Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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I hate having Happy Birthday sang to me. I always feel so self-conscience like I want to start crying. It's so weird.I love that so many of you are on board with my quiet salon idea. And I agree that I'd love the concept at a dentist's office too. I'm not antisocial or anything, but I don't warm up to strangers quickly.
My confession today is that I am kind of freaking out about my wedding, even though it's teeny-tiny and there's not much at all to be done now. It's just the whole idea of having to do it. I would have been happy to skip straight to the "married" part and skip the wedding, but we decided we couldn't do that to our parents so I'm suffering through a 25 person event and hoping I don't hyperventilate walking down the aisle or say something stupid or trip or start laughing or something. For the past week I've been absolutely fixated on it and it's not for another three and a bit weeks. It sucks. I'm practically hyperventilating now just typing this, haha.
And it's probably exacerbated by the fact that I'm hangry as hell because I ramped up the deficit in hopes I won't look at my photos and just see fat arms and too much cleavage. I really hope I can lose five pounds, which makes a pretty big difference at my size, but it definitely means three more weeks of being hungry a lot. Ugh.
Congratulations on your up coming wedding. Don't worry about the ceremony. The music decided not to play at mine and I walked down the aisle to silence....... It wasn't bad and everything else just went as planned. Enjoy the day.
Thanks for the kind words, although I think "enjoy" is too much to hope for. I hate doing stuff in front of people and having to be the centre of attention all day sounds like my own little personal hell. But I'll get through it, probably with a champagne-Gravol cocktail in hand and some deep breathing exercises.
Haha, same. I especially hate it at restaurants when the staff does it because EVERYONE stares.
Yea, that was only fun in high school when we were scamming the restaurant for free dessert.0 -
quiksylver296 wrote: »My son's birthday is Saturday. He wanted a "survival" themed party. Sweet. Kids go play in the pasture, then we'll roast hot dogs in the fire pit. I bought some bunny Peeps, so the kids can roast "rabbits" and make smores out of them. This may be the easiest birthday party ever.
Last year we went to a park, and I had Domino's deliver pizza to the park. That was a easy and fun birthday party, too.
I'm kicking myself for not buying some of the Party Cake Peeps when they went on sale so I could roast them over a campfire.0 -
I went running outside for the first time today, cos y'know, I was feeling good about myself... while running through campus, someone yelled out of their car, "RUN, FAT GIRL!!" I wanted to flip off the chick who yelled so badly, but she was in a car, so obviously she got away.
Come say that to my face and we'll see just how fast you can run. Grrrrr...0 -
The family went to Cheesecake Factory to for one of the nieces birthdays and seeing the waiter hand out ice cream as the free dessert was just depressing. You'd think a place called CheeseCAKE Factory would offer up something better.0
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berlynnwall wrote: »harpsdesire wrote: »Confession time!
I avoid letting people I socialize with know that I'm dieting. I'm visibly significantly overweight and I hate having to deal with comments like: Already lean people saying things like "Oh, you're SO LUCKY because when you have THAT MUCH to lose, it just falls off! I've been trying to lose these last 3 pounds for months, etc etc!" (or alternately, "I should diet too, I just feel SO FAT when I get over 110, it's disgusting..."), condescending "Good for you, honey!" type comments, non scientific advice about 'good carbs'/paleo/vegan/faddietoftheday, general discussion of my eating/body/fatness, and how I have "a pretty face" and am "going to be so cute once I lose the pounds!" Somehow just being fat doesn't bring about this conversation, but anyone getting wind that I'm trying to lose weight does.... I don't get it.
I skip social situations or save up calories so I can eat what other people are eating, just to avoid having these conversations.
Every day on these boards I read about all the insensitive and rude remarks people make to others and now it's making me believe that any health and nutrition education needs to be supplemented with some manners courses and common sense training. Too bad that will never happen.
It's so true. People have no filter. I don't understand how so many people missed the lesson that you don't have to say everything that pops into your head out loud, especially if it's unkind.
I'm pmsing & yesterday I brought in some shopping carts since the store I work at was low & I had an older man that said can you handle that? Good way to lose weight! Ugh I wanted to throat punch him. I should've yelled I already lost 150 pounds.0 -
shannonbun wrote: »I went running outside for the first time today, cos y'know, I was feeling good about myself... while running through campus, someone yelled out of their car, "RUN, FAT GIRL!!" I wanted to flip off the chick who yelled so badly, but she was in a car, so obviously she got away.
Come say that to my face and we'll see just how fast you can run. Grrrrr...
Wow that's so incredibly rude what she said!!!!! It makes me angry.
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spacequiztime wrote: »The family went to Cheesecake Factory to for one of the nieces birthdays and seeing the waiter hand out ice cream as the free dessert was just depressing. You'd think a place called CheeseCAKE Factory would offer up something better.
Now, that is lame.0 -
I ate a whole loaf of bread yesterday telling myself it was okay because it was whole grain bread
my binges are getting better though, my worst moment was at night a few months ago, i ate 5 croissants, a whole cake, a bag of chips, a loaf of bread and an avocado
Glad to hear they're getting better.
I think my worst binge was the day I ate around 3-4 pints of ice cream or 4-5 protein bars.
My binging is always worst around my period.0 -
confession: it drives me absolutely nuts (ie. totally jealous) when ppl whine about NOT being able to eat 1,000 calories in a day. i never say anthing out of fear of being destroyed in the forums, but it's mind boggling to me. are you living on cotton-balls soaked in vinegar? what am i missing?! tell me how to not be hungry all the time!
I'm sure a lot of those people eat way over 1,000 & don't accurately measure their portions on a food scale. With people who need to lose a larger amount I am sure they think that they need to drastically cut their portions & when it fails they binge & give up.0 -
Kind of stressing, still haven't heard about the interview and while on Indeed this evening, I noticed the job posting is active again, it's the same listing as it's said that it's saved and I've already applied, but it wasn't there for over a week and now it's back.0
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AgentOrangeJuice wrote: »Kind of stressing, still haven't heard about the interview and while on Indeed this evening, I noticed the job posting is active again, it's the same listing as it's said that it's saved and I've already applied, but it wasn't there for over a week and now it's back.
Do you think you should call them and follow up again? Sometimes you have to call a few times. I don't know the situation though. I hope you get the job! It's super stressful waiting to hear!0 -
kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »confession: it drives me absolutely nuts (ie. totally jealous) when ppl whine about NOT being able to eat 1,000 calories in a day. i never say anthing out of fear of being destroyed in the forums, but it's mind boggling to me. are you living on cotton-balls soaked in vinegar? what am i missing?! tell me how to not be hungry all the time!
I'm sure a lot of those people eat way over 1,000 & don't accurately measure their portions on a food scale. With people who need to lose a larger amount I am sure they think that they need to drastically cut their portions & when it fails they binge & give up.
I assume they either eat more than 1000 calories and just don't realize it, or that they're dumb honestly. Obvious solution is obvious: eat higher calorie foods.
But then again they could have emotional problems around food or like an eating disorder. Cause when I had an eating disorder I had probs eating over 700 calories BUT I also wasn't trying to eat more calories.0 -
I ate 10 cookies today. Over half of that were cookies in the uncooked form (but they were do delicious and good and I just want more!)0
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I have eaten an entire bag of anises today. I have gained back 17 lbs that I lost because I can't say no to cookies
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AgentOrangeJuice wrote: »Kind of stressing, still haven't heard about the interview and while on Indeed this evening, I noticed the job posting is active again, it's the same listing as it's said that it's saved and I've already applied, but it wasn't there for over a week and now it's back.
That sucks. I would follow up. It also shows interest and initiative. You said these guys like to make you work for it! Good luck! Fingers crossed.0 -
shannonbun wrote: »I went running outside for the first time today, cos y'know, I was feeling good about myself... while running through campus, someone yelled out of their car, "RUN, FAT GIRL!!" I wanted to flip off the chick who yelled so badly, but she was in a car, so obviously she got away.
Come say that to my face and we'll see just how fast you can run. Grrrrr...
She is a loser. Don't even bother. Keep running!0 -
I'm mad at my husband, and I feel bad about it, because it wasn't something he did intentionally. My good leg is down a few inches since I switched meds. My bad calf is still 22", and has only moved a half inch one way or the other. This morning I hit the 50 lbs down mark, and I'm trying to be happy about that, but realistically, if I've lost 50 lbs and my leg hasn't shrunk, that means it's actually gotten worse, and the fat loss is making it even out.
I was explaining all this to my husband, and he basically ignored all the things I'm worried about, and took it to mean time to play let's compare weight loss. I'm happy for him that he's lost more and is on the last notch on his belt, but seriously, was not the time.
I'm sorry, both of those things really suck. If the weight loss has revealed that it has gotten worse can you go to a doctor and get medication adjusted or anything?
My next appt is in June, so I'll see if she wants to then. Also hoping that maybe it will be another argument to try and get the massage treatment approved (see above post), but not getting my hopes up on that one.
I wish you all the best and good luck.
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AgentOrangeJuice wrote: »Kind of stressing, still haven't heard about the interview and while on Indeed this evening, I noticed the job posting is active again, it's the same listing as it's said that it's saved and I've already applied, but it wasn't there for over a week and now it's back.
Follow up and ask them. It may be some red tape thing where they're required to interview x number of people before they can hire, and they had no shows.0 -
BlahUnderpants wrote: »Does using spanx really help with avoiding saggy skin?
Still working in it, but we'll see!! ☺ I know when I take off the top, my belly is a lot firmer, smaller, and tighter. When I don't wear it on the weekends, the skin around my belly is much looser. I've noticed so much difference that I wear the bigger top (the old one I wore when I was 20lbs heavier) at night. I wear the bigger one when I'm sleeping because I don't want TOO MUCH constriction when I can't control my ab muscles. I keep my abs flexed all day!!
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PConfession... Whenever I buy a box of twinkies, little debbies... or those demonic tastykake chocolate bells (which thankfully for the most part I am a good shopper), I eat like 3-4 right off the bat then finish the rest of the box before the day/night is out. And I wonder to myself, who in the hell eats just one of these and says "I'm good till tomorrow" ....?!?!
Hostess cupcakes are my weakness. Haven't had any in forever.
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almondbutterbay wrote: »My first day of work went great!
I work at a restaurant that actually has some healthy choices and I get a free meal every shift so that was nice! I calculated the calories for my meal that I wanted a few days ago so it was really nice. I spent eight whole hours not constantly obsessing about food, I felt productive and feel like now I can actually reach my goals without constantly focusing on them
*high fives everyone who reads this*
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kellienw335 wrote: »Put on another pound this week. I was so confident I had lost weight this week, yesterday after going to the gym for 40min at lunch AND going for a 30min run/walk when I got home I thought I would indulge myself in a 3 scoops of Ben and Jerry's... now I wish I hadn't. I know its not entirely Mr Ben and Mr Jerry's fault, but I just kinda wish I hadn't done it now. I have now put on 2lbs in two weeks, and after a month of eating 1400 calories a day and not losing anything, I have decided to lower it down to 1200 calories. If that doesn't work I'm thoroughly confused.
1200 calories seems crazy low to me! How tall are you and how much do you weigh? And sorry if this is late to the game...I'm a couple pages behind! But aren't you doing some heavy lifting? Maybe you need more calories?
Uh, I am 5'6 and weigh 215lbs (now)
I lift but it's not heavy, just a top up because I was told your body uses muscle as a catalyst to burn fat, so you lose muscle at the same time as fat. I got advice on how heavy to lift on a deficit.
I swim Sunday, Tuesday & Thursday and I gym and run for 30 mins Monday, Wednesday & Friday (then die slowly on Saturday so I can do it all over again lol)
This made me laugh so much!0 -
shannonbun wrote: »I went running outside for the first time today, cos y'know, I was feeling good about myself... while running through campus, someone yelled out of their car, "RUN, FAT GIRL!!" I wanted to flip off the chick who yelled so badly, but she was in a car, so obviously she got away.
Come say that to my face and we'll see just how fast you can run. Grrrrr...
=/ I know I shouldn't let rude ugly people get to me. but thats one of the main reasons why I choose to workout at home. so I don't have to deal with rude mean people like that girl. I hope you see her again so you can get that chance to flip her off
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rungirl1973 wrote: »So, the first part of this week, I was at my DD's new school that she will be transferring to in the Fall. She still has 2 years left. Conservatively, this will be $25k per year out of my pocket (we don't qualify for financial aid).
Confession: I'm bitter. I think school should be free or cheap for ALL students.
Ok I'm confused... aren't there public schools in Tennessee?I am not into the whole competitive parent thing, like who's throwing the biggest birthday party for their five year old. So far I have asked my daughter, what she wants to do for her birthday. It ususally is nothing big, just a simple theme party and then have everyone jump in our tiny backyard pool. She was born in July so it's almost perfect for it. As long as she is happy with the plans, we go with it. Of course, she is considering Chuck E Cheese this year.
I'm not taking my kids to Chuck E Cheese parties anymore, let alone hosting one, lol. No thanks. My kids are February kids unfortunately so this year we didn't even have a party, I'm not spending $400 for a party anymore (plus I have twins, and they are only allowed to invite the whole class, good luck finding a place that can host up to 50 children!). Looking forward to when they have a few close friends and they can just invite them to the house...
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Confession- Last night we were helping our daughter address her graduation announcements. She was making me so crazy all I could think about was how much quieter the house will be when she leaves for college next fall.
I went through this last summer, lol, I TOTALLY understand.....my daughter is back now for the summer, it has only been five days, and so far, so good, I hope it stays like this.....0 -
ladybuggnorris wrote: »ladybuggnorris wrote: »If you are a praying person, I am asking for some right now. If not a praying person, maybe send some good vibes. My sister's sister-in-law is 30 weeks pregnant, after 5 attempts at IVF. On Sunday, she was having issues with her kidneys, so yesterday they decided to go and put in some drains. While under anesthetic, she vomited and aspirated. Due to lack of oxygen, she is now in a coma and has been placed on life support. The family was all called last night and the Dr's basically admitted they were keeping he alive as long as they can for the baby's sake, but there is little to no brain activity. Now a baby that was wished for, for so long, is likely not going to have a Mama. Miracles do happen, and we could really use one today!
@ladybuggnorris how is your sister's SIL & baby doing?
SIL has some swelling on the brain, but it is going down. She has a long road to recovery, but they think she will make it. Unfortunately, she had some blood clots in her brain and they had to give her blood thinners in order to save her life and the baby did not survive. We are all feeling very blessed, though, that the wisdom and quick thinking on the Drs' part saved the SIL's life. If they hadn't acted quickly, they would have likely lost both of them. We will all help her on the road to recovery and some day, when the time is right, they can either decide on a surrogate or adoption. One step at a time. Thank you for your continued well wishes!
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almondbutterbay wrote: »My first day of work went great!
I work at a restaurant that actually has some healthy choices and I get a free meal every shift so that was nice! I calculated the calories for my meal that I wanted a few days ago so it was really nice. I spent eight whole hours not constantly obsessing about food, I felt productive and feel like now I can actually reach my goals without constantly focusing on them
*high fives everyone who reads this*
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My confession today is that I had a hellish day at work (and that is putting it mildly), tonight I WAY over ate and binged on snacks while watching TV to relax.....
Saturday is the big fight night (SO PUMPED can't wait), and I had planned to eat pizza, wings, nachos etc, and even though I should not because of what I ate tonight....I still am
I plan on going to the bar around 5pm, pre fights start around 9 and the main event around midnight.....but I want to make sure I have a great seat.....0
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