Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • rungirl1973
    rungirl1973 Posts: 2,559 Member
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    I confess if you are a walker/jogger/cyclist (yes, even cyclists....) that talks on your phone WITHOUT a Bluetooth or even a wired headset, chances are I want to slap the phone out of your hand for how ridiculous you look holding that device up to your head during a 'workout'. Don't have a Bluetooth or you're technology challenged? Fine. Most phones come with a headset right out of the box. Plug it in and USE IT. Better yet.... save the poor soul on the other end from your non-stop drivel in labored form (oh how pleasant that heavy breathing must sound) and call them afterwards.

    Unless it's an emergency I refuse to be on the receiving end of those calls. If I can tell someone is doing something else or is preoccupied, I tell them to call me back later, then hang up. Doesn't happen often because very few people call me and the ones who do know how I am about that. But, as in your example, I often wonder who would put up with that?

    I may or may not dial into conference calls whilst multi-tasking from time to time. LOL
    It's always calls that I need to hear but won't have to do much talking, and I leave myself on mute. Other than that, the only call I may take while I'm running is either one of my kids (if they were to call me, I'd know it was important) or answering to say I'll call you back when I'm done.
  • xMrBunglex
    xMrBunglex Posts: 1,121 Member
    xMrBunglex wrote: »
    riinbale wrote: »
    I have been reading this and i feel sad for you :( People, i know what it is like to count calories and binge eat and how it feels later. But going on a low carb diet made it all go away. No more longing for "something good" and no more going to five different stores to find the right kind of ice cream. I just dont want these anymore and i am happy with eating low carb food. And my health has never been better :)

    I quite enjoyed this while eating my whole-wheat crust pizza and will read it again while eating my fat free Dreyers yogurt blend ice cream.

    And post a loss at tomorrow's weigh in.

    I ate a mess of bacon, eggs fried in butter, multiple coffees with HWC and beef brisket yesterday. I showed a 2lb loss this morning. Shocking!

    Your post is every bit as passive-agressively douchey as the one you quoted :disappointed:

    Yes, that was judgmental.

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  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
    edited May 2015
    MissLaaber wrote: »
    Yesterday was the lowest low I have hit in what feels like years, I just felt so alone and had a full on emotional breakdown over laundry that my SO didn't put away right when I asked him to. I ate my feelings and don't even want to try and estimate the damage I did. But! Today is another day and I feel a lot better, I've been chugging water and ginger tea to combat with the bloat.
    My confession: when I finally crawl out of the rabbit hole that I fell into, I'm terrified. I push away everyone that loves me and can't give them a real reason for why. Bleh! Life is hard guys.

    Isn't that the truth- preach!

    ETA: I'm glad you're feeling better today :) It is a new day!
  • ShibaEars
    ShibaEars Posts: 3,928 Member
    I have 477 posts to catch up on.

    But just to say: I climbed a mountain on Sunday. Felt awesome. Didn't struggle. Photos on my just giving page soon (address on profile)

    I'm still catching up too, but good for you!!!
  • itsbakertime
    itsbakertime Posts: 85 Member
    When I started MFP about 4 years ago, I weighed 220lbs. When I started really using it again about 2 months ago, I was 250lb. I have lost 22lbs in 2 months, but MFP still showed 0lbs lost because it goes by the weight you started. So, I edited my initial entry to 250lbs. This made me feel a lot better. I felt like the website was trying to shame me for being heavier than when I started, instead of giving me kudos for the 20+lbs I have lost in 2 months!
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    clover157 wrote: »
    Just_Ceci wrote: »
    I'm totally judging all this mint nonsense. Mint and chocolate do not belong together!

    I judge you back, they're soulmates!! ;) (Well, beside peanut butter and chocolate...... I don't know which one I love more!)

    I do not mind mint chocolate (although I have to be in the mood for it), but I LOVE peanut butter and chocolate, in all forms! Kit Kat Chunky peanut butter is amazing! My biggest weakness is Haagan Dazs Chocolate Peanut Butter Ice Cream.....I can NEVER eat that in proper portions lol. I have also been known to bake chocolate brownies with cut up pieces of snickers peanut butter in them.....

    :o Kit Kat Chunky peanut butter? Sounds amazing!! I don't think we get them here, though that's probably a good thing...

    They ARE amazing. I've had one twice... One of the major supermarket chains in Saudi Arabia imported it as a limited edition thing from either the U.S. or the UK. It was SO GOOD. And I sent my sister a picture of it to make her jealous, because she lives in Oman and can't have any. Also, she loves chocolate/peanut butter combinations even more than I do. ;)

    So... I guess my confession right now is that I'm an evil sister?
  • FluffySandwich
    FluffySandwich Posts: 1,293 Member
    I have always wanted to be a mother, but I do sometimes look at it as being something I wouldn't be good at. I like little kids alright... though I don't like certain things they do (their loudness, for example). I was a terrible kid. Name something, I probably did it. I stopped the monorail in Disney World by screaming and trying to get in the way of the closing doors. My mom swears I almost gave my grandma a heart attack. I don't want my kids to end up like me!!! I have pretty bad anxiety and I know I would probably be feeling that increase tenfold if my kid had a breakdown in a grocery store.

    But one thing I look forward to about being a mother (though I don't think I'll have kids for many years) is being able to have a sort of undying love that I hear all these mothers talking about on Facebook. And I know that, while my relationship with my own mom has had its rough spots, we love eachother and that's never going to change. She's also my best friend and really fun and I feel I can talk to her about almost anything. That's what I want with my own kids!
  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    My apple was quite the disappointment. It was crisp and juicy in some spots and mealy and gross in most others. I've had disappointment eating fresh fruit the last 2 days. Why is it SO HARD FOR ME TO PICK GOOD FRUIT?! :(
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    Just_Ceci wrote: »
    I'm totally judging all this mint nonsense. Mint and chocolate do not belong together!

    I judge you back, they're soulmates!! ;) (Well, beside peanut butter and chocolate...... I don't know which one I love more!)

    I do not mind mint chocolate (although I have to be in the mood for it), but I LOVE peanut butter and chocolate, in all forms! Kit Kat Chunky peanut butter is amazing! My biggest weakness is Haagan Dazs Chocolate Peanut Butter Ice Cream.....I can NEVER eat that in proper portions lol. I have also been known to bake chocolate brownies with cut up pieces of snickers peanut butter in them.....

    I do too! Chocolate peanut butter anything is magical. I'm one of those people that puts peanut butter on a spoon and then dips it in a bag of chocolate chips.... ;) Or I make a peanut butter sandwich and sprinkle chocolate chips on top and then microwave it. Magically delicious!

    Also, chocolate peanut butter oatmeal is my favorite breakfast ever. I have it EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. It somehow keeps me magically on track because I feel like I've had dessert for breakfast...
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,744 Member
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    I confess if you are a walker/jogger/cyclist (yes, even cyclists....) that talks on your phone WITHOUT a Bluetooth or even a wired headset, chances are I want to slap the phone out of your hand for how ridiculous you look holding that device up to your head during a 'workout'. Don't have a Bluetooth or you're technology challenged? Fine. Most phones come with a headset right out of the box. Plug it in and USE IT. Better yet.... save the poor soul on the other end from your non-stop drivel in labored form (oh how pleasant that heavy breathing must sound) and call them afterwards.

    Unless it's an emergency I refuse to be on the receiving end of those calls. If I can tell someone is doing something else or is preoccupied, I tell them to call me back later, then hang up. Doesn't happen often because very few people call me and the ones who do know how I am about that. But, as in your example, I often wonder who would put up with that?

    I may or may not dial into conference calls whilst multi-tasking from time to time. LOL
    It's always calls that I need to hear but won't have to do much talking, and I leave myself on mute. Other than that, the only call I may take while I'm running is either one of my kids (if they were to call me, I'd know it was important) or answering to say I'll call you back when I'm done.

    Conference calls are completely different! I do the same thing, but I also just have to listen and not talk. Phone is on mute and I just go about doing what I was doing.
  • FluffySandwich
    FluffySandwich Posts: 1,293 Member
    edited May 2015
    I seem to have some sort of weird phobia/strong dislike for gum. I've had this for as long as I can remember. When people around me pop their gum, I recoil. I constantly watch the ground to make sure there isn't gum that I could step in. I did that once back in middle school and it RUINED my day. Instantly kicked off my shoe and sat there shuddering for several minutes before finding a stick I could scrape it off with. If someone takes their gum out of their mouth in front of me (I work in a restaurant and gum on plates is terrifying :lol: ), I feel an instant wave of nausea. And accidentally touching someone's gum on the bottom of a desk??? URGHHH.

    My friends found out about this and thought it was hilarious. My boyfriend says I have a phobia for gum/spit (if people spit on me or around me, I have the same reaction). I don't think so, but it does seem to be a weirdly strong dislike. I told my mom about it and she said if I smelled gum on someone's breath as a child, I would gag.

    I feel pretty weird, because I know gum is loved by mostly everyone :tongue: I haven't chewed it in years, though I didn't have much of a problem with it when I was the one chewing it...
  • clover157
    clover157 Posts: 23 Member
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    clover157 wrote: »
    Dnarules wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    I'm not having a very good day. Total pity party and tears over my parenting failures. I guess it's a good thing that I decided to go for a walk instead of digging in the ice cream stash.

    Sorry to hear this. Parenting is such a tough job. I hope the walk helped.



    Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it. :smiley:

    And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?! :astonished:

    Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor. :wink:

    ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.

    Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
    I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
    Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
    But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives :(
    Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.

    Awe, I'm sorry you feel that way. That is quite the confession. *hugs*

    I confess that I don't know if I want to be a mother. When I was younger, I always wanted a big family - 4 kids or so. Now that I am 29 and the more I get established in my career and see the fruits of my job (mostly putting money into savings) I don't know if I want the responsibility. There are parts of being a mom that I really want, such as doing crafts, going to kid movies, Halloween/Christmas/Easter - the fun stuff. But I don't know if I can handle all the other stuff, such as getting up in the middle of the night for feedings, changing diapers, dealing with sick/vomity kids, bratty meltdowns in stores, being annoyed when I just want me time.

    I feel selfish because I just want the fun stuff but not the whole package.

    Not selfish at all! Good for you for thinking about it ahead of time. Why not be a mentor? Be a "Big Sister". There are SO many children out there in need of just what you want to provide! That would be awesome of you.
    Big Sister is a great idea! All the fun stuff, none of the responsibilities :) Do you have siblings? Fun aunts are always in high demand, they do lots of fun stuff for which the parents don't have the energy. Aunts and uncles, Big Sisters too, can be a great source of confidence and wisdom apart from the parents, someone the kids can turn too.
    clover157 wrote: »
    clover157 wrote: »
    Dnarules wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    I'm not having a very good day. Total pity party and tears over my parenting failures. I guess it's a good thing that I decided to go for a walk instead of digging in the ice cream stash.

    Sorry to hear this. Parenting is such a tough job. I hope the walk helped.



    Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it. :smiley:

    And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?! :astonished:

    Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor. :wink:

    ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.

    Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
    I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
    Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
    But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives :(
    Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.

    I think more people than you realize feel this way at least sometimes, but it's so hard to find someone to talk to about it because people act like you are the devil incarnate if you even suggest that parenting isn't fun all day every day, let alone admit that you don't really like it.

    What I want to say to you is this: If you have two (or more?) kids 3 and under, you are at one of the hardest parts and it is totally understandable to not enjoy every minute of it. It sounds like despite your feelings, you are doing your best and that is all you can do. Don't be afraid to reach out and get a bit of help with your depression, whether from a doctor or a therapist. It can make a world of difference. I don't know you, but I can almost guarentee that you are not messing up their whole lives. They will barely if at all remember this time period. Take care of yourself.

    Thanks berlynnwall, you're very kind :)
    Its all very intense and all consuming, Mr 10 months still nurses heaps overnight so I'm betting chronic sleep deprivation doesn't help
    It is hard to be honest with people because yes, you are seen as the devil incarnate by some lol
    It felt good to get that off my chest though! And now to snuggle in our family bed and appreciate how even though I get no personal space, they are nice and warm on this chilly night!

    Sleep deprivation never helps. I know from experience that this time feels like it will never end, but it does. It so does. Is there any way you could get more breaks? I know your kids are little, but taking even a few hours to yourself once a week can really be a life saver, even if you just use them to take a nap.
    The gym is my break, 4 times a week for 45 minutes, I definitely feel those days when I can't go! I would nap every day if I could, I get a nap some Mondays when Mr 3 is at daycare,napping is the bestml.
    Francl27 wrote: »
    clover157 wrote: »
    Dnarules wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    I'm not having a very good day. Total pity party and tears over my parenting failures. I guess it's a good thing that I decided to go for a walk instead of digging in the ice cream stash.

    Sorry to hear this. Parenting is such a tough job. I hope the walk helped.



    Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it. :smiley:

    And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?! :astonished:

    Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor. :wink:

    ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.

    Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
    I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
    Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
    But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives :(
    Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.

    Same here. Sometimes I read how people feel about their kids but it seems I'm always so busy playing referral or cooking or packing lunches or doing laundry or cleaning their mess and trying not to go crazy that I don't really get to enjoy it. Or how new parents love their babies so much while I was just so exhausted from having 2 at once that I just wanted some time alone!

    Oh and people who are so sad when Summer break is over. Are you kidding me? I want to celebrate. Tears of joy the first day of school. Seriously.

    Then I see all those couples still so much in love after 10 years and it's definitely not me either so I'm thinking it's a problem with me. But to be fair, I don't like little kids. They're gross and messy and loud. LOL. When I envisioned being a parent, I was more looking forward to the teen/tween age, when we start to be able to enjoy more 'adult' things together - walks, hiking, day trips, sightseeing, more interesting movies etc (and I know that's going to bite me in the *** later because I know that that age is no walk in the park either). Doing crafts and kids games and family movies etc... really not my thing (ok, I like Disney... to an extent).

    Ok Christmas and Easter are fun the first 30 minutes, then it's more mess, wrapping paper and packaging and toys everywhere.... lol. I mean, we do have some great days, but pretty much everything comes accompanied by 'I'm hungry', 'my feet hurt', 'I'm bored', 'I want to go home', 'waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa'. Facebook perfect family pictures? Hardly what it's really like. Although I guess that it depends on your kids. I have a happy one, and I have a whiner. Let's say that on the rare occasions that the whiner was busy at a party or something and we had the happy one, it was much more enjoyable.


    I confess that sometimes I daydream about going away ALONE for a week.
    Ooo an alone vacation! That sounds divine. I already have plans when my little one weans (probably in 3 years time, far out he loves the boob!) I'm going to a hotel for a night or two, spending the whole time in bed watching trashy TV while eating junk food ;)
    Do you feel like an introvert? I think that's my issue, mama needs alone time to refresh! Teens does sound nice, little kids act like tiny irrational drunk dictators....
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Confession: I wish I lived with somesomeone who could help me plan meals better. My meals for the week don't even total 1100 calories.

    I always think it looks like a lot of food, until I see the numbers and they're really low. :confused:

    Total? Or each? I'm confused. If it is total, please buy a food scale and start weighing your food. In fact, even if it is each meal, please buy a food scale and measure your food. Not judging - concerned.
  • Francl27
    Francl27 Posts: 26,371 Member
    Just_Ceci wrote: »
    I'm totally judging all this mint nonsense. Mint and chocolate do not belong together!

    I judge you back, they're soulmates!! ;) (Well, beside peanut butter and chocolate...... I don't know which one I love more!)

    I do not mind mint chocolate (although I have to be in the mood for it), but I LOVE peanut butter and chocolate, in all forms! Kit Kat Chunky peanut butter is amazing! My biggest weakness is Haagan Dazs Chocolate Peanut Butter Ice Cream.....I can NEVER eat that in proper portions lol. I have also been known to bake chocolate brownies with cut up pieces of snickers peanut butter in them.....

    I do too! Chocolate peanut butter anything is magical. I'm one of those people that puts peanut butter on a spoon and then dips it in a bag of chocolate chips.... ;) Or I make a peanut butter sandwich and sprinkle chocolate chips on top and then microwave it. Magically delicious!

    Also, chocolate peanut butter oatmeal is my favorite breakfast ever. I have it EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. It somehow keeps me magically on track because I feel like I've had dessert for breakfast...

    How do you make it? I tried once and it was a bit disappointing. I don't think I get the measurements right or something... although I do have that Reese's chocolate peanut butter spread.
  • ShibaEars
    ShibaEars Posts: 3,928 Member
    Just_Ceci wrote: »
    I'm totally judging all this mint nonsense. Mint and chocolate do not belong together!

    Everyone is entitled to their opinion. Even if yours is wrong :wink: LOL
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Francl27 wrote: »
    clover157 wrote: »
    Dnarules wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    I'm not having a very good day. Total pity party and tears over my parenting failures. I guess it's a good thing that I decided to go for a walk instead of digging in the ice cream stash.

    Sorry to hear this. Parenting is such a tough job. I hope the walk helped.



    Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it. :smiley:

    And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?! :astonished:

    Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor. :wink:

    ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.

    Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
    I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
    Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
    But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives :(
    Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.

    Same here. Sometimes I read how people feel about their kids but it seems I'm always so busy playing referral or cooking or packing lunches or doing laundry or cleaning their mess and trying not to go crazy that I don't really get to enjoy it. Or how new parents love their babies so much while I was just so exhausted from having 2 at once that I just wanted some time alone!

    Oh and people who are so sad when Summer break is over. Are you kidding me? I want to celebrate. Tears of joy the first day of school. Seriously.

    Then I see all those couples still so much in love after 10 years and it's definitely not me either so I'm thinking it's a problem with me. But to be fair, I don't like little kids. They're gross and messy and loud. LOL. When I envisioned being a parent, I was more looking forward to the teen/tween age, when we start to be able to enjoy more 'adult' things together - walks, hiking, day trips, sightseeing, more interesting movies etc (and I know that's going to bite me in the *** later because I know that that age is no walk in the park either). Doing crafts and kids games and family movies etc... really not my thing (ok, I like Disney... to an extent).

    Ok Christmas and Easter are fun the first 30 minutes, then it's more mess, wrapping paper and packaging and toys everywhere.... lol. I mean, we do have some great days, but pretty much everything comes accompanied by 'I'm hungry', 'my feet hurt', 'I'm bored', 'I want to go home', 'waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa'. Facebook perfect family pictures? Hardly what it's really like. Although I guess that it depends on your kids. I have a happy one, and I have a whiner. Let's say that on the rare occasions that the whiner was busy at a party or something and we had the happy one, it was much more enjoyable.


    I confess that sometimes I daydream about going away ALONE for a week.

    Me, too!
  • clover157
    clover157 Posts: 23 Member
    MissLaaber wrote: »
    Yesterday was the lowest low I have hit in what feels like years, I just felt so alone and had a full on emotional breakdown over laundry that my SO didn't put away right when I asked him to. I ate my feelings and don't even want to try and estimate the damage I did. But! Today is another day and I feel a lot better, I've been chugging water and ginger tea to combat with the bloat.
    My confession: when I finally crawl out of the rabbit hole that I fell into, I'm terrified. I push away everyone that loves me and can't give them a real reason for why. Bleh! Life is hard guys.
    Sending you hugs, sorry to hear you had such a hard day yesterday. Its always something so seemingly random that can set it off.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Uh-oh! Totally hangry today. It's not yet lunch time and I've mowed through my breakfast, a Quest bar, almonds and an apple. There will be no calories left for dinner at this rate.
  • ShibaEars
    ShibaEars Posts: 3,928 Member
    clover157 wrote: »
    Dnarules wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    I'm not having a very good day. Total pity party and tears over my parenting failures. I guess it's a good thing that I decided to go for a walk instead of digging in the ice cream stash.

    Sorry to hear this. Parenting is such a tough job. I hope the walk helped.



    Parenting is so hard, I am taking every effort to never have to do it. :smiley:

    And think about it, parenting with TWO parents is hard... and single parents...woah. AND if everyone is working?! :astonished:

    Everyone else can go ahead and make successful and wonderful humans. I do not feel strong enough to partake in that endeavor. :wink:

    ETA: I am serious about everything in this post. I see parenting as very difficult. It takes skills and abilities that I am pretty sure I do not possess.

    Here's something I've never confessed IRL before...
    I don't enjoy parenting. I don't think I was meant to be a mum.
    Don't get me wrong, I love my boys with all my heart. I give all of myself to them to ensure they feel loved, are happy and healthy.
    But I just don't think I was cut out for it. I've had pretty severe postnatal depression since my first was born 3 years ago and I'm sure that contributes, but I do wonder if its just my personality. Also, I carry a lot of guilt over my depression, its so unfair to them and I worry I'm messing up their whole lives :(
    Aaaaaaaand now I want to cover my feelings in food.

    Awe, I'm sorry you feel that way. That is quite the confession. *hugs*

    I confess that I don't know if I want to be a mother. When I was younger, I always wanted a big family - 4 kids or so. Now that I am 29 and the more I get established in my career and see the fruits of my job (mostly putting money into savings) I don't know if I want the responsibility. There are parts of being a mom that I really want, such as doing crafts, going to kid movies, Halloween/Christmas/Easter - the fun stuff. But I don't know if I can handle all the other stuff, such as getting up in the middle of the night for feedings, changing diapers, dealing with sick/vomity kids, bratty meltdowns in stores, being annoyed when I just want me time.

    I feel selfish because I just want the fun stuff but not the whole package.

    I don't think you're selfish (but as previously discussed, I'm not a kids person either). But I feel like this is when nieces/nephews or friends' kids are a great thing. You can take them out, have fun and then return them home before they get cranky :grin:
  • berlynnwall
    berlynnwall Posts: 669 Member
    I really overdid it yesterday because I was effing starving from not being able to eat on Sunday. Even with the extra 800 calories left over from Sunday, I still had to work out for an hour to kind of break even. I added 200 calories to today to account for the rest. Im not even sorry.
  • ShibaEars
    ShibaEars Posts: 3,928 Member
    I went to see the new Avengers movie yesterday. Loved it.

    I confess those kinds of movies always make me wish I was a ninja/spy/superhero.
  • m1xm0d3
    m1xm0d3 Posts: 1,576 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    I'm going to fess up before catching up today.
    Yesterday I ate everything. :disappointed: Reeses Pieces, Cadbury's Picnic bar, Jaffa Cakes, and a cookie. I also didn't go to the gym or go for a run after work. Then I thought it would be a great idea to weigh myself this morning and I'm back up to 214lbs. So I went for a swim this morning and finished 5 minutes early. I feel really tired, and I think my 'go to' is sugar. I feel like having a nap at my desk right now and its only 9.50am. :frowning:

    You can't go wrong with sweets:D. What does a Jaffa cake taste like?

    Hopefully your work day will go flying by.

    Ha ha Uh, I can't really describe it. I disassemble them anyway, chocolate edge first and then take the jelly off, eat the cakey bit and the orange jelly last. I don't play with my food normally but it seems to be a habit with Jaffa Cakes. Its a bit like eating the chocolate edge off a Kit-Kat first.
    Samesies. To both. Once I started eating a Chunky Kitkat the same way, kept nibbling and found it WAS CHOCOLATE ALL THE WAY THROUGH. My day was made.

    I absolutely hate that America hasn't discovered chunky kit kats...I will be bringing loads home after my visit to the UK woo hoo!

    Had to google those. Oh gosh. I want one now.

    Confession - it's definitely one of those days. Ended up having lunch at 11am. 340 calories left for the day. Fail.

    Aren't the kit kat chunky the same exact thing as the big kats?

    I'll have to check them out but I didn't think so. Now I'll have to go buy one of those and taste test is against a chunky kit kat!

    I see what you did there... setting up a pepsi-challenge of like candy bars.

    Sample
    Sample
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    More sample
    More sample...
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    ShibaEars wrote: »
    I went to see the new Avengers movie yesterday. Loved it.

    I confess those kinds of movies always make me wish I was a ninja/spy/superhero.
    Star Trek movies make me want to stride purposefully around a starship in a mini skirt and knee-high boots.

    Any news on your house purchase? Is it happening?
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
    I am not sure if I ever said this on this thread before or not (I might have, it is so long and my memory is bad, so sorry if I am repeating the first part), but I had my son rather young, because of various health problems.

    Basically when I turned 18 my diabetic specialist told me I should never have children and should consider getting 'fixed' so I would not have an accident. I had already been diabetic a number of years, had lost a kidney at two years old and was in hospital at least a couple times a year with infections in my lone kidney. He said a pregnancy would most certainly kill my kidney and might even cause death.

    I decided I really wanted to be a mother, and decided I was gonna try and have a baby, and if it killed me, oh well, nobody was depending on me anyway yet.

    It took me two years and several treatments to finally get pregnant. That whole time, I was always sad and depressed thinking it would never happen. Each month when my period came, I would feel like I was defeated.

    When I finally got pregnant, I was so excited I cannot even describe it.

    Then, when I was about half way through my pregnancy, I started to worry about what would happen if I did not bond with my baby. I was terrified. I think the messed up relationship between my mother and I was freaking me out making me think that maybe I would have a messed up relationship with my child too.

    Luckily that never happened. But those really young years were rough at times. I was young (I would not have chosen to have my child so young if health was not a factor), and he was colicky and later on very hyper. But the times that were wonderful were SO wonderful that it made all the other stuff worth it. Now he is 17 and for the last handful of years have had no problems at all with him that lasted more than a few moments.

    One of those most amazing things that happened is that since I have given birth, I have never, not even once, been in hospital due to my kidney. This really reinforced my faith in God.

    There were times I struggled as a parent, like I said a few posts up, things I even still feel guilty about, but I cannot even imagine my life any other way. I figure as long as my kids have a happy, healthy, stable, supportive home, they are much better off than I ever was, and I must be doing okay.

    As far as school breaks goes, I think the breaks are just the right amount of time. By the time summer break comes, I am SO happy to have a break from routine and be able to sleep in more often, make dinner later, etc. But by the time it is almost over, I am DYING for school to start to get back on routine, lol. It has been like that as long as I can remember.....
  • JPW1990
    JPW1990 Posts: 2,424 Member
    I have 477 posts to catch up on.

    But just to say: I climbed a mountain on Sunday. Felt awesome. Didn't struggle. Photos on my just giving page soon (address on profile)

    Yay! And I bet the coat looked awesome up there, too
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
    I have to add that I think it is NOT selfish at all to realize you do not want children. What is selfish is to have children you do not want, just because you are 'supposed' to, and then treat them as such.

    The whole point of my last post was that I really wanted to be a mother, I do not think my life would be complete without it, but, it is not for everyone, and should not be taken lightly, nor should be taken on because of pressure.
  • bkhamill
    bkhamill Posts: 1,289 Member
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    For the oreo lovers... COME GET YOUR FIX! :wink:

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    Sounds awful! I like Cheeseburgers and I Like Oreos but not together!
  • ythannah
    ythannah Posts: 4,371 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    I'm going to fess up before catching up today.
    Yesterday I ate everything. :disappointed: Reeses Pieces, Cadbury's Picnic bar, Jaffa Cakes, and a cookie. I also didn't go to the gym or go for a run after work. Then I thought it would be a great idea to weigh myself this morning and I'm back up to 214lbs. So I went for a swim this morning and finished 5 minutes early. I feel really tired, and I think my 'go to' is sugar. I feel like having a nap at my desk right now and its only 9.50am. :frowning:

    You can't go wrong with sweets:D. What does a Jaffa cake taste like?

    Hopefully your work day will go flying by.

    Ha ha Uh, I can't really describe it. I disassemble them anyway, chocolate edge first and then take the jelly off, eat the cakey bit and the orange jelly last. I don't play with my food normally but it seems to be a habit with Jaffa Cakes. Its a bit like eating the chocolate edge off a Kit-Kat first.
    Samesies. To both. Once I started eating a Chunky Kitkat the same way, kept nibbling and found it WAS CHOCOLATE ALL THE WAY THROUGH. My day was made.

    I absolutely hate that America hasn't discovered chunky kit kats...I will be bringing loads home after my visit to the UK woo hoo!

    Seriously??? No Chunky KitKats in the US? We've had them in Canada for a while. And you guys have the white chocolate ones that we don't get.

    Btw, Chunky Caramel KitKats are awesome.
  • Susieq_1994
    Susieq_1994 Posts: 5,361 Member
    Francl27 wrote: »
    Just_Ceci wrote: »
    I'm totally judging all this mint nonsense. Mint and chocolate do not belong together!

    I judge you back, they're soulmates!! ;) (Well, beside peanut butter and chocolate...... I don't know which one I love more!)

    I do not mind mint chocolate (although I have to be in the mood for it), but I LOVE peanut butter and chocolate, in all forms! Kit Kat Chunky peanut butter is amazing! My biggest weakness is Haagan Dazs Chocolate Peanut Butter Ice Cream.....I can NEVER eat that in proper portions lol. I have also been known to bake chocolate brownies with cut up pieces of snickers peanut butter in them.....

    I do too! Chocolate peanut butter anything is magical. I'm one of those people that puts peanut butter on a spoon and then dips it in a bag of chocolate chips.... ;) Or I make a peanut butter sandwich and sprinkle chocolate chips on top and then microwave it. Magically delicious!

    Also, chocolate peanut butter oatmeal is my favorite breakfast ever. I have it EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. It somehow keeps me magically on track because I feel like I've had dessert for breakfast...

    How do you make it? I tried once and it was a bit disappointing. I don't think I get the measurements right or something... although I do have that Reese's chocolate peanut butter spread.

    I found it really disappointing when I tried making it with milk, which is the traditional way to make oatmeal. It just drowned out the peanut butter flavor and tasted totally meh to me.

    I personally use:
    - 30 grams of "jumbo" chunky rolled oats (you can double it if you like more, it's more than enough for me)
    - 330 mL of water (About one and a half cups? I like it to be a little soupy, the thickened liquid is SO good. Again, preference. :))
    - 5 grams of unsweetened cocoa powder
    - 15-20 grams of peanut butter (My sister likes it with 30-40 grams of peanut butter, because she's a peanut butter freak, so it's also about preference here!)
    - One sachet of Stevia sweetener or any preferred sweetener
    - 1.5-2 grams of salt (I feel like the salt really helps bring out flavor. I've tried it without and it was just... No.)

    I kind of made up the recipe myself and kept tweaking the amounts until I found what I personally liked best, so it's good to play around until you find the sweet spot where it's perfect. If I'm using Quaker rolled oats, I have to use less water or it'll be too soupy. Heartlands (UK brand) is much more hearty and thick, and they can take in more water without getting watery. My current favorite is a local brand (Al Hanaa) that rolls out these ENORMOUS jumbo oats that aren't too thick like Heartlands or too thin like Quaker... So a heartier oat flake is important. ;)
  • lemurcat12
    lemurcat12 Posts: 30,886 Member
    I feel pretty weird, because I know gum is loved by mostly everyone :tongue: I haven't chewed it in years, though I didn't have much of a problem with it when I was the one chewing it...

    I could basically co-sign your whole post.