Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

Options
1155715581560156215633388

Replies

  • kellienw335
    kellienw335 Posts: 1,745 Member
    Options
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    This is not a confession and I don't care because I'm SUPER excited - my passport came in the mail today woo hoo!!!!

    (For those unaware I've never left the country and I'm headed to London in August!!)

    I thought you had been there before. So, your boyfriend has always come here? How long have you been dating? Not trying to be nosy, just curious!
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,715 Member
    Options
    I do a kickboxing class Monday evenings and normally just walk to the gym from campus. I'll wear normal clothes (not teaching this summer so I can be pretty informal, but you know, still wear normal clothes) and then change before I walk down. I had to be at home this morning to meet people who are working on the house, but then needed to come to campus to meet with one of my grad students, but that's the only reason I had to be on campus. I figure, ehh, I don't care if grad student sees me scrubby - we've played soccer together so I'll just go to the office in my kickboxing clothes. Of course, today is the day that my dean who is never around is around. After my meeting with my grad student I closed my office door and am pretending I'm not here.

    Oh, sorry! Isn't that always how it seems to work? The ONE time you decide to dress casual...
  • JenWhite4022
    JenWhite4022 Posts: 27 Member
    Options
    I wear spanx all the time. I never leave the house without something to keep my tummy held in. :(
    I do that too, and feel gross and guilty when I don't! :(
  • m1xm0d3
    m1xm0d3 Posts: 1,576 Member
    Options
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    Is it me or is it mostly women posting here? Did we scare off most of the men?

    We have xMrBunglex and Uncle Fester sometimes. We ran off the rest with our talk of TOM, bras, breastfeeding and whatever else. :D

    and we have mixmode..I can't remember the correct way to spell it with numbers and such! :#

    This cracked me up... I will forever think of him as mixmode now!

    lol thanks. That's actually what my username means. MIXMODE I just subbed the vowels for numbers. I promise not to leave. ;)
  • m1xm0d3
    m1xm0d3 Posts: 1,576 Member
    edited June 2015
    Options
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    Is it me or is it mostly women posting here? Did we scare off most of the men?

    We have xMrBunglex and Uncle Fester sometimes. We ran off the rest with our talk of TOM, bras, breastfeeding and whatever else. :D

    and we have mixmode..I can't remember the correct way to spell it with numbers and such! :#

    Isn't @m1xm0d3 a girl?

    I thought he was the single dad cyclist...? Am I confusing/combining people?

    Yes, he is the single dad cyclist.

    I confess since he rarely talks about 'male things' (I am sure because of us) I think he is male as well. And I am SURE he will be thrilled we ever questioned it. We love you @m1xm0d3! Don't leave us!

    This cracked me up... I will forever think of him as mixmode now!

    I too hope he's not offended and leaves! I know he's busy at work, but I hope he appears again. Also, I "read" letters as numbers sometimes, so "mixmode" is exactly how I read it, also.

    You got it! I am thick skinned so no I won't leave until something like graphic discussions on enemas starts becoming the norm around here or something.
  • notwaitin
    notwaitin Posts: 119 Member
    Options
    I had an affair on my diet this am. I was at the McDonald's drive thru and asked if they had cookies, nope but they could put some in for me...um hot out of the oven McDonald choc chip cookies...holy mother of words I can't describe. I've never had an affair but if its anything as hot and delish as that, I may have to rethink my lifestyle.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,715 Member
    Options
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    This is not a confession and I don't care because I'm SUPER excited - my passport came in the mail today woo hoo!!!!

    (For those unaware I've never left the country and I'm headed to London in August!!)

    SO jealous! Have a great time!
  • FroggyBug
    FroggyBug Posts: 4,883 Member
    Options
    FroggyBug wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    I see Wonder Woman, also, @quiksylver296. Also, I'm a bit dyslexic (which another reason I have a hard time remembering full screen names) and I always call you "Quickysilver" in my head. That "y" seems to trip me up every time!

    Confession: I have to go buy my husband a Father's Day card and gift after work and we're not even on speaking terms right now. This should be fun.

    I hope you guys are doing better now. What is going on? I know a lot of people who are having relationship issues right now.

    Yes it seems to be spreading...I am not overly impressed with my SO myself....

    Sorry to hear that. If you need to vent to us, we won't mind.

    Hope things improve soon.
  • Lois_1989
    Lois_1989 Posts: 6,410 Member
    Options
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    Is it me or is it mostly women posting here? Did we scare off most of the men?

    We have xMrBunglex and Uncle Fester sometimes. We ran off the rest with our talk of TOM, bras, breastfeeding and whatever else. :D

    and we have mixmode..I can't remember the correct way to spell it with numbers and such! :#

    Isn't @m1xm0d3 a girl?

    I thought he was the single dad cyclist...? Am I confusing/combining people?

    Yes, he is the single dad cyclist.

    I confess since he rarely talks about 'male things' (I am sure because of us) I think he is male as well. And I am SURE he will be thrilled we ever questioned it. We love you @m1xm0d3! Don't leave us!

    This cracked me up... I will forever think of him as mixmode now!

    I too hope he's not offended and leaves! I know he's busy at work, but I hope he appears again. Also, I "read" letters as numbers sometimes, so "mixmode" is exactly how I read it, also.

    You got it! I am thick skinned so no I won't leave until something like graphic discussions on enemas starts becoming the norm around here or something.

    Eeew I think I'd be leaving as well!
  • Tubbs216
    Tubbs216 Posts: 6,597 Member
    Options
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    Is it me or is it mostly women posting here? Did we scare off most of the men?

    We have xMrBunglex and Uncle Fester sometimes. We ran off the rest with our talk of TOM, bras, breastfeeding and whatever else. :D

    and we have mixmode..I can't remember the correct way to spell it with numbers and such! :#

    Isn't @m1xm0d3 a girl?

    I thought he was the single dad cyclist...? Am I confusing/combining people?

    Yes, he is the single dad cyclist.

    I confess since he rarely talks about 'male things' (I am sure because of us) I think he is male as well. And I am SURE he will be thrilled we ever questioned it. We love you @m1xm0d3! Don't leave us!

    This cracked me up... I will forever think of him as mixmode now!

    I too hope he's not offended and leaves! I know he's busy at work, but I hope he appears again. Also, I "read" letters as numbers sometimes, so "mixmode" is exactly how I read it, also.

    You got it! I am thick skinned so no I won't leave until something like graphic discussions on enemas starts becoming the norm around here or something.
    It's probably just a matter of time...
  • orangesmartie
    orangesmartie Posts: 1,870 Member
    Options
    You guys (ladies?), I have something I need to confess to all of you (especially to all of those awesome people who added me as friends).

    So, here's the thing: I wasn't ever planning to confess this in here, because I didn't want to offend anyone or make anyone feel guilty. A small part of me was also afraid that it would backfire and I would get taunted, but after knowing everyone for a while, I'm sure it wouldn't happen. I've honestly been sitting here in front of my screen for an hour, trying to get up the courage to confess this to everyone here, and as I type this I'm beginning to cry.

    Basically, I have an extreme phobia of profanity of any kind--whether it's typed or verbally spoken. It triggers my anxiety and my FND in a really big way, and this is one of the reasons that sticking with this thread has been a huge challenge for me. I was able to stick with it mostly because of MFP's profanity filters--otherwise I would be long gone due to a level of anxiety that I really can't handle.

    Now, this poses a problem for me. While I'm really, really happy to have all of you add me as friends, my MFP feed doesn't have the profanity filter that the forums have, and I need my feed to be "safe" for me. Lately I've been scared and anxious whenever I open MFP, for fear of what I might read on the feed.

    I just wanted to tell all of you who have been so kind to add me, that while I don't expect you to filter what you post on your MFP, I really don't want you to be offended if I delete you for usage of profanity. It DOES NOT MEAN that I don't like you or that I don't want to be your friend--this is just an issue that I have a terrible, terrible fear of and really can't handle. I honestly contemplated making a second account to log my food so I wouldn't have to look at the feed on this one so I wouldn't end up deleting or alienating any one of you--I decided that it was best to bite the bullet and tell the truth.

    Please don't be offended, because I truly don't mean to offend anyone. I'm sorry if I've made anyone feel bad or guilty or angry at me by this confession. :'( No judgement and all that, right?

    thanks for letting us know Susie. Its quite important because none of us would want to deliberately upset you.

    I will endeavour to moderate my language, apologise in advance for any that slip through, and understand if you want to unfriend me - i won't take it personally :)

  • kellienw335
    kellienw335 Posts: 1,745 Member
    Options
    martim3 wrote: »
    Went shopping for new (bigger) clothes. Bought a box of Crunchberry cereal on the way home and stress ate the box after reality hit me that the 25 lbs. Gained actually was noticeable. I did buy some PB 2 at the same time anticipating getting back on track. The small cup of Crunchberry left in the morning I made a PB 2 mix to coat it with and ate that for breakfast, that may actually be a good thing to do to a less noxious cereal. Took a couple days to reload MFP back in my phone and have done better for a week or so.

    I have to mentally prepare myself to go shopping when I've gained weight. I talk to myself as I walk around the store (not out loud). Saying things like 'you are ok', 'it's ok that you still wear a XXL', 'if you want things to be different then you have to exercise and eat right'. If I don't do this then I have a mini-panic attack in the dressing room when nothing fits. Welcome to The Thread!
  • thisisatest1994
    thisisatest1994 Posts: 7 Member
    Options
    Francl27 wrote: »
    I purposefully design all my meals so I can eat large portions for little calories. Despite losing a bajillion pounds, and maintaining the loss, I still need QUANITITY to feel full.

    My guests are aghast when they see my big ol' jethro portions. (ie- huge bowls of air popped popcorn, 2 or 3 potatoes with my dinner, mountains of salad... etc)

    I buy those 12oz mixed veggies bags and just eat the whole thing as a side, often with grated parmesan sprinkled on top. I eat mashed cauliflower one pound at a time. Yep, I need quantity too.

    I still binge typically once a week, and eat at a bigger deficit the rest of the time to make up for it - pretty much maintained since June because of that (when I'm still trying to lose 3 pounds). I was actually one pound lighter in June. My last binge was 1000 calories of Girl Scout cookies on Thursday (and I only had 400 calories left for the day).

    I'm still in denial that I can eat things in moderation. I typically last a week or so, then hormones kick in and it's over and I pretty much raid all the ice cream and cookies. Still bought ice cream today. I just don't learn.

    I do wash my clothes after my workouts but will often just workout in PJs or even in underwear (both of which pretty much sucks for high impact stuff when I have no bra on).

    I have the bouncy loose skin issue when I run too...


    I have the binge problem. I've tried to lose weight several times over the last year or two, and this has always kept me off track, because I don't want to track the binges, and then I feel like not tracking at all because they feel inevitable. We should have a support group, because I don't know how to change this???
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,715 Member
    Options
    During two interchanges this weekend I reacted defensively to comments that, on further investigation, turned out to actually be compliments. This has made me realize that in spite of a lot of personal insight, I'm still having problems thinking of myself as "ok".

    Well, that's a huge thing to discover about yourself. Self-awareness is so very important. I'm sure this will help you improve your thoughts of yourself from here on out. Good job for being so honest about it!
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,715 Member
    Options
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    Stupid tray of Ghirardelli brownies my mom made while staying over to watch my daughter. Dang her for bringing that crap in to my house! Taunting me.... I had about a 3x3 inch square. >_<

    Hey, now, with all the cycling you do that amount doesn't even seem confession-worthy! But glad you're still here with us.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,715 Member
    Options
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    xMrBunglex wrote: »
    Confession: It's a hangry day, and I want chips...or Gardetto's.

    I'm in trouble.

    I hear you. It's workout off day & all I can think about is warm sourdough bread.

    MUST. CONTROL. URGES.

    me too, but to (kinda) contribute to the guacamole postings, I just want to face plant in a pile of it. LOVE it. I seriously think I like it better than ice cream. I've been known to eat a whole avocado with salt and a spoon. I want to eat ALL the things today, but by things I mean guac and cheddar cheese and sour cream.

    I bought a package of the Wholly Guacamole single serve packages. Sadness. I've never seen anything so TINY! To make it even worse, the miniscule container has a concave (inward) bottom so there's even less in there than I thought. When my spoon hit that bump in the bottom of the container I almost freaked out! Good thing they come in packages of 6. Three at a time should do the trick.

    Is this a good quality brand?

    Seems to be. I prefer to make everything myself, but I was at the store and grabbed it. It's the first time I've ever had it. A bit "oniony" for me. I like the taste of onions, but do not like the smell in the air or on my breath! Of course, I always brush my teeth right away, but I'd prefer a bit less onion.
  • sdirks
    sdirks Posts: 223 Member
    Options
    Confession: I always dated guys who were in worse shape than me or had terrible habits (junk food, smoking, no exercise, no self-control, or no self esteem) that way I could feel like the "healthy" one in the relationship... even though I wasn't taking care of myself like I should have. It took me years to unlearn this bad dating behavior. I'm ashamed to run into my exes now because they're all various kinds of miserable; meanwhile I'm down 40+lbs and finally enjoying my life. I'm embarrassed that I let my issues with my weight push me into relationships with guys I wasn't attracted to.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,715 Member
    Options
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    Confession: I'm seriously considering the intermittent fasting diet. I'm clearly not getting anywhere with the old fashioned calorie counting and I'm actually getting quite desperate now. I want to book a doctors appointment but I think they will say the same thing as my mum "Why don't you join weight watchers or slimming world" Yea, I don't want to pay someone to watch me stand on a scale.

    I'm also considering taking all the money I have saved for a deposit on a house and getting someone to just suck all the fat out of me.

    It's all feeling very hopeless at the moment

    I'm sorry you are feeling desperate. However, YOU are in charge of your health when you go to the doctor; they can advise, but what you do is up to you. If you go and explain what is going on and they suggest what you said, then simply say, "No, those are not workable options for me. Do you have any other suggestions or can you refer me to someone who does?"

    Don't waste money on lipo. It won't help in the long run and it can turn out badly. I LOVE @orangesmartie's response - fantastic advice!
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,715 Member
    Options
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    crosbylee wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    crosbylee wrote: »
    peleroja wrote: »
    Caught up!

    We went camping this weekend and I ate EVERYTHING (did you know you can roast Pillsbury cinnamon rolls over the fire in foil? Or that you can do pizza dough from scratch as long as it's warm enough to let it rise in the sun?)

    We also had my friend's dogs with us and I was in tears laughing at them when we put their puppy life jackets on to swim in the river. They have little handles on the back so you can pick them up like a suitcase...

    IMG_2966_zpsdxnjug3d.jpg

    IMG_2965_zpsst2ebw8f.jpg

    They look hilarious. And even better is that when you hold them over the water they just start paddling in the air. If you hold them up high, they paddle slowly, but the closer you put them to the water, the faster their little legs go. So freaking cute.

    I have one of those jackets for my Mastiff. She loves to swim, sinks like a brick without it. On the plus side, i have my own trolling motor in the river when I am on the float. Attach the leash and let her swim!

    Oh, so cute! Large dog, though, right? How big is your Mastiff? My youngest son has a Mastiff / Boxer mix and he's like 120 lbs. I think. He's a tank. I call him "Roadblock" because he will stop abruptly right in front of you and turn around to see if you're still there. Then I either fall over him or come to a complete stand still until he decides to move again. His other dog is an Australian Blue Heeler and she's a smarty-pants. Very mischievous and smart.

    Yes, she is a large dog. She is actually small size for her breed and is about the size of your Mastiff/Boxer mix. I used to have an Australian Sheperd/ Heeler mix and loved that dog. Unfortunately he ended up with my ex who didn't take good care of him.

    I'm requesting pictures of all these dogs please :):) I LOVE dogs so much!!

    Here is a picture of our dog Sarabi, she was put down February last year because she had pancreatic cancer which spread to her liver. :disappointed: She was 12 years old, I was 24 at the time so I had known her for half of my life.

    ujf60vw9vpca.jpg

    Beautiful! She looks like a sweetheart!

    She was the bestest dog in the world. :smile:

    Her eyes make me melt!
  • riderfangal
    riderfangal Posts: 1,965 Member
    Options
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    Francl27 wrote: »
    Confession - it's not even 9am on the second day of Summer break and I already want to lock my kids in their rooms.

    Any summer programs you can put them in like vacation bible school or any programs at the YMCA or other local rec centers? Also, check with your county for summer programs. Some are very cheap or free. For sanity's sake, it's worth a shot. lol

    They have 2 camps this year but it's at the end of July and mid August. Didn't want to spend a fortune. We're going in vacations in 10 days anyway. I just wish they would stop bickering.

    Oh I see... well until then, might I suggest something like this? o:) j/k

    cp39ri5fmjo9.jpg + 0qwgb81lygoz.png

    Bahaha