Highest weight how you felt

juliecat1

Just wondering how others felt at there highest weight. My highest weight was 326lbs I know right!! I felt awful just terrible Im down 59lbs and lots to go but Im losing the weight and gaining the confidents how about you guys?

High five girl! Way to take back yourself!

I started right where you did. I was plain sad. Trapped. Didn't want to leave my house. I had nothing to talk about. Nothing to do. I hurt. I cried. I took 3 antidepressants a day.

Now.... Complete 180 most days. I worked hard for this. I'm proud of myself again. And feeling like rocking my 30s!

keesh1123

My highest weight was 170 lbs...and I've been told "that's not that overweight" or "well you've never REALLY been fat" but to me, on my frame, that was when I felt like I was out of control. I am 5'3" and have a very small frame. When I saw that number on the scale I was horrified and I thought "How did I let it get this bad??" I gained a lot of weight while pregnant (went from about 125 to 190!) and then just never really did much to lose it afterward. I went down to about 150 for a while then slowly it crept back up to 170 this past winter and I just felt so embarrassed and ashamed of myself.
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^^^This is almost EXACTLY my story. My last two pregnancies, each time that I saw 170 on the scale, I went into weight loss mode.

interceptor311

Awful, depressed, ashamed, insecure.

This

How do you feel now and where are you in your weight loss?

I'm getting there :-)

cdc33

Just wondering how others felt at there highest weight. My highest weight was 326lbs I know right!! I felt awful just terrible Im down 59lbs and lots to go but Im losing the weight and gaining the confidents how about you guys?

High five girl! Way to take back yourself!

I started right where you did. I was plain sad. Trapped. Didn't want to leave my house. I had nothing to talk about. Nothing to do. I hurt. I cried. I took 3 antidepressants a day.

Now.... Complete 180 most days. I worked hard for this. I'm proud of myself again. And feeling like rocking my 30s!

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thanks!!! How long has it taken you to get where you are now? very inspiring and its always encouraging to know someone who has been where I am thanks for sharing!

gdr1976

At my highest in 2006 I think I was around 370. I went for a physical for a security dispatching job and all I remember thinking "At least it wasn't 400 pounds". I was ignorant, didn't think I was in that bad of shape, wasn't happy with myself, but wasn't mad about it either. In 2007 I had a hernia operation, was supposed to be in & out, instead I was kept over night because my sugar was sky high. This is when I changed doctors, got on oral medications and tried to get it under control. Fast forward to April 2011. Sugar had been up and down with the weight. My weight at the time of this appointment was 347, just barley able to get weighed by his scale (only went to 350). Doctor wasn't liking what he was seeing and was going to give me another 4 months of oral meds and if it didn't come under control we were going to talk about insulin. Well, no way in HELL was I going to be jabbing myself with needle. May 2011 I found this site by recommendation of a friend and now a year later and 71 pounds lighter here I am. Still on the oral meds, but a lower dose and hoping to be off of them at my next appointment in August. Def feeling better, will feel great when I hit goal weight!!!

MaryJane_8810002

My highest weight was 267 and I felt like *kitten*. I almost never looked in the mirror.

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Shawn8216

Right now >> I feel horrible, sad/depressed/ a failure because I'm at my highest weight which ISN'T that high to others, but for my body frame, it just doesnt look great esp since its in the tummy area ya know?!

I'm hoping once I drop the extra pds, I'll be back to feeling a LOT more confident and comfortable with my body

HowieTwoPointZero

592

I had stopped feeling totally.

lolabluola

uncomfortable

nuttyfamily

I was close to 200 and while at that weight, I didn't feel like I was 'that' overweight.

But now that I have lost weight, I realize now that I feel so much better. I have energy now for things I didn't have then, I sleep better, I love exercising, I love to be able to shop in normal size clothes. Those are things I did not 'feel' when I was at my highest.

My wake up call was my dad standing behind me on a scale at the Body of Life exhibit at a museum. I hadn't weighed myself in years so had no idea. I made sure no one was around and jumped and he happened to walk up and the look on his face told me I needed to do something. He didn't do it to be mean, he just was truly surprised.

knapowell

Officially 289, but most likely 300-315. I didn't want to go anywhere. I didn't want to play with my kids. I had 2 or 3 things I could fit into. I was miserable. I will NEVER go back.

wow your weight loss is fantastic!!!! I hope to be where you are one day how long did it take you to lose the weight?

Thanks! I started on MFP on November 8, 2010, so it has been a little over 18 months. Best thing I have ever done for myself!

cmm7303

In high school, when I was athletic and fit, I was about 125lbs at 5'3" (I've stayed the same height). It looked like this:



I gained some weight after a car accident, and then lost it by the time I got married at 19, at 150lbs.



I was 194 at my heaviest with my first child:



It all came off rather quickly, though:



I always said 200 lbs was my "suicide weight" and yet in January I was 209. In 6 months, I've managed to get down under 180, but it was a rough fight. For all the months over 180, I cried at least once every day. It was terrible.

Tanyawhite30

189lbs...it sucked...I was so unhappy...no energy...I will never go back there.

Ahanaz

I am at my highest now, and I feel like I'm not enough for anyone, I feel disgusted by looking at myself in the mirror. I don't even try to think about wearing bikinis or dresses that goes above the knee. I am confident though, I am who I am, and if people don't want to spend time with me because of my looks, it's their problem. I want friends who likes me for WHO I am, not WHAT I am. So in that way it's nice. But it would feel nice to feel sexy for a change.

I am also tired all the time and I kind of force myself to be happy, but if I'm alone and don't have anyone around or anything to do, it might get to me and I end up in tears, pissed at myself for not doing anything about it. But now that is gonna change!

cdc33

At my highest in 2006 I think I was around 370. I went for a physical for a security dispatching job and all I remember thinking "At least it wasn't 400 pounds". I was ignorant, didn't think I was in that bad of shape, wasn't happy with myself, but wasn't mad about it either. In 2007 I had a hernia operation, was supposed to be in & out, instead I was kept over night because my sugar was sky high. This is when I changed doctors, got on oral medications and tried to get it under control. Fast forward to April 2011. Sugar had been up and down with the weight. My weight at the time of this appointment was 347, just barley able to get weighed by his scale (only went to 350). Doctor wasn't liking what he was seeing and was going to give me another 4 months of oral meds and if it didn't come under control we were going to talk about insulin. Well, no way in HELL was I going to be jabbing myself with needle. May 2011 I found this site by recommendation of a friend and now a year later and 71 pounds lighter here I am. Still on the oral meds, but a lower dose and hoping to be off of them at my next appointment in August. Def feeling better, will feel great when I hit goal weight!!!

I think that you have done fantastic!!!! I hate needles to and Im sure with being faced with them I would change pretty quick too. very inspiring keep up the great work, Cheers to you!

cdc33

My highest weight was 267 and I felt like *kitten*. I almost never looked in the mirror.

I know how you feel I still stand behind people to get my picture take you will never see a full body shot. Im working on that it a confidents thing.

cdc33

208. It sucked...but it gave me new empathy for what larger people go through on a daily basis.

I can understand this as well i have gone thru may thing that I think no one should go thru but I wouldnt change any of it as I wouldnt truly be able to understand had not been thru it. Cheers to you!

vade43113

Like every other day of my life... so nothing new

sarah44254

I felt horrible about myself at 170.

I still feel pretty horrible about myself now at 150. But I know I can do it, and I know it is pretty easy. Now I just know that I am too lazy to put forth the effort to lose the rest of the weight and that helps me feel awful.

cdc33

Right now >> I feel horrible, sad/depressed/ a failure because I'm at my highest weight which ISN'T that high to others, but for my body frame, it just doesnt look great esp since its in the tummy area ya know?!

I'm hoping once I drop the extra pds, I'll be back to feeling a LOT more confident and comfortable with my body

Its all in how you feel about your body not in what other think you should be. they may say you look great and you probably do but its all in how you feel in your body that matters, Cheers friend

oregonzoo

200

from most of my life being no higher than 120.
Due to my height nobody thought it was a big deal, but for me it was scary. I'd always wanted to be in front of the camera before all that weight. And when I got to that weight I NEVER wanted my pictures taken.

cdc33

592

I had stopped feeling totally.

I got to that point to so I stopped trying, Im not sure what made me change and decide I was worth it but Im glad it did. How are you doing now?

tugers2

highest weight was 240lbs... and i felt fat

concerto3

I actually felt pretty awesome 90% of the time when I weighed 233lbs. Other than being unhealthy, and sick a lot of the time, I felt confident and happy.
I actually feel much less confident, and more self-conscious now at my current weight, 52lbs lighter, than I ever did then from what I can remember.

cdc33

uncomfortable

And how do you feel now in comparison, your pic looks great you look very fit!

Rosa1213

I felt absolutely disgusting at 189. I felt fat, unattractive, and I was really insecure about my boyfriend thinking I was fat and gross.

I've always been able to get away with being a bit overweight because I'm tall and don't really carry it around my midsection. Instead, I carry most of my weight in my thighs and butt.

But now I'm 14 lbs down and I can already see a slight difference when I look in the mirror. I'll never ever let myself get so overweight again. It may not be much, but it's a start, and it only motivates me to work harder.

RainxPain

Depressed, insecure, miserable. I still feel like that now.

My starting weight was 170, currently 138, and my goal is 105.

I'm 5'4.

MCinSoCal

My highest weight was 189 pounds...I was in a state of disbelief about it. I've had 3 children and even at NINE months pregnant with my 1st 2 kids I only ever got up to 149 pounds, with my 3rd I got up to 162 and that was only because I was bedridden the last 2 months of pregnancy. I guess I never realized how lucky I was to be so fit and took myself and my health for granted.

I was going through a lot back then and fell into the deepest darkest depression I've ever experienced, and began drinking a lot...in 1-2 months time, I gained 70 pounds!!! I never realized I was gaining so much at the time, the only mirror I had was in the bathroom and only showed my from the shoulders up and to be honest I didn't really care at the time anyways...I had basically given up on life...

Now here we are almost 6 years later and I'm still trying to lose this weight. Though honestly I've only been really trying since about October of last year. I've come down a good deal, I'm at 159.5 as of this morning and I feel SO much better already. More confident, more determined, more ALIVE. I still have a ways to go to reach my goal of 130 but I'm confident that I will get there. And i too am SOOOOO thankful I found this site, the people here encourage and keep me going sometimes when I lose momentum.

SMJ1987

@170 I felt LUMPY. I also felt like a failure. My mom has been 130 lbs my whole life and I wondered how, at 55 years old, she could be slim and I was fat in my 20s.

Now @ 140 and < 20% I feel strong, athletic and way more confident.