Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • ogmomma2012
    ogmomma2012 Posts: 1,520 Member
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    Confession: Today has been all about exercising so I can eat what I wanted and not kill my goals. Tomorrow I really want to push myself to use my jogging stroller, but lately I've been a total *kitten* to myself and I have shut off my alarm without remembering doing so and going back to sleep! Grrr!
  • Alatariel75
    Alatariel75 Posts: 17,959 Member
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    Confession: Today has been all about exercising so I can eat what I wanted and not kill my goals. Tomorrow I really want to push myself to use my jogging stroller, but lately I've been a total *kitten* to myself and I have shut off my alarm without remembering doing so and going back to sleep! Grrr!

    LOL time to put the phone/alarm clock on the other side of the room!
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
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    ShibaEars wrote: »
    AlciaMode wrote: »
    ethim wrote: »

    Definitely this. For various reasons I've always felt the odd one out and that friendships I have made have faded/been cut off. Not only does this mean it's more difficult to make friends - the more I put in the harder it will hurt when it ends - it also means I've grown pretty independent. I go on holiday alone, go to gigs alone, go to the cinema alone, go on excursions to art galleries/hiking/museums/new places alone. Sometimes I like it - I can do what I want... but I do feel ALONE.

    I have a bunch of great, great friends (not trying to rub it in or anything) and I still like to go and do things on my own. Not having to consider "will everyone be able to eat something at this restaurant?" Or "if i invite my homies will i get stuck paying for their broke butts?" do great things for my psyche. Besides I really like being by myself. I am plotting on a one person vacation to Arizona, and am notorious for seeing movies by myself with a 40 stashed in my purse. I go to bars alone and read books while sipping martinis. More power to you for not depending on others to have some fun. Every person that is capable of being on their own will eventually make a great companion because you know who YOU are and what YOU want.

    I totally agree. When I used to go to bars, I would go on my own sometimes, I mean, you always meet people there anyway. And one of my favorite things now is to go to the movies on my own. Sometimes I won't even tell anyone I plan to see something to avoid someone wanting to come lol. I travel all day on my own at least one of my two days off, just doing my own thing! I even will go for lunch at a nice restaurant on my own, read a book or whatever.....I love it!

    Confession: Sometimes when I just can't stand being at work for one minute longer I'll tell them I'm "sick" and I'll leave to go to a movie. There are no lines and usually only one or two other people in the theatre.

    I feel a little guilty but then I stuff my face with popcorn and I feel better.

    On my day off I will go to the earliest show there is, like 3 or 4pm. Usually only a few other people there, I can sit with nobody at all around me, which means I can spread out, put my feet up on the chair in front of me, and even text a few times without bothering anyone.....I stay away when it is busy times, I will not go at peak times at all, because I do not want anyone sitting too close to me :p

    I can't sit next to a stranger at the movies. If I'm with 2 other people, I must sit in the middle (I don't care if the other 2 are a couple!) or I must sit on the aisle. It's all from an episode of America's Most Wanted I saw when I was about 8 where some loon sat next to a girl at the movies, then 20 minutes into the movie, 'spilled' his 'drink' on her lap and it was acid. Totally scared the hell out of me and it's been a whacky phobia ever since.

    Holy crap! That is scary!! I do not like anyone sitting in the seats right beside me, I like an empty seat on each side. Unless I am there with my SO, which only happens once or twice a year cuz he mostly pays to sleep there lol. Even with friends, one seat between us at all times!
  • misskarne
    misskarne Posts: 1,765 Member
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    My confession: I am a huge procrastinator. This semester is (hopefully) my last one, but it's the hardest one yet. I've been suffering from anxiety, which also makes me an escapist. Now I have an essay due at midnight that I have hardly started on. Good thing it's only 1200 words. TIME TO MAKE MYSELF DO IT.

    Have you heard of NaNoWriMo? The challenge where you try to hit 50,000 words in a month?

    They run things called "word sprints" during that month. Obviously they don't run it all year, but I did find when I was at university that running "word sprints" when writing essays helped me so hugely. I'd set a time limit (say, 10 minutes), and then, GO! It becomes self-motivating because you always want to beat your personal best.

    I don't know if that helps :)
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
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    shawnaes91 wrote: »
    When I'm out with my husband I compare ever female I see who is attractive or skinny to myself.
    I never use to or obsess on my weight or the way other looked. What started all this was my husband actually had plans to cheat on me while I was recently pregnant. The reason being was how big I was made him unattracted to me.

    Its the reason I want to hit my goal weight so badly.
    shawnaes91 wrote: »
    shawnaes91 wrote: »
    When I'm out with my husband I compare ever female I see who is attractive or skinny to myself.
    I never use to or obsess on my weight or the way other looked. What started all this was my husband actually had plans to cheat on me while I was recently pregnant. The reason being was how big I was made him unattracted to me.

    Its the reason I want to hit my goal weight so badly.

    Oh hon, it makes me sad that you're putting pressure on yourself, in addition to the pressures of being a new mum, because of something that is ALL on him. You know it's not OK to plan to cheat on your pregnant wife, right? And that's his fault, not yours?

    I know its not ok. I also know I can leave him at anytime I am in a position to be able to. We made the agreement to work our issues out.

    But even despite that its really taken a toll on my own self image. I'm not trying to be unrealistic with my weight goals or anything or my ways of reaching them.
    I'm not starving myself or anything or doing exercise until I drop I'm taking it slow and aiming for one pound a week. Its just I feel terrible everyday. I haven't shared with anyone in real life what happened. Its just nice to get it off my chest.

    Kudos to you for not stabbing him to death.....cuz I want to stab him and I do not even know him....I mean, who does that??
  • nuttyengineer
    nuttyengineer Posts: 112 Member
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    misskarne wrote: »
    My confession: I am a huge procrastinator. This semester is (hopefully) my last one, but it's the hardest one yet. I've been suffering from anxiety, which also makes me an escapist. Now I have an essay due at midnight that I have hardly started on. Good thing it's only 1200 words. TIME TO MAKE MYSELF DO IT.

    Have you heard of NaNoWriMo? The challenge where you try to hit 50,000 words in a month?

    They run things called "word sprints" during that month. Obviously they don't run it all year, but I did find when I was at university that running "word sprints" when writing essays helped me so hugely. I'd set a time limit (say, 10 minutes), and then, GO! It becomes self-motivating because you always want to beat your personal best.

    I don't know if that helps :)

    Why didn't I know about this when I was in college? This probably would have gotten me through so many procrastinated lab reports...
  • shawnaes91
    shawnaes91 Posts: 60 Member
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    shawnaes91 wrote: »
    When I'm out with my husband I compare ever female I see who is attractive or skinny to myself.
    I never use to or obsess on my weight or the way other looked. What started all this was my husband actually had plans to cheat on me while I was recently pregnant. The reason being was how big I was made him unattracted to me.

    Its the reason I want to hit my goal weight so badly.
    shawnaes91 wrote: »
    shawnaes91 wrote: »
    When I'm out with my husband I compare ever female I see who is attractive or skinny to myself.
    I never use to or obsess on my weight or the way other looked. What started all this was my husband actually had plans to cheat on me while I was recently pregnant. The reason being was how big I was made him unattracted to me.

    Its the reason I want to hit my goal weight so badly.

    Oh hon, it makes me sad that you're putting pressure on yourself, in addition to the pressures of being a new mum, because of something that is ALL on him. You know it's not OK to plan to cheat on your pregnant wife, right? And that's his fault, not yours?

    I know its not ok. I also know I can leave him at anytime I am in a position to be able to. We made the agreement to work our issues out.

    But even despite that its really taken a toll on my own self image. I'm not trying to be unrealistic with my weight goals or anything or my ways of reaching them.
    I'm not starving myself or anything or doing exercise until I drop I'm taking it slow and aiming for one pound a week. Its just I feel terrible everyday. I haven't shared with anyone in real life what happened. Its just nice to get it off my chest.

    Kudos to you for not stabbing him to death.....cuz I want to stab him and I do not even know him....I mean, who does that??

    Well I found out about i while I was still pregnant. It was really bad here at my house.. On my part I just raged like an crazy woman and the pregnancy hormones didn't make it any better. It seriously took everything I had to really just not hurt him because I came very close and I don't want to be that person. Yeah hes really not winning husband of the year with me. I don't make any excuses for what he did. Its really *kitten* up in every way and it was something I really never thought he of all people would do.
  • Jazzybrass
    Jazzybrass Posts: 41 Member
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    I feel sympathy for so many of you but cannot show it.

    I used to be so addicted to Diet coke that I would drink upwards of 2 litres per day and even more on a bad day. I only stopped when I had to go to the dentist (no issues- I was dared to) and was frightened of being told off. I had not been to the dentist for over 10 years before this and seemed to think that a few days of giving diet coke up would repair a lifetime of damage.

    It has now been over two months since my last soft drink/soda! I am very proud of this and being able to work through the severe withdrawal pains. I now drink coffee and water but am in no way addicted to coffee.
  • threnjen
    threnjen Posts: 687 Member
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    I drink tons of Diet Coke and my teeth are fine and I am too :)
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,409 Member
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    Because I only weigh myself once a week I get really nervous the day before weigh day and end up chugging loads of water and eating super light and healthy just in case. The healthiest day of the week is the day before weigh day! :D
  • sst036
    sst036 Posts: 58 Member
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    I went to three supermarkets to find creme eggs today. I'm supposed to be doing low carb but they are so delicious that I just don't care.

    Let's not tell my PT, okay?
  • gromithere
    gromithere Posts: 172 Member
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    It's 3:00am, I just got up to use the bathroom, and on my way back to bed I grabbed a cold beef rib out of the fridge and ate it. :-/
  • orangesmartie
    orangesmartie Posts: 1,870 Member
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    I binged really badly over the weekend, to the point i can;t even remember all that i ate. Feeling totally disgusted.

    Also, want to sign up for the midnight walk up Ben Nevis (UK's highest mountain) but worried i'm not fit enough, and I won't get fit enough in 13 weeks.
  • mellb34
    mellb34 Posts: 33 Member
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    I've finally read this whole thread, phew! Don't know why I felt I had to read it all before commenting :p

    My only confession really is that I'm greedy! I don't have a bad relationship with food and only used to hide food and eat loads at night in my room alone because my family would steal it otherwise. I just didn't realise how much I was eating so still eat crisps most days, a bottle of wine at the weekend, pizza on fridays and am still losing a pound a week because I'm eating better in the week. Oh also I'm lazy and would rather watch films and programmes and do my nails (another confession, I have around 320 nail varnishes) than exercise but I'm trying.

    Loving this thread and glad I'm not alone in some things :p
  • mellb34
    mellb34 Posts: 33 Member
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    Oh wait I completely forgot I actually do have one thing about food that makes me eat everything is that I feel like I'm missing out otherwise. When we have nachos at the cinema I plan to finish all the nachos, cheese and salsa at the same time because I feel like I won't enjoy it if I don't finish it all, I need to have crisps in for the weekend or I think it'll be a rubbish weekend etc. I left quarter of my pizza last friday on purpose, I could've eaten more and would've been really full but I decided to leave it and my night wasn't ruined! :o
  • 81Katz
    81Katz Posts: 7,074 Member
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    shawnaes91 wrote: »
    When I'm out with my husband I compare ever female I see who is attractive or skinny to myself.
    I never use to or obsess on my weight or the way other looked. What started all this was my husband actually had plans to cheat on me while I was recently pregnant. The reason being was how big I was made him unattracted to me.

    Its the reason I want to hit my goal weight so badly.

    I'm sorry you're going through that and let me another to say what a sh-tty thing for him to do to you. I hope you guys can resolve your problems and that he pulls his head outta his you know what. Nobody deserves to be made to feel that way about themselves. Good luck with your progress and do it for YOU! :smile:
  • 81Katz
    81Katz Posts: 7,074 Member
    edited March 2015
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    81Katz wrote: »
    We have Cold Stone Creamery here but I've only eaten there once. :neutral_face: I'm never temped to go there either. Now, DQ, yum! aka, in for the Blizzards.

    DQ!!! I love the Blizzards, but my favorite is still a vanilla soft serve cone with that cherry dip stuff. It reminds me of when I was a kid and my dad would take me and my brother to DQ after miniature golfing during the summer :) Good times.

    I like too many of their Blizzards. The cookie dough (MASSIVE calorie bomb no matter the size) I like the mint Oreo too. I tried their March Blizzard of the month earlier in the month, Grasshopper Mousse Pie, it was pretty good. Kinda like an Mint Oreo in a way but with pie crust and chocolate pieces instead of cookies. Yum!

    When I was little I always ordered the Dilly Bar.
  • kismet1428
    kismet1428 Posts: 27 Member
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    I almost didn't go to a dear friend's memorial service because I am so much bigger now than I was the last time I saw a lot of the people I knew would be there. I did go and you know what - I'm glad I did. I was able to celebrate her life with other people who loved her and who were as touched by her as I was. Additionally, I got to see that 1) I wasn't the only one who gained and 2) some of those people looked OLD!!!!
  • kismet1428
    kismet1428 Posts: 27 Member
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    ShibaEars wrote: »
    AlciaMode wrote: »
    ethim wrote: »

    Definitely this. For various reasons I've always felt the odd one out and that friendships I have made have faded/been cut off. Not only does this mean it's more difficult to make friends - the more I put in the harder it will hurt when it ends - it also means I've grown pretty independent. I go on holiday alone, go to gigs alone, go to the cinema alone, go on excursions to art galleries/hiking/museums/new places alone. Sometimes I like it - I can do what I want... but I do feel ALONE.

    I have a bunch of great, great friends (not trying to rub it in or anything) and I still like to go and do things on my own. Not having to consider "will everyone be able to eat something at this restaurant?" Or "if i invite my homies will i get stuck paying for their broke butts?" do great things for my psyche. Besides I really like being by myself. I am plotting on a one person vacation to Arizona, and am notorious for seeing movies by myself with a 40 stashed in my purse. I go to bars alone and read books while sipping martinis. More power to you for not depending on others to have some fun. Every person that is capable of being on their own will eventually make a great companion because you know who YOU are and what YOU want.

    I totally agree. When I used to go to bars, I would go on my own sometimes, I mean, you always meet people there anyway. And one of my favorite things now is to go to the movies on my own. Sometimes I won't even tell anyone I plan to see something to avoid someone wanting to come lol. I travel all day on my own at least one of my two days off, just doing my own thing! I even will go for lunch at a nice restaurant on my own, read a book or whatever.....I love it!

    Confession: Sometimes when I just can't stand being at work for one minute longer I'll tell them I'm "sick" and I'll leave to go to a movie. There are no lines and usually only one or two other people in the theatre.

    I feel a little guilty but then I stuff my face with popcorn and I feel better.

    OMG!!!! I totally have totally done the same thing. I will also claim I have an appointment - and I guess I do - at the movies. But I have to go to the one way across town so no one will see me. Other times, I actually schedule leave so that I can go do a mini marathon of movies.... Haven't done that in a while, need to do it again soon!
  • kismet1428
    kismet1428 Posts: 27 Member
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    Lefty1290 wrote: »
    81Katz wrote: »
    We have Cold Stone Creamery here but I've only eaten there once. :neutral_face: I'm never temped to go there either. Now, DQ, yum! aka, in for the Blizzards.

    DQ!!! I love the Blizzards, but my favorite is still a vanilla soft serve cone with that cherry dip stuff. It reminds me of when I was a kid and my dad would take me and my brother to DQ after miniature golfing during the summer :) Good times.

    My mom's favorite at DQ is a chocolate dipped in cherry cone. Mine is an m&m Blizzard.

    I go every other Sunday (but only if I make it to church that day) as my treat day. My fav is the Peanut Buster!!!