Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Today, my husband and I were sitting together on our respective laptops, when he suddenly looked up and demanded... "Define yourself!"
...I confess that the first two words that popped into my head and spilled out of my mouth were "Ugly. Fat."
I also confess that this makes me sad.
Although I suspect that one of the first words I'd use to define myself is also "ugly", I'm now tasking you to come up with two POSITIVE attributes to replace those ones.
Off the top of my head, mine would be "funny" (I promise, I constantly make people laugh IRL, probably not so evident on here) and "analytical".
Ooh, that's a challenge! Umm, let me think... Positive attributes...
My first would probably be that I automatically think the best of people. If someone didn't show up for a meeting or did something inconsiderate, I always think of what might have been going on in their circumstances first and make excuses for them to myself, rather than just getting angry that they didn't meet my expectations.
My second... (Gosh, this is hard. X_X)... Umm... Does "I'm good at not offending people" count? Because, with confrontation being a major trigger for my anxiety, I'm pretty good at that. It doesn't sound particularly impressive, though...
Confession: It took me ten minutes to come up with those.
Happier confession: Due to some horrible financial circumstances growing up, I never got a high school diploma. After I got married, my husband paid for me to take the GED test. Well, I proudly proclaim that I received my diploma and transcripts in the mail today!
Also, I scored in the 99th percentile on ALL subjects except one, which I scored in the 97th.
Congrats!
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kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »kellienw335 wrote: »smashley_mashley wrote: »I've kind of lost my drive to keep on track, which is really stupid since I'll have to be seen in a swimsuit in a little more than a month. I just want to eat and drink what I want and not give a crap. I think I might be depressed because of all the crap that's going on right now with my stepdaughter (not going into that) and my kitty being gone.
I did have an NSV yesterday while cleaning out my closet. I have a pair of BCBG boots that have always been tight on my calves. I put them on yesterday and I actually had a little bit of room where they weren't suffocating my legs. I felt pretty good about that.
I've been there pretty much the entire month of May. It sucks. But, like you I had an NSV last week. I put my tankini on - the same one I bought when I got married 5 years ago and the top has "grown" and is to big to wear in public (will wear it while in the yard sun bathing. Made me feel a bit better to see the results of all the tracking.
Then today I went to Marshall's to see if I can find some good capris. I didn't find anything (they only had about 3 pairs in my size and they were something my great-grandmother would wear) but I found a bunch of dresses that I liked. One was a size 12 calvin Kline and it was just a bit too tight but I was able to zip it up. I felt awesome (was a size 16-18 at one point). So I bought a pair of quite white heals for summer. First new pair summer sandals in 3 years. I like feeling pretty.
My point being, is even though it is a struggle to stay on track a lot of the time, there is progress
I hope you feel better.
Thanks, @smashley_mashley . Congrats on your NSV's as well! I think sometimes, those can be far more rewarding than the stupid scale numbers.
I also like feeling pretty. I get irritated that age appropriate clothes in most stores look like old lady clothes that I wouldn't wear out of the dressing room, much less in public.
I am having a hard time finding a swimsuit that is both flattering, body conscious (not sure I spelled that correctly), cute and not $370. I can't really wear a one-piece for several reasons. I have a long torso, so by the time I get it pulled up to cover my chest, I look like Borat. I also am rather flat chested so unless that baby has some serious padding, I end up looking like a 10 year old prepubescent girl. Plus, all the slimming ones don't go any smaller than an 8 so that's not an option either.
I feel very whiney today. Sorry about that.
Finding clothes with a long torso is challenging! Growing up, bodysuits were really popular for awhile...that was not a comfortable phase of my life!
I hated the stir-up legging pants that were popular in the '80's & early '90's, Jelly shoes since they hurt my feet, & the fact there were no fashionable plus sized clothing for pretty much anyone. I remember hating how most of the clothes were either plastered with Tweety Bird, Taz, Mickey Mouse or looked like a floral pattern an 80 or 90 year old grandma would wear.
I was too tall for stirrup pants, so I had elastic clip-on straps that attached to regular pants so they could still fit like stirrup pants. Honestly, who thought it was a good idea for girls to run around with 2-3 layered pairs of socks at a time when gym class was still mandatory? There were some seriously funky smelling Keds and Capezios walking around school that year.0 -
My dad and sister bought an Otter Box for their phones after mine survived me getting hit by a car.mysticlizard wrote: »
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Congrats-peleroja and Tubbs
Celebrate!
Confession-Sometimes this thread is a bad influence. I was eating some of that Peanut Butter and Co white chocolate peanut butter and ate a bunch of it. My reasoning was, well the people from the thread do it sometimes so I'm normal.
I need to get back on track. I've been eating too much each day since Sunday.
I'm not blaming anyone but myself of course. I love this thread still.
I confess that I've totally done that too... With the Speculoos/Biscoff cookie butter!
I confess that I am tempted to buy some of the Trader Joes goodies on Amazon since I don't have one close to me. Those Trader Joes Cookie Butter Cookies are like calling my name.0 -
spacequiztime wrote: »
My dad and sister bought an Otter Box for their phones after mine survived me getting hit by a car.mysticlizard wrote: »
Were you also wearing an otter box?? Jk, that must have been really terrifying. Glad that you were ok!0 -
girgir1031 wrote: »I never seem to eat enough calories per MFP (that is why I gave up last time) so I eat just to eat even though I am no where near hungry. Seems wasteful but my doctor say the reason I keep gaining is because I under eat and my body stores thinking I am starving.
Sad part is when I look at MFP I wind up eating junk food cause the food I truly love (veggies, oh how I love celery and veggies) are such low cal it seems pointless cause I would have to eat all day long to hit the number of calories
Unfortunately starvation mode is a myth. I also second to get another doctor or maybe a registered dietician that has a lot of knowledge with nutrition.
Since you have a lot of to lose at least according to your profile then I would suggest to try to eat what MFP is telling you since eating too few you won't get necessary macro/micros, it could set you up for a binge, & it helps keep your energy up to exercise & function throughout the day.
A good tip is to buy a food scale that measures in grams & ounces & if you make a lot of home cooked meals you could input your recipes in MFP & put it in servings.
Some foods that you could eat that have a decent calorie amount:
Peanut butter with your celery
Avocado
Cheese
Nuts
Yogurt with fruit or you could make it savory
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I am also pale and never tan! I just had to chime in and encourage all of the other fair skinned people to get checked by a dermatologist! Especially if you've had bad sunburns! Four years ago, at 27 years old, I noticed a tiny black dot on my arm. I went to the dermatologist and it was melanoma. My doctor said it would have been fatal in 5 years. Luckily it was caught early, and although I'm left with an ugly scar, it could have been much worse. I'm 31 now and religiously put on sunscreen every day and see my dermatologist twice a year. I don't want to scare anyone, just want everyone to be safe and healthy!!0
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I wish! Thanks.
Were you also wearing an otter box?? Jk, that must have been really terrifying. Glad that you were ok!spacequiztime wrote: »
My dad and sister bought an Otter Box for their phones after mine survived me getting hit by a car.mysticlizard wrote: »
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Confession: I"m thinking of taking a break from logging and just being active and mindful of my eating. I'm just tired of always thinking about food and worrying about food. I'm just tired of agonizing over every little stupid calorie.
I hope it works. I've actually starting to lose steam for MFP. I only come to this thread and the Ice Cream/Gelato group page. I was active on the other forums and reading the blog, now I just don't even want to bother.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »
Then you'll love this one: A few weeks ago, I was sitting on my exercise bike and I had my 7-inch tablet balanced on top of a little pocket (made for holding an iPod, so my tab wouldn't fit inside it) so I could watch Phineas and Ferb while exercising (I'm very mature, I know). I was putting on my earphones and accidentally jerked the wire. Result: The tab came flying towards my face, then went down and slammed into the frame of the exercise bike, bounced off like a rubber ball, flew two feet, and CRASHED into the floor.
It looks like spiders built webs all over the screen now.
Oh, that's rough!
ETA: oh, and I watch cartoons all the time
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I unfriended you in my mind for like 2.6 seconds. Punishment served. I wasn't laughing at the fact your phone broke, but the mental picture (video?) is amusing. I think it's the "Peter Pan" term you used lol 0 -
I unfriended you in my mind for like 2.6 seconds. Punishment served. I wasn't laughing at the fact your phone broke, but the mental picture (video?) is amusing. I think it's the "Peter Pan" term you used lol
LOL I figured it was the peter pan reference (which alternately is a reference from the movie Fugitive) and not me screaming at the Gods (Darth Vader style) around 2:40pm EST. Hahaha
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Nerdycurls wrote: »I am a huge emotional eater when I'm stressed. Left to my own devices, I could probably down a bunch of fries, Jimmy John's sandwiches, cake, chocolate and ice cream in one sitting. I think I HAVE downed an entire carton of ice cream in one sitting. Of course, I was crying at the time...
Looks like you guys have started a real chat but this is sort of my thing... I boredom eat, and like drinking too much. Its been a hard year for me since coming home from overseas. A lot of friends have moved on or away. Winter was rough. I'd go to the gym, but then bring home wine and polish a bag of chips. I still have this healthy sometimes, totally destructive other times thing. It makes no sense and I'm really ashamed. I just can't keep my will power for more than a few days. I leave on a big trip in a month still being overweight and I know its my fault. blah
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Sadly, I confess...if I ever were to get divorced, though I like to think different, I would probably be "that older guy" that hooks up with someone younger...then feel all creepy about it.
On the radio morning show the other day, they were discussing the age ranges of men and women's "ideal" match. They went over the stats for women from 20's up to 60's, and generally, they were looking for someone within 5 years as their own age. For the men from 20's up to 60's, they were looking for someone in the 20-21 range. "That" older guy isn't as rare as you think.
I do think that is creepy. As a 20 -21 year old why do you want a 40 or 60 year old guy? And as a 60 year old guy why do you want a 21 year old? You have nothing in common at all at that point. Women and men can look hot at any age if they take care of themselves and have a great attitude. I would rather spend time with someone I can relate to. As I have aged so too has the age of men I am attracted to.0 -
girldownsouth wrote: »smashley_mashley wrote: »overlook237 wrote: »overlook237 wrote: »I don't know why I'm suddenly having such a hard time staying on track lately. I don't even remember it being this hard when I first started and had tons of bad habits to break and zero fitness level. WTF?! I haven't had any days that were 100% awful - I've kept up with my exercising and I'd say about 75% of my eating has still been fairly healthy. But I keep screwing up, and I hate that.
Like yesterday: I was hungry while I exercised (walking) and instead of ignoring it like I should've, I actually ate a bunch of Chex mix while I was walking. Talk about defeating the purpose (and I obviously wasn't pushing myself hard enough if I could stuff my face while walking either). What a waste.
I weighed myself yesterday morning and I'm up 3 pounds and at the same weight I was in the beginning of May. Might be water weight; might not. Regardless, it's like any of the work I've done these past few weeks was for nothing because of all the screw-ups. I just wish I could tap into some of the motivation I've had in the past and push through this. I don't know if it's because I'm burnt out or if I'm letting my emotions of late (stressed and depressed about being unemployed) take over where food is concerned. But I'm really tired of feeling like this.
Not for nothing! Think how much you might be up if you weren't getting it right 75% of the time plus still exercising! It's easy to completely give up, but you're hanging in there. Just focus on one day at a time.
And please explain to me how you were walking around with a pocketful of Chex mix?! I love that, haha. Reminds me of Napoleon Dynamite.
That made me laugh for like five minutes, and I really needed it - thank you! And to explain: I walk in my basement and we have a pantry down there. It was pretty easy to grab the bag and get right back to my walking. But walking around with a pocket full of Chex mix on a daily basis doesn't sound like a bad idea actually smashley_mashley wrote: »My confession for today: I have plans to go shopping to buy some summer clothes. I need a few pairs of capris and a few shirts to go with them but I have no motivation to do anything. Hubby and I have just the one vehicle and normally it isn't a problem since I am usually at work during the day and he uses it for his job. But today, I just want the truck and I just want to drive. I don't want to walk to the bus stop, wait for buses, sit on trains, or do any of that. I also want to go to the store to pick up groceries for dinner but again, don't even feel like walking there even though walking is the only exercise I can do right now. I thought about buying online but I really hate buying clothes w/o trying them on.
I also need to pull my dandelions, just because they are dandelions and they must all die. Normally that would give me some satisfaction (DIE DANDELIONS DIE!!!) but all I want to do is be lazy - but then I feel guilty for being lazy.
Maybe I will just watch a movie...
Yes, yes they must! They're worse than ever this year. I'm embarrassed to say that my neighbor caught me standing outside shouting, "Get off my lawn!" at the weeds like a crazy person, LOL! I just came back in from outside after nearly 2 hours of weed pulling, and it was very cathartic.
our city administration has decided that they are no longer considered a "noxious weed" and don't kill them anymore. There is more yellow than grass. They are such an eyesore.
My whole yard is being overtaken with them so I've suggested that we all just give up and decide that dandelions will now be our lawns. We can all have nice yards of yellow.
Yeah - who decided grass was where it's at anyway?!
Agreed! I have never understood why people think pretty yellow flowers are weeds.0 -
It's biology imo. Men want to find a fertile mate and the female wants a mature male figure sometimes.0
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Thank you. That's doesn't sound as unappealing as never eating imported pasta from Italy because it isn't 'clean'. I guess I just need to get back on the horse and try.smashley_mashley wrote: »jennlandau wrote: »I am afraid that I will always be this big. I have 100+ pounds to lose. I see what others have done to do so (eat Clean, train to run marathons, make food plans & control of food their whole life) and I don't really want those measures but I am not happy with my current weight either. I exercise 2 to 4 times a week doing things with a higher intensity (LaBlast, Pound, Zumba, Kettle Bell AMPD, Salsa Dancing) and can keep up pretty good, especially for my size. My stamina and strength have definitely improved over the last year. No movement on the scale but I am down a pant size, one to 2 dress sizes. In addition, many of the clothes that I own still fit but are now too long, I guess because there is less holding them up (I am really short too!).
I know that food journaling, watching fat grams, exercise & stress management are the keys for me. I know that I need to work harder on all of that, especially the food journaling, but what if even with the work this is as good as it gets? What if I will never be under 200 pounds? What if I am forever a plus size with all of the shaming and weight bias that that entails?
That is my true fear for the future
you'll get there. You will have ups (which suck and tend to happen at least once per month) and you will have downs (which are awesome). I find routine can help. For me, I tend to eat the same thing for breakfast every day. Prior to my surgery to weeks ago I would have a slice of toast with White Chocolate Wonderful and an apple; for lunch, left overs from dinner that were pre-weighed/measured (but the two weeks leading up to my surgery I wasn't eating lunch at all...that's another story). Now that I can eat dairy again, I will go back to having yogurt and granola with an apple for breakfast and my pre-surgery breakfast of a slice of toast with White Chocloate wonderful and an apple will be moved to lunch and the apple with be subbed with a different fruit or veg. I leave dinners open for variety during the week - weekends are also not pre-planned. I find consistency helps. You just need to find what works for you.
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xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »Ugh...so bummed. I had my youngest son Sept 2014 and it was a horrible pregnancy (actually both of mine were but his was the worst), complete with severe Hyperemesis (basically you throw up 30-40-50x/day and break blood vessels in your face, damage your esophageal lining, etc.) I had a home health nurse come and give me IVs every other day because I literally couldn't eat or drink anything. I still threw up constantly, just not as much.
It did serious damage to my teeth. Most of my enamel has worn off, teeth are rotted out, etc. I've been working on fixing my teeth since last Oct. We have spent $10k (seriously) just since March on root canals/crowns and we are TAPPED out. That was AFTER the $3k insurance covered. Our credit cards are maxed, savings is gone. Since Oct it's been 4 root canals/crowns, 8 fillings, 1 tooth pulled.
I go in tonight to have the dentist check another tooth that I'm thinking he has to pull. Awesome. That'll be like another $400 Never mind the constant mouth soreness and losing pieces of the tooth.
I'm OVER IT. I just want to scream/cry/hit things. I'm tired of constantly being in pain and being broke from it. It's not fair to my children that $ that could be used for their care is going to my stupid teeth I'm also mad that I'm 33 and having dental work done like I'm 50.
I'm so sorry. It is not easy, it is not fair, it is not fun. Pain and lack of money and not having part of your body cooperate is miserable. I know a lot of my parents friends go to Yuma AZ and cross the boarder for their dental work. It is part of their "vacation." I have a much lessor tooth issue and I'm considering it. Hang in there. Do what you can. Taking care of your mouth IS taking care of your health. A healthy you is best for you and for your kids. You are taking care of your kids by fixing your teeth. It will keep you in better health. Again, I'm sorry you have to deal with this.0 -
Kids are VERY resilient and I bet they will surprise you with how much they love it.kelly_c_77 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »In just a little bit, I'm going to drop off the registration form for my son to start preschool in the fall. I'm freaking out a little...where has my baby gone!? Don't back out..don't back out...
I'm with you. My baby starts kindergarten in the fall and I'm freaking out as well. I'm also worried about him adjusting to a school environment since this is the first time he'll be going to school. He's been home with my husband for the past 2 years.
That's the same reason that I'm so nervous...I'm a SAHM and we are together every day, all day. On top of that, he has only been away from both my husband and I (at the same time) ONCE...and it was for 2 hours. Three and a half years old...and only 2 hours away from his parents. It's going to be tough! He seems to be excited though...we'll see how it goes when it comes to actually going.
Good luck to you! We can do this! Just (try?) relax about it and your kids will relax about it. I bet they will enjoy time with other kids and you will enjoy a little time to focus on you.
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Today, my husband and I were sitting together on our respective laptops, when he suddenly looked up and demanded... "Define yourself!"
...I confess that the first two words that popped into my head and spilled out of my mouth were "Ugly. Fat."
I also confess that this makes me sad.
Although I suspect that one of the first words I'd use to define myself is also "ugly", I'm now tasking you to come up with two POSITIVE attributes to replace those ones.
Off the top of my head, mine would be "funny" (I promise, I constantly make people laugh IRL, probably not so evident on here) and "analytical".
Ooh, that's a challenge! Umm, let me think... Positive attributes...
My first would probably be that I automatically think the best of people. If someone didn't show up for a meeting or did something inconsiderate, I always think of what might have been going on in their circumstances first and make excuses for them to myself, rather than just getting angry that they didn't meet my expectations.
My second... (Gosh, this is hard. X_X)... Umm... Does "I'm good at not offending people" count? Because, with confrontation being a major trigger for my anxiety, I'm pretty good at that. It doesn't sound particularly impressive, though...
Confession: It took me ten minutes to come up with those.
Happier confession: Due to some horrible financial circumstances growing up, I never got a high school diploma. After I got married, my husband paid for me to take the GED test. Well, I proudly proclaim that I received my diploma and transcripts in the mail today!
Also, I scored in the 99th percentile on ALL subjects except one, which I scored in the 97th.
I may be out of place here but I'll add them anyway about you.
Humble and Smart and Kind and Sweet and Gentle
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