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*falling exhausted into lounge chair under Lana's palm tree*

Well, got the middle child married off on Saturday. The bride had itineraries for rehearsal and wedding day right down to 15 minute increments. Needless to say, those went right out the window....
The rehearsal proved to be more than she anticipated. She thought they would just go over music cues and how the wedding party would walk in. Oh boy. They had to change the way they were standing at the stage/altar in order to get everyone in the light for photos, had to download music again, had mic issues, had to figure out what order to get the parents/grandparents to come in, how to dismiss after ceremony, etc. etc. Poor girl was a mess.

Wedding day went well. It certainly wasn't much on schedule until the ceremony though. I spent most of the morning ironing altar cloths and table linens. (No one had thought about that and when they put them up during rehearsal, I knew she would not be happy with any of her pictures at the altar if it were nothing but a wrinkled mess.) Ceremony went smoothly. Only technical difficulties were the junior ushers having to fight with the aisle runner. The bride was absolutely stunning and of course the groom was quite handsome! The reception was so much fun!!

The next morning I got up and drove 3 hours to go see my mother. She was much better this visit. She knew I was her daughter and apologized cause she didn't know my name. We talked and the dementia and paranoia was still there. But she was talking. Much better than past visits where she refused to talk to me. She was up and in wheelchair. We sat in lounge and listened to a lady sing hymns. Mom said she really liked to hear her sing. I did get her to eat a few bites of her dinner after she had originally refused. So, overall, it was a good visit.

Now comes the detox from the wedding rehearsal food, wedding day snacks, on the road snacks, and the reception buffet (not to mention the alcohol). I can tell a huge difference in how I feel - junk food vs. eating healthy. This is a huge reminder as to why I need to keep making healthy choices. Scales were up 6 pounds.

This weekend has drained me. I am back to work today. Just thought I would pop in at lunch and tell you I survived the wedding! Now back to work!

PS.... hair was ok. shoes didnt hurt until late into the evening, and the dress fit loose!! I had plenty of room to move and dance without any issues -- major NSV!

Kathryn - So glad that the wedding weekend, including the visit with your mother, was a great success. Half of those pounds is water from the crazy food and drink.

Sara - I hope that you get a good rest tonight~~

ZZZzzzzzzz........

Lana

Good morning Sara! Good morning everybody~~

QUESTION for ongoing discussion:
When you get to your goal weight, what will you do (or not do) to maintain that goal weight?

Yesterday, in trying to get myself to stay "on program", I wondered how I would be eating if I were at my goal weight. Would I guard it like a treasure? Would I be lazy and feel "my work here is done", and slip back into liberal thoughtless comfort food eating? Would I eat like a skinny person (that old headline) ?

Lana

Tuesday:

Because I was still sick and it was messing up my system, I decided to stop logging at some point yesterday and let it be a controlled cheat day, just so it wouldn't turn into a true binge later this week. Basically I decided I would let myself eat nearly anything I wanted, as long as I stopped and asked myself why I wanted it first - made me end up rethinking nearly all of the junk food. Result was, I mostly ate pretty good stuff. Lots of fruit and vegetables. Knew I could hold it to just one day because today, I have a test at school that I can't make up if I miss - I'm not ready for it, but anything I can get is better than a 0, and my worst test score may be dropped as long as I actually take all the tests, so I've gotta show up and try - and when I go to school, I end up too busy to overeat.

Decided not to weigh in this morning because I really don't need to see yesterday's food weight throwing me off. I'm still at a big deficit for the week (possibly bigger than it looks by numbers because of the intestinal problems) and I don't need to give my brain any more reason to say that eating anything makes me blow up like a balloon.

And for good news: the pain is finally going away for real, much to my relief. I'm going to drop by the gym and get back into training after class. Finally.

Lana - thanks for the question. I plan to maintain mostly by focusing on what I can do, above all else - if I end up eating too poorly, it drains my ability to run or climb or do whatever else really fast. I'm also going to continue to measure food and count calories occasionally just to make sure I'm not letting, for example, my estimate for the size of "one cup" creep up or down, but hopefully I'll be able to drop it as a daily thing. Hopefully. If I can't, well, that's life, but I really hope that I can. I know one thing that's thrown me into relapses before is, I've been known to give up the tedious parts and think "ah yes, I've built the habit, now I don't have to think about it anymore; I just have to keep doing this" because I see some marker like white grape juice becoming too sweet for me to handle, but slowly, over time, my consumption of junk food starts creeping up...and the next thing I know I'm at maintenance...and the next thing I know I'm going backward...so from now on even if I reach the point where I've made good habits, I'm going to check in on myself regularly to make sure I'm not letting bad habits sneak back in.

Dani: If you don't want advice feel free to ignore me, but if you do want it - I don't know how your body works, but if it were me, I'd go for the chicken and veggies. Fast food salads tend not to be as healthy as they sound, and mentally, a warm lunch is usually more comforting - I know that when I have salad as a meal, unless it was what I really, really, truly wanted that day, I'll tend to see it as a good healthy choice I should be rewarded for later! ...with more food.

Eating healthy is a mind game after all. Sometimes, cake is healthier than salad, because brains have weird ways of messing us up.

I'm debating what to do for lunch myself - I packed a steak sandwich but right now it's making me kind of sick to think about eating anything that heavy. I'll have to find something else nearby.

Hi Annie and Mango and Dani and Lani~~

I walked 1.7 miles today and totaled over an hour paddling around in the pool. Time to go log the dinner and evening snack.

Lana

Sara/ Lana- Miss Domino is doing much better... flushing the eye at least twice a day seemed to be a good idea... work has been so crazy busy, I haven't taken her in...I think she is ok... her eye looks really good... thank you for thinking of her and all yer good thoughts..

Good morning all~~

Sara - I hope that the visit with Supervisor goes well enough. She probably dislikes these things too, but she has to do them to keep up production, blah, blah.

The Cabana Boys tell me that there will be a special Happy Hour after work today; something to look forward to, mid-week....

I'll be on my usual lounge chair with Miss Tillie and Miss Domino~~

Lana

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dani_1977 wrote: »

*** Waving *** Hello from Maryland

Lana - Im super jealous, I desperately need a HH in my life

Dani - You are welcome to come to Happy Hour: it is a virtual happy hour at our Serial Starters Pool, Spa, and Beach Resort! We have Zero Point/Calorie cocktails and snacks~~ There are also massages available for those who have had a tiresome day.

Lana

Hello again everyone!

Today has really been a heck of a day. Forgot my meds before going to school, so that was...fun. Forgot my lunch, too; ended up eating at a restaurant near my first class (good news is, that was great). Went to the gym and broke a couple of personal records (longest distance run in one stretch AND shortest time for one mile)...but not without having another Episode(TM) over past experiences with what people (mostly my mother) have said about my weight and fitness level. Flashbacks are...really not fun, and the temptation to relapse into over-restricting is huge. Hell, I couldn't sit down to dinner with my boyfriend - I had to eat alone in the kitchen - because I was too anxious about being seen eating, after remembering something my mother said about it.

I guess I have a lot of emotional baggage to unpack. I keep wanting to make a blog post about it but I can't actually get the words out.

But, hey. New records! And I ate good stuff! I'm going to try to focus on that for now.

Dawn - glad to hear Domino is doing better! From what you say about her milking injuries, I keep remembering the time my boyfriend bumped into my hand (while I was holding it completely still) and proceeded to teasingly play offended for the next week that I'd "punched him" - I imagine she'd be doing something similar if she could talk.

Sara - glad to hear your good news too! Congratulations!

Mango - yes! That is exactly Domino! She is so funny. Her personality and intelligence just amaze me. Yes, she is a dog... but, she is smarter than the average dog...haha...I can say this, cuz my male (Max) can only think about toy, toy, toy...lol

Way to go on beating your personal records! That is awesome! I agree with Lana... your mother is not in control, you are eating your meals...I know, that's easier said than done... my mind beats me up on a daily basis... but, you have a great outlook and plan... you are doing amazing... don't let your mind (mom) win out.. stay strong.. you got this!