Less Alcohol ~ DECEMBER 2022 ~ One Day At A Time

ahoy_m8 wrote: »

@Lilylady3k smart to try keeping everyone apart until you see how much COVID has or hasn't spread. I read somewhere, or maybe it was a Dr who told me, that the BA.5 variant incubation period is less variable than prior strains that could incubate up to 2 weeks. BA.5 incubates 2 days. If you're symptom free and negative after that, you didn't contract it in that exposure (though, of course, subsequent exposures require corresponding waits). I hope you guys are in the clear and SIL is weathering it.

@ahoy_m8 - Well we think we were exposed to Covid at the wedding on 12/3. My son in law was not feeling well Wed and tested positive for COVID on Thursday morning. 102 fever which broke on Friday. My daughter and the baby came over Thursday morning when he tested positive because they tested negative and tried to steer clear. BUT they both tested positive today Sunday a week after the wedding. SIL's parents which were the groom's parents at the wedding also tested positive today. I tested negative yesterday but have a terrible headache (my symptom last time I had it) ... so testing again tomorrow. DH tested negative today. We'll see ... we held our granddaughter a lot over the last 4 days.

Ate a lot of garbage today but kept my calories pretty much at my current goal anyway. Back on track tomorrow. Enjoyed a nice walk at Edith L Moore Nature Sanctuary, we had the place to ourselves. After, I got a good chunk of work done on my project. Screwed it up already but not in a critical way, I don't think. I'll re-evaluate in the morning and figure out what I'm going to do.

AF tonight. Rare for a Sunday, I usually drink while listening to DarkWave...dunno why I didn't, just didn't. In a way, I'd rather I had but there's no point now. Off to bed.

-m

@joans1976 I'm sending healing vibes. You are taking it day by day and surely you will start to feel better soon.

This is my 12th day AF. Observations:
I look and feel better. Have lost 2 lbs. It should be more but we bought a bread machine and I am just having so much fun making (and eating) the warm bread that it has stymied any more weight loss. I have to limit myself to just one slice a day at this point.
I am FEELING more. I heard a children's choir singing the most beautiful Christmas hymn on the radio and I just had tears rolling down my cheeks. I find myself crying tears of gratitude during my morning meditation, or even just for no reason at all it seems. I think this is because when we drink to numb the bad going on in our lives, we also numb the good. Alcohol isn't choosy; it just numbs it all. Now I am aware of all this beauty around me. I am taking pleasure in things I was too hungover or numb or depressed to even notice. It's like in the Wizard of Oz when Dorothy's world comes into color. I have more awareness of everything. I am definitely getting cravings, and they are very specific; champagne one day, a bloody Mary another time. But I "play the entire movie" as I said the other day, and it goes away. I am hoping the month I have committed to AF becomes longer, but I am not making any plans other than getting through the end of the year. One day at a time, as they say.

This group really helps me hold myself accountable, plus everyone is absolutely great. My monthly goal is 16-19 AF days (3A days max weekly) for weight loss and overall health. I post in the mornings about the previous day.

12/5: AF
12/6: AF
12/7: Drinks (2)
12/8: AF
12/9: Drinks (3)
12/10: Drinks (2)
12/11: AF - I had an NA Lagunitas with homemade chili and a salad with pomegranate seeds (yummy!). I wanted to but didn't snack after dinner (yay!).

Rolling Total: 6 AF Days out of 11

Hello all, I am having a rough day emotionally and decided to check in on my MFP friends during the day which I usually only check in the morning while Im having my coffee. I am feeling mighty sorry for myself today. I am having financial problems that I am not seeing much of a way out of and every day I get sent new bills for the cancer treatment. My armpit is very painful and I was told today by a nurse this could last for months due to nerves and what was done during surgery. I was told last week that I would get results of the things that were removed during the surgery today or tomorrow but was told today that I wont get results until next week. It has been 4 weeks since my genetic testing, which determines my cancer treatment and I was told it would take 2-3 weeks. I called and they said to just try to be patient. I am depressed and feel isolated.

So. Then I read all of your well wishes on here and I thought "how kind, these people dont have to say these things but they are." I also realized I am 45 days sober which is the longest I have gone since....2018? I cant even remember. It is not very hard, I couldnt imagine being hungover right now in this amount of pain but there have been moments since I have been diagnosed where I would like to forget all my worries and alcohol could maybe help me with that but it is so temporary. I also have a refrigerator full of food, a roof over my head, a purring cat in my lap and had three friends visit this weekend and all were so good to me. When I met with my oncology surgeon in the beginning of November, the first words out of his mouth were "this is 100% curable." I need to hang on to that like a life preserver! Things are not so bad.
Thank you so much for all your kind words, they mean the world to me!

@SunnyDays930 Happy 12th day! I loved your post! My mom had a bread maker when I was in high school and she made this fabulous dill bread and it made the house smell so lovely. She loved that she could just throw everything in and out came a perfect loaf. Eventually it started walking across the counter on its own and she got rid of it and never replaced it. Hugs to you!