Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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rungirl1973 wrote: »My weekend was great! My daughter came to visit on Friday, and she's not leaving until tomorrow. I'm making her go to the doctor in the morning. She's so depressed, I think she's cried about 25% of every day she's been here. It hurts my heart.
We had BBQ pork steaks and fried potatoes on Friday evening, and a pot roast and homemade dumplings yesterday and brownies with ice cream. Yeah, I made some of the favorite comfort foods. We had fireworks at home Friday night and last night, and saw the fireworks in Nashville on the 4th. Also, we all drank too much that day. Ugh.
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Sorry you're feeling so down. I hope you can get in to see the Dr soon.raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Thanks for all the well-wishes everyone! I'm going to call again tomorrow and see if I can actually speak to someone. Hubby called me a while ago to check on me, I told him what I've told you all, and he agrees that I need to see the doctor ASAP. I've literally just sat around all day obsessing, worrying, and wanting to lock myself in my room and cry. The only reason I haven't keeps running up to me and giving me hugs.
Thanks, I do too. I'm going to call again tomorrow morning to reschedule the appointment they so nicely cancelled for me the other day. (Apparently the doctor isn't going to be in the office Thursday...)0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »@kelly_c_77 I hope kitty is doing well.
Thank you and the others who have mentioned her well being.. she is much better today...I'd say 90% "normal"... we'll probably still get her into the vet for a general check up just to be sure.
@FroggyBug, one of our other cats, Scrappy, has had surgery twice now to remove foreign objects. He loves to chew/eat things that he's not supposed to....anything made of foam and skinny cords. Phone charger cords, earbuds cords, Christmas lights, our son's monitor charging cord are some of his favorites. We used to have a large foam mat under a rug that was underneath our treadmill. The rug was only a bit bigger than the foam mat (about an extra inch over the edges of the mat on all sides). Anyway, he would lift up the corners of the rug and chew off pieces of the mat...two separate times, about 6 months apart from each other, he actually swallowed chunks of the mat and they got lodged in his intestines. We wouldn't know until he would get sick after any time he ate or drank..because nothing could pass through...it all had to come back up.
So yeah, lots of experience with that sort of thing. Skye is holding everything down..just not overly interested in her regular food.
My Kyrie worries me about this SO much.....she eats so much crap that is not food, esp shoe laces and paper! Tonight, I am pretty sure she ingested a few small pieces of my old flooring.....like really? I don't get what is so appealing about non food items!0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Hi everyone!!! I'm surprised that there are so many pages to catch up on. I'm currently working on it.
I had a good birthday. I actually got a swimming suit and swam for the first time in a LONG time. I swam Friday and Saturday before the storms rolled in. I got to see fireworks Thursday, Friday and Saturday (I love fireworks). I was able to eat bbq, s'mores and had a lot of fun. I'm sad it is over.
My boyfriend did hang out with me from Thursday to Sunday. We got along well. Last night we decided to take a break and he is going to work on himself. I think it is a good thing. I finally think he understands how hurt my heart was/is. I'm feeling better at least.
Glad to hear it!
And super jealous, I am dying to go swimming and today was the only day it would have been hot enough this week and I was stuck at work all day!!
@FroggyBug I missed this earlier, but I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. Take the break time to figure out what you really want, too.
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raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »
Sorry you're feeling so down. I hope you can get in to see the Dr soon.raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Thanks for all the well-wishes everyone! I'm going to call again tomorrow and see if I can actually speak to someone. Hubby called me a while ago to check on me, I told him what I've told you all, and he agrees that I need to see the doctor ASAP. I've literally just sat around all day obsessing, worrying, and wanting to lock myself in my room and cry. The only reason I haven't keeps running up to me and giving me hugs.
Thanks, I do too. I'm going to call again tomorrow morning to reschedule the appointment they so nicely cancelled for me the other day. (Apparently the doctor isn't going to be in the office Thursday...)
Really, don't be afraid to say it's an emergency. Take care of you!0 -
Good Stuff!! I don't think it is weird at all....we have a pretty good little social circle going on here.....riderfangal wrote: »Hi all!! Made it back from our camping trip safe and sound and all caught up in the thread. Lots of sunshine and lots of fun with my little man but I was glad to get home. Is it weird to say I missed all you guys. Cause I did!!0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »riderfangal wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »
I love your avatar... Susie...you need to look at that one. The Hey, you...don't give up, OK?
Aww, thanks! I posted them to show someone how I looked at that age since I post so many pictures of my daughter on Facebook. Confession: I'm one of those moms
You were like a little doll! And speaking of dolls, I had a similar huge Raggedy Ann too. Kind of scary now, but it's funny how that stuff looks different to us now.
You're close! I think I can fix it. Here's @kecmw25:
If you right-click them and save the image url, you can just paste it in here like this:
What a cutie pie!! I might have some old pictures of me on Facebook. Maybe I can figure out how to get them on here...Thinking about me as a little kid inspired me to dig these out:
Past the bald-blob stage but I don't have any of those on my phone unfortunately, haha.
Anyone have any of themselves?
[ img ] www.yourcopyandpastedlink.com [/ img ]
but without any spaces.
You did! How did you fix it? How old are those pictures huh?
I don't think you looked like a blob at all, you were adorable!!
I think that is great.
I was going to make the same comment. Love that avatar!
P.s. –I hope your knee is okay!girldownsouth wrote: »
No, I haven't, it's things like eating food in certain orders, and knowing the calories in everything. I can't remember the others, just remember when I watched it realised almost all of them were things I do. But I've never even made it to my goal weight (or even halfway!), so I don't really think it's something to worry about. Although I think that was probably when I started trying not to eat all my food in order.Italian_Buju wrote: »
I think most people have some tendencies that can be considered OCD like.....the main difference is the focus and obsession in doing the task. It is odd though that so many people can have tendencies like that.girldownsouth wrote: »@Italian_Buju thank you for sharing that. I'm pretty sure I have some tendencies, I do the repeated checking of my bag, I always used to eat all of one thing on my plate, although I have mostly managed now to stop doing that. I actually have a lot of weird things with food, which watching tv discovered a lot were things people with anorexia do, so I'm not sure how come I'm the size I am! I think a lot of mine are checking and ordering things, that I don't really realise I do. My mum knows if I've been round while she's out because if there's a pile of coins on the side it'll have been stacked in height order.
That worries me about the anorexia tendencies, have you talked to someone about that??
I have a lot of food I have to eat in a certain order too. Then there are things like pizza where I have to take all the toppings/cheese off and eat the crust first. Then I eat all the toppings last. I get frustrated because I do this every time and sometimes I just think I need to eat like a normal person. Haha
I am exactly the same way with pizza and now I notice my son does the same thing haha
That would be four of us then! I do the same.
What is with all you guys ruining pizza??? Didnt we already discuss this earlier in the thread with pasta?? THESE ARE SINS AGAINST MY PEOPLE!!!
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Geeez! Take a 4 day weekend and come back to more than 32 pages! I have to skip them. I did skim some pages as I was tagged a few times. Thanks @lilaclovebird for the info on sexual assault and to all who commented on my before and after pics - sorry I can't remember who all it was.
Sorry I have missed so much and like I said I just skimmed some pages.
@Italian_Buju I truly believe that when it is time for you lose weight you will know but YOU have to be ready to do it for YOU and not for some doctor or anyone else. Trust me, I tried many times for everyone else and it never worked and when I finally wanted it for ME, I was able to do it. I'd also like to add that I am so sorry you have so much to deal with. Maybe you should just focus on you and changing one small thing each week/day to move in the direction you want to be. It won't be so stressful and overwhelming that way.
my confession: I was really, really bad over the weekend, too much to eat, wrong things to eat, too much to drink. I did have a lot of activity, even hit the gym at our hotel two times, we went to Six Flags one day - lots of walking, and even so the scale is up 6lbs today! I know alot of it is water, (lots of salty foods and did I mention alcohol) but it was painful to see that damage this morning on the scale.
If I wait for me, it will never happen, I am rather content, lol, but I do not want to die, so that is a motivation, because I seriously fear my family trying to survive without me.....I know my DR is right, so I thought that should be enough? And thanks for the other.....I guess once I opened up here it really came pouring all out....
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »I'm trying to stay upbeat and positive about it, but I am so over this flare-up already. I WANT TO GET OFF THIS STUPID COUCH. BY MYSELF.
I'm pretty much at the most severe stage of the flare up right now--violent jerking convulsions of my upper body, an almost complete loss of balance and walking ability, and function impairment in my legs so that I can't even propel myself into a standing position alone. This stinks. *bratty pout*
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I bought a stationary bike a few weeks ago. I can only do 5-10 minutes on it. My shins and knees hurt so bad and that's all I can stand. I feel like such a failure, and I have gained back 10lbs of my 30-40 pound weight loss I was so proud of.
Just keep doing what you can. When I first started I could only do a few minutes at a time because the seat hurt my butt so bad. I still can't go more then 30 minutes without having to take a break and do some other exercises just to give my butt a break. Go slow and steady while your body adjusts.0 -
raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »@Susieq_1994 Praying for you and hoping you're better soon!!! ❤️
I have to reschedule my doctor's appointment because apparently the doctor won't be in the office that day. I'm hoping I can be seen soon because I'm at the end of my rope with my depression, anxiety, and other issues. I'm so over "faking it", I'm NOT happy and I'm NOT okay!
Is there a crisis clinic or something you can go to for help? Sorry you are feeling this way!0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »riderfangal wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »
I love your avatar... Susie...you need to look at that one. The Hey, you...don't give up, OK?
Aww, thanks! I posted them to show someone how I looked at that age since I post so many pictures of my daughter on Facebook. Confession: I'm one of those moms
You were like a little doll! And speaking of dolls, I had a similar huge Raggedy Ann too. Kind of scary now, but it's funny how that stuff looks different to us now.
You're close! I think I can fix it. Here's @kecmw25:
If you right-click them and save the image url, you can just paste it in here like this:
What a cutie pie!! I might have some old pictures of me on Facebook. Maybe I can figure out how to get them on here...Thinking about me as a little kid inspired me to dig these out:
Past the bald-blob stage but I don't have any of those on my phone unfortunately, haha.
Anyone have any of themselves?
[ img ] www.yourcopyandpastedlink.com [/ img ]
but without any spaces.
You did! How did you fix it? How old are those pictures huh?
I don't think you looked like a blob at all, you were adorable!!
I think that is great.
I was going to make the same comment. Love that avatar!
P.s. –I hope your knee is okay!girldownsouth wrote: »
No, I haven't, it's things like eating food in certain orders, and knowing the calories in everything. I can't remember the others, just remember when I watched it realised almost all of them were things I do. But I've never even made it to my goal weight (or even halfway!), so I don't really think it's something to worry about. Although I think that was probably when I started trying not to eat all my food in order.Italian_Buju wrote: »
I think most people have some tendencies that can be considered OCD like.....the main difference is the focus and obsession in doing the task. It is odd though that so many people can have tendencies like that.girldownsouth wrote: »@Italian_Buju thank you for sharing that. I'm pretty sure I have some tendencies, I do the repeated checking of my bag, I always used to eat all of one thing on my plate, although I have mostly managed now to stop doing that. I actually have a lot of weird things with food, which watching tv discovered a lot were things people with anorexia do, so I'm not sure how come I'm the size I am! I think a lot of mine are checking and ordering things, that I don't really realise I do. My mum knows if I've been round while she's out because if there's a pile of coins on the side it'll have been stacked in height order.
That worries me about the anorexia tendencies, have you talked to someone about that??
I have a lot of food I have to eat in a certain order too. Then there are things like pizza where I have to take all the toppings/cheese off and eat the crust first. Then I eat all the toppings last. I get frustrated because I do this every time and sometimes I just think I need to eat like a normal person. Haha
I am exactly the same way with pizza and now I notice my son does the same thing haha
That would be four of us then! I do the same.
What is with all you guys ruining pizza??? Didnt we already discuss this earlier in the thread with pasta?? THESE ARE SINS AGAINST MY PEOPLE!!!
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Interesting you say that. When I've watched the show Extreme Couponers (NO JUDGEMENT!) I've thought to myself "They're just really organised hoarders".@Italian_Buju thank you so much for sharing this.
i'm a hoarder. which i always have to quantify with "not like the ppl on the tv shows." they should have a hoarders show where the person has 30 jars of tomato sauce, 20 boxes of pasta, 100 rolls of paper towels, 120 rolls of tp, etc. etc.
but as long as i keep my place relatively clean, instead of having a problem, i'm just a Super Couponer!
My sister has confided to me that she has hoarding tendencies. She buys things like school supplies because the sale at Staples was 'too good not to'. All her kids are long out of school, so she ends up donating them to schools in less affluent areas. She does the same with craft supplies. We have an 'arrangement' that I'll be the one to sort out her craft room if she dies.
no judgement, i totally used to watch all of those couponer shows and i was SO JEALOUS!!! i want 36 bottles of diet dr pepper for .56 cents!
Now I want 36 bottles of diet Dr. Pepper for .56 cents and I don't even drink diet Dr. Pepper.
Hahahaa! LOL
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Italian_Buju wrote: »Geeez! Take a 4 day weekend and come back to more than 32 pages! I have to skip them. I did skim some pages as I was tagged a few times. Thanks @lilaclovebird for the info on sexual assault and to all who commented on my before and after pics - sorry I can't remember who all it was.
Sorry I have missed so much and like I said I just skimmed some pages.
@Italian_Buju I truly believe that when it is time for you lose weight you will know but YOU have to be ready to do it for YOU and not for some doctor or anyone else. Trust me, I tried many times for everyone else and it never worked and when I finally wanted it for ME, I was able to do it. I'd also like to add that I am so sorry you have so much to deal with. Maybe you should just focus on you and changing one small thing each week/day to move in the direction you want to be. It won't be so stressful and overwhelming that way.
my confession: I was really, really bad over the weekend, too much to eat, wrong things to eat, too much to drink. I did have a lot of activity, even hit the gym at our hotel two times, we went to Six Flags one day - lots of walking, and even so the scale is up 6lbs today! I know alot of it is water, (lots of salty foods and did I mention alcohol) but it was painful to see that damage this morning on the scale.
If I wait for me, it will never happen, I am rather content, lol, but I do not want to die, so that is a motivation, because I seriously fear my family trying to survive without me.....I know my DR is right, so I thought that should be enough? And thanks for the other.....I guess once I opened up here it really came pouring all out....
We don't want you to die either. If there is anything I can do to help you let me know!0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »@Susieq_1994 I hope you feel better soon! Stay strong, girl... we all know you're awesome! I wish I could send you some airplane pictures to maybe cheer you up a little.... but unfortunately the clouds were so dark and heavy when I flew to and from Punta Cana that I didn't see anything worth getting. Just a constant blanket of cloud
I've been watching Survivor today after a LONG hiatus away from this show. The thing about shows like these are that they give me huge adrenaline boosts. It's all the excitement, people blind-sighting each other... people I like winning challenges when they thought they were going home, etc. It's the same thing when singers perform really well on The Voice. My boyfriend doesn't understand how these happy adrenaline rushes come out of reality TV
The guy I want to win won an Immunity challenge (the underdog... I usually go for the underdogs...), so I was up out of my seat dancing around. Maybe I'm just a dork.
I LOVE SURVIVOR TOO!
Are you watching the last season now? I can't wait for next season!0 -
@riderfangal I definitely prefer e-books to paper and hard cover books. It's easier to access footnotes and look up words / phrases, more comfortable in bed, and e-books are fairly easy to pirate.
@Susieq_1994 and @raelynnsmama52512 I am very sorry to hear about your afflictions. I'm hoping you both find relief soon.
@MoHousdon All of the shrimp? That alone sounds like the best vacation. :yummy:
@hnsaunde It just freaks me out to think that something like this could happen.
My first experience with Speculoos was this weekend with some Ben and Jerry's ice cream. I confess that I wasn't crazy about it.
Apologies for the posts I've missed. It is really great reading about the great weekends.
Also, I was able to get an appointment with a specialist about my allergies. I decided there was no point in waiting until my next doctor's appointment to ask for a referral after spending Friday night at my brother's house and being subjected to the worst night's sleep I can remember. I woke up at around 12:25 and spent the next couple of hours dealing with awful, stabbing pains in my throat and right ear, getting around 600 steps in my frantic attempts to dull or ignore the pain. I am tired of having a hard time paying attention when I'm trying to watch tv because it hurts. I'm tired of waking up around three in the morning because it hurts. I'm tired of not being able to enjoy nights out as much anymore because of that darn throbbing. I'm tired of the low standard a good night now constitutes.0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »
The latest season I watched before this one was Heroes vs Villains. This one is Season 28 (Cagayan) and the guy was Spencer. He was my favorite, but alas... he was just voted out. Sadkelly_c_77 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »@Susieq_1994 I hope you feel better soon! Stay strong, girl... we all know you're awesome! I wish I could send you some airplane pictures to maybe cheer you up a little.... but unfortunately the clouds were so dark and heavy when I flew to and from Punta Cana that I didn't see anything worth getting. Just a constant blanket of cloud
I've been watching Survivor today after a LONG hiatus away from this show. The thing about shows like these are that they give me huge adrenaline boosts. It's all the excitement, people blind-sighting each other... people I like winning challenges when they thought they were going home, etc. It's the same thing when singers perform really well on The Voice. My boyfriend doesn't understand how these happy adrenaline rushes come out of reality TV The guy I want to win won an Immunity challenge (the underdog... I usually go for the underdogs...), so I was up out of my seat dancing around. Maybe I'm just a dork.
I like Survivor too! Are they reruns right now? Which season/which guy was it? Just curious. Now it's a no brainer who's going to win out of the final 3.
EDIT: Watching it on YouTube
Spencer was my favorite that season!! He is playing again in the new season coming this fall!!! Are you gonna watch the new season while it is on?? We could have a thread for that in the bat cave too!
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Ditto here.....although I started watching season two and went back to watch one later on, but have been hooked ever since!kelly_c_77 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »
Any later seasons of Survivor you would recommend?kelly_c_77 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »WestCoastJo82 wrote: »Well, this is totally not a real problem, but pity party commenced. (Warning this is rather lame and I really just need to be told suck it up buttercup).
I hate how bothered I am by numbers on the scale. I'm recomping currently - which should not include weight gain as I am not attempting to bulk - but I've been over the top number I would like to be at for a couple of weeks now. I know it's probably just DOMS as Stronglifts is kicking my butt and my clothes fit the same if not better, but it really gets to me and I'm considering reducing calories even though I know its a bad idea for recomp progress but I'm letting the scale rule me.
I don't like how I let the scale rule me in general. On one hand it's good - even though I was using hair ties to extend the buttons on my pants instead of buying a bigger size - it wasn't until I saw 150 on the scale, which meant 25 BMI and officially over weight that I decided to do something about it. It's also great because I don't have to track food, make sure I stay in my 5 pound range and all's well. But then I have days like today and want to throw a giant pity party because the scale says a number I don't like which is actually not a real problem and I need to suck it up.
Pity party over. Sorry it's a lame pity party.
It's not lame at all. I admit the scale rules my life too...not that I want to..but it does. It can ruin my day...even when I know it's just water weight from the day before.
LOL I used to be like that and I still weigh a few times a week but now if it's < then I am YAAAY! If it's > then I am like WHATEVER *flips bird* Haha.
I try to have that attitude towards it and I'll have days where I say I don't care...but really, it weighs on me all day. Pun intended! Blood vs Water sounds interesting
Yeah, blood vs water was good. I liked the first season that they did of blood vs water better...because it had returning players from previous seasons and their family members. The latest season on white collar, blue collar, and red collar was also good. I liked every season pretty much... I've watched from the very 1st season..
I hate when sometimes near the end there is nobody left you like....that seems to happen once in a while and it makes me sad!
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When I was younger, I really loved pizza hut crust so I would just separate the bottom layer and eat it last. I would also scrape the cheese off my burgers and save it for my last fry0
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riderfangal wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »Geeez! Take a 4 day weekend and come back to more than 32 pages! I have to skip them. I did skim some pages as I was tagged a few times. Thanks @lilaclovebird for the info on sexual assault and to all who commented on my before and after pics - sorry I can't remember who all it was.
Sorry I have missed so much and like I said I just skimmed some pages.
@Italian_Buju I truly believe that when it is time for you lose weight you will know but YOU have to be ready to do it for YOU and not for some doctor or anyone else. Trust me, I tried many times for everyone else and it never worked and when I finally wanted it for ME, I was able to do it. I'd also like to add that I am so sorry you have so much to deal with. Maybe you should just focus on you and changing one small thing each week/day to move in the direction you want to be. It won't be so stressful and overwhelming that way.
my confession: I was really, really bad over the weekend, too much to eat, wrong things to eat, too much to drink. I did have a lot of activity, even hit the gym at our hotel two times, we went to Six Flags one day - lots of walking, and even so the scale is up 6lbs today! I know alot of it is water, (lots of salty foods and did I mention alcohol) but it was painful to see that damage this morning on the scale.
If I wait for me, it will never happen, I am rather content, lol, but I do not want to die, so that is a motivation, because I seriously fear my family trying to survive without me.....I know my DR is right, so I thought that should be enough? And thanks for the other.....I guess once I opened up here it really came pouring all out....
We don't want you to die either. If there is anything I can do to help you let me know!
Thanks
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So today went pretty well. My kitchen floor is now done, which is good because it had a few bad breaks in it and that was dangerous for my feet!
I only got about two hours of sleep last night, and have been up since 4:10am, and it is not nearly midnight, so not sure how I am not dead yet, but I plan on sleeping tomorrow until I naturally wake up.
My Kyrie was super mad at my kids today for keeping her locked in their rooms (they had to so she would not get in the way of the kitchen floor thing), she made sure I knew about it when I came home.
She is also a giant chicken head kitty and when my daughter tried to bring her out for a bathroom break, and she saw what was happening out here, hid under her bed for the rest of the day until she heard me come in from work (even though the floor was done well before that).
Now that the floor is done, the stress of the last two weeks of super busy understaffed work, my son's bike saga and my sisters visit is all behind me, I am feeling MUCH better! Well, I will be after some sleep anyway!
Things with the SO are 'interesting'. We had another discussion about this problem yesterday and while I have eased up on him a bit (I took his call tonight after the third time he called) and I talked to him yesterday, things are still not proper. Thank you @FroggyBug for understanding how frustrating this is. I can appreciate what everyone else chimed in had to say but I cannot just let this go, I am too fed up, and God forbid he does not really get it this year, because if this happens again next year, I might snap and end up widowed. And like I said, he is well aware that I am correct in this situation, so it is not like I am just overreacting or something. And for what it is worth, every one that is aware of this problem in our RL ALL agree with me, even his own male friends, one of them even tried to discuss it with him because he was upset that I was so upset again.
@pofoster21 - I hope your leg heals quickly, that is a rough spot!
Ok, I have to be honest and said I am suddenly feeling discouraged from @bkhamill 's comment.....now I feel a bit like why try if I don't really have a chance to succeed? Losing weight isn't something I have ever been focused on, and it was not until my DR said something that I really thought 'ok, guess I should do this", because I always try and take the best care I can of my health, and follow what my DR says as best I can. But I have heard other people say that they could only do it when they wanted to, so maybe I am wasting my time? I put in a half assed effort a few years ago when a surgeon scared me, but then my current surgeon and my DR told me she was full of it, so that made me not worry. On the other hand I have heard the same thing about smoking, and I had no desire to quit, until my SO said I had to quit if I wanted to have a baby, and I did, before I got pregnant, and never looked back. Maybe this will be the same? It is not like I want to lose 250lbs or anything, she only asked me to lose 50.....although I wonder if I lose that 50 if she will want me to lose another 50 or something......ugh, now I am full of doubt......
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WestCoastJo82 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »
Sorry you're feeling so down. I hope you can get in to see the Dr soon.raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Thanks for all the well-wishes everyone! I'm going to call again tomorrow and see if I can actually speak to someone. Hubby called me a while ago to check on me, I told him what I've told you all, and he agrees that I need to see the doctor ASAP. I've literally just sat around all day obsessing, worrying, and wanting to lock myself in my room and cry. The only reason I haven't keeps running up to me and giving me hugs.
Thanks, I do too. I'm going to call again tomorrow morning to reschedule the appointment they so nicely cancelled for me the other day. (Apparently the doctor isn't going to be in the office Thursday...)
Really, don't be afraid to say it's an emergency. Take care of you!
This!!! I have found if I am calm, even in emergency, I am not taken seriously so I have to "act" freaked out in an emergency situation to actually get help. ((HUGS))
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This is to sooo many people, physically, emotionally, eating, etc. I don't have the time (unfortunately) to give you each an individual reply even though I want to very much.
Progress, not perfection. It is ok and normal to be less than perfect and look less than great while moving toward our goals. It is ok and normal to fall down (fail, goof up, etc.) just take a deep breath and dust yourself off (figuratively or emotionally) and start again. You CAN do it!!! I got my degree one breath at a time. Really. I got through my biggest heartbreak one little breath at a time. Trust me, if I can do it then you can do it too. I believe in you! (and you and you and you...)0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »
Ok, I have to be honest and said I am suddenly feeling discouraged from @bkhamill 's comment.....now I feel a bit like why try if I don't really have a chance to succeed? Losing weight isn't something I have ever been focused on, and it was not until my DR said something that I really thought 'ok, guess I should do this", because I always try and take the best care I can of my health, and follow what my DR says as best I can. But I have heard other people say that they could only do it when they wanted to, so maybe I am wasting my time? I put in a half assed effort a few years ago when a surgeon scared me, but then my current surgeon and my DR told me she was full of it, so that made me not worry. On the other hand I have heard the same thing about smoking, and I had no desire to quit, until my SO said I had to quit if I wanted to have a baby, and I did, before I got pregnant, and never looked back. Maybe this will be the same? It is not like I want to lose 250lbs or anything, she only asked me to lose 50.....although I wonder if I lose that 50 if she will want me to lose another 50 or something......ugh, now I am full of doubt......
Ok, I now see the fitbit thread has daily goals, will start to post there tomorrow!
Why worry about the "What if's" when you have a concrete goal. Take that 50 pounds, break it into goals that work for you and let us cheer you on. (((HUGS)))
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Today is the day the earth was farthest from the sun on it's annual orbit. The word is aphelion.
I tried to write a haiku about it for my boyfriend and it turned into a mini science lesson. So I tried again, same thing. Here they are, two geeky haiku for you.
Lackadaisical
Terra's annual zenith
Apogee reached
Kepler's second law
Max potential energy
Sun so far away
Bed for me. Hugs and cheers and heartfelt encouragement to those who need it.
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Italian_Buju wrote: »
Ok, I have to be honest and said I am suddenly feeling discouraged from @bkhamill 's comment.....now I feel a bit like why try if I don't really have a chance to succeed? Losing weight isn't something I have ever been focused on, and it was not until my DR said something that I really thought 'ok, guess I should do this", because I always try and take the best care I can of my health, and follow what my DR says as best I can. But I have heard other people say that they could only do it when they wanted to, so maybe I am wasting my time? I put in a half assed effort a few years ago when a surgeon scared me, but then my current surgeon and my DR told me she was full of it, so that made me not worry. On the other hand I have heard the same thing about smoking, and I had no desire to quit, until my SO said I had to quit if I wanted to have a baby, and I did, before I got pregnant, and never looked back. Maybe this will be the same? It is not like I want to lose 250lbs or anything, she only asked me to lose 50.....although I wonder if I lose that 50 if she will want me to lose another 50 or something......ugh, now I am full of doubt......
Ok, I now see the fitbit thread has daily goals, will start to post there tomorrow!
Why worry about the "What if's" when you have a concrete goal. Take that 50 pounds, break it into goals that work for you and let us cheer you on. (((HUGS)))
I just got back out of bed to add something that has been bothering me since I last posted....I want to make it clear that I in NO way thought that @bkhamill 's comment was meant to be discouraging or anything like that. Lots of people say the "you need to do it for YOU' comment about many different things.....that was just where my mind went......that is me, not her.....0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »
Ok, I have to be honest and said I am suddenly feeling discouraged from @bkhamill 's comment.....now I feel a bit like why try if I don't really have a chance to succeed? Losing weight isn't something I have ever been focused on, and it was not until my DR said something that I really thought 'ok, guess I should do this", because I always try and take the best care I can of my health, and follow what my DR says as best I can. But I have heard other people say that they could only do it when they wanted to, so maybe I am wasting my time? I put in a half assed effort a few years ago when a surgeon scared me, but then my current surgeon and my DR told me she was full of it, so that made me not worry. On the other hand I have heard the same thing about smoking, and I had no desire to quit, until my SO said I had to quit if I wanted to have a baby, and I did, before I got pregnant, and never looked back. Maybe this will be the same? It is not like I want to lose 250lbs or anything, she only asked me to lose 50.....although I wonder if I lose that 50 if she will want me to lose another 50 or something......ugh, now I am full of doubt......
Ok, I now see the fitbit thread has daily goals, will start to post there tomorrow!
Why worry about the "What if's" when you have a concrete goal. Take that 50 pounds, break it into goals that work for you and let us cheer you on. (((HUGS)))
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Today is the day the earth was farthest from the sun on it's annual orbit. The word is aphelion.
I tried to write a haiku about it for my boyfriend and it turned into a mini science lesson. So I tried again, same thing. Here they are, two geeky haiku for you.
Lackadaisical
Terra's annual zenith
Apogee reached
Kepler's second law
Max potential energy
Sun so far away
Bed for me. Hugs and cheers and heartfelt encouragement to those who need it.
That is a bit geeky. I totally don't understand it. 0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Geeez! Take a 4 day weekend and come back to more than 32 pages! I have to skip them. I did skim some pages as I was tagged a few times. Thanks @lilaclovebird for the info on sexual assault and to all who commented on my before and after pics - sorry I can't remember who all it was.
Sorry I have missed so much and like I said I just skimmed some pages.
@Italian_Buju I truly believe that when it is time for you lose weight you will know but YOU have to be ready to do it for YOU and not for some doctor or anyone else. Trust me, I tried many times for everyone else and it never worked and when I finally wanted it for ME, I was able to do it. I'd also like to add that I am so sorry you have so much to deal with. Maybe you should just focus on you and changing one small thing each week/day to move in the direction you want to be. It won't be so stressful and overwhelming that way.
my confession: I was really, really bad over the weekend, too much to eat, wrong things to eat, too much to drink. I did have a lot of activity, even hit the gym at our hotel two times, we went to Six Flags one day - lots of walking, and even so the scale is up 6lbs today! I know alot of it is water, (lots of salty foods and did I mention alcohol) but it was painful to see that damage this morning on the scale.
If I wait for me, it will never happen, I am rather content, lol, but I do not want to die, so that is a motivation, because I seriously fear my family trying to survive without me.....I know my DR is right, so I thought that should be enough? And thanks for the other.....I guess once I opened up here it really came pouring all out....
My 2 cents (FWIW) I agree with @bkhamill (but read your later note and came back to find out what she said before I replied). You can't lose weight until you are ready. It won't stay off. And you'll be miserable trying to get it off. I can attest to this from personal experience.
But I don't think you should be discouraged by this statement. Is your health not enough to make you want to lose weight? To be there for your son? For your SO? To feel better? With all your medical issues I think losing weight would help. I have not gotten to your original post, so not sure 'what came pouring out' but you will in the end do do what you want to do...no matter what the DR or anyone else says. Just like with your SO... most of us had a different opinion about that situation, but you are living it (we are a bunch of people not in your real life, so are only going on what you are telling us, not the clues we see/hear by being in your life) but the reality is you will always do what you want...not what other people tell you to do.
So you decide what you want. If its to stay at your current weight and you don't feel motivated by what your DR told you are the consequences, then that is what you will do in the end, after a few weeks of frustration and a fruitless attempt to change habits you don't really in your heart want to change. And anything we say here will not change that. So, decide what you want to do and do it. Whatever that 'it' is. With eyes wide open.
And glad you are getting some sleep, you may have a different opinion after a good night's rest. I often do. Lack of sleep wreaks havoc on your system. G'Night!0 -
CountessKitteh wrote: »CountessKitteh wrote: »I'm almost 30 pages behind (largely avoided my laptop this weekend and was off today) but I'm still alive!
NSV: Put on a shirt today that I wore on vacation two years ago. The difference is huge, and that was such a great motivation boost!
Yay!! Is that it in the picture? Cause you look amazing
It is! POF requested a picture and I obliged.
And you truly look amazing. Amazing.0
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