@Kosmoskitten,
I don't know about you but 'in these times' ( I know, I know, everybody's sick of those terms but what can I say, it fits) my negative outlook has increased 100% and it's difficult to find the good stuff anymore. I'd suggest seeking counseling but IIWM, I'd most likely ignore that bit of wisdom. Have done it often in my past and never found a good fit.
With that said, try to handle 1 piece at a time because if everything invades your brain all the time, it feels more than overwhelming. Maybe let your thoughts out in a journal then try to let them go, at least temporarily. Your brain and body needs a reprieve from so much stress and worry. We all know what those things can do to a person.
Keep doing things that are good for you, things you take pleasure in. Take a walk in nature, IF it's something you enjoy. Watch a comedy, IF you like them. Don't bring added pressure into your brain thinking you NEED to do certain things; only do them if you like them or miss them in your life.
I wish you well and hope for good things to happen for you.
Will my grandma be okay? She recently started locking herself in her room and refusing to come out for either my uncle or my cousin (who live with her and are her caretakers). She has Alzheimer's, so... I'd rather her not lock herself up. She was living off of protein shakes for like.. a week because she would refuse to get out of bed or venture anywhere else in her home. My mom and stepdad came to visit today for my son's birthday and updated me on how she's doing and it isn't great.
Will my stepmom's surgery be okay? Will they cut out all that needs to be cut out? She's done pretty well with chemo as far as tiredness/eating/energy which has surprised a lot of people, apparently. She has a great attitude about it all as well. I just know that my dad is worried and so will I be (I keep it to myself though because I don't want to burden her with more stuff since she already has to live with my dad and he's become super protective).
Am I ever going to get a handle on my health and take it seriously? I always just relapse into not exercising, not really giving a *kitten* and not taking care of myself. Some of it isn't helped by having clinical depression, but also.. I'm just lazy and hate exercising. I can eat a great diet for awhile, but living in a house with a partner who brings in a bunch of really bad food choices and who has no problem enabling bad behavior doesn't help. He also needs to watch himself because unlike me, he can be "let go" from his job for not being in shape or gaining too much weight.
Should I be more concerned about possibly developing cancer at some point? I was adopted, so my medical history is a giant mystery to me.
Why does it feel like I never progress? It's just a giant landslide backward.. in all areas of life. All the time, concurrently.
Why do I only acknowledge my failures and not any small thing I accomplish? Maybe because they are always small things? I never do anything noteworthy; never have.
My son turned 9 today; 9 years flew by awfully fast. Holy *kitten*, I'm getting old. I don't like this. Still, he's growing up and doing fine (and I didn't kill him like I do every plant I ever touch, so that's a + I suppose). He's a smart and goofy kid.
Damn, with all this crap in my brain, it's no wonder I can never sleep!
Happy belated to your mini-KosmosKitten! He sounds like a pretty noteworthy accomplishment 😉 Also, aren't you moving soon? Major life transitions are noteworthy too.
It sounds like you have a lot going on (an understatement, I know). It is so great that this is a safe space to process feelings like these. I hope you feel supported a bit cuz we rock with you. 🤗
So when I went in for my umbilical hernia repair... I put on the gown, naked underneath of course... They gave me the drugs, put me on the bed and wheeled me in...
I'm laying there under the big all light thing, still fully awake... A team of nurses (some of them pretty hot), and a few doctors...
They were all prepping, and all of a sudden one of the nurses just pulls up the gown and completely exposes me to the whole room... 🙈🙈🙈... A few moments later one of the doctors covers me back up 🙈😂...
Okay first of all, I'm still awake here lady 😂... Secondly, my umbilical hernia is up here 😂... I don't think that was necessary 🙈😂
So when I went in for my umbilical hernia repair... I put on the gown, naked underneath of course... They gave me the drugs, put me on the bed and wheeled me in...
I'm laying there under the big all light thing, still fully awake... A team of nurses (some of them pretty hot), and a few doctors...
They were all prepping, and all of a sudden one of the nurses just pulls up the gown and completely exposes me to the whole room... 🙈🙈🙈... A few moments later one of the doctors covers me back up 🙈😂...
Okay first of all, I'm still awake here lady 😂... Secondly, my umbilical hernia is up here 😂... I don't think that was necessary 🙈😂
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I used to add it to custard.. delicious.
I don't know about you but 'in these times' ( I know, I know, everybody's sick of those terms but what can I say, it fits) my negative outlook has increased 100% and it's difficult to find the good stuff anymore.
With that said, try to handle 1 piece at a time because if everything invades your brain all the time, it feels more than overwhelming. Maybe let your thoughts out in a journal then try to let them go, at least temporarily. Your brain and body needs a reprieve from so much stress and worry.
Keep doing things that are good for you, things you take pleasure in. Take a walk in nature, IF it's something you enjoy. Watch a comedy, IF you like them. Don't bring added pressure into your brain thinking you NEED to do certain things; only do them if you like them or miss them in your life.
I wish you well and hope for good things to happen for you.
Happy belated to your mini-KosmosKitten! He sounds like a pretty noteworthy accomplishment 😉 Also, aren't you moving soon? Major life transitions are noteworthy too.
It sounds like you have a lot going on (an understatement, I know). It is so great that this is a safe space to process feelings like these. I hope you feel supported a bit cuz we rock with you. 🤗
Anyone?
there are literally pron genres dedicated to this and its not even fringe thing like it’s an established category and everything ♥️
I sometimes wear them thigh high fishnets underneath 😏❤️
You know this reminds me of a funny story...
So when I went in for my umbilical hernia repair... I put on the gown, naked underneath of course... They gave me the drugs, put me on the bed and wheeled me in...
I'm laying there under the big all light thing, still fully awake... A team of nurses (some of them pretty hot), and a few doctors...
They were all prepping, and all of a sudden one of the nurses just pulls up the gown and completely exposes me to the whole room... 🙈🙈🙈... A few moments later one of the doctors covers me back up 🙈😂...
Okay first of all, I'm still awake here lady 😂... Secondly, my umbilical hernia is up here 😂... I don't think that was necessary 🙈😂
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You know you loved it 😉
This is just our little secret..
As steaming and smoking as they come.
(You can put down the scalpel now)
Hello Gray's Anatomy? I tell you.. A pair of well fitted clean scrubs can be VERY attractive. 😍😍😍
Ones covered in blood, or barf... Not so much. Lol
glasses? Stethoscope? Are you wearing them? Important details here.
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Extremely hot, it's a bit like my lab coat. And we gots the glasses too girly 😏😘
THIGH HIGH FISHNETS
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