Online Cheating

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That's what I thought too. I started chatting online about two years ago. I have been married many years and would have never thought once of cheating. My husband is considerate, supportive, and a really nice guy. He was my first love. I went head over heels and never even noticed another man until I started doing the online thing.

Very quickly though things got out of control online. I have six different serious relationships online. They all started as flirting and innuendo, but now I care about these other men. And I hate myself for craving the excitement and attention. I have shared pics with all of them and they have shared back. Some shared WAY too much, but it was so interesting. They all know I am married.

I dont want to lose my sweet husband, but these relationships are so exciting. They say and do things I have never experienced. I tried to secretly introduce some of it back to my real life bedroom, but my husband is traditional/restrained and put the kabosh on different positions and stuff. I don't know how to describe what we have other than routinely adequate.

Chatting online is feeling like an addiction. I can't tell my husband that I want to play and flirt online because it would kill him. I'm trying to go back to how I was before, but i'm struggling since now that I see all the things available, the routine isnt getting it done. I never say no to my husband, but it is so incredibly routine that I sneak glances at the clock to see how much longer before he is done. He is definitely picking up on my increased computer time. He has even joked that he is a little jealous of the computer.

I wish I had known how bad and trapped I feel now when I started flirting online. I am in trouble, guilty and scared. It doesn't feel so harmless to me right now.
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I see you have deactivated your account so you won't see this. This is a very powerful testimony to the vulnerability of us all in unhappy relationships to on-line friends. Thank you.