Loserville Challenge 3 (CLOSED GROUP)

Hello All - it's open up Tuesday again So here is whats been bugging me.

I go through phases where I am terrified of death. Not sure what bring sit on but it keeps me up at night, 1. b/c I'm afraid I won't wake up or 2. I'm afraid i will miss somthing The other night I had to call hubby at work b/c I felt like I was going to cry. I don't know if I feel this way b/c I have miss out of soem of life from beign overweight, or b/c I am currently wishing to be a mother and i feel like somthing is missing in that respect but death scares the poop out of me even when life is as good as it is right now.

But to end on a high note. I went to sculpt class yesterday. i haden't been in ages and it was so much fun. I can't wait to see what happens at next Mondays class

Have a lovely day everyone.

Jenni thats an interesting way to look at it. i'll just continue to be full of life so I have no regrets. Sorry about your unfun house guests. It seems like people never take a moment eo walk a mile in anothers shoes anymore. how dare they assume you have no life. Don't let them get you down.

Claire - didyou do better when you weren;'t weighing in as much. maybe teh scale is stressing you out. i wish I knew why it's being so mean, your exercie routien rocks. keep tryign nre things and I'm sure you'll find wha works.

becy - glad you atre havign fun. don't worry about the food just come home ready to work.

My iron was high enought to give blood today YAY!

So here we are for Open up Tuesday again...

This is something some of my friends know about me, but most don't. I have a real issue with the age 39. I'm 33 now and hittin 39 scares the hell out of me. I know exactly why I feel like that and I know it's completely irrational to think it too. Basically my Dad died when he was 39. It was very sudden and completely unexpected. It was New Year's Day 1992 and he walked into the living room and fell down dead on the floor. The autopsy showed that it was an embolism to the heart and that he was probably dead before he even hit the floor. After he died (I was 13) they did some tests on me at the doctors to check my blood work as they said they may be able to find markers in my blood to see if I'd be more prone to have anything similar happen to me. Luckily it came back negative but it's bothered me ever since.

I guess being a bigger girl, we all know the added risks to our health. Every time I get a pain in my chest, I'll almost convince myself I'm having a heart attack... Of course lesson learnt in this situation is never Google your symptoms! Lol. I guess that now being in my 30's is another reason for me wanting to lose the weight. I really don't want to be going anywhere before I'm 40. As I said before, I know that because it happened to my Dad doesn't mean that it will happen to me but I guess it's something that won't shift.

I once saw a doctor who didn't help things at all by saying something along the lines of "Well with a family history like yours, I'd lose weight now before you end up just like your Dad!" I do wish that some doctors had better training in speaking to people. Shaming people into losing weight is not the answer. When the doctor said that to me, all I wanted to do was go home and eat!

Anyhow, on a more positive note, since I've been on MFP and part of this group, I'm not so scared about it all. I've realised that I am doing something to make myself happier and more importantly, healthier. I feel supported by all of you lovely ladies and I know that as the weight comes off, the sense of doom lifts.

@Tami I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through. I know I don't know you very well, but from what I know of you here, I can only say that you always come across as a really strong person. You deserve to be treated so much better than that and as Hanna said in her message, if you fall, we'll catch you.

@Courtney As you can see from this post, I get completely what you're saying. I just take every day as it comes and as the weight is coming off, the feeling of panic is slowly ebbing away. *hugs*

Quick decision, heading into the city tonight. So will not be able to access Loserville till I get home friday pm. Big test time now to stay under calories. Keep up the good work everyone.

helathy tip....it's summer tiem here so I am going to say use your grill. You can add flovor with charcoal or you can wrap up a complete meal in a foil pouch and grill it up. Hubby has been puttting onions, tomatos, peppers etc righ on teh gril yum yum yum!

Whizzy - thank you for shrign your story. it's so nice to not be alone.

Claire i am up for a mid challenge measure even though I have hardly lost a thing maybe my measurements are a little better.

Whizzy - that's a great tip! I need to do that ...

Well, I've weighed in this morning, as I think I was 'purposely' forgetting to weigh in ... like ... oh, whoops I've eaten now, so I'll weigh in tomorrow, because I know I've been eating crap, and the scales agree! Weight up to 78kg or 172lb, so I've gained 3kg since my birthday ... time to move on from that, and get that weight down again. Fortunately I'm still doing the exercise, so that's something!

So my plan is to get back on track now, weigh in again on Monday, and set myself a target for the end of our 5 weeks. If I meet my target then I'm going to reward myself, maybe spend some of my "weight watchers" money on some new clothes. $540 I've saved by not going to weight watchers!!

Share a tip ... If you think you're hungry, have a glass of water first, let it go down then reasses your hunger.

I think I mid challenge measurement is great. I don't know what all the others of you think bout it but here is my measurements.

Oh and it is exercise day, right? Things are happening. Me and my friend have planned a boxercise session next week and have said that we meet up an hour before work so that we can burn some calories and have a nice time over a long walk

My final weigh in and start weight is 93.6kg (205.9 lbs) which is far from my goal, I really hope I can get to my next goal on time.

SW: 93.6kg (205.9lbs)
GW: 85kg (187lbs) I know that it won't be easy but it's a challenge, right?
Neck: 35cm
Chest: 105.5cm
Waist/Navel: 91cm/106cm
Hips: 116cm
Right upper arm: 38cm
Thighs: 70cm

CW: 88.4 kgs
Neck: 35 cm
Chest: 102.5 cm
Waist/Navel: 87 cm/ 103 cm
Hips: 111 cm
Right upper arm: 37 cm
Thigh: 67.5 cm

Which is a total of 18.5 cm and 5.2 kg and I am totally satisfied! How's the shrinking going for you guys?

But darling, ain't Tom playing a part in those figures?

I don't want to look at my measurements, my weight is up about 2kg from the start of this challenge, that's enough to put me off measuring!! LOL! If the scales are nice on Monday I'll measure too!

Anyway, found my Mojo, it was in my pocket all along. Don't you hate it when that happens, looking everywhere for something and there it is!

I've had a good day today, eaten sensibly, stayed within my calories, done my exercise, (but somehow I always manage that), it's the eating that gets me ... about 3.30pm every day I want to eat chocolate! Today I had a glass of milk and some nuts ... I used to have a protein shake, but I've run out ... I should just go shopping!!

I've FINALLY got 30 day shred from the library. I requested it months ago when Claire first talked about it, and have been like 27 of 621 holds for AGES, then yesterday I got an email ... and now I have it ... going to start tomorrow. So do I do it EVERY day? I usually have a rest day each week ... I suppose every day for 30 days will be ok?! Quite excited about it!

Anyway, plan is to go to bed early this week, so it's just after 10pm here ... night night x

Just posted this in the 30 Day shred group I've joined, but wanted your input too

I did 30 day shred level 1 for the first time today, that was all good ... I was a bit disappointed at the calorie burn relative to how hard I tried!! But I suppose that's what happens with strength training eh?

what's your plan with moving up a level? 10 days of level 1? then 10 of level 2? etc. I found level 1 fine, I can't do that many push ups on my feet, I can do about 10 on my feet ... I think in my head I thought it was going to be 30 different workouts with each increasing in intensity!

How heavy are the weights you use? I was using 3kg weights, but found the strength training pretty tough (just about doable) with those, but too easy with my 1kg weights!

I'm doing good with my eating again. Yay, long may it last!!

Bad news is that I'm going to be working fulltime again, and I don't know for how long ... the teacher I was covering for has a grown up son who is working in the UK. He was admitted to hospital with suspected lymphoma, so she's flown off to the UK. I'll be covering for her until she's back. I'm happy to be supporting her. She's been so good to me, it's thanks to her that I have my fab jobsharing job. I hope her son is ok, but do feel a little stressed about working fulltime!! At least I know the issues I had with it, and with a bit of planning ahead I can hopefully keep on top of it better this time!! Anyway, it may only be for a week ...

Claire - Don't feel pressured by the media's spin on the situation. I don't know, as I'm not there, but I remember what the media in the UK is like. They can't force you to work if you're not up to it, who will that benefit? No-one. Try not to stress yourself even more. Is there an organisation you can talk to? My mum works at supporting people with mental health issues to ensure that they get all the benefits that they're entitled to. I'm not sure what her organisation is called, brain something ... but it may be reassuring to talk to someone, so as not to feel like someone is trying to turn your world upside down. Big hugs, when's your review?

It's recipie day Here is another favorite Rachael Ray Recipes

Zucchini and Bow Ties from Rachael Ray 365: No Repeats

Coarse Salt
1 pound bow-tie pasta
1/4 cup extra virgin olive oil
6 garlic cloves, minced
2 medium zucchini, cut into matchsticks
Coarse black pepper
1 cup grated Parmigiano-Reggiano
1 cup fresh basil leaves, torn or shredded (20 leaves)

(I added 2 chicken breasts, cooked and diced or shrimp)

Bring a large pot of water to a boil and salt it. Cook the bow ties al dente, with a bite. Heads up: You will need a couple of ladles of starchy cooking water.

Heat a large, deep skillet over medium heat. Add the EVOO and the garlic. Cook for 2 minutes, then add the zucchini. Cook gently for 8 to 10 minutes. Season with salt and pepper and add a couple of ladles of cooking water. Drain the pasta and add to the zucchini. Toss with the cheese and turn off the heat. Toss for 2 minutes, until the liquids are absorbed. Serve in shallow bowls with lots of shredded basil on top.