Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    ShibaEars wrote: »
    @ShibaEars
    That is very exciting! I'd say good luck, but the different time zones mean as I'm catching up this morning you've probably already put the offer in! Hope you were successful.

    Thanks everyone that wished me luck. They rejected the offer - it was low, but like I said, it's not worth what they paid 5 years ago. I am countering today, but I have a feeling they won't accept less than their list price. I can't blame them, I get that they don't want to lose too much money, but it still sucks because it would be a great opportunity for me.

    Bummer!
    Ditto. Hopefully they'll be sensible and accept your counter.
  • Francl27
    Francl27 Posts: 26,371 Member
    Yesterday when I ate that 3/4 pint of ice cream, I really realized for the first time that after 1.5 serving... it just didn't taste that good anymore. But I was on autopilot and kept eating. I hadn't done that in a long time too... it's just so weird when you think about it.

    But back on track today (so far).
  • PinUp2014
    PinUp2014 Posts: 79 Member
    I moved the wedding date out so I have a full year to lose 80+ pounds before I have to buy the dress or think abut fittings....and I'm scared as hell that I'll still be this size.....which is stupid because I would marry him tomorrow in a thong if that's what he wanted to do.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    On the topic of dreams, does anyone else keep a dream diary? For some odd reason I have always been fascinated with dreams and love them. I don't write them down every day (I definitely don't remember them every day), but I have a BUNCH of files and sometimes like to look back on them.

    I definitely wish I'd taken the time to jot down some of the more interesting dreams I've had over the years, and which include those that were 'ridiculous beyond words' ;), as well as those that were just plain wth?-like (and 'baffling' in a smh -sort of way (and I dreamed this, why?! ;) ))... though, that being said, there are some dreams I've had that I've never forgotten, nor ever could (or so it would seem)...

    Regarding the dreams I've never forgotten... they're a 'mixed bag' that includes... a few comically nonsensical dreams... a few 'profound' dreams... a few fascinating dreams (that involve my having been able to 'solve' some problems 'in my sleep'... as well as dreams that involved my mind identifying some 'patterns' in that day's events, and that my conscious mind had failed to notice (those are a treat ;) ))... and last, but certainly not least, are the nightmares...


    I had a few recurring nightmares as a child (and for years), in the wake of my being present during a highly traumatic event (and at a very young age)... it's remarkable how tenacious the mind can be, in wrestling with 'potential alternative actions' that one can never go back in time to 'try' (given that there is only one 'chance' to action such an attempt, and is when the 'event' is unfolding... and can be further complicated/intensified by the reality that any 'mistake' could result in death to oneself and/or a sibling and/or a parent)...

    It's odd 'how' and 'what' we can learn from our subconscious minds, when/after they 'wrestle' with near-impossible circumstances... let alone, what they can do 'for' us, in 'allowing' us to 'see' various other possibilities (along with their potential outcomes), and how the course of action that we took -- that I took -- was really the 'only' choice (thereby providing an odd form of 'reassurance', and from a most unexpected 'source')...


    Another thing that those dreams 'taught' me, and despite the 'high price' of having had to 'watch' them (and repeatedly (and waking up in a 'puddle of sweat', with my heart racing, my wits 'rattled', my body shaking, and my breathing being of a nature whose sound and 'frequency' would end up being one of the first 'orders of business' to 'get under control'))...

    ...is that I couldn't have otherwise fathomed how a child who was at the very young age that I was, at the time, could possess those kinds of instincts to protect, and be willing to 'fight to save another'... let alone to knowingly 'choose' to risk their life (under the circumstances), and be willing to sacrifice it, to save another... it goes without saying that kids (nor anyone else, for that matter) obviously shouldn't ever have to experience such a thing, or think any such thoughts, or go through the torture of needing to rapidly figure out what, among a given set of very limited options, would be the 'right' 'choice' in order to optimize the odds of 'everyone coming out alive'... but my experience did teach me (and in a way that perhaps nothing else could) that a child of a surprisingly young age can possess an instinctual capacity to protect that goes well beyond what many would ever think such a child to be capable of... (though to 'know' the 'depths' of it, would require its being 'tested', and *that* is something best left 'unknown')...


    Lastly... it strikes me as being a twisted form of 'non-parity' that the party who 'inflicted' said trauma, has no idea to what extent their actions affected my life from that moment on... (and I wasn't even the initial target of their 'wrath')... and the anxiety of not knowing if anything of the kind could or would ever happen again, or could otherwise put any member of my family's life at risk in my presence -- and my seeming to subconsciously feel as though I needed to be capable of 'knowing', ahead of time, 'how I would react' (which is impossible to know) -- was a form of during-childhood-'life-sentence' that I wouldn't wish on anyone...

    Wow, I'm so sorry for whatever it is you went through! Yes, it is amazing the instincts we have even at a very young age. I hope you and your family found some peace after this event, even though you know that it affected you and shaped you for life.
  • AgentOrangeJuice
    AgentOrangeJuice Posts: 1,069 Member
    PinUp2014 wrote: »
    I moved the wedding date out so I have a full year to lose 80+ pounds before I have to buy the dress or think abut fittings....and I'm scared as hell that I'll still be this size.....which is stupid because I would marry him tomorrow in a thong if that's what he wanted to do.

    Not trying to judge, but you spelled Shield wrong in your fan-girl description.
  • fitfatty88
    fitfatty88 Posts: 273 Member
    JPW1990 wrote: »
    fitfatty88 wrote: »
    http://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10142169/banning-women-from-running-marathons/p1

    Ohhhh boy. There are so many directions this thread is going...

    That link needs to come with a tumblr warning.

    Sorry I'll be sure to # tw's next time :)
  • fitfatty88
    fitfatty88 Posts: 273 Member
    My deepest desire is to own my own game store. And I don't mean monopoly for xbox. I'm talking Roleplaying, Tabletop board games, miniatures, collectible card games, locked card games, walls packed with product and the tables filled with games. make all my profits from selling Code Red MT Dew and funyons.

    Get a liquor license and I'm there...unless you serve up those Mountain Dew Martinis with a crushed Dorito rim.
  • AgentOrangeJuice
    AgentOrangeJuice Posts: 1,069 Member
    fitfatty88 wrote: »
    My deepest desire is to own my own game store. And I don't mean monopoly for xbox. I'm talking Roleplaying, Tabletop board games, miniatures, collectible card games, locked card games, walls packed with product and the tables filled with games. make all my profits from selling Code Red MT Dew and funyons.

    Get a liquor license and I'm there...unless you serve up those Mountain Dew Martinis with a crushed Dorito rim.

    HAHAHAHAHAHA, one of my running jokes is a Munchkin Beer League
  • berlynnwall
    berlynnwall Posts: 669 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Had my interview this morning, went well, asked when they were looking to hire, they said they had an internal candidate that was on vacation that they needed to see, so I won't find out until next week.

    Talent acquisition double booked the interview slot so I was in the waiting room with a competitor, he was wearing jeans and a puffy jacket. . . . .jeans and a puffy jacket.

    There's a real professional right there...

    I LOVE watching people coming in to interview at the agency! It's always mind blowing how many people do not know the proper attire to wear for an interview!

    That reminds me of when I got married at the courthouse. The judge said that people come in there in cutoff shorts, tank tops and flip flops, sometimes even bikini tops with no shirt. I live in a state with a 3 day waiting period, so it's not like they just decided that minute to go get married. Cracked me up.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    spamarie wrote: »
    Confession: I swam my personal best of 80 lengths today (2km or 1.25 miles) which I am super pleased about. In less good news, I have already eaten about 1000 calories today (it's 1.30pm here) which leaves me about 500 for the day, which I am not so pleased about! Swimming makes me hungry.

    That is awesome! Good for you! I'm also curious about your confession.
  • fitfatty88
    fitfatty88 Posts: 273 Member
    ShibaEars wrote: »
    Had my interview this morning, went well, asked when they were looking to hire, they said they had an internal candidate that was on vacation that they needed to see, so I won't find out until next week.

    Talent acquisition double booked the interview slot so I was in the waiting room with a competitor, he was wearing jeans and a puffy jacket. . . . .jeans and a puffy jacket.

    Wow, well that's good for you! :wink:

    I still remember when I was 18 and working at Arby's a girl came in for an interview in jeans, a sweatshirt and carrying a drink from another restaurant. I mean, I get that Arby's is no way a professional dress type of place, but bringing food/drink into an interview should be an obvious 'don't'.

    I remember having management tease me after I started working at Old Navy. I came in my interview clothes...full suit and heels, because to me..that's what you do for an interview. Nearly everyone else I ever saw came in in like, jeans and flip flops.
  • berlynnwall
    berlynnwall Posts: 669 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    I woke up once and kicked my husband because he'd been cheating on me in my dream.

    I've had many dreams where I wake up and it still feels like whatever I was dreaming about really happened for a few minutes. I've woken up mad at my partner too many times, it's hard to shake it sometimes!
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    lalabrucey wrote: »
    I dreamed last night that I was attending Kurt Cobain's funeral but had to keep introducing myself as his first wife before he was famous and we drifted apart and moved on. When I woke up I was genuinely sad and exhausted from the ceremony but was glad that I caught up with Courtney.... weird huh!
    This made me laugh, because I not infrequently have dreams where my family is close personal friends with Brad, Angie and all the Jolie-Pitt kids. We hang out for BBQs etc. Sometimes Brad is a bit over-friendly, but I can handle him.
    I tend to wake up feeling a bit disappointed when I realise it isn't real.

    Oh, that is too funny! I don't think I'm ever going to catch up on this thread. But, I'm super happy it is alive and well.
  • ladybuggnorris
    ladybuggnorris Posts: 276 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    I woke up once and kicked my husband because he'd been cheating on me in my dream.

    I woke up to my husband beating me with a pillow. When I yelled at him he told me my blanket was on fire. Yup, he was dreaming and was trying to put the fire out with his pillow.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    Had my interview this morning, went well, asked when they were looking to hire, they said they had an internal candidate that was on vacation that they needed to see, so I won't find out until next week.

    Talent acquisition double booked the interview slot so I was in the waiting room with a competitor, he was wearing jeans and a puffy jacket. . . . .jeans and a puffy jacket.

    Oh my. To an interview?! Doesn't sound like he was much "competition" then. Glad it went well and I hope you hear something back soon!
  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    @mohousdon I was trying to go back to your original post but must have missed it in my rapid fire catch up reading. I Just wanted to say how sorry I am. My sister miscarried her second child, and we were all devastated. My mom lost multiple babies between her 1st and 2nd child (RH factor problem) but she ended up with 5 total and my sister eventually had a 2nd child. Joining the virtual hug crowd. Take care of yourself & your family!

    Thank you, @pofoster21 . When the timing is right, I'm sure it will happen for her. Now just wasn't that time. Thanks for the hug too. :)

  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    I woke up once and kicked my husband because he'd been cheating on me in my dream.

    I woke up to my husband beating me with a pillow. When I yelled at him he told me my blanket was on fire. Yup, he was dreaming and was trying to put the fire out with his pillow.
    Well, on the plus side, at least he didn't abandon house and leave you to put the fire out on your own.
  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Not to ruin the vibe or anything, but my husband texted me a little while ago and told me my step-daughter had a miscarriage. I am really sad for her and especially sad for my husband. He was so looking forward to becoming a grandpa. I am a little sad too as I had just started warming up to the idea of being MoNana or GrandMo. :(


    I'm sorry to hear about this. Miscarriages are awful.

    Thank you. Yes, they are. I haven't talked to my step-daughter yet, but my husband said she didn't respond to any of his texts yesterday. I'm going to give her a few days and then reach out to her.

  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    fitfatty88 wrote: »
    ShibaEars wrote: »
    Had my interview this morning, went well, asked when they were looking to hire, they said they had an internal candidate that was on vacation that they needed to see, so I won't find out until next week.

    Talent acquisition double booked the interview slot so I was in the waiting room with a competitor, he was wearing jeans and a puffy jacket. . . . .jeans and a puffy jacket.

    Wow, well that's good for you! :wink:

    I still remember when I was 18 and working at Arby's a girl came in for an interview in jeans, a sweatshirt and carrying a drink from another restaurant. I mean, I get that Arby's is no way a professional dress type of place, but bringing food/drink into an interview should be an obvious 'don't'.

    I remember having management tease me after I started working at Old Navy. I came in my interview clothes...full suit and heels, because to me..that's what you do for an interview. Nearly everyone else I ever saw came in in like, jeans and flip flops.
    You mean you dressed nicely and they HIRED you??
    (I agree, that's what you do for an interview. Maybe my kids will be at an advantage there, because there's NO way I would let them go to an interview dressed in jeans and clutching their mobile phones.)
  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Not to ruin the vibe or anything, but my husband texted me a little while ago and told me my step-daughter had a miscarriage. I am really sad for her and especially sad for my husband. He was so looking forward to becoming a grandpa. I am a little sad too as I had just started warming up to the idea of being MoNana or GrandMo. :(

    So sorry for your loss

    Thank you.

  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    lalabrucey wrote: »
    I dreamed last night that I was attending Kurt Cobain's funeral but had to keep introducing myself as his first wife before he was famous and we drifted apart and moved on. When I woke up I was genuinely sad and exhausted from the ceremony but was glad that I caught up with Courtney.... weird huh!
    This made me laugh, because I not infrequently have dreams where my family is close personal friends with Brad, Angie and all the Jolie-Pitt kids. We hang out for BBQs etc. Sometimes Brad is a bit over-friendly, but I can handle him.
    I tend to wake up feeling a bit disappointed when I realise it isn't real.

    Oh, that is too funny! I don't think I'm ever going to catch up on this thread. But, I'm super happy it is alive and well.
    I skip whole swathes of pages if it goes to fast for me.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    Usually at work I wear hoodies and dickies, because, I buy the food but I also manage the warehouse and I'm not going to tear my dress shirts and slacks throwing pallets around. So I had my interview this morning, but it also coincides with the 20th anniversary at the company I currently work for. So everyone's like "ERMAGERD WHY ARE YOU DRESSED UP" and I'm like "20th anniversary?"

    They're buying it.

    WIN! Plus, it makes them look bad for not remembering and dressing for the occasion!
  • Patriots96
    Patriots96 Posts: 96 Member
    I AM FAT and it is making me very depressed. Am trying to lose weight again. I lose it then regain it. I secretly feel like I am meant to be fat since my body always goes back to it. I am lonely but act like I am fine. Looking for over 40 ladies to join me in my journey. Am type 1 diabetic too on a pump and cgm
  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Not to ruin the vibe or anything, but my husband texted me a little while ago and told me my step-daughter had a miscarriage. I am really sad for her and especially sad for my husband. He was so looking forward to becoming a grandpa. I am a little sad too as I had just started warming up to the idea of being MoNana or GrandMo. :(

    I am so sorry for your and your family's loss.

    Thank you.

  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Not to ruin the vibe or anything, but my husband texted me a little while ago and told me my step-daughter had a miscarriage. I am really sad for her and especially sad for my husband. He was so looking forward to becoming a grandpa. I am a little sad too as I had just started warming up to the idea of being MoNana or GrandMo. :(
    Sorry for your loss.

    Thank you.

  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    My confession: I never EVER eat breakfast. I never log my exercises so i dont eat back the calories. I will pull the cheese off over everything (unnecessary calories). If it has bread, I will remove most of it. I will skip meals if I ate too much. Whenever I over eat, I move thoes calories to the next day and work with whatever calories I have left. Some of these are good habits some are not I know. But I also know how my own body feels and what I personally can handle. :blush:

    I have to disagree that cheese calories are unnecessary. Just like bread calories. I do not understand this foreign concept.

  • annette_15
    annette_15 Posts: 1,657 Member
    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    I woke up once and kicked my husband because he'd been cheating on me in my dream.

    I woke up to my husband beating me with a pillow. When I yelled at him he told me my blanket was on fire. Yup, he was dreaming and was trying to put the fire out with his pillow.

    Ahahahahaha
  • ShibaEars
    ShibaEars Posts: 3,928 Member
    Patriots96 wrote: »
    I AM FAT and it is making me very depressed. Am trying to lose weight again. I lose it then regain it. I secretly feel like I am meant to be fat since my body always goes back to it. I am lonely but act like I am fine. Looking for over 40 ladies to join me in my journey. Am type 1 diabetic too on a pump and cgm

    No. You are a beautiful woman who has some weight that she would like to lose.

    Many of us here have lost and regained multiple times. It can be frustrating, but try not to let it get you down. You've lost before so you know you can do it again. A lot of people on here on incredibly supportive so don't be afraid to reach out :smile:
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    oh.em.gee.

    I can't keep up with this thread- it gives me anxiety when I'm away!

    Awww I know how you feel. Every morning when I log in i am greeted to about 200 posts! I'm falling behind at work because of this!

    I am too! Especially with the boyfriend visiting from the UK I rarely use my phone when he's in town so it makes keeping up with this thread that much harder!
  • metalmaiden17
    metalmaiden17 Posts: 36 Member
    i never log alcohol (i drink very rarely, maybe once a month) and i only log in my weight when it goes down.