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Yoshiboobs wrote: »I think I emotionally dump on here semi-frequently 😅. I was under the impression that most comedians are depressed. 🤔 I've been re-typing my thoughts a few times for a good chunk of time now.
I always come back here because I'm crazy lonely and I don't know what the exact draw is because I'm never particularly close with anyone ever. I'm distant here and impossible to know in real life.
I might appear vulnerable or open because I don't have a lot of secrets and will just tell them to anyone but it's not real emotional intimacy. I don't care if anyone reads it or responds. If I dip out or someone else does it doesn't really matter. No strings. No obligation. Just memes. 😅 It doesn't fill the void but I forget about it from time to time. Sometimes it's just nice to feel like I exist somewhere.
I'm highly avoidant, neurotic and shut off. My brain has always been chaos from likely both nature and nurture. I wasn't raised right and I've lived my life in the hard shell of my own making. I've been compared to statues, robots and ghosts in real life because I can't even manage to act normal and fly under the radar.
It's been really lonely except for my pets and lovers. I don't make friends. Just aquaintences. It's not the right way to be and never what I wanted. But hey, my horoscope said that my life was going to be this way 👏👏👏👏. Things are supposed to turn around later in life 😅 Had to end with some humor.
I like you, your personality
I like your honesty, humility and humour
Glad youre back - and that I recognized you (I feel a bit smug that I did - you are a somewhat elusive return mfp'er - not a "HERE I AM" type!) but I recognized and remembered you and your personality quickly
Sorry, I have nothing helpful to say
'cept you seem to know yourself pretty well - go with that
Your life, your way ❤4 -
I don't let people "know" me - because then they have the ability to "hurt" me.
I understand this.
As for humour, I don't think mine is a coping mechanism, I just love exchanging quips and joking here and irl.
My ex father-in-law was brilliant, I really enjoyed chatting with him, he was smart, funny and very witty. Really kept me on my toes lol. I really enjoy the mental stimulation of a good backwards and forwards in here... some of you are damn funny.
Laughter truly is great medicine.8 -
amorfati601070 wrote: »I don't let people "know" me - because then they have the ability to "hurt" me.
Yeah I feel you. But at the same time I also think it has cost me potential frienships and partners...its like this Catch 22...I let them in and they understand, empathize or they just see me as damaged or something...which is a shame because that means they would never really accept the real "you".... at least you can find some solace that it was never meant to be. But then if I go all stoic-like there's the risk of being distant and cold...I mean there is a middle ground somewhere to be found but its elusive.
I think I'm a pessimistic person at my core...I dont know if its because of a couple of tragedies (don't want to be too specific) or its just how my brain is hardwired... but at the same time I see how it is irrational to be that way. Being that happiness, at least to some extent is a choice.... there's a bazillion books on positive psychology that could describe this better than I ever could.Yoshiboobs wrote: »I was under the impression that most comedians are depressed. .
Humour is a great defense/coping mechanism.
Good points - taken
Im more of an optimist, but a beaten down one...its stupid really how optimistic I can be - given my life experiences ...deranged I must be!6 -
I know someone who could have really used this thread last year.
I myself tend to switch between serious and superficial. I have things going on that really bring me down, and things in my past that crushed me to dust. I don't mind sharing, but at the same time I feel as though my troubles are insignificant. In a way they are. They affect me and shouldn't be of any concern to strangers. Still, I like to get to know people here and the better I know you, the more I share7 -
KickTheSky wrote: »I need an outlet. I need to be myself, creatively, around like minded people in a mostly anonymous environment. I too enjoy making people laugh (probably myself as well) using wit and subtle references to other conversations. I made a few real connections on here and many of you were there for me when I experienced some unspeakable, "real world" tragedy. However, the connections here, coupled with a new attitude towards authority and injustice, led to some exchanges that became very personal and very public on here. I've never been able to recover from that.
There are times when I need to have this place as a positive outlet and a place of comfort and I try to come back and be a part of the group. I follow the rules, I'm respectful and I avoid talking about situations that forced me to leave this place. The most recent attempt at trying to come back to the island was the best and worst. I was 99% using this site the way it was meant to, as far as logging and tracking. I popped onto the boards and noticed a refreshing new attitude on here. I started to contribute, and share. I tried doing this as anonymously as I could, but like anywhere, the people that know you, know you and my old friends were right there for me again. I thought things were good. Keep in mind, the situation that led to my exile was many months, even years ago. I haven't engaged in that type of behavior since 2018. I stayed away for over a year. But I thought I was good this time. I was logging, and exercising, and supporting and being supported. I spoke no ill words about anyone or anything that related to my trouble here in the past. But, someone out there, in absolute silence, does not want me to be here. Does not want to let things go. Does not want me to have the outlet to share and the community of support. Keep in mind, I was pushed out for a disagreement. That's it. Nothing malicious like what was done to me. Also, there are several members here, even some of my friends, that participate openly on here in spite of being "banned" at one point or another. They've been on new accounts that are in some cases, older than the ones they had when they got the boot. People that were banned for some pretty vile acts and going down in flames "rage quits" that could make a sailor blush. But, they're still here, free to roam, and I get the door continuously slammed in my face because there is still someone that secretly doesn't like me, whether it's someone that reports who I am or an admin themselves.
I've done my time. Time that far exceeded the crime. I've followed the rules. I'm a much better contributor and supporter now then I ever was. However, I'm the fall guy in some neverending, passive aggressive grudge that makes no sense at all.
So, quote this a couple of times, so it stays around even after the inevitable happens and someone feels better about something and deletes my entire account, food diary, fitness goals, emotional support, and everything else that comes with it.
I love you guys and I really wish I could stay. If the off chance it is just a single person that finds pleasure in seeing me gone, please have a heart. I don't know who you are and I don't interact with you intentionally. I consciously don't bring up specifics when it comes to people and situations that may have occurred because whatever it is that you think I'm about, I'm over it. I just want to move forward. I want to be healthy again and be able to play with my friends along the way. That's all. I'm not here to stick it to anyone, or defy authority. I just want a chance and I just want to be me.
Im sorry to see you go 😔1 -
KickTheSky wrote: »I need an outlet. I need to be myself, creatively, around like minded people in a mostly anonymous environment. I too enjoy making people laugh (probably myself as well) using wit and subtle references to other conversations. I made a few real connections on here and many of you were there for me when I experienced some unspeakable, "real world" tragedy. However, the connections here, coupled with a new attitude towards authority and injustice, led to some exchanges that became very personal and very public on here. I've never been able to recover from that.
There are times when I need to have this place as a positive outlet and a place of comfort and I try to come back and be a part of the group. I follow the rules, I'm respectful and I avoid talking about situations that forced me to leave this place. The most recent attempt at trying to come back to the island was the best and worst. I was 99% using this site the way it was meant to, as far as logging and tracking. I popped onto the boards and noticed a refreshing new attitude on here. I started to contribute, and share. I tried doing this as anonymously as I could, but like anywhere, the people that know you, know you and my old friends were right there for me again. I thought things were good. Keep in mind, the situation that led to my exile was many months, even years ago. I haven't engaged in that type of behavior since 2018. I stayed away for over a year. But I thought I was good this time. I was logging, and exercising, and supporting and being supported. I spoke no ill words about anyone or anything that related to my trouble here in the past. But, someone out there, in absolute silence, does not want me to be here. Does not want to let things go. Does not want me to have the outlet to share and the community of support. Keep in mind, I was pushed out for a disagreement. That's it. Nothing malicious like what was done to me. Also, there are several members here, even some of my friends, that participate openly on here in spite of being "banned" at one point or another. They've been on new accounts that are in some cases, older than the ones they had when they got the boot. People that were banned for some pretty vile acts and going down in flames "rage quits" that could make a sailor blush. But, they're still here, free to roam, and I get the door continuously slammed in my face because there is still someone that secretly doesn't like me, whether it's someone that reports who I am or an admin themselves.
I've done my time. Time that far exceeded the crime. I've followed the rules. I'm a much better contributor and supporter now then I ever was. However, I'm the fall guy in some neverending, passive aggressive grudge that makes no sense at all.
So, quote this a couple of times, so it stays around even after the inevitable happens and someone feels better about something and deletes my entire account, food diary, fitness goals, emotional support, and everything else that comes with it.
I love you guys and I really wish I could stay. If the off chance it is just a single person that finds pleasure in seeing me gone, please have a heart. I don't know who you are and I don't interact with you intentionally. I consciously don't bring up specifics when it comes to people and situations that may have occurred because whatever it is that you think I'm about, I'm over it. I just want to move forward. I want to be healthy again and be able to play with my friends along the way. That's all. I'm not here to stick it to anyone, or defy authority. I just want a chance and I just want to be me.
Biggest of hugs! 🤗🤗🤗🤗
I don't want you to go. I've really enjoyed having you back. I really hope you are here for a long time1 -
I have always been shy in person, but very “out there” online. To be able to just randomly start talking to someone in person, I’d pass out before I even got the chance to say “hello”.
I’ve ALWAYS used humor, wit and a hellacious sense of humor as my wingman, my escape, a cover-up. I’d be lying if I said I’ve lived a hard life, because I haven’t. I’ve just simply made it hard on myself by letting my anxiety take over who I really think I could be. In all actuality, I’m a simple southern girl with social and obsessive anxiety, depression, ODC, germophobia and wear my heart on my sleeve while still building walls around my emotions. An entire disaster, if you ask me. 😂
Honestly, this place has made me overcome a few fears, as crazy as that sounds. When I first started, I wanted to make friends, but I didn’t want to talk to anyone first. I could never be the first to start a conversation. Even if it meant simply typing out a few words, my mind would be overflowing with a thousand questions; “What if they don’t reply?” “What if it’s annoying to just immediately start talking to them?” “Should I say something funny or just introduce myself?” “What if I say something to offend them because it was just funny to me?” “Is this too much to say in one message?”... and the list goes on. Eventually I psych myself out and just wait for someone to talk to me first, no matter how much I am dying to know everything about them. Here, I’ve learned that people are here to support one another, to interact with one another, and to bring out the positive and best in all situations. I’ve never had a close knit family so the “family” I have gained here is absolutely amazing. I’ve slowly realized that it’s okay to comment on every one of their posts to spread a positive word and support them reaching for their goals, it’s okay to message someone every day to ask how their day is going because you truly care, it’s okay to continue asking questions to keep a conversation alive for days, even weeks, because the interaction is what keeps us accountable and motivated. No one has ever made me feel annoying for checking in daily, no one has ever made me feel out of place for participating in forum shenanigans, no one has ever made me feel like I’ve completely inconvenienced their day by saying hello.
I saw where someone stated that she doesn’t let anyone get to know her, because she feels that once they know her, they can hurt her... and that statement hit different because I know. I completely understand. I’ve always been one on a search to find “needy” people, to find people who need help, who need a shoulder, ear or piece of advice. I’ve always been a sucker for someone who opens up to me and tells me everything about them, right down to the roots. I, however, have never let anyone who’s like-minded, find me, probably the most needy one in the bunch. 😂
It’s great to find people who can relate to you, it oftentimes makes you feel less alone in the world, even if they may be on the complete opposite side of it. 😉 All I know is that I’ve made relationships and connections with people here that I hope last a while. I’m alone more than I am with anyone else, so having that conversation about your day, or about who you are, or being able to dive in to someone else’s interests makes it that much easier to make the time well spent, move along faster. 🥰10 -
toriann319 wrote: »I have always been shy in person, but very “out there” online. To be able to just randomly start talking to someone in person, I’d pass out before I even got the chance to say “hello”.
I’ve ALWAYS used humor, wit and a hellacious sense of humor as my wingman, my escape, a cover-up. I’d be lying if I said I’ve lived a hard life, because I haven’t. I’ve just simply made it hard on myself by letting my anxiety take over who I really think I could be. In all actuality, I’m a simple southern girl with social and obsessive anxiety, depression, ODC, germophobia and wear my heart on my sleeve while still building walls around my emotions. An entire disaster, if you ask me. 😂
Honestly, this place has made me overcome a few fears, as crazy as that sounds. When I first started, I wanted to make friends, but I didn’t want to talk to anyone first. I could never be the first to start a conversation. Even if it meant simply typing out a few words, my mind would be overflowing with a thousand questions; “What if they don’t reply?” “What if it’s annoying to just immediately start talking to them?” “Should I say something funny or just introduce myself?” “What if I say something to offend them because it was just funny to me?” “Is this too much to say in one message?”... and the list goes on. Eventually I psych myself out and just wait for someone to talk to me first, no matter how much I am dying to know everything about them. Here, I’ve learned that people are here to support one another, to interact with one another, and to bring out the positive and best in all situations. I’ve never had a close knit family so the “family” I have gained here is absolutely amazing. I’ve slowly realized that it’s okay to comment on every one of their posts to spread a positive word and support them reaching for their goals, it’s okay to message someone every day to ask how their day is going because you truly care, it’s okay to continue asking questions to keep a conversation alive for days, even weeks, because the interaction is what keeps us accountable and motivated. No one has ever made me feel annoying for checking in daily, no one has ever made me feel out of place for participating in forum shenanigans, no one has ever made me feel like I’ve completely inconvenienced their day by saying hello.
I saw where someone stated that she doesn’t let anyone get to know her, because she feels that once they know her, they can hurt her... and that statement hit different because I know. I completely understand. I’ve always been one on a search to find “needy” people, to find people who need help, who need a shoulder, ear or piece of advice. I’ve always been a sucker for someone who opens up to me and tells me everything about them, right down to the roots. I, however, have never let anyone who’s like-minded, find me, probably the most needy one in the bunch. 😂
It’s great to find people who can relate to you, it oftentimes makes you feel less alone in the world, even if they may be on the complete opposite side of it. 😉 All I know is that I’ve made relationships and connections with people here that I hope last a while. I’m alone more than I am with anyone else, so having that conversation about your day, or about who you are, or being able to dive in to someone else’s interests makes it that much easier to make the time well spent, move along faster. 🥰
I like you! I hope you stay around2 -
I find it hard to make friends, I find it even harder to open up. But I do like coming here even though I don't interact much apart from the selfie threads 😅
I love the fun side here and often don't know how to join in or what to say. I'm having counselling atm but I'm struggling with my anxiety since lock down to the point where now I can go out I don't want to. I was here everyday tracking and over the past few weeks have took a step back from social media. A lot of family issues have not helped either and I was going to delete my account but keeping track on here gives me something else to focus on.
Know I like all your posts Tams, pretty selfies and I always like hearing your mind too - if you leave, know I'll miss you
❤❤lady2 -
toriann319 wrote: »I have always been shy in person, but very “out there” online. To be able to just randomly start talking to someone in person, I’d pass out before I even got the chance to say “hello”.
I’ve ALWAYS used humor, wit and a hellacious sense of humor as my wingman, my escape, a cover-up. I’d be lying if I said I’ve lived a hard life, because I haven’t. I’ve just simply made it hard on myself by letting my anxiety take over who I really think I could be. In all actuality, I’m a simple southern girl with social and obsessive anxiety, depression, ODC, germophobia and wear my heart on my sleeve while still building walls around my emotions. An entire disaster, if you ask me. 😂
Honestly, this place has made me overcome a few fears, as crazy as that sounds. When I first started, I wanted to make friends, but I didn’t want to talk to anyone first. I could never be the first to start a conversation. Even if it meant simply typing out a few words, my mind would be overflowing with a thousand questions; “What if they don’t reply?” “What if it’s annoying to just immediately start talking to them?” “Should I say something funny or just introduce myself?” “What if I say something to offend them because it was just funny to me?” “Is this too much to say in one message?”... and the list goes on. Eventually I psych myself out and just wait for someone to talk to me first, no matter how much I am dying to know everything about them. Here, I’ve learned that people are here to support one another, to interact with one another, and to bring out the positive and best in all situations. I’ve never had a close knit family so the “family” I have gained here is absolutely amazing. I’ve slowly realized that it’s okay to comment on every one of their posts to spread a positive word and support them reaching for their goals, it’s okay to message someone every day to ask how their day is going because you truly care, it’s okay to continue asking questions to keep a conversation alive for days, even weeks, because the interaction is what keeps us accountable and motivated. No one has ever made me feel annoying for checking in daily, no one has ever made me feel out of place for participating in forum shenanigans, no one has ever made me feel like I’ve completely inconvenienced their day by saying hello.
I saw where someone stated that she doesn’t let anyone get to know her, because she feels that once they know her, they can hurt her... and that statement hit different because I know. I completely understand. I’ve always been one on a search to find “needy” people, to find people who need help, who need a shoulder, ear or piece of advice. I’ve always been a sucker for someone who opens up to me and tells me everything about them, right down to the roots. I, however, have never let anyone who’s like-minded, find me, probably the most needy one in the bunch. 😂
It’s great to find people who can relate to you, it oftentimes makes you feel less alone in the world, even if they may be on the complete opposite side of it. 😉 All I know is that I’ve made relationships and connections with people here that I hope last a while. I’m alone more than I am with anyone else, so having that conversation about your day, or about who you are, or being able to dive in to someone else’s interests makes it that much easier to make the time well spent, move along faster. 🥰
I like you! I hope you stay around
Thank you!!! I don’t plan on going anywhere any time soon! 🥰2 -
mfp hurts me sometimes b/c of the (potential) transient nature and "ability"?
You know what I mean- one day they are here, one day gone potential
...I'm getting better, 3 years in
But those people who say "its not real life" I dont get it, and it hurts me a bit...everything we do is "real life"...so even if it's "not in person" its still real life, and its how we choose to spend our time (so its important)
...IM IMPORTANT ('case you missed the lead up!)14 -
I'm always in pain. ALWAYS. And while it is better now that I have maintained my weight loss, continue with my fitness/therapies and manage a balanced food plan; I am still in a lot of pain. Sometimes I really would like to take pain medication (other than OTC meds) because some days it is honestly more than I can handle. Today is one of those days. I would love to go home, bomb myself outta my mind with a pain med and just lay in bed with ice packs just crying. Today I feel like giving up.18
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GymGoddessGoals wrote: »I'm always in pain. ALWAYS. And while it is better now that I have maintained my weight loss, continue with my fitness/therapies and manage a balanced food plan; I am still in a lot of pain. Sometimes I really would like to take pain medication (other than OTC meds) because some days it is honestly more than I can handle. Today is one of those days. I would love to go home, bomb myself outta my mind with a pain med and just lay in bed with ice packs just crying. Today I feel like giving up.
But you’re still going, aren’t you? 🥰🥰🥰2 -
GymGoddessGoals wrote: »I'm always in pain. ALWAYS. And while it is better now that I have maintained my weight loss, continue with my fitness/therapies and manage a balanced food plan; I am still in a lot of pain. Sometimes I really would like to take pain medication (other than OTC meds) because some days it is honestly more than I can handle. Today is one of those days. I would love to go home, bomb myself outta my mind with a pain med and just lay in bed with ice packs just crying. Today I feel like giving up.
i’m so impressed by u ♥️ you are like the pic in my head when i think of strength in women4 -
GymGoddessGoals wrote: »I'm always in pain. ALWAYS. And while it is better now that I have maintained my weight loss, continue with my fitness/therapies and manage a balanced food plan; I am still in a lot of pain. Sometimes I really would like to take pain medication (other than OTC meds) because some days it is honestly more than I can handle. Today is one of those days. I would love to go home, bomb myself outta my mind with a pain med and just lay in bed with ice packs just crying. Today I feel like giving up.
Hearts lady
...damn, I had to censor myself for fear of reprimanding and warning on mfp1 -
GymGoddessGoals wrote: »I'm always in pain. ALWAYS. And while it is better now that I have maintained my weight loss, continue with my fitness/therapies and manage a balanced food plan; I am still in a lot of pain. Sometimes I really would like to take pain medication (other than OTC meds) because some days it is honestly more than I can handle. Today is one of those days. I would love to go home, bomb myself outta my mind with a pain med and just lay in bed with ice packs just crying. Today I feel like giving up.
I had no idea. What causes the pain? Is that rude? I never know if it’s more rude to ask or not ask2 -
sweet_ermengarde wrote: »@GymGoddessGoals wrote: »I'm always in pain. ALWAYS. And while it is better now that I have maintained my weight loss, continue with my fitness/therapies and manage a balanced food plan; I am still in a lot of pain. Sometimes I really would like to take pain medication (other than OTC meds) because some days it is honestly more than I can handle. Today is one of those days. I would love to go home, bomb myself outta my mind with a pain med and just lay in bed with ice packs just crying. Today I feel like giving up.
i’m so impressed by u ♥️ you are like the pic in my head when i think of strength in women
Yep - my go to motivator I call her "The Great Red" (in my head) she's an inspiration for real1 -
I have to go back and spend some more time reading through this... But I think very highly of all you people whom I've never even met...
As for myself... I came to a realization over the last night... I often feel guilty coming here... Like I should be doing more with my life, I'm wasting time that could be used in other pursuits... It's a vise, like sweets to someone who could be on a healthier path... I'm too old for this...
But you know what... Wgaf...
I've worked my *kitten* off to get where I am and I'm not trying to brag but I don't ever have to do anything else in life but show up to work every day at a job I love with coworkers I enjoy... I'm not rich by any means, and I have to come to work every day, but I'm set for the rest of my life here... I couldn't ask for any more out of life...
So what I'm saying is... If I want to come in here and dick around for a while everyday... So what, I think I've earned the right to do so...
Some people have their video games... I just enjoy you guys a lot more 💕...14
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