bathroom and back at the show
5 fruit/veggie - 1/5
Walk 1 mile - I am saying yes, I stood for almost the whole show yesterday, AND they played good music so danced a bit too!!!!
Be Conscious of my choices! Do not disappoint myself! - 🙂

JFT - Sunday December 9
2L of water
Calories in Green
Only 1 Evening Snack
5 something at bathroom break
5 fruit/veggie
Walk 1 mile
Write in Journal
Be Conscious of my choices! Do not disappoint myself!

Today is the 6th anniversary of my Dad’s passing and tomorrow is the 1st Anniversary of my Mom going into a nursing home. I am determined to have a good day and think happy thoughts. Tonight my eldest and I are going to see the holiday train here in my town without the kids. Tomorrow night we are going to go to it in the city with my other daughter and the grands in tow. I thibk this will be perfect. My eldest is named in honour of my Dad so they had a close bond.
I have to do an ornament before I go to the shoe today, so I should get at it.

@farbert don’t let yesterday’s frustration spoil today. This will be the last of the celebrations for your birthday I imagine so you’ll be on track tomorrow!

@mytime6630 - good job on seeing instead of eating!

@mytime6630 wowowow!!! Your work is amazing!

@snowflake1968 beautiful ornaments!! Are those with the new pencils you got?

@Faebert I totally get your frustrations. Hope today is a nice time!

@awhit4842 glad you came back despite some bumps in the road! Today is a new day

@Bex953172 hope you got some sleep!

Oh yeah ignore the mess LOL!
Just pretend it's like a spotless show home!

AJB1014 wrote: »

1. Return to my breathing when anxiety ramps up did some yoga
2. Stop giving DH attitude, hes having a hard time too I tried, but i know i could have been better
3. Drink 2 glasses of water per seltzer just two seltzers and i have a raging headache today
4. Log all food
5. Hot tub to relax
6. Focus on the good also a work in progress

Alright so anxiety is getting to both me and DH. Ill be totally honest with you all...we are both marijuana smokers (legal in our state). Its our version of having a beer after work basically. But with new employement possibly on the horizon we immediately stopped (me just to support dh) so its been about 5 days and although its not a physical addiction, its hard for me to deal with the anxiety without it, and my appetite is also suffering a bit. It's a good exercise in dealing with my emotions without that crutch but it definitely makes the situation a bit more tricky...but nothing good comes easy, right??? Parents are coming over for dinner tonight so the family time will be a nice distraction.

1. Prep snack tray and dessert around 3
2. Make potatoes after dh puts the roast in
3. Be kind and patient
4. Move laundry
5. Empty/fill dishwasher
6. Log all food
7. Drink a glass of water on the hour
8. Only one slice of pie
9. Bed by 10

JFT Monday am
1. Smoothie
2. Fish oil
3. Elderberry
4. Water

I’m right there with you, I have been trying to get my eldest to use it for her anxiety too now that it’s legal here in Canada.

Yes a lot of these ornaments are using my new pencil crayons. I love them!

Morning all. So back to normality this week without any more celebrations until work Xmas party on Friday. I’m kind of relieved!

Yesterday was a better day emotionally, although I still fell off track with food. But I worked out and have just made peace with it all. There are times when we can be completely focussed on our food and fitness goals and other times where we just have to let go a bit. I’m up a bit weight wise but still in range so I think if I keep up the activity and stay careful on normal days up until Xmas I should be ok.

Sunday goals recap
- morning workout? Woken with nasty heartburn so will see... ✅
- L to be picked up at 9:30 ✅
- Collect P from sleepover ✅
- Head to parents place. Make good choices at lunch ✅
- Homework for p? ❎
- Renew parking permit ❎ they’ve changed the system so I need to call them. Grr!
- Stocking filler shopping? ✅ started
- Early night!! ✅

Monday goals
- morning workout
- Take watch and shipping label to work
- Online grocery shop - cake for Friday
- Class Christmas present
- Eyebrows after work
- Confirm godchildren present drop-off arrangements
- Early night

Have a great start to the week all! X

Monday weigh-in:

Goal weight: 154
October 15th: 164.25
October 22nd: 167.25
October 29th: 163
November 5th: 164.25
November 12th: 165.75
November 19th: 164.25
November 26th: 162.5
December 3rd: 160.75
December 10th: 160.75

Not sure about the weight - once again I had three different weights, ranging from 159 - 162.75!!! I decided to log the one in the middle. But who knows? I definitely need a new scale...