Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Seriously, why does MFP take me to the last post of the page instead of the first non read post? This is making me very annoyed.
*still PMSing*
Also getting annoyed at what people post as their dinner sometimes, or when someone says that two eggs on toast or one serving of oatmeal 'fills them up until lunch'. I must really not be normal, but most of what fills people up for hours would maybe keep me satisfied for 2 hours. Maybe. So sometimes I just think I'm not normal and I'll just never manage to maintain my weight.0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »girldownsouth wrote: »
I lost my Dad to cancer at 61 in July 2012. It was pretty quick really, he had his kidney removed just over a year before, but then it came back and he deteriorated quickly. I loved my Dad totally, I feel so lucky when some people on here have talked about their upbringings because I had a great childhood.Italian_Buju wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »bainsworth1a wrote: »IAmTheGlue wrote: »kellienw335 wrote: »Finally caught up! My confession is I've been drinking too much...every single day for quite awhile. I am making a commitment to not drink Monday through Thursday this week. Please think good thoughts for me!
ETA: A little embarrassed to admit this quasi publicly, but hoping admitting it on here will make me face reality. Since I know there are several of you that have admitted to stopping for good.
You are so not judged. I'm thinking about (not yet committed to ) a dry June. Yes, it is a big enough of a deal to not drink for an entire month for me but June is my worst month. My dad died 3 years ago on his and my mother's 43rd wedding anniversary, right after Father's Day. I tend to drink and cry from one to the other. I try to keep that as discrete as possible (the drinking, not the crying ) so I'm not a super horrible example to my kids but seriously, it is excessive and it needs to stop.
You are not alone. Many people struggle with cutting back on drinking.
I am sorry for your loss. My father died right after 4th of july 1990 and I still morn him. He was a shot and a beer guy and drank every night before he went to bed. I toast him with a shot and a beer on 4th of july and on his birthday in October. It makes me feel better to keep this ritual in his memory.
My dad died 26 years ago this June, 3 days before my parents wedding annivesary and again, right after Father's Day. Still miss him every day.
Funny how it never seems any easier.....my father died on Dec 3rd, 1991, I still cry every single time that anniversary passes. He died very suddenly, and inadvertently left me alone with my crazy mother, so it was really difficult. He was the person I loved most in the world, and I still miss him every day. My son is named after him, and it makes me tear up when I think about how my son never got to meet him. My sister said she cried a lot when he died too, not only because he was a great stepdad to her, but because she felt bad for the way he was treated by our mother and when he died she felt bad that he wasted so many years of his life being treated like that.
But last year, on only the second anniversary of his death I was really into what I was doing at work at the time and I completely forgot until my brother text to see of I was ok. This made me feel like I was a terrible person. Me and my brother have both always said to my mum that we don't want to mark the occasion, we'd rather continue to celebrate his birthday instead, and her brother and sisters tend to do something with her on the anniversary. But I felt awful that I didn't even realise.
I've never really been much of a crier, and tend to get on with things, but some things will really upset me. Sometimes even imagined things, like a song I think he'd have liked and I imagine him telling me about this great new singer that I was trying to get him into years before, but he'd only have recognised when they came onto radio 2. And when my brother got married last month I got quite upset when we did something to remember him, but I'd not have expected that I would have.
But I have found that it does seem easier, I love my dad and always will, he has played a big part in who I am, and although I miss him when he should be around I know how he would have felt about things and can imagine his reaction. And to me the anniversary of his death is the opposite to special and not something I want to mark.
I don't make a big deal about the day my dad died either. He also died of cancer. And we found him...He had probably got out of bed to go to the bathroom and had a stroke or he may have fallen and hit his head on the side table. My mom had stayed in the spare bedroom because he was getting Chemo and she had a cold and didn't want to affect him. She couldn't find him when she went looking for him and came running into the kitchen where I was having breakfast hysterical she couldn't find him. She thought he had committed suicide, went running for the garage to see if his car was there. When she saw it was she just looked at me like where is he? And I knew. I said 'did you look beside the bed'? She was so confused but I just knew. We went to the bedroom and looked at the far side of the bed and he was laying there. She was hysterical again and kept begging me to do something, to help him. I could tell that he had been gone for hours. I worked as a nursing *kitten*'t at the time, and she thought I should save him. It still breaks my heart that I couldn't do anything to help -- her mostly as he was long gone. I felt guilty about that for years. For years I could never say my dad had died, I only said he was gone. Apparently a lot of cancer patients don't actually die from cancer, they have strokes, etc. before the cancer kills them (at least that is what I remember the doctor telling me at the time). But the day he died is just a day. I prefer to remember all the good stuff he did, none of the bad (which my siblings like to focus on) and I simply miss him every day. But I have 'missed' the day of his death before and felt guilty to not even recognize it. I am always sad on Fathers day and I get bitter when marketers send me emails about 'gifts for dad'. I actually just got one as I was writing this. I wish I could buy my dad a gift.
And now I am sorry I probably just depressed all of you.
I really feel for you the way you found him, that must have been so difficult. And tough for your mum too with it in their bedroom. My Dad was going to be coming home, they delivered a hospital bed for him as he wouldn't have been able to get upstairs, but the day he was going to he'd got worse and stayed in hospital, in some ways it was such a shame for him, but I think I'm many ways staying there made it easier for my mum. And he had a room with a window, so a couple of times in his last week we brought their dog to see him. We passed him through the window! The happiest he seemed was when he was showing his favourite nurse his dog.0 -
I think there is a full moon here tonight. Close if not.pofoster21 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »I did go to the gym. Am now home in a foul snappy mood, God knows why.
Oh and I ate two pop tarts on the way home. When I knew the casserole in the slow cooker would be ready. Go me! /Sarcasm
Oh dear... TOM? I get rally pissed off at the world the day or so before. I bite everyone's heads off. I used to cry hysterically before. Now I just get in a total rage. I have to step away when I do that. I can hear it on calls and I have even gotten off my horses in the past when I realized I was in a foul mood because of that, as I have ZERO patience. I get over it in a day or so.
No, I don't have TOM, as I'm on the injection to spare me all the pain and mess, although I wish I had it to blame binges/moods on
Full moon? Quarter moon? No moon? I can keep trying!
Dumb question maybe, but do we have full moons at the same time as you? Or anywhere else? Is it worldwide?0 -
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Just a standard grocery chain in the south. It's got more of a variety of foods than my local Krogers and Target
What is HEB?spacequiztime wrote: »
Oh god, I've had so many crappy trips to Wal Mart. We went to one we don't normally go to on a recent trip and someone started yelling and telling people not to look at her because they wouldn't sue her.raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »CountessKitteh wrote: »Confession: I had a Target giftcard to use, so I stopped in to pick up some things I needed for my exam this weekend, and general household stuff. I also picked a pair of workout capris (pair #15, or so - obsession!)...and a pair of SIZE FOUR jeans. They are still VERY snug and totally muffin top-inducing, but they technically both zip and button so...
It counts! and I adore Target..I could live in that store for real!
Oh how I love Target! I will drive 30 minutes out of my way to go there, simply because I HATE walmart! Reminds me of a saying I saw somewhere, "Target: where you spend a little more just to avoid going to Walmart."
HEB is my favorite grocery store. I do love Target apparel though!
I've worn glasses since 6th grade and can still remember how shocking it was to be able to see the individual hairs on my cat so clearly! My last pair were busted after my car accident and I couldn't get new ones with my old prescription right away. I spent a good few weeks without them and not being able to read certain words was not fun.
I really want to buy some prescription sunglasses man. I need to stop being lazy and actually do it.
I'm 32, I think I've had glasses since I was about 8 or something, and I just got my first pair of prescription sunglasses.
Confession: I feel super cool in my raybans! I feel like I've missed the cool sunglasses thing up til now and I really don't know why. I've either not been able to see when wearing them or not worn them.0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Omg did someone mention Harry Potter?! Yes they did so here I am! I've never tried to read the LOTR series but have always wanted to do so and I did try to read GOT but got completely lost trying to follow the story line in the first
Book and gave up
I never got on with harry potter either. i just wanted to slap him.
I only ever wanted to slap him in the 5th book. He got really whiny in that book. BUT... @LBuehrle8 if you loved Harry Potter you will likely really like LOTR. I always felt that Harry Potter was like a dumbed down LOTR. Probably just because of the fantasy. But I am sure I will spark some kind of argument with that so please forgive me. I love both series.
AHH plugging my ears I can't hear you la la la la (with the negative talk of HP) I have always wanted to read the LOTR series! What is the first book to start with? I know the movie the Hobbit came out after the trilogy so I'm not sure where to start
You can start with The Hobbit if you like. It comes before Lord of the Rings, but isn't required reading. I own the Lord of the Rings in a all-in-one book, but if you are getting them separately it's Fellowship of the Ring, The Two Towers, and Return of the King. After that you can read the Silmarillion (which chronologically is the first book but probably not a great idea to jump straight into, the depth of Tolkien's worldbuilding can be overwhelming) and then Unfinished Tales, the Children of Hurin (this one is a bit depressing), and then Christopher Tolkien's wonderful History of Middle Earth series, which details the process behind the books as well as containing changed/deleted scenes from the books themselves (twelve books).0 -
kellienw335 wrote: »kellienw335 wrote: »I re-discovered my favourite instant hot chocolate the other day - it comes in single-serve sachets, 47cal a sachet, and if I add my taste of milk (which is very little), the whole drink comes in under 100cal.
I've found a new kind of heaven. Especially as it's now very, very, very, extremely, definitely winter here.
Now I'm curious. Where are you?
Australia. Down in the Capital Country, where it does actually get cold (unlike Sydney's routine whinging at this time of year). It was -7C when I woke up this morning. (And I still walked to work so obvious idiot is obvious.)
And you walked to work? That's dedication!
Or stupidity. -5C this morning and yep, walking walking walking...0 -
All this talk of sunglasses, I've had a pair of Oakley Half-Jackets for 8 years. Been through 2 sets of rubber and 2 sets of lenses but they're still good.
I never understood the expenses sunglasses either but once you pay that much for them you're a lot more careful with them.0 -
I ate a bag of potato chips 1 turned into 2.I paid for it at the gym today 0
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pofoster21 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Omg did someone mention Harry Potter?! Yes they did so here I am! I've never tried to read the LOTR series but have always wanted to do so and I did try to read GOT but got completely lost trying to follow the story line in the first
Book and gave up
I never got on with harry potter either. i just wanted to slap him.
I only ever wanted to slap him in the 5th book. He got really whiny in that book. BUT... @LBuehrle8 if you loved Harry Potter you will likely really like LOTR. I always felt that Harry Potter was like a dumbed down LOTR. Probably just because of the fantasy. But I am sure I will spark some kind of argument with that so please forgive me. I love both series.
AHH plugging my ears I can't hear you la la la la (with the negative talk of HP) I have always wanted to read the LOTR series! What is the first book to start with? I know the movie the Hobbit came out after the trilogy so I'm not sure where to start
You can start with The Hobbit if you like. It comes before Lord of the Rings, but isn't required reading. I own the Lord of the Rings in a all-in-one book, but if you are getting them separately it's Fellowship of the Ring, The Two Towers, and Return of the King. After that you can read the Silmarillion (which chronologically is the first book but probably not a great idea to jump straight into, the depth of Tolkien's worldbuilding can be overwhelming) and then Unfinished Tales, the Children of Hurin (this one is a bit depressing), and then Christopher Tolkien's wonderful History of Middle Earth series, which details the process behind the books as well as containing changed/deleted scenes from the books themselves (twelve books).
Thank you very much!0 -
^^^ Glasses since 1st grade baby! Woo hoo! I wear contacts mainly unless I'm lounging at home and feel like giving the eye balls a break!0
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Seriously, why does MFP take me to the last post of the page instead of the first non read post? This is making me very annoyed.
*still PMSing*
Also getting annoyed at what people post as their dinner sometimes, or when someone says that two eggs on toast or one serving of oatmeal 'fills them up until lunch'. I must really not be normal, but most of what fills people up for hours would maybe keep me satisfied for 2 hours. Maybe. So sometimes I just think I'm not normal and I'll just never manage to maintain my weight.
Hehehe - I watch that thread too (what does your food look like on the recipe forum). There was a couple really sad ones recently. A salad that was literally a cup of lettuce and maybe three radishes as one meal, and then a light yogurt a diet tea for lunch. Most of that page is great food porn though.
Don't hate me, but two eggs on toast is a pretty good breakfast for me, I'm a constant grazer, but eggs in the morning usually gets me about 3 hours before I want to eat again. Maybe more protein would make you feel more "normal". Related note - have you ever tried IF? Regardless, I think you really should feel better about how you managed so far. If I remember correctly, you lost a bunch of weight and have maintained for at least a year, right? Sounds like you're doing it right to me.0 -
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WestCoastJo82 wrote: »Seriously, why does MFP take me to the last post of the page instead of the first non read post? This is making me very annoyed.
*still PMSing*
Also getting annoyed at what people post as their dinner sometimes, or when someone says that two eggs on toast or one serving of oatmeal 'fills them up until lunch'. I must really not be normal, but most of what fills people up for hours would maybe keep me satisfied for 2 hours. Maybe. So sometimes I just think I'm not normal and I'll just never manage to maintain my weight.
Hehehe - I watch that thread too (what does your food look like on the recipe forum). There was a couple really sad ones recently. A salad that was literally a cup of lettuce and maybe three radishes as one meal, and then a light yogurt a diet tea for lunch. Most of that page is great food porn though.
Don't hate me, but two eggs on toast is a pretty good breakfast for me, I'm a constant grazer, but eggs in the morning usually gets me about 3 hours before I want to eat again. Maybe more protein would make you feel more "normal". Related note - have you ever tried IF? Regardless, I think you really should feel better about how you managed so far. If I remember correctly, you lost a bunch of weight and have maintained for at least a year, right? Sounds like you're doing it right to me.
Nah... I need my breakfast. I get lightheaded and hangry if I don't eat anything, and I workout in the morning and just can't do it without any food. I actually typically eat most of my calories by 4pm. I could do IF the other way around though (no food between 4pm and 8am or something)... but it just doesn't work with my family's schedule.0 -
My eyesight was terrible when I was younger. Had glasses and contacts but hated them both. I abused my eyes by wearing my extended wear lenses over their expected time. Luckily, I came out ok. I had lasik done about six years ago and wished I had done it sooner. After a few years with great vision post surgery, my age is catching up with me and now I am getting to need the cheaters to read small print!
I have terrible vision. Glasses since 6, contacts since 11. I have a bad astigmatism so I was told that Lasik would be a waste of time, because I might still need light correction and my eyes would revert with age.0 -
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I ate a half of a gallon worth of ice cream two rows of Oreo cookies half a gallon of milk and a cheeseburger and just decided not to log in those calories on purpose lol. I just want to get back to staying consistent with my nutrition. Good thing I love to work out
I don't think I've ever expressed my ice cream consumption as portions of a gallon... I tip my hat to you, sir. Well done.
Lamest reason for eating ice cream ever: there's one (give or take) serving left in the tub and tonight is garbage night, so I want to get the empty container out in the garbage. Therefore, I eat ice cream!
Kind of annoyed because the nutrition content label only gives volume, not weight and I refuse to try and get ice cream in and out of a half-cup measure because it will get all melty in the process.
Haha yeah it hurts to leave one serving of ice cream in a tub. Maybe you can find the weight of a serving online if it's a brand you can find in the US too?
Unfortunately it's the President's Choice brand (Butter Tart Pecan flavour!) that is only available in the Real Canadian Superstore and its derivatives.
I think precise accuracy is out the window anyway. I would think calorie value would depend on the relative proportions of pecans to ice cream to caramel sauce to little clumps of pretend pastry, which aren't the same in every serving, whether measured by weight or volume.
I was actually supposed to be logging it. But I popped in here instead.
edit: grammar!
Little known secret - Walmart's Sam's Choice and Great Value brands are actually PC, rebranded for walmart. The info may still be out there, but I don't know if the numbers would be the same. They have PC at some other grocery chains too, directly branded as PC.
WOW! Never knew that.
However... there are notable differences between even same name products sold in Canada and the US so I agree the numbers might not be the same. For example, I've heard our Cheerios are way higher in sodium than US Cheerios.
The PC premium ice cream is to die for. Butter Tart Pecan and Toffee Cashew Crunch (or some similar name) are a couple of my big favourites. They came out with Pumpkin Pie in the fall a couple of years ago and I hoarded it.0 -
marissafit06 wrote: »My eyesight was terrible when I was younger. Had glasses and contacts but hated them both. I abused my eyes by wearing my extended wear lenses over their expected time. Luckily, I came out ok. I had lasik done about six years ago and wished I had done it sooner. After a few years with great vision post surgery, my age is catching up with me and now I am getting to need the cheaters to read small print!
I have terrible vision. Glasses since 6, contacts since 11. I have a bad astigmatism so I was told that Lasik would be a waste of time, because I might still need light correction and my eyes would revert with age.
Lasik has improved by leaps. They can do it now even if you have astigmatism. If your prescription has leveled off you could be a candidate. Nothing like being able to see immediately after getting off the table.0 -
marissafit06 wrote: »My eyesight was terrible when I was younger. Had glasses and contacts but hated them both. I abused my eyes by wearing my extended wear lenses over their expected time. Luckily, I came out ok. I had lasik done about six years ago and wished I had done it sooner. After a few years with great vision post surgery, my age is catching up with me and now I am getting to need the cheaters to read small print!
I have terrible vision. Glasses since 6, contacts since 11. I have a bad astigmatism so I was told that Lasik would be a waste of time, because I might still need light correction and my eyes would revert with age.
My BFF has vision that bad, she can't get lasik. My astigmatism just passed, although it was bad enough that I could never wear soft contacts, only rigid gas-permeable... which I over-wore.
My distance vision has been completely stable since 97 when I had the lasik done -- and I even had a rare complication in one eye (flap displacement). But it doesn't prevent normal presbyopia due to aging.0
And English to boot! 
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