Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • raymax4
    raymax4 Posts: 6,070 Member
    edited October 2016
    raymax4 wrote: »
    I went clothing shopping today and found I am about two sizes down!!!!
    I was in a hurry to get home and try on my smallest sized of saved cloths because they were the same size.
    I am horribly disappointed because they are still to small.
    How is this possible?

    Great job on going down two sizes!

    How old are the clothes that are too small?

    I find that clothes that are from around the 90's & earlier were made more accurately compared to the clothing now. I've heard a lot of manufactures/designers vanity size clothing which is annoying, because it's harder to know what your actual size can be.

    When I was a lot lighter I had pants ranging from size 6-12 in regular slacks & my designer jeans were either 31-32 (those were more accurate since it was based off my waist measurement).

    You called it. The clothes were from the 80's and 90's they will be vintage soon.
  • raymax4
    raymax4 Posts: 6,070 Member
    One of my biggest fears is that when I have a large weight loss I will just have a lot of extra skin that will be hanging around. I know it's unhealthy to be fat but I've learned to love a fat body, I'm worried that when I lose, if my skin is loose I will hate my body. It's often been part of the reason I quite before I can even give myself a chance. I'm a little vain but it happens to the best of us.

    Loose at a slow steady pace with strengthening exercises will decrease the loose skin effect.
  • JessicaMcB
    JessicaMcB Posts: 1,503 Member
    Binged and binged hard tonight- the only positive thing I can say is that I logged all of it, which disgusts me so much I hope to God to never repeat it.

    What frustrated me the most is that even when I was fat I never did things like this! But today all day I knew it was going to happen :( . Our 4 year old wanted to make Halloween sugar cookies and I said we could because I don't want them to have some weird, compromised childhood because mommy let herself get to 250lbs once upon a time. But as soon as I made the buttercream I knew I was *kitten*.

    I held off for so long too which is the most ridiculous part. My husband went to bed, the kids were asleep, my stupid *kitten* should've just gone to bed but no and bam 4000 calories. I am so disgusted and disappointed in myself. My rational mind is screaming, "Stop!" and I couldn't stop....what is wrong with me?

    Anyway this is the only place I'll post about (I am way too embarassed to even tell my husband) this debacle. Seeing my doctor in the morning, all the even vaguely potentially trigger foods are in a bag to give to the church tomorrow and just hoping I get myself together.
  • raymax4
    raymax4 Posts: 6,070 Member
    JessicaMcB wrote: »
    Binged and binged hard tonight- the only positive thing I can say is that I logged all of it, which disgusts me so much I hope to God to never repeat it.

    What frustrated me the most is that even when I was fat I never did things like this! But today all day I knew it was going to happen :( . Our 4 year old wanted to make Halloween sugar cookies and I said we could because I don't want them to have some weird, compromised childhood because mommy let herself get to 250lbs once upon a time. But as soon as I made the buttercream I knew I was *kitten*.

    I held off for so long too which is the most ridiculous part. My husband went to bed, the kids were asleep, my stupid *kitten* should've just gone to bed but no and bam 4000 calories. I am so disgusted and disappointed in myself. My rational mind is screaming, "Stop!" and I couldn't stop....what is wrong with me?

    Anyway this is the only place I'll post about (I am way too embarassed to even tell my husband) this debacle. Seeing my doctor in the morning, all the even vaguely potentially trigger foods are in a bag to give to the church tomorrow and just hoping I get myself together.

    This happens to the best of us at times. I consider it a plus for logging it. Knowledge is power.
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
    raymax4 wrote: »
    JessicaMcB wrote: »
    Binged and binged hard tonight- the only positive thing I can say is that I logged all of it, which disgusts me so much I hope to God to never repeat it.

    What frustrated me the most is that even when I was fat I never did things like this! But today all day I knew it was going to happen :( . Our 4 year old wanted to make Halloween sugar cookies and I said we could because I don't want them to have some weird, compromised childhood because mommy let herself get to 250lbs once upon a time. But as soon as I made the buttercream I knew I was *kitten*.

    I held off for so long too which is the most ridiculous part. My husband went to bed, the kids were asleep, my stupid *kitten* should've just gone to bed but no and bam 4000 calories. I am so disgusted and disappointed in myself. My rational mind is screaming, "Stop!" and I couldn't stop....what is wrong with me?

    Anyway this is the only place I'll post about (I am way too embarassed to even tell my husband) this debacle. Seeing my doctor in the morning, all the even vaguely potentially trigger foods are in a bag to give to the church tomorrow and just hoping I get myself together.

    This happens to the best of us at times. I consider it a plus for logging it. Knowledge is power.

    I agree and I have done it. Sometimes eating well for long periods just triggers a binge. As long as it doesn't happen too often you'll be fine.
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Oberon21 wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Oberon21 wrote: »
    Oberon21 wrote: »
    Wendy, the soup sounds good. Make it.

    POF, I wish we were the same size. I love hand-me-downs.

    Jeffrey OC, I hope you learned that won't work along term. And welcome to the thread.

    WooHoo! I made page 1900. My PC at work still won't print, but that's a problem for tomorrow.

    Part of the reason I seem to be not making not a dent is this woman from the barn keeps giving me her clothes. They are all nice, my style, and all expensive. So I am replacing what I am donating practically as fast as I can donate it!

    That's an interesting problem to have. (And now I really wish we were the same size.)

    Me too. Of course Mo has first dibs if she wants stuff beyond jeans.

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    I was hoping you'd say that!!!

    You need to tell me what you want. All of it? Stuff with long legs? I have a few things to drop off consistently.

    SEND IT ALL!!! :smiley:

    Too bad we didn't have this exchange a year ago. I got rid of a lot of great clothes in the 6-8 range as they no longer fit. I'll start a pile for you. It's much slower these days as I have already donated so much.
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    I was almost 800 calories short of my calorie goal yesterday. I HATE being sick.

    Can I have your deficit? That would be super helpful. :p

    If it only worked that way. I had a huge deficit last week too.

    Maybe I should have joined the #myfitsquad challenge...

    Maybe, you should go to the doctor. Loss of appetite and cough that lasts more than 7 days....you would make your daughter go.

    Tomorrow will be 7 days. I had a big deficit last week because I worked out like a beast.

    Mel, I promise that if I'm not better by Friday, I will go to the doctor. Or at least call him.

    I am holding you to this. You're my friend and pneumonia is nasty.
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
    Oberon21 wrote: »
    raymax4 wrote: »
    I went clothing shopping today and found I am about two sizes down!!!!
    I was in a hurry to get home and try on my smallest sized of saved cloths because they were the same size.
    I am horribly disappointed because they are still to small.
    How is this possible?

    Great job on going down two sizes!

    How old are the clothes that are too small?

    I find that clothes that are from around the 90's & earlier were made more accurately compared to the clothing now. I've heard a lot of manufactures/designers vanity size clothing which is annoying, because it's harder to know what your actual size can be.

    When I was a lot lighter I had pants ranging from size 6-12 in regular slacks & my designer jeans were either 31-32 (those were more accurate since it was based off my waist measurement).

    I've always hated buying jeans because my hips are much larger than my waist. I am a pear.

    Try lucky jeans. I have a similar issue in that I have a small waist but hips and thighs. Lucky Jean's fit a woman better.

    Thanks for the tip. I don't wear jeans often, but when I do, I desperately need them to be comfy.
  • crosbylee
    crosbylee Posts: 3,455 Member
    JessicaMcB wrote: »
    Binged and binged hard tonight- the only positive thing I can say is that I logged all of it, which disgusts me so much I hope to God to never repeat it.

    What frustrated me the most is that even when I was fat I never did things like this! But today all day I knew it was going to happen :( . Our 4 year old wanted to make Halloween sugar cookies and I said we could because I don't want them to have some weird, compromised childhood because mommy let herself get to 250lbs once upon a time. But as soon as I made the buttercream I knew I was *kitten*.

    I held off for so long too which is the most ridiculous part. My husband went to bed, the kids were asleep, my stupid *kitten* should've just gone to bed but no and bam 4000 calories. I am so disgusted and disappointed in myself. My rational mind is screaming, "Stop!" and I couldn't stop....what is wrong with me?

    Anyway this is the only place I'll post about (I am way too embarassed to even tell my husband) this debacle. Seeing my doctor in the morning, all the even vaguely potentially trigger foods are in a bag to give to the church tomorrow and just hoping I get myself together.

    Hang in there and don't be too hard on yourself. I have done things like that too, only with a bag of fun size chocolate for Halloween. None of it went to the kids, let's just say....You have recognized it for what it was and now you can work to make sure you don't do that again. It's tough this time of year, I think, because Halloween starts it off with the candy, then Thanksgiving with all the recipes and baked goods, then more family gatherings for Christmas and New Year. I will probably be hanging on by my fingernails by then but I will not give up.
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
    JessicaMcB wrote: »
    Binged and binged hard tonight- the only positive thing I can say is that I logged all of it, which disgusts me so much I hope to God to never repeat it.

    What frustrated me the most is that even when I was fat I never did things like this! But today all day I knew it was going to happen :( . Our 4 year old wanted to make Halloween sugar cookies and I said we could because I don't want them to have some weird, compromised childhood because mommy let herself get to 250lbs once upon a time. But as soon as I made the buttercream I knew I was *kitten*.

    I held off for so long too which is the most ridiculous part. My husband went to bed, the kids were asleep, my stupid *kitten* should've just gone to bed but no and bam 4000 calories. I am so disgusted and disappointed in myself. My rational mind is screaming, "Stop!" and I couldn't stop....what is wrong with me?

    Anyway this is the only place I'll post about (I am way too embarassed to even tell my husband) this debacle. Seeing my doctor in the morning, all the even vaguely potentially trigger foods are in a bag to give to the church tomorrow and just hoping I get myself together.

    I hope that discussing this with your doctor helps you feel better.
    I do this 2 or 3 days a week about 3 times a year. I did it this week. I didn't log it and I don't care. And I have learned not to beat myself up over it. 24 years ago, my binge would have led to a purge by exercise. Actually, I purged by exercise even when I didn't binge. I had to learn a whole new way to think, and was forced to stick with it when I got pregnant with my oldest.

    Tips: 1) go to bed when your family does. If eating in secret is your downfall, don't be alone with the food. 2) keep something that you can't get food on in your hands - I match socks or cross-stitch 3) go for a walk BEFORE you eat. Often, just getting away from temptation is enough to defeat it. If not, at least I walked some of it off.

    Yesterday I went on a serious carb binge and then went to the gym and lifted with my husband. It was a serious overage in calories. I know it. Cookies, caramel dip for apples (just the dip, no fruit) and biscuits. I am still not hungry. I won't eat until I am.

    You are not alone. Keep coming back to this thread. The people here are some of dearest friends now because they really don't judge confessions like yours and mine.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    JessicaMcB wrote: »
    Binged and binged hard tonight- the only positive thing I can say is that I logged all of it, which disgusts me so much I hope to God to never repeat it.

    What frustrated me the most is that even when I was fat I never did things like this! But today all day I knew it was going to happen :( . Our 4 year old wanted to make Halloween sugar cookies and I said we could because I don't want them to have some weird, compromised childhood because mommy let herself get to 250lbs once upon a time. But as soon as I made the buttercream I knew I was *kitten*.

    I held off for so long too which is the most ridiculous part. My husband went to bed, the kids were asleep, my stupid *kitten* should've just gone to bed but no and bam 4000 calories. I am so disgusted and disappointed in myself. My rational mind is screaming, "Stop!" and I couldn't stop....what is wrong with me?

    Anyway this is the only place I'll post about (I am way too embarassed to even tell my husband) this debacle. Seeing my doctor in the morning, all the even vaguely potentially trigger foods are in a bag to give to the church tomorrow and just hoping I get myself together.

    You acknowledged it and logged it. Good work! Were you 400 calories over your MFP goal? Because I'm betting that wouldn't put you over (or much over) maintenance calories. Get back on track and it won't be anything more than a tiny blip on the scale. YOU GOT THIS!!!
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    I was almost 800 calories short of my calorie goal yesterday. I HATE being sick.

    Can I have your deficit? That would be super helpful. :p

    If it only worked that way. I had a huge deficit last week too.

    Maybe I should have joined the #myfitsquad challenge...

    Maybe, you should go to the doctor. Loss of appetite and cough that lasts more than 7 days....you would make your daughter go.

    Tomorrow will be 7 days. I had a big deficit last week because I worked out like a beast.

    Mel, I promise that if I'm not better by Friday, I will go to the doctor. Or at least call him.

    I am holding you to this. You're my friend and pneumonia is nasty.

    I am, too!
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Confession: I ate half a pint of Ben and Jerry's Peanut Butter Cookie Core - after leftover Chinese food for dinner.

    NSV: I only ate half the pint, not the whole.

    Note: Ben and Jerry's PB Cookie Core is NOT The Tonight Dough, and I was hugely disappointed. The store I stopped at didn't have The Tonight Dough. If it had, I would likely have eaten the whole pint.
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    Miss you Quik! <3 Was it you that was saying about Powerlifting on FB the other day? You could definitely do that!
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    edited October 2016
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Miss you Quik! <3 Was it you that was saying about Powerlifting on FB the other day? You could definitely do that!

    Hi, Lois!!! I miss you, too!!! <3

    Yeah, hubby and I discussed me hiring a powerlifting coach. He's totally on board with it, but he got moved to night shift before I could go contact the coach. So, with son's sports, I can't make it work right now.
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
    Confession: I ate half a pint of Ben and Jerry's Peanut Butter Cookie Core - after leftover Chinese food for dinner.

    NSV: I only ate half the pint, not the whole.

    Note: Ben and Jerry's PB Cookie Core is NOT The Tonight Dough, and I was hugely disappointed. The store I stopped at didn't have The Tonight Dough. If it had, I would likely have eaten the whole pint.

    I haven't had any of these. I don't miss ice cream at all. I stopped eating it years ago and before I went vegan when I would have it I had lost the taste for it. It made me want to brush my teeth.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Oberon21 wrote: »
    Confession: I ate half a pint of Ben and Jerry's Peanut Butter Cookie Core - after leftover Chinese food for dinner.

    NSV: I only ate half the pint, not the whole.

    Note: Ben and Jerry's PB Cookie Core is NOT The Tonight Dough, and I was hugely disappointed. The store I stopped at didn't have The Tonight Dough. If it had, I would likely have eaten the whole pint.

    I haven't had any of these. I don't miss ice cream at all. I stopped eating it years ago and before I went vegan when I would have it I had lost the taste for it. It made me want to brush my teeth.

    Ice cream and chocolate - those are my jam. :D
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
    Why is it that when I get up and get dressed in the morning in a dress that requires heels, everyone in my office seems awestruck? I admit that I am usually a sandals or boots girl (depending on the weather), but for the love of Pete, it's a pair of shoes!
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Why is it that when I get up and get dressed in the morning in a dress that requires heels, everyone in my office seems awestruck? I admit that I am usually a sandals or boots girl (depending on the weather), but for the love of Pete, it's a pair of shoes!

    I think that confession requires a photo!

    I had the same reaction when I wore a pair of heels to work.
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
    Why is it that when I get up and get dressed in the morning in a dress that requires heels, everyone in my office seems awestruck? I admit that I am usually a sandals or boots girl (depending on the weather), but for the love of Pete, it's a pair of shoes!

    I think that confession requires a photo!

    I had the same reaction when I wore a pair of heels to work.

    Not me. I'm known for my shoes. :p
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Miss you Quik! <3 Was it you that was saying about Powerlifting on FB the other day? You could definitely do that!

    Hi, Lois!!! I miss you, too!!! <3

    Yeah, hubby and I discussed me hiring a powerlifting coach. He's totally on board with it, but he got moved to night shift before I could go contact the coach. So, with son's sports, I can't make it work right now.

    Awww that's a shame, I guess at least you didn't start and then have to stop? I hope this does happen though!
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
    I am at a forum talking about virtual reality. Interesting.
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    edited October 2016
    POF did you get a space in the London Marathon? I saw Nicci missed out :(

    ETA Nikki is my cousin :#
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Miss you Quik! <3 Was it you that was saying about Powerlifting on FB the other day? You could definitely do that!

    Hi, Lois!!! I miss you, too!!! <3

    Yeah, hubby and I discussed me hiring a powerlifting coach. He's totally on board with it, but he got moved to night shift before I could go contact the coach. So, with son's sports, I can't make it work right now.

    Awww that's a shame, I guess at least you didn't start and then have to stop? I hope this does happen though!

    Me, too. I'm still doing what I can on my own at the gym, focusing on form so that if I do go to a coach he won't think I'm completely screwed up! LOL
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    I don't think anyone on here watches, but I'm pretty upset about what happened on TWD the other night. I am not going to like this season.

    I watched it and cried ugly tears.

    I did not straight up cry, but when they were taking the bodies away I got choked up. Also, was just shocked and sad for the rest of the night. Had a hard time going to bed. I actually do not recall a character death ever effecting me like that before. Glenn was by far my favorite, by far.
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
    crosbylee wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    I don't think anyone on here watches, but I'm pretty upset about what happened on TWD the other night. I am not going to like this season.

    My stomach was a knot the rest of the episode. After watching the Talking Dead afterward, I can see the new season really going in a new direction. I think I will still be as hooked as ever.

    I confess that I hate TWD. My husband and kids like it. I will leave the house to keep from seeing it. I am not a fan of the zombie apocalypse genre.

    Honestly, neither am I. I actually do not even think I have ever watched a zombie movie or anything. My general rule is, if it is totally impossible to happen in real life, it bores me. I do not like vampires or such either.

    However a friend of mine asked me to watch just the first season and if I did not like it, fine, but I did. Because it is not about the zombies, they are more or less a background story to the actually story line of that characters trying to survive each other, and other enemies now that there is not order to the world. That is the interesting part.

    Almost like extreme adult Lord of the Flies.
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Miss you Quik! <3 Was it you that was saying about Powerlifting on FB the other day? You could definitely do that!

    Hi, Lois!!! I miss you, too!!! <3

    Yeah, hubby and I discussed me hiring a powerlifting coach. He's totally on board with it, but he got moved to night shift before I could go contact the coach. So, with son's sports, I can't make it work right now.

    Awww that's a shame, I guess at least you didn't start and then have to stop? I hope this does happen though!

    Me, too. I'm still doing what I can on my own at the gym, focusing on form so that if I do go to a coach he won't think I'm completely screwed up! LOL

    How long do you think you will have to wait? I've 100% bailed on lifting. I wanted to get on it before Christmas, but in hindsight, I probably wont have time over Christmas soooo... New Years Resolution? I just know how much the DOMS hurt and stopping and starting is so not fun. I need to find a new gym closer to the flat.
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
    crosbylee wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    I don't think anyone on here watches, but I'm pretty upset about what happened on TWD the other night. I am not going to like this season.

    My stomach was a knot the rest of the episode. After watching the Talking Dead afterward, I can see the new season really going in a new direction. I think I will still be as hooked as ever.

    Same.
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    crosbylee wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    I don't think anyone on here watches, but I'm pretty upset about what happened on TWD the other night. I am not going to like this season.

    My stomach was a knot the rest of the episode. After watching the Talking Dead afterward, I can see the new season really going in a new direction. I think I will still be as hooked as ever.

    I felt physically exhausted after what happened happened. I loved him and in my opinion, they killed the wrong character.

    I didn't much care for Abraham. :grimace:

    I feel ya. I felt emotionally drained. It was such a cruel, gruesome murder of such an innocent and lovable guy.
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    I confess I have never seen one episode of The Walking Dead, and I don't think I will. The Arrow has just come back and I have this to catch up on...

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