Need to Lose 100 LBS -Robins Thread !

Made it to the lake safe and sound! The place is huuuuuge - we counted 21 beds, all but 2 are Queen or King, plus several couches. Wifi is really slow, though. I'm downloading a couple of my yoga videos so I can keep up with my Miracle Morning routine, then I'll probably just spot check emails and login here to keep my streak going.

Oh, successfully avoided fast food, even with the 5-hour drive.

jennbo83 wrote: »

I am feeling a little frustrated. Last week I never made it to the gym because of an awful cold. Today I am on the tail end of it and feeling much better but this weekend I injured my shoulder and any movement creates horrific pain so I still can't go to the gym! I am still logging and staying within my calorie range but I want to do so much more! I know I need to let it heal - if I become more injured it will not help my situation - just frustrated.

Jennbo- I can understand your frustration between being sick and a shoulder injury. Just keep in mind that you are still recovering from being sick so an additional rest period will help with that. When it comes to injury, you need to let it heal since you don't want to re-injure it. Are you icing the shoulder? How did you injure it? If you want to do more can you walk without being in pain? Remember, the key to losing weight is to eat less. So you can still lose while recuperating.

Robin- you are forgiven for lagging behind. We all do the best we can to keep with the thread and there are days when it gets the best of us. Glad your eye sight keeps improving and great job doing the stairs today. They will give you a great workout and build your endurance as well.

Meliforma- Enjoy the time at the lake, it sounds like a beautiful place.

Tanya- Good luck with the car and the heat. I hope it warms up soon for you. Cars never act up when we take them to the shop, so frustrating.

I had a very successful workout today. Today, I swam about 1600 yds which included 800 yd of freestyle in about 15 minutes and that was the warm up. It felt good to accomplish that goal. However, I did not stop there with my workout. I went to the gym where I biked for 25 minutes (11.1 miles) on the spin bike, then ran for about 15 minutes or a 1.5 miles for a mini-triathlon. After that I worked out with my trainer on strength and motion training. The most challenging part was the run after the bike and the fact that I have not done much running lately. So now, my goal is to keep working on doing combinations of events and to increase my running ability and speed.

The weather for the next week is horrendous for my area and the majority of the states. This will most likely impact my workouts and gym time but I will stay positive that I will get to the gym. Based on the projections, I am looking at an early dismissal tomorrow due to more sleet and freezing rain. Wednesday is suppose to be all rain and warmer, then Thursday more snow the early projection are showing 5-10 inches, I hope this does not come true. My county only has one more snow day left before we start using Spring break days. The bright side is that the forecast can change based on a few miles north or south. For everyone who will be dealing with the winter storms, stay safe and warm.

Hey guys!

@laurie--great job on the workout today! That sucks about your weather. We are in for snow turning to rain tomorrow. It will be snowing during the morning commute, but at least the most precarious time (snow/sleet/ice mixture) will happen around 9-10 am when few people are still on the roads. We are also doing the PARCC this year. Tomorrow is the ELA portion and math is in a couple of weeks. The state didn't release the test schedule/timing until about 2 months ago, so we didn't know if it would take 2 days or 10 days to administer (I'm not exaggerating--that is literally the time frame they gave schools prior to releasing the schedule in December). Also, they originally said our English 3 and Algebra 2 students had to take it which would've been mostly 11th graders who were already scheduled to take the ACT tomorrow. Again, just 2 months ago, the state amended it to say we could administer PARCC to our English 1 and Algebra 1 students (mostly 9th graders) instead. So we switched to that group and they will take it at the same time as the 11th graders take ACT tomorrow. I was "selected" to be one of the PARCC proctors and have had ZERO training other than a PPT that gave basic information. It's just a hot mess--I don't foresee tomorrow going well.

@melissa--enjoy your vacation!

@jennbo--I can sympathize; I'm dealing with a shoulder injury as well, and it's so frustrating. I went to the doctor but got no films, so no diagnosis of any type. Instead the doctor gave me a course of prednisone to bring down swelling and referred me to PT. The prednisone worked while I was on it, but clearly didn't last b/c I'm in pain again. Aside from sharp pain in the shoulder from certain movements, my lower neck feels all out of whack. I have days when I have dull, but constant, pain in my neck that just won't go away. Plus, my neck and back make horrible crackling and popping noises with every move which is NOT normal for me. The PT isn't doing anything to improve the condition, so I'm at the point where I think I need to insist on getting some sort of x-rays or scan to see what is wrong. It's shocking how difficult it is to truly rest that joint--seems like everything you do involves movement there. Please take care of it--robin and others here warned me not to wait so long to get to the doctor, but I didn't listen.

@tanya--that stinks about your car--stay warm!

@niki--yes, sadly we are beyond the "keeping peace" point. We just want her to leave us alone, but she called and left another message today. I'm so sorry for your friend's diagnosis. I have 2 close friends who watched their mothers deteriorate from Alzheimers--such a terrible condition.

@holly--sounds like your mom and my MIL might be related! LOL Thanks for sharing--I'm sorry you have had to deal with that in your life, but it makes me feel a little better that others understand. Good for you for taking the high road and just offering words of support to your friend regarding WW.

@2ledbetter‌ --Walk at a pace that's comfortable, but takes some effort. I honestly don't know what my pace was when I was at my heaviest, but I'm 5'7" with fairly long legs, so it wouldn't be a good comparison anyways. I will tell you that in 2008, I did the Komen 3-day 60 mile walk for breast cancer. I was not at a healthy weight (though not quite at my heaviest yet), but I trained over about 7 or 8 months increasing my distance little by little. I saw many women on the walk who much larger than me, so weight shouldn't keep you from walking. Just do what you can and increase the distance and pace little by little. You will be amazed at how quickly you build endurance.

@tracy (tlh)--thanks for the perspective. At least my parents are really supportive and (relatively) sane. LOL

@susan--Thanks for sharing about your ex-FIL. I agree whole-heartedly about not accepting toxic behavior family or not. However, my MIL clearly thinks she's still entitled to be in her children's lives regardless of how she treats them.

Cards Against Humanity is a store-bought game where you get some white cards with random words and phrases--some are obscene or at least not PC. Then one person picks a black card and reads a phrase with a blank. Everyone throws down a white card to fill in that blank (think Mad-Libs).The black card player chooses the word he likes best, and if it's yours, you get the black card. Then you play a new black card. Flippycup is a drinking game--it's easier just to show you:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hpi1aVZxucI

We play a very tame version where we use about an ounce or 2 of beer in the cup for each round, not this college version where it looks like they are chugging full beers.

@barb (MM)--Hi!

@kaye--great job logging!!

AFM--neck is really achey today, so I decided the gym wouldn't be a good idea. Couldn't even walk gunner b/c any jerking on the leash would be painful. At least my food was good yesterday and today.

Tomorrow will be interesting with the PARCC testing schedule. I believe I have to proctor until 1 pm with no break until then. That will be difficult food-wise, but I'll have to figure it out. I also have a bargaining meeting after school until about 8:30, so dinner will be whatever they order in for the evening.

MIL update: She called and left another message, This time telling my DH how much she loves him and that he always is welcome in her home and has a place to stay if need be. She said he shouldn't stay in a "bad situation" for fear that he has no place to go, b/c she will take him in. I honestly don't know where she gets these ideas--like I'm holding him hostage or he's unhappy in our marriage and only stays b/c he has no place to go. Again, this is all in her head. He's never complained to her--even in jest--about being with me. I think she's just projecting her unhappiness onto others.

She then went on to continue to blame her daughter for driving our nephew away--made up a bunch of lies about my SIL that we know aren't true. We WATCHED her treat my SIL's son and his girlfriend terribly the last few years that they still tolerated her in order to see the rest of the family. I mean we literally were there and saw it first-hand--I don't know how she thinks we don't remember that. I'm truly baffled.

Monday Check-in:
No change in my weight, but at least the terrible month of Feb. didn't result in any weight gain. I will take any silver lining I can get right now. Like others, I can't wait for Spring.

It's 10 pm, and I'm determined to get to bed within the next hour, so signing off now.

March Challenge:
At or under calories 5/7 days every week and at or under as a weekly average.
All-in strength challenge=core work 3 x/week; PT 1-2 x/week; run 3 x/week:
Week 1: x/3 core; PT; x/3 runs
Week 2: x/3 core; PT; x/3 runs
Week 3: x/3 core; PT; x/3 runs
Week 4: x/3 core; PT; x/3 runs
8k at end of month (not sure what day) in 55 minutes (Thanksgiving 8k = 56:49, NYE 8k = 57:47, 1/25 = 55:41; 2/28=55:15)

Grading Goals:
1. 14/64 BNW journal reflections
2. 3/64 AP essays

Exercise Goals: (week 1)
Sun--rest day
Mon--walk gunner NOT DONE + gym NOT DONE
Tues--meeting
Wed--walk gunner + gym
Thurs--PT
Fri--rest day
Sat--walk gunner + gym

2015 mantra "Just 15 minutes"

@tracy (goins)--that's tough about your husband. Just talk to him about how you need to carve out a schedule for yourself to go to the gym. Be careful to phrase it in a way that doesn't sound like your are complaining about his condition. Just say something like, "I really need to start taking better care of myself, so I've set up this gym schedule." Let him know ahead of time when you plan to go. Then plan to get his food, medicine, etc. all set up and ready for him before you leave for the gym. I hope it doesn't sound like I think it will be easy; however, they only way you will do it, is to make a plan and follow-through.

@erin--I forgot to comment about you PF. I also suffered from it several years ago. My doctor referred me straight to the podiatrist who fitted me for custom orthotics. I've not had a problem since (unless I bring it upon myself with poor shoe choices). If you have insurance that will cover orthotics, I highly recommend that route. I never even did all of the icing, stretching, etc. I just wear sensible shoes and orthotics = no foot problems.

@Tanya949 - Good job avoiding fast food! My car's fan has been acting up, too. Lucky for me, my husband and his dad/brothers are all quite car savvy and they'll fix it for me. No mechanic's labor costs. Right now, I'm just living with it, too. My husband showed me how to tap the underside of the dash on the passenger side to get it running...otherwise, I had to wait until I hit a set of bumpy railroad tracks or something for it to kick in.

@iowaoly - Welcome! Good job tracking. Keep it up!

@tlh0407 - I'm glad we never reached the missing book fee stage with our wayward library book! Our kids' school raised money for Heifer Int'l before...it's a great fundraiser to do with kids because they can see something tangible that they're working toward. A set dollar amount can be sort of abstract.

@skinnyjeanzbound - Vent away regarding your MIL. If anything, it's making me feel very blessed to have a 'normal' MIL! She's just glass-half-empty and negative about a lot of things, which is nothing. She's also a loving mother and grandmother. She's never offered my husband a place to escape, that's for sure! Yikes.

@grandmakaye44 - I'm making it happen this March!

@mountmary84 - Keep plugging along!

@susan2396 - Don't tell me my son will still be losing books into middle school...though, I guess deep down I know it will most likely work out that way! I'm a list-maker, organizer, type A person, so the missing book was a huge deal at our house. I was on the phone with my niece and my sister when my son came tearing into the room screaming that he'd found it. My sister is a very laissez-faire person, so she and her daughter (age 6) couldn't exactly empathize with our utter joy. I believe my niece's exact words were, "Oooooookaaaaay...." (I get the feeling they lose a lot of library books at their house.)
Good idea starting off refocusing on your calories. One step at a time!

@2ledbetter - I still have about 80 lbs to lose and I am a runner. Like you said, everyone is at different fitness levels. I walk more than I run lately, but I have run a half-marathon, so I know I could walk that far. That took a lot of training, of course. Typically, I walk for 20-30 minutes, either outside or on a treadmill. I break into a jog at 4 mph, so the fastest I walk for a sustained period is 3.7 mph. I usually go about 1-2 miles.

@NK1112 - I'm up this month, too. I know I always feel fuller and less 'snacky' at the end of the day when I get plenty of protein.

@mnwalkingqueen - Good job weighing your food! I'm trying to get into the habit, but it hasn't stuck yet.

@jennbo83 - Even though you're not working up a sweat, you are still making changes to your body just from the foods you eat and restricting your calories. It's frustrating, but the silver lining is that you're still able to lose weight and without gym body odors!

@Lives2Travel - You're off to a great start for March!

@RobinsEgg - Oh no! A downside to correcting your vision...you now have to clean all those gross areas!

@melifornia - A 5 hour drive with no fast food stops? You're awesome!

@LaurieK70 - We are getting snow tomorrow, but only 1-3 inches. We had a very dry February, so I can't complain. I hope you guys don't get that 5-10 on Thursday!

@ereilly311 - Gym, kickboxing and basketball...20,000 steps...I am sore for you already! Hope you're able to chill tomorrow and not too sore.

@GOINSTD12 - I agree that you need to make time to take care of yourself. Walking at work can be a good way to fit that into your tight schedule, so glad to see you've got that in your plan. Caretaking for a spouse is a tough, tough job, so it's okay to give yourself a little slack in the exercise department if gym time doesn't fit into your life right now. Praying for you.

AFM- Overslept again today....the whole family did. Eesh. My son was supposed to help read the morning announcements, and he *just* made it in time. Yikes. It's midnight, and like others have said, I need to get to bed!

March:
Calorie Goal- 1/21
Exercise Goal- 1/12
Veggie Goal-6/93 servings
Lift Goal: 1/8
Leg Press-185/200
Squats-180/200
Abs- 152.5/165
Back- 152.5/165
Triceps- 82.5/90
Biceps- 82.5/90

2015 Mantra: You Know Better! ~and~ Finish This Baby!

@Niki- That is the age ole question “What are parents to do.” I have to keep reminding myself he is not like me. He didn’t have a job until he was 17 (I babysat at 10). He didn’t drive until 17 (me 15) he is going through things that typical teens go through but at 18 verses a younger age. I just keep trying to guide him I have really been pushing the trade school aspect.
@LaurieK- Be safe those ice storms are no joke.
@Tanya- Congrats on no fast food. I like stating every day to hold yourself accountable. Older cars are annoying I just put $3,500 into mine this year because I can’t afford a car payment plus part of that is one shop butchering the repair so I had to have it done twice.
@Jennbo- Try not to get frustrated just do what you are able to each day.
@Melifornia- Congrats on no fast food and enjoy the lake
@Goin s td- Your dealing with a lot and it is okay to vent. Keep your head up god will find a way to help you through
@Karen- MIL and my mom might- I will say your MIL is relentless though.
@Hansea- Thanks for the weighing compliment, it is still a work in progress but I am learning that labels aren’t always right and where I get confused is for example with turkey bacon label say serving size 1 slice (14g) but food scale 14g is 2 slices so which is it I am supposed to eat?

AFM- It is going to be a wonderful day it is my normal Tuesday read with Massimo and then I will be volunteering at Read Across America (something about Dr.Seuss) at a local elementary school for the afternoon. I have decided being a small blizzard is anywhere from 600-800 calories that I will no longer support DQ. I have a sign at my desk telling to reject any DQ offers from co-workers. Because I accepted yesterday and had to eat on the run cause of class I was over by 500 yesterday for the first time in awhile.

@2ledbetter…I was never a fast walker even when I was thin. My short little legs don’t move that way. I do about a 3.0 on the treadmill unless I’m doing the C25K. I don’t think you need to worry about speed, just walk what you can and length and speed will get there.
@Holly…Yesterday we hit the mid 40s here and today the wind is howling outside and only 11 as a high. I wish the cold weather would motivate me to clean house. As far as your son, does he need to you to help motivate? If I could live for free somewhere and get food covered, I’d probably not be motivated to do anything other than chill as well. Maybe you need to charge rent of some sort (nothing huge, you don’t want him to be financially strapped) but enough that he has to get some sort of job. (As I say this, I do realize I’ve never had a child old enough to deal with this so what I’m saying could be totally off. ) My husband’s parents said they could live at home for free if they were going to school, but if they weren’t in school, they had to pay rent and have a job.
@Nikki…sorry to hear about your friend. I’ve watched Alzheimer steal some of my family away. It’s such a hard thing to watch and then the double up of cancer as well. Hopefully it moves slowly.
@Tanya…I’ve had a vehicle that had a heating problem. It worked fine when it was 15 degrees or warmer, but when it got lower than that the lines would freeze and no heat would come out. We discovered it when we drove 6.5 hours to my parents for Christmas. We took turns lying in the back of the blazer in a sleeping bag having the 80 pound dog lay on top of us. Then when the driver’s feet and hands would freeze, we’d switch. After that we stuck close to home.  Good luck with the rest of winter.
@Lori …Michael and I had a 2 year separation. Every time I would get to the point of wanting to actually file divorce, I didn’t have the money to do so. When I had the money, something in my heart told me not to. About 1 ½ years into our separation, Michael finally admitted to being an alcoholic, went through treatment and asked me to come back. My family was frustrated with me at the time, but I’m so glad I stuck with it. I know that’s not the answer for everyone, but I hope you and your husband can figure out a way to work it out. Even if it means not getting better himself, at least supporting you.
@Robin…that made me giggle about the gross areas.
@Laurie…your stamina amazes me. Great job!
@Tracy…I’m so sorry to hear about the struggles both you and your husband are having. Is there someone that could come in while you are gone? That might make both of you feel better – he’d have someone else to talk to you…you could get out and take care of your needs to. Maybe a couple hours a day? Robin had a great suggestion and it was something we used in rehab when Michael was being treated for alcoholism. The counselors had us spend some time writing a letter to our loved ones. Then we had to read it (we were with another counselor during the reading) to them and they were not allowed to respond. They just had to take it all in and then we went back at a later time and discussed it. That kept it from becoming a “defensive” moment for either of us.
@Karen…We call it Tippy cup here and I had never heard of it until I went to WeFest a few years ago. (WeFest is a 3 ½ day country festival that you camp on farmland and they have concerts from 10am – midnight each day…lots of beer consumed!!). I rocked at it and we took 2nd place in a tournament in our campground – fun, fun! We did about ¼ of a cup each time we had a turn.

AFM: Met all my goals yesterday – whoo hoo!!! My sister was having a tough pregnancy day so she didn’t join me at the gym. In the past, I had used that as an excuse not to go. But I got that swimsuit on, went to water aerobics and then spent another 30 minutes on the treadmill. I’m tired today, but a good tired. Hopefully she’s feeling better today and we can do a lifting session tonight. My goals for today:

• 75 oz of water
• Stay within calorie goal
• Pick up girl scout cookies
• Thorough cleaning of my Living Room (including dusting, vacuuming and watering plants)
• Lifting session at the gym

How my March Goals are going:

• Cardio – 1/3
• Lifting – 0/2
• Water – 2/5
• Calories - 2/6

@kah68 - I hope your Achilles heals quickly!

@tlh0407 - That's great that you went to the gym despite your sister not being able to go and great job with meeting all of your goals! I am thinking I want to start doing daily/monthly goals for myself.


I am still frustrated with my shoulder but trying to focus more on my eating habits. I have found that I am starting to like foods I never would have ate before. Such as items labeled "light". I often never liked the taste and now I think they are great! For example. I had completely cut out cheese from my diet for awhile because it was a major trigger food for me. I would have different kinds in excess with crackers or bread and jams. So, I cut it out. I recently started allowing myself to eat one of the light cheeses that comes in a little disk? Just on occasion. Not everyday. Of course I just spaced on the name of it. But anyway, my point is I never would have eaten the light one. I never would have liked it. I also used to use a lot of salt on my vegetables. Now too much salt is gross to me. I don't care for the taste anymore. For vegetables I will add pepper or a no salt seasoning or eat plain and it's great! I find it interesting how my taste buds are changing. I like it. It makes this process of eating right easier.

@jennbo83~Thanks! It’s been said that our taste buds change every 5 –years, but I also think that when changing over to a healthier lifestyle we are more apt to trying new things—discovering a whole new world in the process. Are you talking about the Laughing Cow and Babybel cheeses? them!

@kelmomto3~Thanks to you also. My Achilles is a chronic problem but I’m hopeful that one day I can put it behind me. Hooray that your boss has noticed the changes in your body — my boss is oblivious, although he saw me eating something one time and asked me if I was allowed to have that. Are you kidding me?! I just told him it was healthier than the 32-oz soda he buys for himself every afternoon! I think clothes fitting looser is a better indicator of the changes in your body—you’re building muscle and muscle is more dense than fat and weighs more. So kudos to you on those changes, you'll see changes in the scale soon too!

@Holly~DQ, oh how I love a blizzard—they are calorie hogs though. I treat myself to one (kids size) every summer—no more!

@jennbo83‌ - I've bee thinking of adding babybel & laughing cow, but I've been doing so well with my "fats" metric that I hate to mess with it. I did buy a 4-oz pkg of goat cheese (love it!) but I haven't decided how I'm going to use it yet! Do you think it would freeze well?
- @everyone - thanks for your comments and care- I don't know what I'm going to do but my DH does need help; I just don't know if he'll accept it.

No fast food today. I am planning on making a quinoa veggie casserole but am exhausted today so it may be tomorrow. I will cook the quinoa today at least. I'm having so much neck pain today that the pain meds are not helping at all. I just cracked open a cider so I hope the alcohol does the trick. When I first had my back injury there were days I had to have a vodka cooler to numb the pain when the meds didn't help. The chiropractor at the physio clinic left abruptly a week and a half ago, so I've been without adjustments for 2 weeks, and I'm sure the increase in pain has something to do with that. I see the new chiropractor tomorrow... finally. I am really looking forward to some relief again.

@Robin... Right now I'm eating snacky things... yogurt, nuts/seeds/raisins, cheese, crackers. I have homemade lentil soup in the fridge, I make sandwiches, salads, scrambled eggs on an english muffin. When I'm on my game, I make my meals from scratch, make a batch and put in the fridge to eat throughout the week. Occasionally I will eat freezer meals like Beef and Broccoli but cook long grain rice, or hash browns with scrambled eggs.

@goinstd12 I feel for you and your hubby. COPD is a lot to deal with. Most people don't realize how it feels not to be able to breath. One of my best friends had it, she used to tell me she had a choice she could eat or she could breath, but not both. She also lost a lot of weight. I assume your husband is using the supplements like Ensure or Boost type things. My friend's Doctor also ordered Pulmonary Therapy for her and that really helped her a lot. Is there any chance you could get something like that set up for him?? It involves doing simple exercises using some basic equipment and he would have to go some where for it, so that might get him going a little bit. Also, the more he does for himself the better although it's very hard not to do wait on someone hand and foot when they are having such a hard time. I'm praying for you both.

Have a busy evening so have to get going. Will check in later if I have time.
Barb

Kah- I hope the achilles problems can be resolved quickly.

Skinny- Push for the scan so you can get to the extent of the problem and on the path to healing. I am currently having more freezing rain, but it should turn to plain rain tonight as the temperatures rise above freezing. Good luck with PARCC. Are your students taking it on the computer or paper/ pencil? PARCC starts next week for us and each grade has a week to complete the tests both ELA and Math. I am curious to see how this test plays out and how many connectivity issues we have with the computers and the networks.

Holly- I also love a DQ blizzard but I have learned to order the mini. Still a lot of calories but better than a small and just as good.

Jenn- Try to get an x-ray of the injured area.

Tracy- I understand what you are going through with your husband since I witness my mom dealing with my Dad. When she plans to go out, she will prepare him some snacks and a drink and then tell him when she will be home. Check out the department of aging and see if they have some programs available to help you and your husband out. It is extremely difficult to watch our loved ones decline in their health and fitness levels. There are times that I want my Dad to step up to the plate and take responsibility for his actions and to help himself.

The weather this week is going to be lousy. Tonight is freezing rain/ rain, tomorrow is rain with temps in the 40's, then comes Thursday. SNOW and the forecasters are predicting 4-6 inches for this storm. If we get this amount, then it will be our largest snowfall at one this season. I am so ready for Spring to come and Winter needs to say So Long, Farewell- need to say good bye (Sound of Music).

Exercise Plans
Sunday- Rest
Monday- Triathlon
Tuesday- Rest
Wednesday-Swim
Thursday- Shoveling SNOW or gym
Friday- Climbing
Saturday- Swim

Hope everyone has a good HUMP DAY.

Howdy MFPeeps!
@jennbo83‌ - A large part of working toward good health is to listen to what your body is really saying. Right now what is it telling you? Hungry? Tired? Hurting? Healing? Just learning to listen is a big step.

@Ellen - Thank you for your message. I too am thinking a separation may be in order. I am not making any decisions today. I am not yet ready for that.

@melifornia - How is the lake? I am absolutely green with envy.

@Lauriek70‌ - How is your school system going to handle the extra days off?

@GOINSTD12‌ - I feel for you. I like the suggestion someone had of looking into getting extra help. You both need it.

@ereilly311‌ - Re: Plantar fasciitis - Yes, I highly recommend the cortisone shot. I know I would not have recovered this well without it.

AFM: Second lesson with the swim coach tonight. I had a coach all to myself.
Hubby and I went to the counseling session together yesterday. It was a huge blame game. On both sides. I am having a hard time picturing how to get past these hurdles. Still not sure I want to. I am so very tired of being let down. Not sure I want to continue to let that happen. Not sure I can trust that he is willing to give me what I need to feel loved.

March Goals
Logging - 3/3 Yippee!
Fitness - 3/3

@skinnyjeanzbound‌ Thanks for your PF tips. I have pretty decent insurance, but unfortunately one of the few things it doesn't cover is orthotics. My podiatrist told me I can get away with the Dr. Scholl's ones, but I just need to switch them more often. Hopefully when I get my taxes back I can get some real orthotics. I just need to make sure I wear them all the time, because that's when I can really feel it is when I don't.

@hansea47‌ I surprisingly wasn't too sore today, but after eating lunch my exhaustion hit me! I ended up coming home after work and taking like an hour and a half nap. Great job on avoiding the late night snacking! I am having that battle tonight. I ate dinner and am still hungry. I had a banana so that wasn't too bad.

@NK1112‌ that's a funny story about your mom's Polish friend. I always tell everyone I'm half irish and half polish, but I also have some english and russian in there too. On my mom's side of the family, my grandfather's parents were from Russia, but I believe his mother was from part of Poland that was occupied by Russia.

@cblue315‌ Sorry you're counseling session didn't go as well as you hoped, but I'm glad to hear your hubby went. At least you got that from it, since you weren't sure he would even go in the first place.

AFM - As I wrote above, I actually wasn't too sore today like I thought I would be. But I ended up exhausted after lunch. I should be in bed right now but I'm still up haha. I was bad for lunch today and went with a coworker of mine to pizza hut buffet. I figured I could handle it since I had so many extra calories from yesterday, but I really can't think that way. I went to the gym again tonight. I didn't get my full workout in because it took a little longer than I thought, and I needed to get up to the school to let my girls in at 6:45. One of the moms is a trainer and has been doing a conditioning program for us. So I also did that with them. I think I will be sore tomorrow for sure from all the arm stuff I have done so far.