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Hello all!!
First, I wanna answer the QOTD.
AOTD: I have so many reasons. I think the biggest is a tie between I am sick of feeling like crap all the time with no energy, and I want to look better!! I want to fit into my old clothes. And I have a bridesmaid dress I need to fit into, or order a bigger size...
Today was a frustrating day at work, but a good health day. Despite the stress, I came home, did my strength training workout, and cooked a healthy meal! Simple taco salads on arugula and spinach.
I also got an extra walk in at work. Walked to buy birthday cupcakes for a sweet young coworker. Got the extra steps in and didnt eat any cupcakes! Win!
I’m also going to step it up for October!!!
That is great that you got the walk in and avoided the cupcakes! I don't know if I could avoid them unless I bought kinds I don't like.2 -
Tilliesmommy1 wrote: »Lana- long day and successful day- did not create any accidents on the road and did all my appointments. My glasses will not cost as much as I had feared (they have a discount line that they market) and so that was a nice surprise. Will have to get new prescription as the eyes have changed again. Mammogram was one of the toughest and most painful. I heard you Lana - ultrasound - so I made sure they got the former records with the ultrasound and so they know I have had one.
Went to Thirft store in an hour got 4 tops and 3 skeins of yarn. Did not want dog to eat too early, she just did. So I went and got a hot chocolate (earned at Mammogram). We shall see what the tests show.
Will walk after dinner as it is cooler. We can all get our good walking shoes on and get more steps.
I am having a struggle getting out for walks as it is too cold for me. However, today I decided that since I am alone in the office and bored out of my mind I would do the 1mile happy walk you tube video by Leslie Sansone. I am aiming to do it hourly and so far have walked 3 miles today. I need to get with the program better.2 -
Today was a weigh in check in for a smartest loser program at work. Lost 2.6 in a month. Nothing earth shattering, better than the alternative. OK with it, but gotta kick it up a notch.
CW 195.8
HW 209
GW 1705 -
AOTD: To feel better. Clothes aren't fitting and generally don't feel great when I want to go to work or go and with friends and can't find anything I feel comfortable in.
AOTD 2.0: To be able to play with my daughter. She's 7 months old and I don't want to be the dad that is too lazy to play with her when she's older.
Today was good health day. Used MFP and got in a Tabata work out after work. I'm tired and want a drink, but it's a good start.
I love your reasoning, I wish that my husband had done that when our girls were growing up. You will be so glad that you did this and that you are involved not just a couch potato on the sidelines.2 -
Hey all!!
Depression comes and goes in severity. Just vented seriously twice today and it feels better. Like I got something out of me even for awhile. Found a heart rate monitor that I thought I had lost. Am going to test it and see if it works still. Fitness tracker is due to arrive Friday. It is supposed to be able to discern from walking and swimming. Excited to try it out. On sale from $99.99 for $9.99 and free shipping. Only paid $10.85. Company is Misfit.
AOTD: to decrease some of my depression and feel more comfortable in public. Bonus of all is to bend over and tie my shoes without pain from squishing my breasts against my thighs. 😉🤦🏽♀️
Runa
Depression sucks! I have battled it for about 6 years and am just over the last 6-8 months feeling on top of it. My depression comes out in the form of anger. I hope you have a supportive family and medical team helping you.1 -
brennerjlb wrote: »Today was a weigh in check in for a smartest loser program at work. Lost 2.6 in a month. Nothing earth shattering, better than the alternative. OK with it, but gotta kick it up a notch.
CW 195.8
HW 209
GW 170
Isn't it disappointing when you think you are doing well and you feel you deserve more of a loss. I am working on stepping it up a notch too.3 -
Hi All,
I don't have too much to say today. Just getting through another day at work. I really wish I had some actual work to do. Although I love the message boards it's not a very good use of my brain.
Sunny and cool today, looking from the inside out it looks like a beautiful warm fall day though.
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brennerjlb wrote: »Today was a weigh in check in for a smartest loser program at work. Lost 2.6 in a month. Nothing earth shattering, better than the alternative. OK with it, but gotta kick it up a notch.
CW 195.8
HW 209
GW 170
Lynn!!! That is so great! Congratulations--definitely give yourself credit! Do the math: 2.6 x 12 months equals 31.2 pounds in a year. I have not yet been able to ever do that, so I think that your 2.6 in a month is AMAZING.
Lana
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Hey all! Thanks for your supportive comments.
I have no qualms with sharing my situation... I get a bit wordy, but it is somewhat complex...
Regarding my depression... I was raised alone by an untreated paranoid schizophrenic. For years Child Protection did nothing because “no bruises, no abuse” was the law. I went to bed every night thinking it was my last for years. I have been getting medication and therapy since I was 15. My therapist history is riddled with major messes. A therapist that moved me in with her partner after a couple of years. My family neglected me because of fear of my mother and was never involved. Therapists saw this and made it worse by attempting to pick up the slack. That living situation fell apart bad.
After the deaths of my childhood abusers, I went back to see a therapist to deal with how it felt having my mom reappear after being missing for 10 years and suddenly dying. One year to the date, my maternal grandfather died and he had sexually molested me for years. My mom caught him in th act when I was 8, walked away after looking me in the eye, and threatened to kill me later back at home. All the memories had become distant while getting my BA and MA in Russian Language. But their deaths opened hell up in my mind. The therapist I went to see was by far the most codependent relationship I have ever had aside from my mother. When another therapist found out what happened, she made me report the previous therapist to the board. It was nasty. That therapist was VERY legally and politically connected. Her family exaggerated claims in harassment restraining orders and then pressed false criminal charges. I was forced into the mental health criminal court program in the same county that I worked for. I was harassed on my job. The therapist that made me do the report ended up not trusting me and pushed me too much. I had one severe angry outburst and was kicked out of the entire association of clinics for all their locations for the rest of my life the day after she apologized to me.
After my therapist who destroyed my life started showing up at my local Target a few times, I decided I really needed to move. But I rushed. I never found a job, was homeless checking into shelters, having panic attacks because my mom lived in a homeless shelter for six years before she died from cancer at 47 and Ibwas going to die there too.... mental health treatment is of VERY poor quality in my area. I disclose my background and my diagnoses every time. They say they understand and can help me. They don’t and they can’t understand why I am so difficult.
I just found a therapist I trusted. Thought I was reaching out too much too soon. She told me it was ABSOLUTELY not a problem and preferred it. But I got kicked out suddenly and when I filed a grievance was told that the problem was exactly what the therapist said was not a problem. Apparently I really wore her out... so the director kicked me out. Had they been direct, I could have made changes. But as it is, I literally got kicked out for doing exactly what my diagnosis says I am going to do per he DSM... that’s why I was given those diagnoses... but I got kicked out. That was July. Every month I get random bills from that place. Every month I call to ask about what they sent me... never any itemization... always the billing office tells me it was wrong and they will fix it. They don’t, I call again. Now the billing office is telling me the won’t talk to me anymore. I can do what O want. If I don’t pay, they will just send to collections. There is no one governing agency. So Ai literally have to make 5 different reports to five different organizations/licensing boards. That has consumed my time since July... I have no intention of finding a new therapist. After 25 plus years... I take the minimum medication I need to. My body chemistry has not worked well with ANY psych meds or sleep meds more than a year or two ever... I get tired of feeling like a lab animal. I am tired of allergic reactions they never heard of.
I distract, I read and watch videos that experts in the field of my diagnosis have done... I trust a very few. I talk, but I don’t trust. I never share anything that means something to me anymore unless I have nothing to lose. And it shocks people I gave give intimate details of my abuse in the same manner I recite a grocery list. Always have. For me, the hard thing to talk about are the emotions or seeing and knowing just how different my life is from “average” and that is what I stopped talking about.
I am not angry... just trying to share enough to give a good picture of what my situation is.
So... this group and a couple others online are part of my distraction tools.
Hope y’all are doing well and I didn’t give anyone the blues.
Runa4 -
Healing thoughts and beams to you, Runa.
I've been silently lurking for a while since I have been eating anything I wanted. No logging, no effort to control. Yesterday, I had my first consultation with the holistic practioner. My blood results gave me the answers I have been looking for all my life. I have Hashimoto's, polycystic ovary syndrome, and Epstein-Barre virus. Cholesterol is high, magnesium and vitamin D are low. She said my markers indicate I have been sick for decades. Likely was born with Hashi's and PCOS.
I will have to go Keto and will be on an extensive regimen of supplements and hormones. I'll do it as long as I can afford to. Insurance doesn't cover any of it except the lab work. Hopeful this is the answer to feel better and get healthy.5 -
WEDNESDAY
Good morning,
Possible rain today which is a little bit of a surprise, but what else is new?
Listening to you write I wonder if my problems are so little I need to quit whining - no my coworkers whine about their workload THAT is serious whining - but issues attached to the body whatever they are -- is not whining. At least we know what we are dealing with and finding a balance is often difficult - hang in there.
Cafe lunch today. Taking an extra apple to work to see if it will keep the munchies away.
I have been walking after dinner although not that glorious 20 minutes. Something to aim for.
Wave to all who follow we are half way through our week.2 -
Runa - Thank you for sharing your situation. It has been a major struggle for you for a long, long time.
I am NOT qualified to give advice, but two things just popped into my head for your consideration.
1--Is there any sort of group therapy you can do? I'm thinking safety in numbers and a source of support.
2--Can you volunteer in any way with any charity or help organization unrelated to your situation? Often times giving time to and helping other people in need can be beneficial to the giver as well.
No need to answer this; but think about giving volunteering a try.
Tracy - What a relief to find out your conditions. Several members of a family I know have Hashimoto's. Sorry it took so long to figure this out, but it is good to know. I hope that you find some relief with your new regimen.
Lana2 -
Runa - thanks for sharing. that is more than any one person should have to deal with. sending prayers and positive thoughts your way.
Tracey - glad they have been able to figure out what is wrong. good luck with the holistic treatment! i am trying to find a holistic practitioner in my area but have had no luck so far.2 -
My second grandson made his appearance last night! He weighed in at 9 pounds & measured 19.25" He is a very healthy boy and pretty darn cute! (of course I may be a bit biased!)
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nope not biased, he is cute!0
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Hey all! Thanks for your supportive comments.
I have no qualms with sharing my situation... I get a bit wordy, but it is somewhat complex...
Regarding my depression... I was raised alone by an untreated paranoid schizophrenic. For years Child Protection did nothing because “no bruises, no abuse” was the law. I went to bed every night thinking it was my last for years. I have been getting medication and therapy since I was 15. My therapist history is riddled with major messes. A therapist that moved me in with her partner after a couple of years. My family neglected me because of fear of my mother and was never involved. Therapists saw this and made it worse by attempting to pick up the slack. That living situation fell apart bad.
After the deaths of my childhood abusers, I went back to see a therapist to deal with how it felt having my mom reappear after being missing for 10 years and suddenly dying. One year to the date, my maternal grandfather died and he had sexually molested me for years. My mom caught him in th act when I was 8, walked away after looking me in the eye, and threatened to kill me later back at home. All the memories had become distant while getting my BA and MA in Russian Language. But their deaths opened hell up in my mind. The therapist I went to see was by far the most codependent relationship I have ever had aside from my mother. When another therapist found out what happened, she made me report the previous therapist to the board. It was nasty. That therapist was VERY legally and politically connected. Her family exaggerated claims in harassment restraining orders and then pressed false criminal charges. I was forced into the mental health criminal court program in the same county that I worked for. I was harassed on my job. The therapist that made me do the report ended up not trusting me and pushed me too much. I had one severe angry outburst and was kicked out of the entire association of clinics for all their locations for the rest of my life the day after she apologized to me.
After my therapist who destroyed my life started showing up at my local Target a few times, I decided I really needed to move. But I rushed. I never found a job, was homeless checking into shelters, having panic attacks because my mom lived in a homeless shelter for six years before she died from cancer at 47 and Ibwas going to die there too.... mental health treatment is of VERY poor quality in my area. I disclose my background and my diagnoses every time. They say they understand and can help me. They don’t and they can’t understand why I am so difficult.
I just found a therapist I trusted. Thought I was reaching out too much too soon. She told me it was ABSOLUTELY not a problem and preferred it. But I got kicked out suddenly and when I filed a grievance was told that the problem was exactly what the therapist said was not a problem. Apparently I really wore her out... so the director kicked me out. Had they been direct, I could have made changes. But as it is, I literally got kicked out for doing exactly what my diagnosis says I am going to do per he DSM... that’s why I was given those diagnoses... but I got kicked out. That was July. Every month I get random bills from that place. Every month I call to ask about what they sent me... never any itemization... always the billing office tells me it was wrong and they will fix it. They don’t, I call again. Now the billing office is telling me the won’t talk to me anymore. I can do what O want. If I don’t pay, they will just send to collections. There is no one governing agency. So Ai literally have to make 5 different reports to five different organizations/licensing boards. That has consumed my time since July... I have no intention of finding a new therapist. After 25 plus years... I take the minimum medication I need to. My body chemistry has not worked well with ANY psych meds or sleep meds more than a year or two ever... I get tired of feeling like a lab animal. I am tired of allergic reactions they never heard of.
I distract, I read and watch videos that experts in the field of my diagnosis have done... I trust a very few. I talk, but I don’t trust. I never share anything that means something to me anymore unless I have nothing to lose. And it shocks people I gave give intimate details of my abuse in the same manner I recite a grocery list. Always have. For me, the hard thing to talk about are the emotions or seeing and knowing just how different my life is from “average” and that is what I stopped talking about.
I am not angry... just trying to share enough to give a good picture of what my situation is.
So... this group and a couple others online are part of my distraction tools.
Hope y’all are doing well and I didn’t give anyone the blues.
Runa
I have no words of wisdom, but I sure wish that mental health issues were taken as seriously as physical health issues. I have a BF that is suffering physically and no one is taking her seriously because of her mental health issues. It's a terrible way to live a life.
I hope you find some peace and comfort soon.0 -
Healing thoughts and beams to you, Runa.
I've been silently lurking for a while since I have been eating anything I wanted. No logging, no effort to control. Yesterday, I had my first consultation with the holistic practioner. My blood results gave me the answers I have been looking for all my life. I have Hashimoto's, polycystic ovary syndrome, and Epstein-Barre virus. Cholesterol is high, magnesium and vitamin D are low. She said my markers indicate I have been sick for decades. Likely was born with Hashi's and PCOS.
I will have to go Keto and will be on an extensive regimen of supplements and hormones. I'll do it as long as I can afford to. Insurance doesn't cover any of it except the lab work. Hopeful this is the answer to feel better and get healthy.
Knowing what is wrong and giving it a name is sometimes the tip of the iceberg to feeling better. Glad they finally were able to figure out your issues.2 -
We all agree he looks like his momma, but he does have his daddy's chubby cheeks!
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hickchic67 wrote: »
My second grandson made his appearance last night! He weighed in at 9 pounds & measured 19.25" He is a very healthy boy and pretty darn cute! (of course I may be a bit biased!)
Oh what a cutie! Does he have a name yet?0 -
I think I have broken a toe on my left foot... it is so painful! I am trying to work through it and not miss my workouts, but it's getting more difficult.
Our granddaughter had to have minor surgery this morning. She was taken into surgery at 729 and was awake in recovery by 751. She woke up and told the nurse she was hungry and had a good nap. She had to have her lip tie cut, it was causing a huge gap in her teeth and they believe affecting her speech a bit.
We kept our grandson overnight since she had to be at the hospital so early. He thought he was getting away with something having a sleepover on a school night. We went to McDonald's for breakfast before I took him to school this morning.
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