Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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lilaclovebird wrote: »
Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it.
And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?!
Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor.
ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.
Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives
Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.
I could've pretty much wrote this post, word for word. I have a 3.5 yr old and an 8 month old (both boys). Everyone tells me I'm an awesome mom, but I feel like I'm failing at it constantly. It's not effortless for me like everyone else I see on Facebook. I have to WORK at my patience.
To be fair, I'm pretty sure I have PPD and my 3.5 yr old is a DRAMA QUEEN and can be difficult, but still. I give everything I have in me to them, literally, and I still feel like I'm doing it wrong.
Part of my inability to keep the weight off is I eat my feelings at night alone when they're in bed, because I sit and relive my parenting failures for the day in my head, over and over.
And hi, I've lurked but decided to post in the thread today
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quiksylver296 wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »lemurcat12 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »I feel pretty weird, because I know gum is loved by mostly everyone
I haven't chewed it in years, though I didn't have much of a problem with it when I was the one chewing it...
I could basically co-sign your whole post.
I hate gum.
We can no longer be friends @quiksylver296
I don't believe you. You'll take me back.
You're right, but I will HAVE to have gum during our ZA missions. None of that fruity or dessert flavored crap though. I hate the way my mouth tastes after I have fruit flavored gum. Yuck!
On the very rare occasion I chew gum, it has to be peppermint. Can we compromise on peppermint gum? LOL
I actually prefer mint (spearmint, peppermint, wintermint, bubblemint, sweet mint) over any other flavor of gum. I like having that just brushed my teeth feeling without having to brush my teeth.
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rungirl1973 wrote: »kellienw335 wrote: »rungirl1973 wrote: »CountessKitteh wrote: »
Agree 100%. My grandmother was a good example of someone who shouldn't have had children. Instead she had 4 and told them pretty regularly that they ruined her life. My mum's screwed up in many ways by this, but she made a conscious decision to not be a mother like that and she's wonderful (if a little nuts).Italian_Buju wrote: »I have to add that I think it is NOT selfish at all to realize you do not want children. What is selfish is to have children you do not want, just because you are 'supposed' to, and then treat them as such.
The whole point of my last post was that I really wanted to be a mother, I do not think my life would be complete without it, but, it is not for everyone, and should not be taken lightly, nor should be taken on because of pressure.
My grandmother had 5 kids, and clearly didn't want the last two (my mom is #4), but took to them in very different ways. She's always been really hard on my mom (who is a whole lot like my grandfather - and was totally his favorite), but my mom's younger sister is her favorite. Go figure.
She's also really judgemental, to the point of occasional cruelty, which she tries to justify with religion. I confess that I don't really like my grandmother as a person.
My grandmother also had 5 kids. My mom is #4.
Kid #5 is 16 years younger than my mom. The other kids may as well have not existed after kid #5 came into the picture. When I was little, my grandparents followed my aunt (kid #5) and moved away, not telling any of the rest of their kids where they moved to and never contacting any of us again. Talk about dysfunctional. We found out from the newspaper when my grandfather passed away, after the funeral was over. My grandmother passed away a couple of months ago, my aunt let us all know about that before the funeral anyway. I did not attend.
People are strange.
They just moved away and didn't tell anyone where they were going? How crazy is that?! Did your aunt (#5) keep in touch with the family?
I know! My mom has said that her childhood wasn't bad or anything, but once my aunt was born, it was as if the other kids didn't exist. My aunt didn't get back in touch with the rest of the family until my grandparents' health started failing (they were both 90 when they passed).
My aunt had a daughter that was killed in a car accident on the way to her senior prom, several years ago. My parents and some other family members went to the funeral to pay their respects. They were asked to leave immediately after the service at the church as only immediate family and church members were welcome at the graveside.
The whole thing is nonsensical.
The funniest part (to me), my aunt is married to a preacher. Gives me that much less respect for people who label themselves Christian. The proof is in your actions.
That is just awful and true Christ followers don't treat others this way.
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I can't for the life of me chew most gums properly. I end up swallowing anything that isn't the Eclipse type after a few minutes, ha.0
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This afternoon, I went to the supermarket and bought baking ingredients with the intention of baking cookies and blondies for my mother in law this weekend as a gift of sorts. As I was buying them, I strictly informed my husband that we would NOT be baking any sweets/desserts this week, and these were ONLY for my mother in law.
Segue over to right now, midnight... There's a batch of brownies baking in the oven and my husband and I were co-conspirators in this devastating bashing of the "rules". 0 -
xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »
Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it.
And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?!
Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor.
ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.
Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives
Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.
I could've pretty much wrote this post, word for word. I have a 3.5 yr old and an 8 month old (both boys). Everyone tells me I'm an awesome mom, but I feel like I'm failing at it constantly. It's not effortless for me like everyone else I see on Facebook. I have to WORK at my patience.
To be fair, I'm pretty sure I have PPD and my 3.5 yr old is a DRAMA QUEEN and can be difficult, but still. I give everything I have in me to them, literally, and I still feel like I'm doing it wrong.
Part of my inability to keep the weight off is I eat my feelings at night alone when they're in bed, because I sit and relive my parenting failures for the day in my head, over and over.
And hi, I've lurked but decided to post in the thread today
It's not as effortless for them as it appears. People only post good & exciting things on FB. They don't necessarily talk about the bad stuff. (This goes for everybody on FB, not just related to kids.) Don't compare yourself to what you see on there, because it's not the whole reality.
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quiksylver296 wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »lemurcat12 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »I feel pretty weird, because I know gum is loved by mostly everyone I haven't chewed it in years, though I didn't have much of a problem with it when I was the one chewing it...
I could basically co-sign your whole post.
I hate gum.
We can no longer be friends @quiksylver296
I don't believe you. You'll take me back.
You're right, but I will HAVE to have gum during our ZA missions. None of that fruity or dessert flavored crap though. I hate the way my mouth tastes after I have fruit flavored gum. Yuck!
On the very rare occasion I chew gum, it has to be peppermint. Can we compromise on peppermint gum? LOL
I actually prefer mint (spearmint, peppermint, wintermint, bubblemint, sweet mint) over any other flavor of gum. I like having that just brushed my teeth feeling without having to brush my teeth.
Spearmint makes me gag. I'm being a PITA today, aren't I?
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Confession, since we're on that I ate two Ritter sport hazelnut milk chocolate bars yesterdayby myself. They didn't fit into my calories. And for dessert a had a slice of key lime pie.
No regrets.
I keep hearing about those Ritter sport bars and really need to try them out some day.
They are only chocolate I eat besides Ferroro Rocher or mint chocolate. But when it comes down to it they are my go to.
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Confession - when I go over like this I make sure to lift weights for 20 minutes so I can pretend I'm 'bulking'.
That's what I was pretending for my entire three-day junk/fast/too much food vacation fest.FluffySandwich wrote: »Another rather lame confession: I haven't the slightest idea what to do with my hair. I haven't had short hair since I was a baby just starting to grow it. I wish I had the courage to chop it up or do something with it, but I'm just scared of making it look worse. It's extremely wavy (and in my opinion, not the good kind of wavy!!!) and hard to manage, so I just straighten it all the time to make it easier for me to deal with, at least. It also wants to always be parted in the middle. I went to see a hair stylist last year and she told me that my hair was "refusing to be parted down the side." Dumb hair.
My sister has experimented with all kinds of cuts and colors (well, all shades of red), and I wish I could be more like her. For some reason I'm just too scared.
Mine too. If I attempt a side part, it wanders over by itself over the course of the day, creating a bizarre hump effect. I always say that I don't have a hair "do", I have a hair "don't".
A middle part is the least flattering for my face, of course, as it just draws attention to my nose -- not my best feature.0 -
quiksylver296 wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »lemurcat12 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »I feel pretty weird, because I know gum is loved by mostly everyone I haven't chewed it in years, though I didn't have much of a problem with it when I was the one chewing it...
I could basically co-sign your whole post.
I hate gum.
We can no longer be friends @quiksylver296
I don't believe you. You'll take me back.
You're right, but I will HAVE to have gum during our ZA missions. None of that fruity or dessert flavored crap though. I hate the way my mouth tastes after I have fruit flavored gum. Yuck!
On the very rare occasion I chew gum, it has to be peppermint. Can we compromise on peppermint gum? LOL
I actually prefer mint (spearmint, peppermint, wintermint, bubblemint, sweet mint) over any other flavor of gum. I like having that just brushed my teeth feeling without having to brush my teeth.
Spearmint makes me gag. I'm being a PITA today, aren't I?
Yes, you are! However, I still love ya.
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xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »
Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it.
And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?!
Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor.
ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.
Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives
Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.
I could've pretty much wrote this post, word for word. I have a 3.5 yr old and an 8 month old (both boys). Everyone tells me I'm an awesome mom, but I feel like I'm failing at it constantly. It's not effortless for me like everyone else I see on Facebook. I have to WORK at my patience.
To be fair, I'm pretty sure I have PPD and my 3.5 yr old is a DRAMA QUEEN and can be difficult, but still. I give everything I have in me to them, literally, and I still feel like I'm doing it wrong.
Part of my inability to keep the weight off is I eat my feelings at night alone when they're in bed, because I sit and relive my parenting failures for the day in my head, over and over.
And hi, I've lurked but decided to post in the thread today
Welcome to the thread!
That's the problem with Facebook. People post all their best happy moments and achievements to make themselves look better or make them appear as they are having the time of their lives every single day. People want to show everyone that they are "awesome" at everything and make it appear that they are having the most fun and nothing is ever wrong. No one is going to post pictures of themselves when they are hurling over the toilet from illness (except when friends post photos of you being an idiot after a night a drinking), changing diapers, the fights you have with your spouse, etc.
This is why I don't have facebook - I don't feel it is "real life" - it is more an edited version of "real life"
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Confession, since we're on that I ate two Ritter sport hazelnut milk chocolate bars yesterdayby myself. They didn't fit into my calories. And for dessert a had a slice of key lime pie.
No regrets.
I keep hearing about those Ritter sport bars and really need to try them out some day.
They are only chocolate I eat besides Ferroro Rocher or mint chocolate. But when it comes down to it they are my go to.
They are SO good. I have to purposely avoid buying one almost every time I go to Target.
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I've only had Ritter butter biscuits but they are amazing.
They are only chocolate I eat besides Ferroro Rocher or mint chocolate. But when it comes down to it they are my go to.Confession, since we're on that I ate two Ritter sport hazelnut milk chocolate bars yesterdayby myself. They didn't fit into my calories. And for dessert a had a slice of key lime pie.
No regrets.
I keep hearing about those Ritter sport bars and really need to try them out some day.
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xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »
Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it.
And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?!
Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor.
ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.
Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives
Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.
I could've pretty much wrote this post, word for word. I have a 3.5 yr old and an 8 month old (both boys). Everyone tells me I'm an awesome mom, but I feel like I'm failing at it constantly. It's not effortless for me like everyone else I see on Facebook. I have to WORK at my patience.
To be fair, I'm pretty sure I have PPD and my 3.5 yr old is a DRAMA QUEEN and can be difficult, but still. I give everything I have in me to them, literally, and I still feel like I'm doing it wrong.
Part of my inability to keep the weight off is I eat my feelings at night alone when they're in bed, because I sit and relive my parenting failures for the day in my head, over and over.
And hi, I've lurked but decided to post in the thread today
Hi, and welcome!
Not a parent, but I've been around on the planet for a fair number of years and I'm pretty sure almost everyone needs to work at their patience... I've never known anyone who doesn't lose it from time to time, even the most "saintly" types.
At least you recognize and put forth the effort... some don't.0 -
Don't hate me @Francl27 but I've had hardly zero appetite today and still have almost 1000 calories left for dinner. I hate when I'm not hungry because I want to use those calories.
It happens to me once in a while but I always have room for ice cream or chocolate... lol.
I just appear to have PMS symptoms when I ovulate now too. The moodiness yesterday, the hunger today... just awesome. At this rate I'm going to keep gaining a pound a month!0 -
I don't particularly like my nose eitherConfession - when I go over like this I make sure to lift weights for 20 minutes so I can pretend I'm 'bulking'.
That's what I was pretending for my entire three-day junk/fast/too much food vacation fest.FluffySandwich wrote: »Another rather lame confession: I haven't the slightest idea what to do with my hair. I haven't had short hair since I was a baby just starting to grow it. I wish I had the courage to chop it up or do something with it, but I'm just scared of making it look worse. It's extremely wavy (and in my opinion, not the good kind of wavy!!!) and hard to manage, so I just straighten it all the time to make it easier for me to deal with, at least. It also wants to always be parted in the middle. I went to see a hair stylist last year and she told me that my hair was "refusing to be parted down the side." Dumb hair.
My sister has experimented with all kinds of cuts and colors (well, all shades of red), and I wish I could be more like her. For some reason I'm just too scared.
Mine too. If I attempt a side part, it wanders over by itself over the course of the day, creating a bizarre hump effect. I always say that I don't have a hair "do", I have a hair "don't".
A middle part is the least flattering for my face, of course, as it just draws attention to my nose -- not my best feature.
Also, I just went to the store and got a package of gummy worms. Eating them made my teeth hurt... I'm unsure what that's about (instant cavity???)... and now I definitely need to get my butt over to the gym. Hopefully now that people are getting out of work it won't be packed. I prefer the gym when it's almost empty...
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quiksylver296 wrote: »AmandaPE1021 wrote: »Friday me and my boyfriend went to the cheesecake factory. I brought home an entire box of leftovers. I decided not to log the food for that day due to the fact that I would be grossed out by myself. So when I got home in order to avoid having to have an extra cheat day just for the leftovers I ate them in my room. Cold. Cold cheesecake factory leftovers.
The only thing I would eat at The Cheesecake Factory is the cheesecake. I think their food is horribly overpriced and not that good. The cheesecake on the other hand - lemon raspberry with lady fingers crust.... I need a drooling emoji again, Ceci.
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I'm not looking forward to the end of school because I sub teach so it means all summer with no pay check0
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spacequiztime wrote: »
I'm out of cookie dough eggs.kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »
The Cookie Dough & Birthday Cake flavors are my favorites! Is it Easter yet?spacequiztime wrote: »
I still have five out of twenty-four Russell Stover eggs from my day-after-Easter discount splurge. I love being able to pull one out of my stash long after the holiday's over.I bought 2 cases of sour watermelon peeps off of Amazon.com. heh. In my defense, I love them. They don't make them all year. And at 130 for a box they fit nicely into my dieting 1-2 times per week. I hid them so my friends can't judge me for my massive peep stash but my boyfriend knows and teases me.
Boo:(. The Wedding Cake flavor was alright, but it was too sweet at times. My least favorite was the Russell Stover Big Pecan Egg.0
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