Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Since I got so much love on my "SUPER GREAT" sticky note, I figured I'd take a picture and show it to everyone. My husband actually liked it and kept it by taking it off the middle of his screen and sticking it to the edges:
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That's fantastic Susie!!
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Since I got so much love on my "SUPER GREAT" sticky note, I figured I'd take a picture and show it to everyone. My husband actually liked it and kept it by taking it off the middle of his screen and sticking it to the edges:
That's awesome lol!0 -
I should have put having a nap as one of my goals today. Totally nailed that one!
But it was a good nap.0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »I should have put having a nap as one of my goals today. Totally nailed that one!
But it was a good nap.
I am going to have to substitute 'trimming my mom's bushes' for 'bike to Montauk'. I just spent 2 hours trimming bushes for her, its 3:25 and I promised to make dinner tonight so I need to start soon (because I only cook like 3x per year, it takes me FOREVER...and Mom and her boyfriend like to eat at 6 pm).
And...I want a nap.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Since I got so much love on my "SUPER GREAT" sticky note, I figured I'd take a picture and show it to everyone. My husband actually liked it and kept it by taking it off the middle of his screen and sticking it to the edges:
this is so cute!0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »
yay! Because I am going to NEED to try this. And I love that the 'boyfriend' made it!0 -
rungirl1973 wrote: »
My Coworker went last week to the iron man in Couer d'Alene, Idaho. Apparently people like to go there because it's generally pretty cool, but this year was record high temps.
Yep, that is the one. Its hard though, I have heard. I think its super hilly?0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »
I confess that I refuse to call that kind of cheesecake a real cheesecake, because I'm a complete and utter cheesecake snob; my husband and I call it "fake cheesecake".
That said, I'd totally still eat the fake cheesecake and think it was yummy, but it still wouldn't be "real". 
... Speaking of cheesecake. While eating my cookie-butter-with-caramel flavored ice cream yesterday, a new cheesecake to try baking came to mind. Speculoos cookies as the base, with cookie butter to bind the crumbs instead of butter (or maybe a 50-50 mix of the two), then a regular cheesecake batter, then top it with oodles of homemade caramel. Now I just need an occasion to bake that for...
I still don't know what Speculoos are. I really need to google this.0 -
Its so funny when I see myself reply after reply.
Update on fitbit. I went to the site and looked up 'issues with ChargeHR' in the forum. One woman had an issue (not quite mine) and it advised rebooting it (and explained how to do that). Now the 2 are tracking together...so we are good...0 -
I meant to say ''my boyfriend and I,'' but I guess I forgot about myselfpofoster21 wrote: »
yay! Because I am going to NEED to try this. And I love that the 'boyfriend' made it!
I haven't known him to bake or cook anything by himself (except maybe stove-popped popcorn?) since I've lived with him, but I remember him holding his own at that time 0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »
I still don't know what Speculoos are. I really need to google this.
They basically taste like the cinnamon-sugar graham crackers, but they're more crumbly and less cracker-like. In my opinon, they also have a "deeper" flavor than graham crackers. Cookie butter is made using crushed Speculoos (also called Lotus) cookies, and it tastes like a really, really good cheesecake crust in a jar. I think using Speculoos cookies and cookie butter for a cheesecake crust would result in a much more flavorful crust. 
Of course, it's still all in my head and I haven't tried to do it yet, so... Who knows for sure.
Confession: I had 700 calories left over and I wasn't sure what to do with them, since I already had some ice cream (and logged it into yesterday, since I had a bunch left over there as well)... Soooo I took one of those pre-made pizza bases, slathered it with peanut butter, and then sprinkled it with chocolate chips and microwaved it. No regrets... But it could have used more peanut butter.
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pofoster21 wrote: »
Oh, now we are dying to know!
I know it's evil of me to mention it without telling, but I just can't! It's too embarrassing! I've had quite a few of those moments, but at least I never accidentally called a teacher "mom." I have that going for me. 0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »Its so funny when I see myself reply after reply.
Update on fitbit. I went to the site and looked up 'issues with ChargeHR' in the forum. One woman had an issue (not quite mine) and it advised rebooting it (and explained how to do that). Now the 2 are tracking together...so we are good...
That's good! I was beginning to worry about the accuracy of my own (non-existent so far) Fitbit after reading your updates about your new one.
You've also gotten me to consider getting the ChargeHR instead of just the Fitbit One like I was originally planning, so there's that, too... 0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »I should have put having a nap as one of my goals today. Totally nailed that one!
But it was a good nap.
Yup, me too.
On an interesting note, does anyone remember how I mentioned never getting DOMS in my legs? Well, after 2 weeks of consecutive stationary bike, 4 days of stair climbing, and 2 days of walks, I'm finally getting a little bit of soreness in my ankles. My legs are alive! 0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »
Yesterday when I was all depressed I stole the note and added a "NOT" between the "SUPER" and the "GREAT" and then put it back. He was upset about it and scribbled with a pen over the word "NOT" and said he "fixed it"... So I made him a new one today to make up for "ruining" his note.
... Gee whiz, that paragraph contains a LOT of quotation marks.0 -
Since I'm bored and waiting for Mr. Susie to get home from an exam... I've just updated the Super Great Recipes thread with a whole bunch of new recipes. Hope everyone enjoys them! 0
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I know it's evil of me to mention it without telling, but I just can't! It's too embarrassing! I've had quite a few of those moments, but at least I never accidentally called a teacher "mom." I have that going for me.
Come on. Worse than me spraying a stranger on a plane with breast milk?!?
I also inadvertently strip teased a whole bunch of men nightly for months before I realized it. Sheesh. You can share here.0 -
@Susieq_1994 good for hitting your calories today, no matter what it took!!
I like Mr. Susie's attitude!
Glad your legs are alive!0 -
@pofoster21 glad you got your Fitbit working properly!!0
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Italian_Buju wrote: »Anyone that knows me, knows I am a hoarder. However, not the kind you see on TV, my place is relatively clean and I do not have garbage. I have to have a certain level of things in my house to feel comfortable. I stock pile all kinds of things, mostly groceries and personal cleaning products such as shampoo and body wash etc…..I also have MASS amounts of medication in the house, in fact, it was not too long ago, that I kept a large storage box of insulin in the fridge, I mean, like a years supply. I have an irrational fear of running out of something important.
My SO has this... it seems to revolve mostly around grocery items like breakfast cereals and canned goods, toilet paper and OTC medications.0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »Its so funny when I see myself reply after reply.
Update on fitbit. I went to the site and looked up 'issues with ChargeHR' in the forum. One woman had an issue (not quite mine) and it advised rebooting it (and explained how to do that). Now the 2 are tracking together...so we are good...
Awesome, glad you figured it out!0 -
I know it's evil of me to mention it without telling, but I just can't! It's too embarrassing! I've had quite a few of those moments, but at least I never accidentally called a teacher "mom." I have that going for me.
Haha, I've called a teacher "mom" once...maybe twice. Pretty embarrassing!0 -
raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »
That's awesome lol!
I agree!! So cute!
Also @Susieq_1994, I have the Fitbit One and I love it! So, just in case you still haven't made up your mind...don't rule out the One! 0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »
Haha, I've called a teacher "mom" once...maybe twice. Pretty embarrassing!
I've done that too........but......the teacher was my mom.0 -
Sorry for all the posting right now, I should have combined them..
Anyhow, so I ran my 13.1 miles this morning on the treadmill....but after going for my two walks with my son and being outside walking around most of the day for our neighborhood block party, I'm now up to 23.78 miles for the day! I've beaten my previous highest step count which was last year on May 31st by 6000ish...giving me a total as of right now of 45,675 steps. I've had a pretty good day. And I ate tons of "junk" food and don't even care! Happy 4th!0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »
That is an easy way to suck up hours of your time without realizing it! OCD comes in a lot of different forms, and it is really hard to treat. The five types are: (in order from most to least common)
Washers & Cleaners
Checkers
Orderers
Hoarders
Obsessionals
I suffer from the last one mostly, but also have hoarder and checker tendencies.
Anyone that knows me, knows I am a hoarder. However, not the kind you see on TV, my place is relatively clean and I do not have garbage. I have to have a certain level of things in my house to feel comfortable. I stock pile all kinds of things, mostly groceries and personal cleaning products such as shampoo and body wash etc…..I also have MASS amounts of medication in the house, in fact, it was not too long ago, that I kept a large storage box of insulin in the fridge, I mean, like a years supply. I have an irrational fear of running out of something important.
Now, as I sit here and type this, I can tell you that if I do run out of say, insulin, or shampoo, or crackers, I can go to the store and get some. But when I am shopping, or looking in my cupboards, I always think, I need more. And if I don’t get more, that is the only thing I can focus on. Along with that, I also have a hard time throwing things away, and don’t really care for new things. In fact, I remember when I had my baby shower, Sarah and Kim (I think I am remembering who correctly)two of my friends, came upstairs after it was over, and opened all the packages of everything I got. Because they knew if they did not, then most of the things would go unused.
I will buy something, say a new package of socks…..they might sit in my closet, unused, for years even, until every single pair I have now is full of holes and have no choice but to use the new ones. Even though I have two dressers and a closet full of clothes, I prefer to wear the same few pieces over and over again, and when I HAVE to wear something different, I am aware of it, all day…..
As genetics would have it, I believe both of my parents had forms of OCD, I think they were both hoarders as well. Anyone that knew me when I was young can attest to all the things my mother hoarded. There was an entire room in the basement full of things she bought and never used. There were things in boxes, never used, that literally, were older than me when she died. But she would never get rid of any of it, cuz she ‘might need it’.
And my father, that was a totally different case……like I said in a previous post. At the time of the finding, I had no idea why he would do that, or what it meant….I doubt I had ever even heard of OCD before.
I have some checking tendencies too, but thankfully with a low count, like three or four. Some checkers can spend hours checking the same thing literally hundreds of times a day. For example, when I am out, and say have to pay for something, of course, like everyone else, when I am done, I put my wallet back in my bag and close it. Before I walk away, I open my bag and make sure my wallet is there. Before I leave the building, I will open my bag again and make sure my wallet is still there, and once more once I get outside, and finally when I am home.
People with OCD are remarkably successful in concealing their obsessive-compulsive symptoms from friends, family and co-workers. An unfortunate consequence of this secrecy is that people with OCD generally do not receive professional help until years after the onset of their disease. By that time, the obsessive-compulsive rituals may be deeply ingrained and very difficult to change. OCD usually starts at an early age, often before adolescence.
OCD tends to worsen as the person grows older. 20% of sufferers don’t respond to treatment of any kind. Mine started around 16 with the hoarding, but there were signs before that I am sure…..it got worse as time went on, and during my pregnancy really started showing…and that is when the Obsessional part started…just slow, but again grew over time. ..Until I was pregnant with my son, I hide it very well, I am not even sure if people I lived with knew about it, let alone anyone else.
This part is really hard to talk about, for the most part. Obsessionals have distressing intrusive thoughts and constantly worry that something they do will harm someone or even themselves, either directly or not. One thing that I think falls under this category is my fear of personal paperwork. I even know how odd that sounds as I type it. I have an irrational fear that I am going to make a mistake while filling out something, causing my entire life to fall apart. I don’t do any kind of paperwork (filling out forms, banking, writing checks, signing things etc….) until absolutely that last minute and then it can take me hours to do the simplest of tasks. I will be ultra focused on this task for hours at a time, and will sometimes sweat or even feel ill to my stomach. Just typing about it now, as silly as it sounds, has my heart rate speeding up. And as ridiculous as I feel admitting that, I can not get it to stop. Ironically, paperwork that is not related to my personal life, paperwork at work, for example, causes me no stress at all, and is done quickly without problems. Doing someone else’s paperwork is fine as well.
I don’t know exactly how to explain it so someone without it could understand, but here is my best attempt. I fear that a mistake such as writing in a wrong amount or spelling a name wrong, could cause everything to come crashing down as it reeks havoc on my life. So writing that wrong amount on my check for a book sale would cause my bank account to be overdrawn, my rent would bounce, thus having me lose my apartment, in turn, then lose my kids, and forever ruining their lives. So, I am trying to write that check for the book sale but over and over in my head, I hear, “Don’t mess up the check, or your kids will suffer.” As I write that, I can see how crazy it sounds. But when it is happening I have no control to stop those thoughts. Banking takes me FOREVER for the same reason....I have everything I can just taken directly out so I do not have to deal with it, because paying a single bill can take hours out of my life.
The intrusive thoughts of an Obsessional person can be very disturbing…..they are always unwanted and never an actual threat. This consumes quite a bit of my day. It does not affect me as much when I am at home, mostly when I am out. It mostly (although not exclusively) occurs with strangers. And its worse when I am in a place where only few people are, like walking down the street, as opposed to being in a crowded area with lots of strangers…… albeit, sometimes, especially if I am under a lot of stress, it can happen almost anywhere. Sometimes, if I am walking down the sidewalk, and someone is about to pass me, I get VERY disturbed in my head worried that I might suddenly attack them. I have never actually attacked anyone randomly, and my DR tells me all the time that it is only an OCD thought and I am NEVER going to actually attack someone, but at the time it is happening I have no control over the thoughts, and I become very stressed out. When I am highly stressed is when this is most likely to occur.
This is also why I cannot drive anymore. As soon as I get behind the wheel of a car I start freaking out inside, that I might lose control of myself and just hit someone, and not by accident. While I have no reason to think I might do that, and of course, no desire to actually do it, I cannot stop the thoughts when I am trying to drive. And I also fear that either I am going to rear end someone, or someone is going to rear end me, constantly.
There is a great book called: Tormenting Thoughts and Secret Rituals: The Hidden Epidemic of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:
by Ian Osborn
I read that book years and years ago and still there were many things I remember in that book (and others), about people having horrible, painful thoughts. I read about a woman who felt she could not be alone with her baby, cuz she had a constant fear that she was going to put her into the microwave or hold her head up to the ceiling fan. I read about a man that could not allow his teenaged daughter to have friends over because he was scared that he would lose control of himself and sexually assault one of them (even though he never did, thought it was appalling, and never would in reality).
Some people with these thoughts, feel the need to confess. They will tell a priest, or a cop, or maybe a friend……the thing is though, they are never sure if anything actually happened or not, OCD is literally a disease about doubt. Sometimes the symptoms of OCD can mimic those of Schizophrenia with the main difference being that a schizophrenic is SURE something has happened, someone with OCD is never sure about anything. And, of course, there is that constant thought that you did something wrong, even though in your rational mind you know that you did it right. Also many people with OCD have trouble making decisions, even small ones.
Sorry for the novel, this seems to be my norm lately
Wow, I never actually thought about this, but I do hoard groceries as well. I'll have enough groceries to last me for awhile yet I'll still buy more. I'm the worst at buying snacks/cereals. I have around 13 ice creams, 8 boxes of cereal, a lot of snack bars, & around 5-6 bottles of conditioner. I also remember what you posted about watching TV, movies, playing games & not wanting to watch if you miss something. I swear it takes me forever to watch a movie on Netflix since I always rewind it in case I missed something important.
I know I've had the obsessional thoughts/intrusive thoughts & felt if I didn't do something perfectly or count in my head when doing something that something bad would happen. It used to be really bad when I was younger/teenager.
My mom with her OCD used to always ask us if her purse was in the car & sometimes she wouldn't trust us & she would stop the car & get out to make sure. I think one time she had it on the roof of her car & she drove off & it flew on the road & with her OCD tendencies it made it worse.0 -
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kelly_c_77 wrote: »Sorry for all the posting right now, I should have combined them..
Anyhow, so I ran my 13.1 miles this morning on the treadmill....but after going for my two walks with my son and being outside walking around most of the day for our neighborhood block party, I'm now up to 23.78 miles for the day! I've beaten my previous highest step count which was last year on May 31st by 6000ish...giving me a total as of right now of 45,675 steps. I've had a pretty good day. And I ate tons of "junk" food and don't even care! Happy 4th!
Wow!!0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »
Haha, I've called a teacher "mom" once...maybe twice. Pretty embarrassing!
I've never done that but several years ago, I was working on several projects very closely with the Maintenance manager of our facility. Hours of spreadsheets and tracking his department's man-hours. Three times, he called me Kathy (his wife's name).
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