Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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kelly_c_77 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: ».....and we seemed to have jumped ship from Frozen to Doc McStuffins in our home. Instead of "Let it Go", now it's "Time For Your Checkup", and I'm not exactly sure which one is more annoying lol!
We've never seen Frozen...but I love Doc McStuffins! We went through a stage of watching a lot of Doc but have since moved on. I keep begging to watch it again...but nope. It's Paw Patrol, Mickey, and Backyardigans right now...with an occasional Bubble Guppies or Sherriff Callie's Wild West.
The one show I always ask if my nieces & nephews want to watch is Arthur.0 -
@Italian_Buju yikes. Sorry your son's bike keeps walking away. That blows.0
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raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: ».....and we seemed to have jumped ship from Frozen to Doc McStuffins in our home. Instead of "Let it Go", now it's "Time For Your Checkup", and I'm not exactly sure which one is more annoying lol!
We've never seen Frozen...but I love Doc McStuffins! We went through a stage of watching a lot of Doc but have since moved on. I keep begging to watch it again...but nope. It's Paw Patrol, Mickey, and Backyardigans right now...with an occasional Bubble Guppies or Sherriff Callie's Wild West.
We used to be all nick jr like Paw Patrol and Backyardigans, but when we turned cable back on the package we got didn't include it, only Disney jr. Now it's Doc McStuffins and Sofia the First (which I actually happen to like since it includes some of the princesses), with the occasional request to watch the Peppa Pig DVD too lol. Doc is cute, but that song just grates my nerves for some reason lol!
It's all about Jake and the Never land Pirates in our house and Miles from Tomorrowland0 -
Coastalpath wrote: »This is long so don't expect people to read it - just need to get it out!
Like a lot of other posters here I am going through lots of life stresses at the moment and the last few days have felt very sad, numb and unmotivated. I am ever so slightly eating my feelings 'grief bacon' but am logging it all so I can see it in black and white. My confession today is that I am fed up with never feeling as though I am allowed to be stressed or upset. Work, home, health are all suffering at the moment, but I am just expected to suck it up. If one more person says to me 'it could be worse' I might scream. I am silently screaming and unfortunately the pain is beginning to show on my face. I know things could be worse, just doesn't mean that because someone somewhere has it worse than me that I just have to 'be fine' all the time.
Dealing with mixed emotions is so hard - so happy for friends and loved ones who have fantastic things happening, mixed with my grief and sadness for what I am secretly going through. Not wanting to see friends because I don't want to make them miserable mixed with worrying I am not being a good friend by seeing them and sharing in their joys. Or, worse, that I am making them feel guilty for being happy.
Feels better to 'get it out' but I am so sad at the moment and I just wonder when bad things will stop happening!
Sorry you're dealing with this... I know what its like. You'll get through it
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spacequiztime wrote: »
I think it's the ChargeHR. I'm interesting in "upgrading" to that one.pofoster21 wrote: »
I don't remember. The one with the heart rate monitor.kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »S topping by to say fitbit ordered. In purple! 35% off!
@susieqhusband get cracking... she needs that Fitbit.
Whoo! Which model did you get?
Suzie will get that Fitbit in no time.
Just landed!
I can't believe someone keeps stealing your son's bike @Italian_Buju . The nerve some people have...
Thanks for the homeowners insurance tip pof! I never even considered getting a bike insured.
Well...I paid a lot of money for that bike! I wanted to be sure if it got stolen I could replace it.
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rungirl1973 wrote: »girldownsouth wrote: »rungirl1973 wrote: »
That will be great Ceci!!
Well, dang. I'm not in South Carolina or Texas.
Anybody near Nashville, TN?
I wish I was. My life would be awesome, hanging out in the bluebird cafe every night, enjoying the sunshine in the daytime...
Aw. Well I've lived here less than a year and I may never leave. I've actually found a city ipofoster21 wrote: »rungirl1973 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »rungirl1973 wrote: »
That will be great Ceci!!
Well, dang. I'm not in South Carolina or Texas.
Anybody near Nashville, TN?
No but I really want to do the country music marathon. Interested?
Sweet! We did the Half this year.
I ran the full in 2006 and planning to run it again next year!
Yay! Then lets do it! I'll sign up. I really really want to do this one and was thinking next year I would do it. I am going to try for the London one too. The qualifying time is doable for me (if I train) and that one is on my list. I haven't been to London since I was 17. Really want to go back. And now I have all these cool friends I can meet!
ETA and maybe Orangesmartie will join us!
Yay!! I'm in!
Okay April 30th 2016. I will register tomorrow!0 -
spacequiztime wrote: »
The last post I saw from her was on the ice cream group.kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »
Anyone hear from Krissie (not sure how you spell her name) lately? I hope she's doing great with her exercise & food.Susieq_1994 wrote: »Just about to head out from work and need to go grocery shopping before home. Just ate a quest bar to stop the hungries while I am shopping. Here's hoping it can keep me away from the Talenti!! BTW, where is Francl today??
She hasn't been around for a while, just like BZAH.
I'm not sure where either of them went, but @Francl27 mentioned something about giving up on keeping up with the thread right before disappearing so I don't know if she's going to come back...
Get ready for some forum downtime people!
Downtime makes me sad!0 -
kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »
ETA this truncating of posts just doesn't work sometimes.
You have to make sure you don't delete the coding at the beginning or the quotes won't show in their own boxes. For example, when quoting this post I removed all of the other quotes that got messed up, but I left the part at the beginning that says: quote="pofoster21;33077019" within a pair of brackets. That's what creates the quote box, and adding /quote within brackets is what ends the quote box.
Yeah I try to do that. But I think sometimes I may be overzealous in the deleting on my phone....
I wouldn't even try on my phone! Highlighting blocks of text to delete isn't a great success, and I'd have to backspace for hours to get rid of it otherwise... then it suddenly speeds up of its own accord and deletes stuff I wanted to retain.
I pretty much only use my phone to see images that get blocked at work.
I've tried to use the forums on the iPad app & it's so annoying!
Its ok to read but a pain to post!0 -
Hi everybody! It's be great and amusing to see your confessions. The ones I can relate to really made me smile!
So here it is... I've consumed an EXTRA 1400 calories today. I was feeling really down, there were free chips at work, I ate my grandmother's leftover hospital food, stressed, a bunch of other factors that I'm sure affect many of you regularly. I welcome whoever to look at my diary to see the damage.
Bad day today, tomorrow is Canada Day, cycling 73km on thurs, then 73km back home on friday... I keep telling myself I should be all right, but as most of you probably feel on bad days, I'm a guilty glutton0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »Ok, I give up!
Seriously, I GIVE UP!
I had an important appointment today that I thought was at 3pm, turns out it was at 2pm. I am not even sure how that happened because that is very unlike me.
Then, just now, my son texts me, to tell me that HIS NEW BIKE THAT HE JUST BOUGHT LAST FRIDAY JUST GOT STOLEN FROM HIS PLACE OF WORK. Are you kidding me?? Not only is that two bikes in seven days, but he just spent nearly $300 FIVE DAYS AGO, and it is gone! He is a 17 year old kid, that is a lot of money to him.....sadly, it is a lot of money to me too, so I am not even sure how much I can help him out.
And he needs a bike to get to work, it is not like he is riding it for fun. He literally uses it for transportation to and from work! Now, he is gonna have to walk the 35 minute walk again for who knows how long until he gets another bike.
I feel terrible for him, I am truly gutted.
Do you have homeowners insurance? They might cover it. When I bought my tri bike I called to insure it. They told me it was covered under homeowners.
Technically it is, but with the deductible he would not get much of anything.0 -
riderfangal wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »Ok, I give up!
Seriously, I GIVE UP!
I had an important appointment today that I thought was at 3pm, turns out it was at 2pm. I am not even sure how that happened because that is very unlike me.
Then, just now, my son texts me, to tell me that HIS NEW BIKE THAT HE JUST BOUGHT LAST FRIDAY JUST GOT STOLEN FROM HIS PLACE OF WORK. Are you kidding me?? Not only is that two bikes in seven days, but he just spent nearly $300 FIVE DAYS AGO, and it is gone! He is a 17 year old kid, that is a lot of money to him.....sadly, it is a lot of money to me too, so I am not even sure how much I can help him out.
And he needs a bike to get to work, it is not like he is riding it for fun. He literally uses it for transportation to and from work! Now, he is gonna have to walk the 35 minute walk again for who knows how long until he gets another bike.
I feel terrible for him, I am truly gutted.
I have no words that's just awful. It truly brought a tear to my eye. I have been sitting here today feeling for myself for no real reason and here you are going through all this. Big hugs and I wish there was something I could do. Sending you some strength my friend.
Thank you. I just feel really badly for him....he is such a hard working kid, literally work, school and the gym is his whole life. And he has the worst luck! A few months ago his custom order work shoes got thrown out, and now two bikes....ugh! He works like five days a week, goes to school full time, in fact, he was trying to see if he could skip having a lunch break next year to fit a fifth course in each term. I can count on one hand the amount of school days he has missed for the entire time he has been in high school. And as I have mentioned before, he is great with money, he NEVER spends foolishly, so it breaks my heart to see this happen to him.
I mean seriously, when he was young, he saved enough money on $10 a week allowance to buy himself a new xbox......he is very careful with money, so to see a big chunk of it get ripped from him really guts me for him.0 -
spacequiztime wrote: »
I think it's the ChargeHR. I'm interesting in "upgrading" to that one.pofoster21 wrote: »
I don't remember. The one with the heart rate monitor.kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »S topping by to say fitbit ordered. In purple! 35% off!
@susieqhusband get cracking... she needs that Fitbit.
Whoo! Which model did you get?
Suzie will get that Fitbit in no time.
Just landed!
I can't believe someone keeps stealing your son's bike @Italian_Buju . The nerve some people have...
Thanks for the homeowners insurance tip pof! I never even considered getting a bike insured.
Earlier this year, I saved up for an HR, to find out I could not get one big enough to fit up my forearm like needed because we do not carry the XL in Canada.....I was not impressed, the sports store I deal with even tried to special order me one through their fitbit rep and nada.
I can't believe it either, honestly it has to be a fluke because the first one was at my apartment building and this one at his work, but he has the worst luck ever!0 -
Thanksrungirl1973 wrote: »@Italian_Buju yikes. Sorry your son's bike keeps walking away. That blows.
I keep saying tomorrow has to be a better day, right?? LOL
At this point I am not feeling so hopeful!
I really wanna eat a pint of Haagan Dazs grief bacon right now!!!0 -
Thank you all for the hugs and good wishes. I am good and fine and so glad I got help and counseling years ago. I posted about it to share my path through it to the bright other side.
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I confess I should be sleeping now but instead I'm using my limited data to catch up here. Sweet dreams!0
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Where my SO is a data nerd who loves to know his heart rate, his elevation, his exact distance and speed... I am not all that interested. I want minimal knowledge. I worked out X minutes. I worked out at the intensity I felt like. SO does not understand my lack of wanting to track "but you are a scientist, don't you want the data?" The answer is nope. I might track something for a day or few days or week to calibrate my internal tracker so to speak, but what works for me is to listen to my body and pay attention. I do weigh myself to make sure I'm not inching up the scale, and I keep an eye on how clothes are fitting. I also pay attention if I'm eating a lot more or less than usual. That's it. So, at this point I won't be joining in the steps fun, but I'll cheer you on if it is what you enjoy as I cheer on my SO every time he sends me his garmen/strava personal best screenshot. Confession is a long word to work into a team name, how about Super Great Steppers? SGS? (ok, clearly not my calling to come up with catchy team names.)
ETA: When I was running regularly I thought I was running about 5 - 7 miles a day. YEARS later I mapped it out on map your run to show SO as we were visiting that town and he wanted to run a pretty route. Turns out I was running about 11 miles a day (sometimes more) and didn't even realize it! Yup, I was off that much. I was mildly amused and didn't really care other than to think, oh, I was in better shape that I thought I was. SO was dumbfounded, "how could you not know how far you were running?" Well, it didn't matter to me how far I ran or how fast, it mattered to me how I felt and how much I enjoyed the workout. 0 -
That is hard for a kid. Did a police report get filed? Can he/you look on craigslist or equivalent for a cheaper short-term bike?Italian_Buju wrote: »
Thanksrungirl1973 wrote: »@Italian_Buju yikes. Sorry your son's bike keeps walking away. That blows.
I keep saying tomorrow has to be a better day, right?? LOL
At this point I am not feeling so hopeful!
I really wanna eat a pint of Haagan Dazs grief bacon right now!!!
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Welcome and have a nice ride!nguyenlychee wrote: »Hi everybody! It's be great and amusing to see your confessions. The ones I can relate to really made me smile!
So here it is... I've consumed an EXTRA 1400 calories today. I was feeling really down, there were free chips at work, I ate my grandmother's leftover hospital food, stressed, a bunch of other factors that I'm sure affect many of you regularly. I welcome whoever to look at my diary to see the damage.
Bad day today, tomorrow is Canada Day, cycling 73km on thurs, then 73km back home on friday... I keep telling myself I should be all right, but as most of you probably feel on bad days, I'm a guilty glutton
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Original Poster who I will not identify for her sake, I'm glad I read it. I will reply with thoughts of my experience (and for those of you reading my experience is not at all the same, but something in what I'm saying may help her or someone else)
You have dealt with a lot. It does not matter what your orientation is in so far as what happened was in NO way, shape or form any fault of your own. At All. You are blameless. (HUGE HUGS). I am so sorry that you had the experiences you did.
**WARNING FOR THOSE WHO MIGHT BE TRIGGERED BY VIOLENCE - SKIP THE REST OF THIS POST PLEASE, THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO IS UPSET SOMEONE**
When I was 20 I met an acquaintance through a co-worker. He was a wealthy physician. He invited me to a barbecue. I was in no way attracted to him but I thought he was just being friendly and he was "known" so I said yes. I was drugged (the date rape drug) and have no recollection of what happened, but why would I be drugged if nothing happened?
The same year I was taken by two men in a situation where I thought there was a good chance I'd be killed and I was raped by one. I talked my way out of being raped by the second. I talked the first into a condom. I talked my way into being let go. I was shaken and I (kick myself for this one now) chalked it up to a hard learning experience and I moved on without reporting it and without telling anyone. Until 10 years later someone threatened by then 2 year old daughter. I took care of that situation IMMEDIATELY and have entirely put that person out of my life. I had flashbacks. I had nightmares. I sought counseling and was told I had PTSD. Counseling really helped me enormously. I reframed the incident so that I was strong and did everything I could to protect myself. I worked through the issues and I have not had issues since and that has been a number of years ago. Please seek counseling. Call the hotline number that you see for victims of ___ crimes even if you feel it does not apply to you because they can put you in touch with counselors. HUGE HUGE HUGS.
The first few counselors I saw were batty, find one you can work with. What happened does not define me nor do I think about it often. It is now just a tiny moment in time. You will get there. I believe in you and your bright future.
I couldn't skip it. I could not move forward in catching up without saying something about this.
I won't share all of my specific stories but the first time I was sexually assaulted was by my 14 year old half brother while he was baby sitting me. I was four years old, and my 12 year old half sister watched.
After that, I was sexually assaulted 3 more times in my life at varying ages by various people(the idea that only men can rape is bull smurf). Only once out of those three did I seek justice.
In those moments in court I contemplated suicide. I thought about the shame of the situation and I felt like everything that happened to put me in that room defined my whole life.
After I testified, my counselor said that the rape didn't define my life, but the moment in court DID. That moment was me taking control and holding someone accountable to their hurtful actions towards me. It took a long time before things balanced out and I was able to get out of my depression and let go of the thoughts of ending my life.
I've taken my life back and I have 30 pounds down to show for it. I'm strong, because I recognized my weakness and that I needed help.
Looking back, those situations are tiny blips in the radar of my past and do not compare to the amazing moments and real friends I have had since.
It seems difficult and you may feel alone, but help IS out there. All you have to do is find it.
And of course we're all here for you!
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kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »So I'm trying to catch up
I would also like to say that directly because of this thread, I talked to DH last night (and there was no yelling and/or crying involved lol) and we WILL be getting a cleaning service. I'm calling today to schedule the initial intake or whatever. I need the help and I'm tired of feeling like I can't even enjoy my kids bc I'm always working. I will make room in the budget for it. If it delays me upgrading my car, then so be it. It will be worth it.
Didn't have the dog convo yet, but I did sorta bring up the subject of the car. Some forward progress was made but he got a little huffy about, "I'm doing the best I can, I'm only 27 with 2 kids so I don't know how to adult" and I shut down. I have no cares that his co-workers don't have kids. He does, he needs to man up. So in lieu of an argument I stopped talking and went for a walk outside.
AND I'm officially down 30 lb today!!!! WOOT!!!!! 10 lb to goal and then I'll adjust again, but I'm 3/4 done with my initial loss!! I'm concentrating on that today
Congrats on hitting 30 pounds down!
@xLoveLikeWinterx hurray for a conversation with your DH. A cleaning service is a great place to start! Yes, he does need to man up. Would he be a different person if he worked where all his coworkers were grandparents? What does it matter what his coworkers are doing he is a committed, married man and he got to that point of his own free will.0 -
@riderfangal hugs. Sometimes we feel things for no obvious reason. Sometimes it is hormones. Sometimes we need to dig deeper to figure out why we have the feelings we have. Regardless, HUGS.0
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annette_15 wrote: »Eee so I'm probably the only one who would be excited about this but Ed Sheeran is coming to Cincinnati in September and I get to go see him AHHHHH England in August with my English man and a concert in September with my other British boyfriend woo hoo best year EVER!! ❤️
Nice, thats gonna be awesome!
Bueller I'm excited for you that you are excited. He does have a nice voice but I really don't care for his choice of songs/lyrics. Personal preference. I'm hoping he will move into music I enjoy more as I do think he's talented.0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Just sharing today's shoes for my fellow shoe freaks.
ETA the cuts on my feet are from another pair of shoes I wore the other day!!!
No judgement, but YIKES. My wedding heels were less than half of that and I STILL nearly killed myself... I would break my neck with the first step!
Editing to add: I also hate heels. And make up. I'm probably the furthest thing from a girly-girl anyone could ever meet. Did anyone here know that?
I might have guessed. I am totally a girly girl and a Tom Boy.
I'm neither... I hate girly stuff like shopping, shoes, and make up, but I'm also not one who would like to "hang with the guys" or something like that. I would love to do stuff like horseback riding, running, climbing mountains, etc., but I think those are gender neutral things (except in Saudi Arabia. -_-)
I confess that I'm rather jealous that everyone's making plans to meet up at some future point and I'm over here with "NEVER GONNA HAPPEN" stamped all over my host country's forehead. *sigh* Although I'm such an anxious chicken that I'd probably never make it to a meet-up anyway...
Onto some positive things! My goals for today were to:
- Do 30-60 minutes of exercise (Did sixty!)
- Drink a minimum of 2 liters of water (Drank nearly THREE!)
- Do the stair thing (Did TWENTY EIGHT FLIGHTS! That's counting up AND down. Up was 18!)
- Finish the housework (Meh. Lazy won today.)
- Steal my husband's sticky notes and post them all over the house (DONE)
- Stay within my calories (Totally accomplished! With room to spare!)
Today was a pretty big win overall! In case anyone is wondering, the sticky notes say:
- What do you want more: To eat that bread, or your HEALTH and HAPPINESS? <-- Posted in my most common secret-eating spot.
- You can do this! <-- On the refrigerator.
- Stairs are FUN! *drawing of stairs* <-- Next to the front door.
- Every meal can either bring you closer to your goal or take it further away. <-- In front of my dining chair, on the wall where I can see it as I'm eating.
- Are those extra calories worth the EXTRA GUILT? <-- On the kitchen entrance.
- Getting closer every day! <-- On a kitchen cabinet
- Every kilo lost brings you closer to a FITBIT! <-- In front of my scale
And, just for fun: "Your wife is SUPER GREAT! *drawing of shark*" <-- On my husband's computer screen.
You are amazing! I have 75% of my goals done...going to get some articles in before I go to bed so I can be at 100%!
Great job SusieQ and POF (and anyone else I missed) on meeting your goals today!0 -
lilaclovebird wrote: »Original Poster who I will not identify for her sake, I'm glad I read it. I will reply with thoughts of my experience (and for those of you reading my experience is not at all the same, but something in what I'm saying may help her or someone else)
You have dealt with a lot. It does not matter what your orientation is in so far as what happened was in NO way, shape or form any fault of your own. At All. You are blameless. (HUGE HUGS). I am so sorry that you had the experiences you did.
**WARNING FOR THOSE WHO MIGHT BE TRIGGERED BY VIOLENCE - SKIP THE REST OF THIS POST PLEASE, THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO IS UPSET SOMEONE**
When I was 20 I met an acquaintance through a co-worker. He was a wealthy physician. He invited me to a barbecue. I was in no way attracted to him but I thought he was just being friendly and he was "known" so I said yes. I was drugged (the date rape drug) and have no recollection of what happened, but why would I be drugged if nothing happened?
The same year I was taken by two men in a situation where I thought there was a good chance I'd be killed and I was raped by one. I talked my way out of being raped by the second. I talked the first into a condom. I talked my way into being let go. I was shaken and I (kick myself for this one now) chalked it up to a hard learning experience and I moved on without reporting it and without telling anyone. Until 10 years later someone threatened by then 2 year old daughter. I took care of that situation IMMEDIATELY and have entirely put that person out of my life. I had flashbacks. I had nightmares. I sought counseling and was told I had PTSD. Counseling really helped me enormously. I reframed the incident so that I was strong and did everything I could to protect myself. I worked through the issues and I have not had issues since and that has been a number of years ago. Please seek counseling. Call the hotline number that you see for victims of ___ crimes even if you feel it does not apply to you because they can put you in touch with counselors. HUGE HUGE HUGS.
The first few counselors I saw were batty, find one you can work with. What happened does not define me nor do I think about it often. It is now just a tiny moment in time. You will get there. I believe in you and your bright future.
I couldn't skip it. I could not move forward in catching up without saying something about this.
I won't share all of my specific stories but the first time I was sexually assaulted was by my 14 year old half brother while he was baby sitting me. I was four years old, and my 12 year old half sister watched.
After that, I was sexually assaulted 3 more times in my life at varying ages by various people(the idea that only men can rape is bull smurf). Only once out of those three did I seek justice.
In those moments in court I contemplated suicide. I thought about the shame of the situation and I felt like everything that happened to put me in that room defined my whole life.
After I testified, my counselor said that the rape didn't define my life, but the moment in court DID. That moment was me taking control and holding someone accountable to their hurtful actions towards me. It took a long time before things balanced out and I was able to get out of my depression and let go of the thoughts of ending my life.
I've taken my life back and I have 30 pounds down to show for it. I'm strong, because I recognized my weakness and that I needed help.
Looking back, those situations are tiny blips in the radar of my past and do not compare to the amazing moments and real friends I have had since.
It seems difficult and you may feel alone, but help IS out there. All you have to do is find it.
And of course we're all here for you!
Eloquently worded @lilaclovebird
I am so glad and happy for you that you pushed through it, held someone accountable, and found your path. Triumphant and resilient!0 -
lilaclovebird wrote: »Original Poster who I will not identify for her sake, I'm glad I read it. I will reply with thoughts of my experience (and for those of you reading my experience is not at all the same, but something in what I'm saying may help her or someone else)
You have dealt with a lot. It does not matter what your orientation is in so far as what happened was in NO way, shape or form any fault of your own. At All. You are blameless. (HUGE HUGS). I am so sorry that you had the experiences you did.
**WARNING FOR THOSE WHO MIGHT BE TRIGGERED BY VIOLENCE - SKIP THE REST OF THIS POST PLEASE, THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO IS UPSET SOMEONE**
When I was 20 I met an acquaintance through a co-worker. He was a wealthy physician. He invited me to a barbecue. I was in no way attracted to him but I thought he was just being friendly and he was "known" so I said yes. I was drugged (the date rape drug) and have no recollection of what happened, but why would I be drugged if nothing happened?
The same year I was taken by two men in a situation where I thought there was a good chance I'd be killed and I was raped by one. I talked my way out of being raped by the second. I talked the first into a condom. I talked my way into being let go. I was shaken and I (kick myself for this one now) chalked it up to a hard learning experience and I moved on without reporting it and without telling anyone. Until 10 years later someone threatened by then 2 year old daughter. I took care of that situation IMMEDIATELY and have entirely put that person out of my life. I had flashbacks. I had nightmares. I sought counseling and was told I had PTSD. Counseling really helped me enormously. I reframed the incident so that I was strong and did everything I could to protect myself. I worked through the issues and I have not had issues since and that has been a number of years ago. Please seek counseling. Call the hotline number that you see for victims of ___ crimes even if you feel it does not apply to you because they can put you in touch with counselors. HUGE HUGE HUGS.
The first few counselors I saw were batty, find one you can work with. What happened does not define me nor do I think about it often. It is now just a tiny moment in time. You will get there. I believe in you and your bright future.
I couldn't skip it. I could not move forward in catching up without saying something about this.
I won't share all of my specific stories but the first time I was sexually assaulted was by my 14 year old half brother while he was baby sitting me. I was four years old, and my 12 year old half sister watched.
After that, I was sexually assaulted 3 more times in my life at varying ages by various people(the idea that only men can rape is bull smurf). Only once out of those three did I seek justice.
In those moments in court I contemplated suicide. I thought about the shame of the situation and I felt like everything that happened to put me in that room defined my whole life.
After I testified, my counselor said that the rape didn't define my life, but the moment in court DID. That moment was me taking control and holding someone accountable to their hurtful actions towards me. It took a long time before things balanced out and I was able to get out of my depression and let go of the thoughts of ending my life.
I've taken my life back and I have 30 pounds down to show for it. I'm strong, because I recognized my weakness and that I needed help.
Looking back, those situations are tiny blips in the radar of my past and do not compare to the amazing moments and real friends I have had since.
It seems difficult and you may feel alone, but help IS out there. All you have to do is find it.
And of course we're all here for you!
Eloquently worded @lilaclovebird
I am so glad and happy for you that you pushed through it, held someone accountable, and found your path. Triumphant and resilient!
@nonoelmo those words could also be used to describe yourself!
Now for Today:
- At least 45 Minutes of exercise = I only got 30 minutes
- Stay within 100 calories of my goal before exercise = ON POINT! WOO!
- Actually buy a bottle of red wine and drink 5 oz of it = I just don't wanna go back to the store
- Get 10,000+ steps in by midnight = Totally didn't happen.
New month! New day! New goals!
- Get 45 minutes of exercise
- Stay withing 100 calories of my goal BEFORE exercise
- Get 10,000 steps in by midnight
- Drink 8+ glasses of water
Had to add the water now because I noticed
'things aren't moving' if you know what I mean....
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lilaclovebird wrote: »Original Poster who I will not identify for her sake, I'm glad I read it. I will reply with thoughts of my experience (and for those of you reading my experience is not at all the same, but something in what I'm saying may help her or someone else)
You have dealt with a lot. It does not matter what your orientation is in so far as what happened was in NO way, shape or form any fault of your own. At All. You are blameless. (HUGE HUGS). I am so sorry that you had the experiences you did.
**WARNING FOR THOSE WHO MIGHT BE TRIGGERED BY VIOLENCE - SKIP THE REST OF THIS POST PLEASE, THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO IS UPSET SOMEONE**
When I was 20 I met an acquaintance through a co-worker. He was a wealthy physician. He invited me to a barbecue. I was in no way attracted to him but I thought he was just being friendly and he was "known" so I said yes. I was drugged (the date rape drug) and have no recollection of what happened, but why would I be drugged if nothing happened?
The same year I was taken by two men in a situation where I thought there was a good chance I'd be killed and I was raped by one. I talked my way out of being raped by the second. I talked the first into a condom. I talked my way into being let go. I was shaken and I (kick myself for this one now) chalked it up to a hard learning experience and I moved on without reporting it and without telling anyone. Until 10 years later someone threatened by then 2 year old daughter. I took care of that situation IMMEDIATELY and have entirely put that person out of my life. I had flashbacks. I had nightmares. I sought counseling and was told I had PTSD. Counseling really helped me enormously. I reframed the incident so that I was strong and did everything I could to protect myself. I worked through the issues and I have not had issues since and that has been a number of years ago. Please seek counseling. Call the hotline number that you see for victims of ___ crimes even if you feel it does not apply to you because they can put you in touch with counselors. HUGE HUGE HUGS.
The first few counselors I saw were batty, find one you can work with. What happened does not define me nor do I think about it often. It is now just a tiny moment in time. You will get there. I believe in you and your bright future.
I couldn't skip it. I could not move forward in catching up without saying something about this.
I won't share all of my specific stories but the first time I was sexually assaulted was by my 14 year old half brother while he was baby sitting me. I was four years old, and my 12 year old half sister watched.
After that, I was sexually assaulted 3 more times in my life at varying ages by various people(the idea that only men can rape is bull smurf). Only once out of those three did I seek justice.
In those moments in court I contemplated suicide. I thought about the shame of the situation and I felt like everything that happened to put me in that room defined my whole life.
After I testified, my counselor said that the rape didn't define my life, but the moment in court DID. That moment was me taking control and holding someone accountable to their hurtful actions towards me. It took a long time before things balanced out and I was able to get out of my depression and let go of the thoughts of ending my life.
I've taken my life back and I have 30 pounds down to show for it. I'm strong, because I recognized my weakness and that I needed help.
Looking back, those situations are tiny blips in the radar of my past and do not compare to the amazing moments and real friends I have had since.
It seems difficult and you may feel alone, but help IS out there. All you have to do is find it.
And of course we're all here for you!
I am so sorry this happened to you and am grateful you are able to put it in a place in your life and move beyond it. (Hugs)0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »Ok, I give up!
Seriously, I GIVE UP!
I had an important appointment today that I thought was at 3pm, turns out it was at 2pm. I am not even sure how that happened because that is very unlike me.
Then, just now, my son texts me, to tell me that HIS NEW BIKE THAT HE JUST BOUGHT LAST FRIDAY JUST GOT STOLEN FROM HIS PLACE OF WORK. Are you kidding me?? Not only is that two bikes in seven days, but he just spent nearly $300 FIVE DAYS AGO, and it is gone! He is a 17 year old kid, that is a lot of money to him.....sadly, it is a lot of money to me too, so I am not even sure how much I can help him out.
And he needs a bike to get to work, it is not like he is riding it for fun. He literally uses it for transportation to and from work! Now, he is gonna have to walk the 35 minute walk again for who knows how long until he gets another bike.
I feel terrible for him, I am truly gutted.
Do you have homeowners insurance? They might cover it. When I bought my tri bike I called to insure it. They told me it was covered under homeowners.
Technically it is, but with the deductible he would not get much of anything.
Yes but if it happens a 3rd time it would be 100% covered this year right?0 -
nguyenlychee wrote: »Hi everybody! It's be great and amusing to see your confessions. The ones I can relate to really made me smile!
So here it is... I've consumed an EXTRA 1400 calories today. I was feeling really down, there were free chips at work, I ate my grandmother's leftover hospital food, stressed, a bunch of other factors that I'm sure affect many of you regularly. I welcome whoever to look at my diary to see the damage.
Bad day today, tomorrow is Canada Day, cycling 73km on thurs, then 73km back home on friday... I keep telling myself I should be all right, but as most of you probably feel on bad days, I'm a guilty glutton
Welcome! I love your kitty!
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kelly_c_77 wrote: »
Thanks to all who talked me off the ledge!kelly_c_77 wrote: »I need someone to talk me out of going to Dairy Queen to use my B1G1F Blizzard!! My husband won't be home until late so if I go, I will end up eating probably 1.75 of the 2 because my son won't eat much of his. And no, I can't throw it away or save until tomorrow or any of that nonsense...
Ahhh
Nooooo! Don't do it! I won't if you won't! HONOR SYSTEM!!! lol
I didn't do it! Instead, I had 2 Betty Crocker Warm Delights Minis Molten Chocolate cakes! 300 calories for both...way better than the almost 2000 that I would have eaten if I'd gone to DQ!
Awesome! If it's any consolation, I passed by the ice cream and gelato and got a pint of frozen greek yogurt. 600 cals for the container and it's all mine! lol
Hmmm, interesting...what brand/flavor is this frozen yogurt you speak of? And is it good? I'm doing groceries today and not sure I'll be as good at refusing temptations while I'm there. I need something to distract me...I can definitely fit 600 calories in...
@jthurman3, they are good!! And for 150 calories and only 30 seconds of waiting time...I'd say it's a pretty good little deal!! Let me know if you find/try them! 0
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