Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Just realized it's almost 4, I've been putting off working out because of the rant Wednesday thread, and now I have a notification for a new brosciencelife post. Stay tuned for my upcoming "made myself sick by not working out until right after dinner" confession
Which threads are these? I seem to miss all the crazy ones.
Rant Wednesday and Gym Story Saturday are on reddit in /r/fitness, every week: http://www.reddit.com/r/Fitness/comments/37fxek/rant_wednesday/
http://www.reddit.com/r/Fitness/search?q=flair:gssat&sort=new&restrict_sr=on
Ah, got it. Thank you! Thought I was missing something here.0 -
smashley_mashley wrote: »overlook237 wrote: »overlook237 wrote: »I don't know why I'm suddenly having such a hard time staying on track lately. I don't even remember it being this hard when I first started and had tons of bad habits to break and zero fitness level. WTF?! I haven't had any days that were 100% awful - I've kept up with my exercising and I'd say about 75% of my eating has still been fairly healthy. But I keep screwing up, and I hate that.
Like yesterday: I was hungry while I exercised (walking) and instead of ignoring it like I should've, I actually ate a bunch of Chex mix while I was walking. Talk about defeating the purpose (and I obviously wasn't pushing myself hard enough if I could stuff my face while walking either). What a waste.
I weighed myself yesterday morning and I'm up 3 pounds and at the same weight I was in the beginning of May. Might be water weight; might not. Regardless, it's like any of the work I've done these past few weeks was for nothing because of all the screw-ups. I just wish I could tap into some of the motivation I've had in the past and push through this. I don't know if it's because I'm burnt out or if I'm letting my emotions of late (stressed and depressed about being unemployed) take over where food is concerned. But I'm really tired of feeling like this.
Not for nothing! Think how much you might be up if you weren't getting it right 75% of the time plus still exercising! It's easy to completely give up, but you're hanging in there. Just focus on one day at a time.
And please explain to me how you were walking around with a pocketful of Chex mix?!
I love that, haha. Reminds me of Napoleon Dynamite.
That made me laugh for like five minutes, and I really needed it - thank you!
And to explain: I walk in my basement and we have a pantry down there. It was pretty easy to grab the bag and get right back to my walking. But walking around with a pocket full of Chex mix on a daily basis doesn't sound like a bad idea actually smashley_mashley wrote: »My confession for today: I have plans to go shopping to buy some summer clothes. I need a few pairs of capris and a few shirts to go with them but I have no motivation to do anything. Hubby and I have just the one vehicle and normally it isn't a problem since I am usually at work during the day and he uses it for his job. But today, I just want the truck and I just want to drive. I don't want to walk to the bus stop, wait for buses, sit on trains, or do any of that. I also want to go to the store to pick up groceries for dinner but again, don't even feel like walking there even though walking is the only exercise I can do right now. I thought about buying online but I really hate buying clothes w/o trying them on.
I also need to pull my dandelions, just because they are dandelions and they must all die. Normally that would give me some satisfaction (DIE DANDELIONS DIE!!!) but all I want to do is be lazy - but then I feel guilty for being lazy.
Maybe I will just watch a movie...
Yes, yes they must! They're worse than ever this year. I'm embarrassed to say that my neighbor caught me standing outside shouting, "Get off my lawn!" at the weeds like a crazy person, LOL! I just came back in from outside after nearly 2 hours of weed pulling, and it was very cathartic.
our city administration has decided that they are no longer considered a "noxious weed" and don't kill them anymore. There is more yellow than grass. They are such an eyesore.
My whole yard is being overtaken with them so I've suggested that we all just give up and decide that dandelions will now be our lawns. We can all have nice yards of yellow.0 -
xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »IAmTheGlue wrote: »xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »Ugh...so bummed. I had my youngest son Sept 2014 and it was a horrible pregnancy (actually both of mine were but his was the worst), complete with severe Hyperemesis (basically you throw up 30-40-50x/day and break blood vessels in your face, damage your esophageal lining, etc.) I had a home health nurse come and give me IVs every other day because I literally couldn't eat or drink anything. I still threw up constantly, just not as much.
It did serious damage to my teeth. Most of my enamel has worn off, teeth are rotted out, etc. I've been working on fixing my teeth since last Oct. We have spent $10k (seriously) just since March on root canals/crowns and we are TAPPED out. That was AFTER the $3k insurance covered. Our credit cards are maxed, savings is gone. Since Oct it's been 4 root canals/crowns, 8 fillings, 1 tooth pulled.
I go in tonight to have the dentist check another tooth that I'm thinking he has to pull. Awesome. That'll be like another $400
Never mind the constant mouth soreness and losing pieces of the tooth.
I'm OVER IT. I just want to scream/cry/hit things. I'm tired of constantly being in pain and being broke from it. It's not fair to my children that $ that could be used for their care is going to my stupid teeth I'm also mad that I'm 33 and having dental work done like I'm 50.
I'm so sorry to hear that. I feel your pain. I have dental issues from an eating disorder when I was younger. It is never ending dental work and yeah, way over $30k from our pockets... ugh.
I do hope that they get you fixed up soon and you are no longer in pain. Dental pain is the worst.
OMG $30k I don't know how you haven't stroked out! I'm about to with the (relatively) smaller amount I've spent.
I even went back to work 3 weeks ago and a large part of the reason was so I could have secondary dental insurance through my employer plus have income to pay the dental bills. How sad, right? I'm working to pay my dentist *sigh*
teeth issues are the WORST.
mine have been a nightmare since my childhood/teens, and they're just seemingly getting worse. i was told that when i was a kid i was extremely ill on a few occasions and it turns out that the medication they gave me back then did massive damage. so strange.
my worst teeth incident: in my early 20's i was working a minimum wage job with no insurance and i had a broken molar and was having really bad pain, so i just chewed on the other side and tried to ignore it. took ibuprofen a lot...then one day i woke up in the middle of the night sobbing, the whole side of my face was throbbing and aching. no ibuprofen would touch it, warm compress, nothing. finally i caved and went to the ER. turns out an infection had seeped into my jaw from the broken tooth and had wrapped itself up the side of my face, through my sinuses and around my eye. they gave me a shot immediately, and a series of antibiotics, and said i had to get the tooth pulled asap.
plus, the doctor made sure to tell me that if i had let it go any longer there was a good chance the infection would have went into my brain and killed me. yeah, because i was feeling really awesome up til then....
That happened with my most recent root canal. I didn't want to fork over another $2600 out of pocket, so even though I felt like someone was stabbing me in t he ear, I tried Ibuprofen and tried to ignore it. When I finally went in, the abscess was so bad I needed Vicodin and 2 rounds of antibiotics before they could do the root canal, plus I had to go to a specialist They gave me the "infection coulda killed ya" statement, too. Scared my husband so much (I was in too much pain to even be scared) if I even tell him "my tooth hurts" he starts on about how I can't die and leave him with the boys, so I better go in ASAP... 0 -
CountessKitteh wrote: »CountessKitteh wrote: »My birthday is 2 days after Christmas and our anniversary is the last day of June. If I had any advice for engaged couples it would definitely be, DO NOT, I REPEAT DO NOT, GET MARRIED THE SAME MONTH YOUR TAGS ARE DUE!!! That was ridiculously dumb on our part. It makes anniversaries a bit challenging. Luckily, our finances are in a place now where it's not as big of a deal, but let me tell you, it still sucks butt.
Wait...what? How expensive is registration out there?!
Where I live it's about $35 plus tax.
Not the way it is here! It's based on the year and size and make of the vehicle. A new full sized truck can run $800 - $1000 for registration. My son has an '07 Tundra and his annual registration is $700.00. Back in '03 when we bought a new Honda Accord it was $600.00. It does gradually go down each year but both of our '03 vehicles still run about $130.00 per year. Sports cars are also higher fees.
It's a flat $36 for the stupid sticker ever year in Pennsylvania.
It's $69 yr for the tag and $29 for the inspection for my car in Texas, I think trucks are more.0 -
I'm late to the party, but THAT is amazing!! Truly something to be proud of! Good job!Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Today, my husband and I were sitting together on our respective laptops, when he suddenly looked up and demanded... "Define yourself!"
...I confess that the first two words that popped into my head and spilled out of my mouth were "Ugly. Fat."
I also confess that this makes me sad.
Although I suspect that one of the first words I'd use to define myself is also "ugly", I'm now tasking you to come up with two POSITIVE attributes to replace those ones.
Off the top of my head, mine would be "funny" (I promise, I constantly make people laugh IRL, probably not so evident on here) and "analytical".
Ooh, that's a challenge! Umm, let me think... Positive attributes...
My first would probably be that I automatically think the best of people. If someone didn't show up for a meeting or did something inconsiderate, I always think of what might have been going on in their circumstances first and make excuses for them to myself, rather than just getting angry that they didn't meet my expectations.
My second... (Gosh, this is hard. X_X)... Umm... Does "I'm good at not offending people" count? Because, with confrontation being a major trigger for my anxiety, I'm pretty good at that. It doesn't sound particularly impressive, though...
Confession: It took me ten minutes to come up with those.
Happier confession: Due to some horrible financial circumstances growing up, I never got a high school diploma. After I got married, my husband paid for me to take the GED test. Well, I proudly proclaim that I received my diploma and transcripts in the mail today!
Also, I scored in the 99th percentile on ALL subjects except one, which I scored in the 97th.
Also, you sound like such an amazingly kind person. I'm sure you're an absolute pleasure to be around. I love reading your posts in this thread, and seeing those cute kitty pictures was a plus
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I'm so hungry and I just want to eat lots of bad things.0
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Today, my husband and I were sitting together on our respective laptops, when he suddenly looked up and demanded... "Define yourself!"
...I confess that the first two words that popped into my head and spilled out of my mouth were "Ugly. Fat."
I also confess that this makes me sad.
Aww, we can be our own worst enemy sometimes. I know it is hard (I suffer from this myself), but try to be nicer to yourself. Also, if I were asked about you, judging from your comments I would have said compassionate, animal loving and kind.
I completely agree with this and couldn't have said it better myself. I also want to know what his answer was...
Well, he knows that I have a lot of self-esteem issues. He's done a lot of comforting while I sob and ask why he could love someone so ugly and useless as I am. He said it was sad.
I am glad he is supportive but I have to wonder why your esteem is so low. You seem like a wonderful, kind, smart, loyal and dedicated person. You need to start thinking that way. No one can make you feel inferior or unworthy, only you can let yourself feel that way. And why??? What do you have to prove to anyone? Your life is your own. Be proud of those things you are happy with, celebrate them. And work on those things you want to work on. Be happy.0 -
I have been trying to look in the mirror and tell myself I'm beautiful/smart/something else every day. It's very difficult, and I haven't been able to convince myself yet, but I'm hoping that if I continue to tell myself these things I will one day grow to believe them. A goal of mine is to one day become a CONFIDENT person.
Two positive attributes: I feel I have a great deal of empathy and greatly dislike seeing others in pain, so I assume that must count for something. A second one... I guess I have a pretty creative mind and love writing/drawing/daydreaming.0 -
@Susieq_1994 , Congratulations on your diploma!0
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So my NSV for today. I got stuck waiting for a flight for 3 hours on a delay. Instead of eating crap and drinking like I normally would, I walked the length of terminal c at Newark for nearly 2 hours. Earned the Jamba Juice I ended up getting... And which I only chose to get a small. Which is an NSV in itself.
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FluffySandwich wrote: »I have been trying to look in the mirror and tell myself I'm beautiful/smart/something else every day. It's very difficult, and I haven't been able to convince myself yet, but I'm hoping that if I continue to tell myself these things I will one day grow to believe them. A goal of mine is to one day become a CONFIDENT person.
Two positive attributes: I feel I have a great deal of empathy and greatly dislike seeing others in pain, so I assume that must count for something. A second one... I guess I have a pretty creative mind and love writing/drawing/daydreaming.
Those are great traits! And don't just say it believe it.0 -
Ok and now I am totally judging the guy sitting next to me chewing like a cow and smacking his lips. Ewwwww.0
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thankyou4thevenom wrote: »I'm so hungry and I just want to eat lots of bad things.
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Thanks! I hope to achieve that one daypofoster21 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »I have been trying to look in the mirror and tell myself I'm beautiful/smart/something else every day. It's very difficult, and I haven't been able to convince myself yet, but I'm hoping that if I continue to tell myself these things I will one day grow to believe them. A goal of mine is to one day become a CONFIDENT person.
Two positive attributes: I feel I have a great deal of empathy and greatly dislike seeing others in pain, so I assume that must count for something. A second one... I guess I have a pretty creative mind and love writing/drawing/daydreaming.
Those are great traits! And don't just say it believe it.
This would kill me. I would have to get up and move somewhere else... something I just can't take.pofoster21 wrote: »Ok and now I am totally judging the guy sitting next to me chewing like a cow and smacking his lips. Ewwwww.0 -
This was in my email today. Seemed appropriate to share, given all the negative/positive self-talk! We should all get a snazzy notebook and write kind things about ourselves in them.
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pofoster21 wrote: »Ok and now I am totally judging the guy sitting next to me chewing like a cow and smacking his lips. Ewwwww.
As you should. The guy at the desk next to me breathes very loudly, and guzzles his water so I can hear the water pouring, the air going back into the bottle, and him swallowing. It makes me crazy.0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »So my NSV for today. I got stuck waiting for a flight for 3 hours on a delay. Instead of eating crap and drinking like I normally would, I walked the length of terminal c at Newark for nearly 2 hours. Earned the Jamba Juice I ended up getting... And which I only chose to get a small. Which is an NSV in itself.
Way to go! Sitting on a plane sucks so your body was probably happy with the movement!0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »So my NSV for today. I got stuck waiting for a flight for 3 hours on a delay. Instead of eating crap and drinking like I normally would, I walked the length of terminal c at Newark for nearly 2 hours. Earned the Jamba Juice I ended up getting... And which I only chose to get a small. Which is an NSV in itself.
Really nice!
I got my typical hormonal hunger today so I decided to eat at maintenance, and I pretty much went from hungry to OMG I'm so full I'm going to explode in 5 minutes. Story of my life. But at least now I'm not hungry anymore... and I ate at maintenance and not 1000 calories over, so there's progress.0 -
I confess that I love being on airplanes. There is just something truly amazing to me about it. I always want the window seat so I can stare out the window. My favorite time on a plane was when I left early in the morning, while it was dark and the full moon and stars were out. So breathtakingly beautiful.
My brother got to fly a jet at his military academy and I am extremely jealous, though I would probably be nervous if I were ever actually given the chance to fly one. This jealousy partially comes from admiring and adoring astronauts and knowing that most of them were pilots before moving on to outer space. I would love to be an astronaut, but I don't think I'm cut out for the job.
Chris Hadfield's book, An Astronaut's Guide to Life on Earth, is amazing!0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »
They're everywhere..Walmart, Target, grocery stores, pharmacies. "Cold-Eze" and "No Time for Colds" are two names that I can think of..but I usually just get the generic store-brand ones. I actually have one every morning just as I start my workout (it also helps to keep my mouth from getting dry) and I swear, I haven't been sick in probably 4-5 years. *knocks on wood to not jinx myself* But if I ever do feel a sore throat coming on, I will have an extra 1-2 that day and always feel better by the next morning.
Thanks! I will get some and try that. I do get really dry mouth while working out. Either that or way too much saliva from panting like a dog chasing a cat.
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My cellphone decided to do a Peter Pan off my bicycle cell phone mount today. Landed face down in front of my tire and I ran over it. End result = cracked screen. So maaaad right now.0
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FluffySandwich wrote: »I confess that I love being on airplanes. There is just truly amazing to me about it. I always want the window seat so I can stare out the window. My favorite time on a plane was when I left early in the morning, while it was dark and the full moon and stars were out. So breathtakingly beautiful.
My brother got to fly a jet at his military academy and I am extremely jealous, though I would probably be nervous if I were ever actually given the chance to fly one. This jealousy partially comes from admiring and adoring astronauts and knowing that most of them were pilots before moving on to outer space. I would love to be an astronaut, but I don't think I'm cut out for the job.
Chris Hadfield's book, An Astronaut's Guide to Life on Earth, is amazing!
And I am the opposite. I detest flying. I get physically sick, so flights aren't fun for me. I'm getting better, but there have been times where I've made it through without vomiting, only to collapse once I made it into the terminal. It's not due to anxiety, I actually think it's an inner ear thing - driving in a car with the windows down can cause the same kind of nausea, depending on how the wind hits the vehicle. This is part of the reason I don't travel much. It's hard to be excited about a trip knowing I have to fly. And sometimes the flights are so bad it takes me 3 or 4 days to recover (just in time to come back home). And I have to get on a plane on Sunday
I will agree on the window seat - but for me it's so I can fall asleep and not be disturbed by people needing to get by lol.0 -
KevinPsalm23v4 wrote: »I've been UNSUCCESSFUL in weight loss because of bad habits that seem too difficult to change. I eat when I am not hungry and eat based on emotional comfort vs eating because I need to. Far too often I may get up in the middle of the night, feeling hungry I'll eat a peanut butter and orange marmalade sandwich or something else.
I looked at myself the other day and felt disgusted in how I look. For too many months I felt too apathetic to change <I won't say why publicly - only privately and in limited capacity as to why>. The other day it shocked me to feel I am the "fattest" at home, get called fat and even know I am the fattest among co-workers.
What I am scared of most is failing, not loosing weight and my willpower only lasting a few days.
It may seem overwhelming at first, but tackle one habit at a time. Once you see that you CAN change bad habits and create new ones and be successful you will build momentum. Identifying that you are an emotional eater is the first step. Now to replace the reaction to eat with something else. Anything else. Healthy, of course. If it's the middle of the night I'm pretty sure going for a walk isn't a good idea, so maybe read something. Turning on the TV can be a food trigger, plus it could interrupt your sleep pattern. I'd have a drink of water, acknowledge that you don't really need fuel and try to go back to sleep.
NO ONE should call you fat and get away with it. Shut those people down. Unacceptable. Don't compare yourself to others, either. You are an individual. We are all different.
We are all scared of failure to some degree. Accept that you will have good days and bad, but bad days are not failures. They are just a bump or turn in the road. Stay on the road! It will take you down the right path. Also, don't rely on willpower. That is a recipe for failure. Make a plan, do it, and don't attach emotions to it. Welcome to this thread and keep posting!
THIS is why you're a favorite in this thread!
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Oh man, that's terrible. I'm sorryFluffySandwich wrote: »I confess that I love being on airplanes. There is just truly amazing to me about it. I always want the window seat so I can stare out the window. My favorite time on a plane was when I left early in the morning, while it was dark and the full moon and stars were out. So breathtakingly beautiful.
My brother got to fly a jet at his military academy and I am extremely jealous, though I would probably be nervous if I were ever actually given the chance to fly one. This jealousy partially comes from admiring and adoring astronauts and knowing that most of them were pilots before moving on to outer space. I would love to be an astronaut, but I don't think I'm cut out for the job.
Chris Hadfield's book, An Astronaut's Guide to Life on Earth, is amazing!
And I am the opposite. I detest flying. I get physically sick, so flights aren't fun for me. I'm getting better, but there have been times where I've made it through without vomiting, only to collapse once I made it into the terminal. It's not due to anxiety, I actually think it's an inner ear thing - driving in a car with the windows down can cause the same kind of nausea, depending on how the wind hits the vehicle. This is part of the reason I don't travel much. It's hard to be excited about a trip knowing I have to fly. And sometimes the flights are so bad it takes me 3 or 4 days to recover (just in time to come back home). And I have to get on a plane on Sunday
I will agree on the window seat - but for me it's so I can fall asleep and not be disturbed by people needing to get by lol. My boyfriend's mother is the same way with cars. When she last came to pick me up she had to step out for a few minutes and just stand there with her head in her hands, feeling nauseous.
I would probably do exactly what you do- lay back and go to sleep! I do think, though, that plane flights can be made miserable depending on who's on the plane with you. I once sat next to a man who blasted Miley Cyrus for two hours straight (he looked around 60, so it was also a little jarring).
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You're welcome! Hope it helps! And just want to add that you'll usually find them right with the cough drops.kelly_c_77 wrote: »
They're everywhere..Walmart, Target, grocery stores, pharmacies. "Cold-Eze" and "No Time for Colds" are two names that I can think of..but I usually just get the generic store-brand ones. I actually have one every morning just as I start my workout (it also helps to keep my mouth from getting dry) and I swear, I haven't been sick in probably 4-5 years. *knocks on wood to not jinx myself* But if I ever do feel a sore throat coming on, I will have an extra 1-2 that day and always feel better by the next morning.
Thanks! I will get some and try that. I do get really dry mouth while working out. Either that or way too much saliva from panting like a dog chasing a cat.
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kelly_c_77 wrote: »
They're everywhere..Walmart, Target, grocery stores, pharmacies. "Cold-Eze" and "No Time for Colds" are two names that I can think of..but I usually just get the generic store-brand ones. I actually have one every morning just as I start my workout (it also helps to keep my mouth from getting dry) and I swear, I haven't been sick in probably 4-5 years. *knocks on wood to not jinx myself* But if I ever do feel a sore throat coming on, I will have an extra 1-2 that day and always feel better by the next morning.
Thanks! I will get some and try that. I do get really dry mouth while working out. Either that or way too much saliva from panting like a dog chasing a cat.
Yeah I second cold-eeze... I haven't had a full blown cold since I started using them when my throat starts bothering me.0 -
Wrote an email to my daughter's teacher today about the quarter test date but have watched so many hunger games movies to get caught up I accidentally wrote "quarter quell" !0
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FluffySandwich wrote: »
Oh man, that's terrible. I'm sorryFluffySandwich wrote: »I confess that I love being on airplanes. There is just truly amazing to me about it. I always want the window seat so I can stare out the window. My favorite time on a plane was when I left early in the morning, while it was dark and the full moon and stars were out. So breathtakingly beautiful.
My brother got to fly a jet at his military academy and I am extremely jealous, though I would probably be nervous if I were ever actually given the chance to fly one. This jealousy partially comes from admiring and adoring astronauts and knowing that most of them were pilots before moving on to outer space. I would love to be an astronaut, but I don't think I'm cut out for the job.
Chris Hadfield's book, An Astronaut's Guide to Life on Earth, is amazing!
And I am the opposite. I detest flying. I get physically sick, so flights aren't fun for me. I'm getting better, but there have been times where I've made it through without vomiting, only to collapse once I made it into the terminal. It's not due to anxiety, I actually think it's an inner ear thing - driving in a car with the windows down can cause the same kind of nausea, depending on how the wind hits the vehicle. This is part of the reason I don't travel much. It's hard to be excited about a trip knowing I have to fly. And sometimes the flights are so bad it takes me 3 or 4 days to recover (just in time to come back home). And I have to get on a plane on Sunday
I will agree on the window seat - but for me it's so I can fall asleep and not be disturbed by people needing to get by lol. My boyfriend's mother is the same way with cars. When she last came to pick me up she had to step out for a few minutes and just stand there with her head in her hands, feeling nauseous.
I would probably do exactly what you do- lay back and go to sleep! I do think, though, that plane flights can be made miserable depending on who's on the plane with you. I once sat next to a man who blasted Miley Cyrus for two hours straight (he looked around 60, so it was also a little jarring).
So true. That may be part of it for me. I'm really uncomfortable in crowds, and in a plane everyone is stuffed so close together.
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